I'm sorry! I reallyreally am! I know I promised this days ago but writer's block and life interrupted that. I know this chapter doesn't make up for that but please forgive me. :) I'll write more as quickly as possible but I won't make any more promises because it seems I don't keep them too well. You guys are amazing, btw. I can't thank you enough for all the of your reviews and alerts. As much as I hate filler chapters, this is one of them.
Chapter 29
I woke up to feather light kisses all across my face. I let out a content sigh as I opened my eyes with a smile on my face. I wanted to be woken up by him every morning, just like this.
"Good Morning." I grinned up at him stretching.
"Good Morning." He whispered back before placing his hand on my stomach and pulling my shirt up slightly. I heard him take a deep breath before looking back up at me and smiling. "You're beautiful."
I just blushed. There was no way that I looked beautiful right now. I had just woken up, my hair probably looked like a rats nest. There was nothing beautiful about me at this point in time.
"How are you feeling this morning?" He asked next when he noticed that I hadn't jumped up to go to the bathroom.
"Pretty good." I sighed looking down at his hand that was laying gently on my slight bump. "Where's Lex?" I asked him when I noticed our little girl wasn't in the bed with us.
"Well, Esme wanted to spend some time with her granddaughter plus she figured we'd want some alone time." He grinned. That sounded really good. I felt like I hadn't had much alone time with Edward in so long but really it'd only been a few days that we had been constantly surrounded by our family. I just pulled on the collar of his shirt to bring his lips up to mine. I smiled before attacking his lips. He seemed a little surprised at first but he quickly started moving his lips in sync with mine. "I love you." He pulled back again and whispered against my lips. I just giggled and whispered it back before hungrily taking his lips into mine again. I felt like I needed to be closer to him so I pulled him down more but he stopped and pulled away.
"What?" I asked when he just stared at me. He gave me a grin before laying back beside me. I groaned at the loss of contact. I hadn't wanted him to move. I just wanted him closer to me.
"If we keep doing that we'll never get out of bed today." He kept his eyes on the ceiling. I frowned.
"That was the whole point." I laughed wishing my voice sounded sexier. I realized then that Edward and I hadn't had sex since when we conceived the twins. That was too long. So, instead of saying anything else I just sat up and straddled his waist. In this position there was no way he would deny me now.
I was right, he couldn't and he didn't.
Esme still wasn't home by three so I walked down the stairs in my pajamas and rummaged through the kitchen. Edward had kept me busy most of that day that I had forgotten about eating. The babies didn't forget though. No, they reminded me. Very loudly I might add.
I bit my lip and realized there was nothing I wanted to eat. I decided to walk back up the stairs and demand for Edward to go out and buy me a cheeseburger. He refused, telling me I needed to eat something healthier.
It was possible that in that moment I threw a slight fit. I wouldn't call it bad but…Edward's face had this scared look on it.
Esme had come home during my slight fit. She had only chuckled and told Edward he should go buy me the cheeseburger I wanted or she'd get on to him too. I thanked her and asked about her day with Alexa. I was happy to home my little girl in my arms, even if she was acting strange. She was a lot or whiny then she normally was.
"Carlisle called. He's getting released at five." Esme grinned. I smiled back at her trying to calm Alexa down but at that point she was screaming and trying to get down. "So, I'm going to head up there now." She sighed. I had a feeling Alexa had been like this all day. I was about to ask Esme but she had quickly grabbed her keys and left us alone.
I reluctantly let Alexa down. She had tears streaming down her face but she had finally stopped screaming.
"I wan dada!" She wailed after a few minutes. I just widened my eyes. Alexa usually let me comfort her but now she was crying for Edward. I just bit down on my lip and tried to tell her that he'd be back soon. I started to regret sending him out for my cheeseburger but I really wanted it.
Masen had done this plenty of times when he was a baby. He screamed whenever I would leave him alone. Alice and Renee would refuse to watch him most of the time. The only person besides myself that could usually calm him was Charlie. I wasn't even sure how he managed it but I was thankful that I could at least leave him with someone. College would have been a no go if I couldn't. I took night classes so that way Charlie could watch Masen after he got off of work. I felt terrible but Charlie didn't seem to mind at all. Masen was four when I could leave him with anyone else. Charlie had seemed a little disappointed but I knew he didn't mind the nights he got to spend alone.
Alexa was toddling out of the kitchen and into the living room. I hadn't even been paying attention. I jumped up to follow her. She seemed content to be left alone so I let her do her own thing. I wanted to wipe her face but I knew that she'd probably get upset if I tried. I decided to just sit down on the couch.
