I do apologize for the really slow updates, I promise I am still working on this and will not leave it unfinished. Please forgive all of my delays but I can't promise they'll get better but I can make sure I update at least once a month. Too much has been happening unforeseen events have caused my nice suspension in chaos to spiral out of control but hopefully, within the next few months, I can get it back the way it was. -J

"If you don't stop asking if I'm sure and start fucking me into this mattress soon, you're sleeping on the couch tonight." I huffed.

"I'm sorry, I just don't want you to think this is all I want." Steve apologized.

"It's not all you want, I know that," I said irritated.

"Then quit fussing and let me prep you." He said firmly.

"Forget prep, I'll be fine," I whined.

"No, I'm not going to intentionally hurt you, especially when it can be avoided." He reasoned. I whined again when his hand started moving, stroking my shaft in all the right ways. My back arched when he finally pushed a finger in. Every part of my body was over sensitive and I couldn't stop the orgasm that hit my body when he covered a nipple with his mouth. He ignored the cum covering his hand and pushed in another finger and his tongue stroked the erect skin. I grunted as his fingers brushed the one spot inside of me that felt so damn good that it almost hurt. I moaned his name as he added a third finger. He gave me a throaty chuckle, his lips moving to suck lightly on my collarbone. I rolled my hips down on his fingers wanting him to pick up the pace but all I accomplished was him moving the hand that wasn't three knuckles deep in me to my hip and adding enough pressure that I couldn't move them. I let out a frustrated groan and only received another chuckle.

"Please Steve, I need this," I begged.

"So bad that you're breaking rules?" He asked raising an eyebrow. "Or was Maria that lenient with you?"

"Neither." I said trying to wiggle my hips."

"Alright then, be still and watch your mouth," he demanded.

"Yes, sir." I murmured stopping all movement.

"Good boy." He praised.

I whined as he pulled his fingers out and started pushing himself into me. I tried to be still like he had instructed but my back arched with the pleasure of being filled. Once his hips were resting against the back of my thighs he paused pulling another whine from me.

"Please stop teasing." I pleaded.

"Look at me." I did. " Beg."

I bit my lip to keep the words "please fuck me now" from coming out like they so desperately wanted to and it took a moment for me to think about what to say. " Captain, please move. Please, I need you."

He complied thrusting his hips slowly at first, picking up force and speed as time went on. He placed one hand on my pelvis as he continued to thrust into my body. I pressed my pelvis harder against his hand enjoying the strange pressure it was causing. He gave a grunt and once again commanded me to be still. I nodded but I knew I couldn't obey and be proven right with a swat that landed on my hip and the pausing of his hips."You're having a hard time listening tonight."

"I'm sorry. I'll try harder just please for the love of god move." I whimpered.

"Just because you asked so nicely." He teased and started thrusting, the pace was fast and almost brutal but he was hitting that spot that caused my back to arch. My muscles tensed around him, back bowing off the bed and I cried out as I came. My body was a mess and Tony was going to have a great time cleaning these sheets. Steve paused for a moment allowing me to catch my breath.

"Don't fall asleep, I'm not done with you yet." He warned and I realized that he hadn't gotten off, he was still rock hard inside of me. " I'm going to move and I want you on your hands and knees."

"Yes, sir," I responded swallowing hard.

He moved away from me allowing me to turn my body, resting on my hands and knees presenting my ass to him. I grit my teeth as his hand moved from either side of my spine down to the back of my thighs.

"Do you want this?" He asked moving his tongue from my sack up to the back of my neck, appendage never leaving my body.

"Yes, Captain, I want this," I told him spreading my legs some.

"Such a good boy." He breathed shoving into me roughly and drawing a moan from my lips. His thrusts rocked my body forward but his hands on my hips kept me from actually moving from my spot. As I grew closer to the edge once more Steve slowed his movements and pulled my upper body up so my back was pressed against his chest. His hips rocked slowly and he placed lazy, heavy kisses down my neck and on my shoulder.

"I love you." He said against my skin.

I whimpered."May I move freely?"

"You may." He confirmed.

I gave a light smile leaning my head to rest on his shoulder and wrapped my arms around his head. He turned my face toward him and for a moment gray met blue sending waves of intense pleasure down my spine. He leaned in, lips meeting mine, tongues intertwining. A moan escaped both of us as we came together, feeling nothing but bliss.

