Day 36.
"You can love someone so much… But you can never love someone as much as you miss them."
I'm not allowed to leave the apartment till I gain weight. They want to see me get healthy, before they see me do anything else. I think they've all realized that I'm really not handling this as well as I should be.
The girls keep telling me how sorry they are, Chloe. They think they didn't pay enough attention to my state the previous month. I told them I get it, that they had to grieve for themselves too. In truth, it has nothing to do with them, and all to do with me.
If only I had noticed what you were so desperately trying to tell me, you would still be here. Had I paid attention, you would still be here. It's as blunt as that.
I didn't hear you, Chloe. I'm so sorry.
