A/N: Wow. Some of you are just dying to know where Edward was, eh? It'll all come out in due time. Yes, I know, I'm such a shit for keeping you in the dark, but as much of me dying to tell you what happened in that time of Edward's disappearance, it's not gonna happen in this chapter. Maybe a clue.. We'll see. *wink*
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Chapter 29: Perfect Moments
Friday, just after midnight…
APOV
The tightness in my stomach from Bella feeling so hurt and miserable and Edward's absence vanished after he arrived home with my precious car. Bella and I had a short conversation about what had happened and I'm was happy that she was able to come to me, even in the turmoil she was in. She was brave, even when she was broken.
When Edward arrived home, I interrogated and berated him of his irresponsibilities, giving him my full wrath of why he didn't inform us he would be gone for over three fucking hours! Then, for not bringing his stupid damn cell phone with him, after Bella and I had called repeatedly wonderinfg if he was ok. He was a shit! Stupid brother.
He wanted to explain himself and tell me everything, but I thought that speaking with Bella was priority. I wasn't his girlfriend, for fuck's sake, I was his sister. He didn't need to explain anything to me, I just know that he needed to get his ass in there and apologize for the rest of his life of what he's done.
Edward was as stubborn as me, a Cullen trait we inherited from our mother, Esme. Carlisle, our father, was more of a gentle soul. Kind, considerate, and unconditionally loving. Neither both Edward and I had any genes of receiving his blonde hair, but we had his caring heart passed down to us. Still, my mother had an affectionate side to her too, the reason why my parents marriage was still extremely strong. Even though there was difference, there were similarities. They showered their affection towards us and we were able to give it to others, as they had done to us.
Like I said, Edward was stubborn, and he insisted that I needed to know why he left in such haste and why he was gone for so long. He told me his story, while I sat there, irritated as fuck. At first, I resisted, trying not to let anything he told me sink in. Then when his explanation ended, I had tears in my eyes, crushing my brother with my skinny arms.
"Geez, Alice. Ow?" he complained.
"Edward! I can't believe this! Oh my God! Go to her right now! Don't waste any time with me, you need to be with her," I tried to keep my voice down, knowing full well that Bella was passed out in her room.
"Please keep this to yourself, Alice. Don't ruin it, okay?" Edward pleaded with sincerity in his voice.
"I promise," I crossed my heart with my fingers and smiled widely.
"Thank you," Edward hugged me, kissing the crown of my head.
"You're welcome. Now go. I'm going to Jasper's. I won't be home till tomorrow morning, maybe afternoon," I said with a smirk.
Edward groaned and I couldn't help but giggle at his reaction. I had to get him back in some way for worrying Bella and I.
"I don't wanna know! Just get the hell outta here, Alice," Edward ruffled my hair. He's lucky I didn't kill him for that.
"I'm not gonna get on you for that, big brother, it's just gonna get messed up anyway," I finished.
"Sh! Don't wanna know. I'm going to see Bella now," Edward covered my mouth as he spoke. He didn't want to hear anymore. I couldn't help but smirk. He raised his eyebrows, then turned on his heel, heading towards Bella's room. "See ya tomorrow, shorty," Edward bade me.
"Tomorrow, grumpy-ass."
Edward turned around to flip me off and I blew him a kiss as I closed the front door behind me.
***
My head was full of thoughts of Jasper as I drove towards his apartment. It would be hours till Jasper was off of work, but I felt the need to get out of the house, to give Bella and Edward privacy. Now that I'd done my duty as best friend, I didn't feel like sticking around. I had faith in them that they would work out their own problems. I felt it in my bones.
Maybe I should go get something to eat instead of heading straight to Jasper's. It was way passed dinnertime and I haven't eaten a single thing yet. I been too worried over my stupid brother. I'd need the energy.
I ended up at Panera Bread, ordering a sweet tea and a sandwich and salad. Might as well eat here, there was no where else to go. I wasn't used to eating by myself, I usually had Rosalie or Bella with me. The other times, I'd go through the drive through. I just hated being alone.