"Kids? Steve, I don't know if you know this but I'm missing certain parts on my anatomy to have kids." I said turning my head toward him.

"I'm not asking if we can have kids, I'm asking if you've ever thought about it." Steve laughed.

"Yes, I have," I admitted softly.

"Did you ever want kids?" He asked.

"No, I've never wanted kids. Don't get me wrong I like kids but I would make a horrible parent." I told him.

"Why do you think that? You did great with Lukas." Steve asked honestly curious.

"For a couple of hours at most and I was babysitting. Being a full-time caregiver to children I call mine has never been in the realm of possibilities for me but I'm okay with that. I missed out on a lot of life training that would allow me to be a good parent." I said softly

"Jayson I don't think anyone is really a good parent if you try that's what counts. If you try to give your child a good life I think that's better than knowing every little problem that they might face." He placed a hand on my arm soothingly.

"Maybe. What about you?" I asked.

"I've always wanted kids but I can't picture it. I've never been able to. I think I wanted kids because I was supposed to have them just like marrying a girl that would be a good wife and mother." He explained.

"We're victims of circumstance." I laughed. "What about now?"

"I don't know, without the pressure it's become less of a priority and more of a distant fantasy." He said distantly.

"Steve if you ever want to have kids we can adopt or find a surrogate mother," I informed him.

"You don't want kids at all." He stated.

"And? If kids are going to make you happy then I'll be more than happy to help you raise a kid." I told him.

"Thank you but I'm good without kids." He laughed.

"So, that's a no on kids?" I asked.

"That's a no." He confirmed.

"It's getting late," I commented.

"Are you ready to go inside?" He asked.

"Yeah," I said standing up stretching my back groaning when it gave a series of pops.

"Sorry, I can rub your back tonight." Steve offered.

"I might take you up on that." I laughed as we walked toward the house. Once inside Steve had me take off my shirt and lay on the bed. I did as instructed and he got to work. His large warm hands moving over my back felt great, maybe just a great as the actions that morning that caused my back to be so sore in the first place. His thumbs rolling the knots out of my muscles almost made me want to argue with no more kitchen sex. I smirked at the memories of that morning and sighed at the mini-spat that followed.

"What are you thinking about?" Steve asked.

"This morning and how we should repeat it," I said giving a suggestive wiggle of my hips.

"Did you forget that's how you ended up with your back hurting all day?" He sounded unamused.

"And it was worth it," I stated.

"Jayson, nothing is worth you being in pain." He argued.

"I'm not in pain, it's a mild discomfort." I retorted.

"why can't you just let me take care of you?" He sighed.

"You do take care of me and I appreciate it but you can't protect me from everything. A bit of pain or discomfort every now and then isn't a big deal." I explained.

"I know but you shouldn't ever be in pain from something I've done." He reasoned.

"You realize that the first time we met you cut open my hip with your shield right?" I reminded.

"Yeah, I remember that." He mumbled.

"So maybe quit being so protective?" I suggested but he looked away from my brow furrowed. I rolled my eyes at him now unamused myself. I don't think he was understanding what I was saying. "You can still be my overly muscled boyfriend that will beat up all the bad guys, but your firsts can't fix a paper cut." I heard him chuckle and I grinned knowing that I got my point across.

"Fine we can repeat this morning sometime but can we try a position that not so strenuous on your back?" He was trying to compromise. I couldn't help but wonder if he had always approached things so politically.

"I can agree to that," I told him relaxing into his hands that were still working the muscles loose in my lower back. I'd never been on the receiving end of a message, I was surprised to find that it was much more relaxing than I had previously thought possible.

"Oh, um... I wanted to make sure you were okay with it first but I was wondering if I could call Nat tomorrow and have her and Maria take your clothes home." His voice wavered. "I was just thinking about it because you said you wanted to come home and if they agreed then, you know, we could go straight home." He was so cute when he started to ramble.

"Steve shut up and give her a call tomorrow." I laughed. He tried to stutter out something else but I turned my body, reached my hands out to cup his face and pulled him into a kiss. "Seriously Steve shut up." I placed my lips on his again.