Ok here is Chapter 30

Bella Pov:

Walking outside with my dad I looked into his once soft brown eyes now a shade of muddy red. His diet was already helping him lose the blood red of a newborn. He seemed to me the same old Charlie, and yet his face was slightly less weathered, and his graying temples now a solid thick, and wavy rich black. He was handsome my father, I had never noticed that before. It made me smile to think of him as anything more than my dad who would drink beer go fishing, and clean his guns. Now he was so much more and knowing he was going to be around forever made me happy.

"Is everything alight?" He asked me.

"I wanted to talk to you about something, and I want your honest opinion on how you think I should handle things." I took a step closer and grabbed his hand. "I will be getting married very soon to Carlisle. Both of our lives have changed forever, and I need to make a decision about what to do with mom.. Do I tell her the truth? Can she handle that or do we just let her believe the accident?"

"Bell's its your mother we are talking about. Can you let her think you are dead and never see her again?" Charlie asked me his brow arched.

"I have been battling that question back and forth to be honest. I hate to say this allowed but I think that we should let her think we died. She has never been very responsible and this is a big secret to keep. I don't think she could keep it from Phil and that would put her and him in constant danger. Am I wrong to feel that way?" I asked as I pulled my hands from his my heart dropping as I said the words allowed. We may not have been close or had the a-typical mother daughter relationship but she was my mother.

"We both know how Renee is, and your right she wouldn't deal with this type of news well. Still even if it took her sometime perhaps she could.." He sighed.

"I think that I had my mind made up all along, and I just needed to tell you and get your opinion. So then I guess its decided. Mom shouldn't know. Carlisle has already arranged everything for us to get into an accident on the way home from one of your fishing trips. Billy will act as a witness to the scene, and we will be covered. Now there is one more thing I need to ask you." I said feeling the weight on my overburdened shoulders.

"Shoot." He said waiting for another rock to fall.

"Well.. I was wondering if you would walk me down the isle, and give me away." I smiled as his eyes lit.

"I was beginning to think you had someone else in mind for the job. Of course I will." Charlie laughed and in a rare moment wrapped his arms around me for a tight hug before stepping back into our awkward normal way with one another.

"Well good, now dad do yourself a favor and go spend some time with Esme. Have her take you hunting I can tell you need to feed." I laughed when he grimaced as I mentioned hunting.

When he left me alone I pulled out my phone and called my mother for the last time. I wanted her to have this much. I needed her to hear my voice, and know that I loved her and always would. We talked for about twenty minutes before she had to go help Phil. I used that time to let her know I was going fishing with Charlie setting the wheels in motion I hung up the phone sadness in my heart.

To my surprise I found my cheeks damp with tears that I thought I wasn't able to shed. Wiping them slowly I turned to find Edward standing at my side. So consumed with my inner turmoil I hadn't even heard him approach.

"Edward." I half sobbed, before clearing my throat.

He was at my side before I could protest. His arms around me in comfort. As soon as he touched me I fell into those arms that I had once found such heaven in and cried out the pain of losing my mother. Cried that I was being held by him when our friendship was on such shallow gound. Cried because I wanted to be in Carlisle's arms instead. I let all my pain fall into his strong shoulder wetting it, as I let my walls fall so that I didn't have to speak instead letting Edward have his way picking through my thoughts.

His shoulders got rigid as he rushed through my mind picking his way around all the feelings I was holding inside. "Shhh, Bella its alright. You did the right thing." He soothed me as I sobbed.

I held him tighter still as he read me, and then he kissed the top of my head rubbing my back and whispering soothing words. "Shh Baby, dont cry I am here. I wont hurt you again."

Carlisle Pov:

Jacob left the house long after day had faded into night and the sun had begun to rise again. Bella had been busy with the girls for hours as they prepped and primped her for our upcoming wedding. She had left about an hour ago outside with her dad. When Charlie had come inside I heard him ask Esme to go hunting. He stopped in the kitchen to let me know that Bella was outside then left.

I waited for awhile for her to return, and when she didn't I excused myself from Alistair's company and went in search of my soon to be bride. As I stepped outside I heard muffled sobs which caused me to rush forward. When I started to turn the corner I heard another sob from Bella and then Edward as he whispered, "Shhh Babym i am here I wont hurt you again."

With a growl I took that corner at full speed and halted at the sight of my mate wrapped in my sons arms. Edwards lips buried in her hair her arms wrapped tight around him. The ease in their embrace causing the green monster of jealously to roar its angry head.

I growled as I grabbed Edward back away from her and tossed him up through the air. He landed on his feet without effort. Nimble little shit that he was.

When I saw Bella's red rimmed eyes, and her look of shame my anger grew. What had he done now? I knew that Bella would not have feelings for Edward now that she was my mate. Still the fact that she had wanted him as her own at one point caused me to forget my better judgment.

"What is going on here?" I hissed.

"Carlisle its not what you think." Bella said as she wiped her eyes dry.

"Did he upset you?" I asked her with a glare to my son.

"You know I can hear your thoughts, and it really wounds me. That you think I would move in on her when she has chosen you. She was hurting I was being a friend to her nothing more. Perhaps someday you will learn to trust me again." Edward shouted at me before looking to Bella with a slight nod in her direction he left us alone.

"Oh Carlisle, how will we ever move on from the pain between the three of us?" She asked me before continuing. "I called my mother to say good-bye. Edward was here, and acted as a friend nothing more in trying to help me feel less of a shit for what I am going to do to Renee."

"Bella I.. I am such a jealous fool. I know that you would never hurt me in that way. I just.. Well you loved him once, and seeing you in his arms brings back memories I would like to leave dead and buried." I admitted pulling her into my arms.

"Your going to have to talk to him. Even if he can read your mind, he should hear it from your lips that you don't doubt him. That you love your son." Bella pushed me forward to the door that Edward had gone through.

"I am sorry about this, and about everything your going through losing your mother."

"Later I can wait for you to hold me. Your son need you now go to him, and then come back to be my white knight." She said as she finished pushing me into the house and headed off into the living room and the crowd of my family plus two. Emmett, and Jasper still going strong in a match of something that had a mushroom racing a princess. My children were strange to say the least.

"Edward, might I have a word?" I asked of him.

He nodded and followed me into my study up the stairs. Sitting at my desk I was drawn to the last time I was in the this room with my him, and the pain that had come from that one slip up on my part and all the lies from him after.

"I know that I hurt you, actually I hurt us all with my actions. I don't expect that you will just forget and forgive. I do however hope that what you were thinking outside was just the instinct of a mated male and not your true thoughts of me. You know me good enough that you wound me doubting my honor." Edward said as he stood before me his shoulders back, his chin up.

"I am sorry. Your right it was wrong of me to think that you would still go after Bella. Or that you had done something to make her cry. As for what happened before, I have forgiven you. It will just take longer to forget, and as such you will hear that in my thoughts from time to time. All I can say is try to stay out of my thoughts, and I will try not to think pn things best left in the past. I love you my son, and I want you to know that things between us are going to be fine. We all make mistakes its how you live up to them and learn from them that makes the man. And a fine man you are going to be someday son." I stood holding my hand out to him.

When he shook it the great weight that separated us lifted. My words rang true to us both, we would be fine.

Yawn and ZzZ I am sooooo tired… Hope you like the chapter please review for me, and let me know.. Love you all as always Tisa..