I had been in such a daze watching my little girl that I hadn't even noticed that Edward had come in. Alexa's eyes widened as she ran with everything in her to her father. I smiled at Edward and told him thank you for the burger. He just nodded and tended to Alexa.
I walked into the kitchen with Edward following me.
"Esme's gone to get Carlisle." I told him after swallowing my first bite.
"Why didn't she tell me?" Edward set Alexa in her highchair but Alexa wasn't having it. She was once again screaming.
"I'm not sure." I shrugged taking my attention away from my family and back to my burger. I wasn't sure why but it tasted like Heaven in that moment. Even if it was probably the last thing I needed to be eating. I was craving and there was no way I wasn't going to finish this.
I finished my sandwich quickly not even noticing Edward and Alexa had left the kitchen. I sighed contently getting up from the table. I walked up the stairs and into the bathroom. A shower seemed just as Heavenly as that cheeseburger had tasted.
Carlisle and Esme were at the house by six. Esme sent her husband right up to bed even though he was trying to tell her felt fine and he wanted to spend some time with his family. She wouldn't have that.
She wouldn't let Edward or I make dinner either. She told me to go play with Alexa and told Edward to go keep his father company. I sighed and did as I was told. I hadn't felt like that much of a child since I was sixteen.
Alexa didn't want to play with me though. She wanted to do her own thing still. Every time I'd go near her she'd tell me no and scoot away. I wasn't sure what to think about that.
Dinner was quiet and I really wasn't sure what was going on with everyone today. They just all seemed a bit off, even Edward. Carlisle was just happy that Esme let him come down to eat dinner with us. She had made soup and salad much to Carlisle's dismay. He had wanted something else but Esme was putting him on a strict diet and whatever else he wanted wasn't on that diet.
Alexa wouldn't eat the salad but I couldn't blame her. I wouldn't have at her age either. She loved the soup though and she actually let me feed her.
"So, Bella, how's that grandson of mine?" Carlisle spoke up through the silence.
"He's doing alright." I smiled over at the old man.
"Is this the longest you've been away from him?" Esme asked me.
"It is." I sighed not wanting to think about it. It only made me feel worse for being away from him for so long. They seemed content with that answer. Esme had nodded in understanding but neither of them said anything more about it.
After dinner Carlisle was sent back up to his room, Esme had joined him reluctantly. She had insisted on washing dishes but I beat her to it.
I felt arms wrap around my waist suddenly. I smiled and leaned back into the body behind me.
"I talked to Carlisle about moving back to Forks." Edward whispered in my ear. I nodded in a way to tell him to go on. "He's rather attached to the hospital but he's agreed that Forks will be less stressful for both of them."
"Is he going to retire?"
"He is." I felt Edward's chin rest on my shoulder. I kept a smile on my face as I washed the rest of the dishes with arms around me. He had offered to help but I told him I would much rather him hold me. He had chuckled but kept his arms around me.
After the kitchen was clean we walked up to the bedroom. Alexa was fast asleep in the middle of the bed.
"She had a bad day." I sighed climbing in next to her after changing my clothes. "I've never seen her cry so much." I smoothed her hair back away from her face. She stirred a little but didn't wake up.
"I don't know what was wrong with her." Edward shrugged climbing in on the other side of her. "Esme seemed exhausted after coming back with her earlier, maybe something happened."
"I'm sure Esme would have told us." I said keeping my eyes on the beautiful little girl.
Edward's hand found mine, that's when I looked up at him.
"Is this really the longest you've been away from Masen?" He asked me. I groaned trying to take my hand back but he wasn't allowing it so I just nodded. "I'm sorry Bella."
"I just miss him. It feels weird not having him in the next room. I've never stayed away from him for more then a day." I confessed. "I talked to him last night, though. He seemed okay."
It upset me a little that he was okay with being away from me for so long. Then again I had to remember he was sixteen and he didn't need his Mom around all of the time. That made me frown and wish he was still my little boy. He wasn't though. He was a teenager now and soon he'd be going off to college. Then he'd be getting married and possibly starting a family of his own.
I shook my head trying to get rid of those thoughts. I wasn't ready to let my baby go, I'd hold on to him for as long as possible.
"I was thinking we could go back on Saturday. I wanted to spend some more time with Carlisle and Esme but if you want to go home sooner we can." Edward interrupted my thoughts.
"No, Saturday is just fine." I assured him. I smiled one last time at Edward before closing my eyes and letting sleep take over.