You're not alone anymore.
Conscience spoke up as I took a bite of my Turkey Artichoke Panini. She was right, I'm not alone anymore, in a different sense, I had Jasper. I almost squealed with my mouth full of food, but instead I smiled like a fool to myself. I ate the rest of my food in happy silence.
I people-watched, sitting alone. What else was there to do while you ate? Viewing an older couple, eating their soup and salad, I adored the loving couple as they smiled at each other in moments of silence. They shared their food and were so comfortable with each other, sitting closely. I wanted that, to grow old with someone, who would look at me the same way as when they first met, but the other knowing that their love was absolute. There was no questions or doubts, just contentment.
Could I see Jasper as the other person? Could I live throughout my life without him? I wasn't sure. Now that I think about it, it was so odd how he's changed my life so profoundly in such a short amount of time. No one affected me in a way his presence did. His absence affected me also. How was I able to be with or without him? Is this what love is like?
Now I didn't have the appetite to eat anymore. I guess it was a good thing that I ate most of my sandwich. I dumped it on my circular tray, thinking what a waste that I'd just toss it in the trashbin like this. I sighed frustrated and eyed the elder loving couple one more time before heading the trashcan.
I miss Jasper. It hasn't been that long, but God, I couldn't wait to see his face again. I could look into his blue eyes all day and listen to him speak to me for the rest of my life. He melted me like butter and that's when he's not touching me.
I'd have to read into my emotions and thoughts more at a later time. This was baffling me, since I've never been in love before. Jasper was…geez…he was something different. I only know of what I've seen in movies and they made it look so easy. In real life, being in love was hard and heartbreaking. For instance, Bella was a perfect case. She's hidden her feelings for Edward for so long. I had no idea how long, but it was long enough.
But what about those moments when everything felt perfect? Had I experienced them and not know it? I'd have to pay more attention next time and look for it.
I got into my car, trying to push those thoughts away. I hated being by myself! All these random thoughts always disturbed me. Only the ones about Jasper were not disturbing, but it was disturbing to not be with him.
It was dark outside, no more twilight, just the moon, the stars, and me. What to do, what to do. I took my time situating myself in the car. I always had a plan! Now I was frustrated, unknown of what I would do for the next couple hours.
Shopping Alice.
Yes! Good idea, Conscience.
I left the parking lot with my new plan and smiled happily, heading to my favorite store in Pelham. Maybe I would purchase something just for Jasper.
Hmm. Good idea.
***
With my newly bought gift hugging my curves, I waited in the parking lot, right in front of Jasper's apartment. I've been here for about 30 minutes and I waited patiently for him. I wouldn't be patient when I would see him. Jasper wouldn't be able to either, after I reveal his present underneath my clothing.
Our short conversation over the phone, while he was at work, worked me up. He was irritated with Edward and it turned me on. The fact that he wanted to see me and it was Edward preventing from him seeing me, he was irked.
I heard the familiar rumbling of his motorcyle in a distance and I felt my heart jump. I turned my head to see him enter the parking lot and I stared at the perfectness of Jasper. He noticed my car and eyes it like a familiar friend, smiling at me through the window. He unmounts the bike and I'm already out of my car, launching myself towards him. I pause for a moment, patiently waiting for Jasper to take his helmet off, then I go straight for his lips. We meet halfway, colliding beautifully with each other, as our lips crash. I know he is feeling the sexual tension between us, pulling me tighter to him as we kiss, I can't help but melt when I felt his erection in his pants.
"I know it's only been a short amount of time, but I missed you like crazy," Jasper tells me.
His words what spur me to kiss him again. It's true, though. I'm not going to deny it.
"Me too."
"How's Bella?" he asks me. Why isn't he taking me inside yet? I'm done being patient! It's time to go.
He's just concerned about Bella. I know he feels guilty for starting this fight between them. It's just natural to know the status of Bella and Edward when you been worrying over them.
"She's doing alright, better than before. But Edward's home, I wanted to give them some privacy," I told the truth.
"Good, because they're going to be alone for awhile," Jasper gives me this smile that makes my heart leap. I feel an aching inbetween myself. Fuck, Jasper. Let's go, please. I'm so turned on.
"Really?"
Jasper nods at me, adoringly placing a kiss on my nose. He's sexy and adorable at the same time. Is that possible? Then when I look up at him, smiling down on me.
Oh my God.
My earlier thoughts of perfect moments rises from my mind. This is it. And all Jasper is doing is smiling at me. Then, I realize that this is what I want to see for the rest of my life. Jasper's smile morning, noon, and night. When he comes home from work, placing kisses on my nose, affirming his want to see me all the time.
Nothing is said as he takes my hand. I lace them together. Another small action, really, but it sends an overwhelming warmth into my heart.
This is it, isn't it?
Yes Alice. This is. This is love.
We reach his front door and he unlocks it. I remember the last time I was here. Bad memories flashed through my mind. When the door swung open, Jasper's scent dominating his apartment surrounded me, erasing the bad memories. My eyes roamed all over his things and I let it meet his scrutinizing eyes.
"What's wrong, darlin?" Jasper asks me, a little concerned.
"The last time I was here, it was when, ya know," I couldn't finish. The guilt stung as I tried not to remember what I did.
"This time we'll make good memories that you won't be able to not not think about them," Jasper's smile was devilish. The aching inside me returned and I pulled his shirt to meet my lips again.
He kissed me deeply, combing our lips and tongue to dance with mine in this most erotic dance. His tongue was so soft and gentle, but it was so also hot and urgent at the same time. That melting feeling came back and I had to put my arms around his neck to prevent myself from crumbling to the floor.
Jasper whispered my name and I lost it. My knees gave out and he felt the jerk of my arms tugging at his neck.
Fuck me.
"Alice? Are you ok?"
"Oh my God, Jasper. I think I'm in love you," my eyes were wide with awe.
Jasper mirrored my expression after I told him my revelation. I felt dizzy and I needed to sit down. I sat on his couch and my eyes closed. This was the couch that we first had sex, wonderful, amazing, mind blowing, earth moving, heart exploding… I can't explain how fucking wonderful it was.
With my eyes closed I spoke on his name, "Jasper."
I could feel the weight of the couch seat next to me give way, noting that Jasper was sitting next to me. A few seconds later, I could smell his scent as he sat still, waiting for me to continue. How come he hasn't said anything yet? I was a little afraid to open my eyes and see the expression on his face.
***
JPOV
I've died and gone to heaven. I was in a motorcyle accident and died, on the way home from work, right? Because this angel next to me just told me she think she's in love with me.
I felt numb. I felt beside myself. Then I knew that I wasn't in heaven when she said my name. This was reality. This was real. God, this was real.
Alice looked torn, though. Was it hard for her to admit that she was in love with me? She sat on my couch, as I took my place next to her, to give her a chance to gather her thoughts together. I didn't say anything. I don't know if it was a good idea if I did or not, so I decided to just keep silent.
Finally she opened her eyes to me, watching me study her and waiting for her to come back to me. She opened her mouth to say something and left it open. Nothing came out until almost a minute later.
"I never sat and thought to what was happening to me since I've met you," Alice started. "All things feelings and emotions and things I've never felt so strong before. Of course, I felt them, but it was never this," she paused to look at my coffee table, "dramatic. I've never been in love. Have you?" she looked at me, waiting for my response.
"No," that's all I give her.
"Before I got here, I saw a couple, married well over thirty years," her eyes were randomly somewhere else again, but she smiled speaking about the couple, "and I envied what they had after so many years. They looked so comfortable, so affectionate, so loving. You don't see that often these days," her voice went soft. "I want that and I want it with you." She was silent for a moment before she returned to speaking a little louder again, "Jasper, I realized that I have these perfect moments where nothing matters except you and I didn't know I had them till now."
She spoke with her hands, emphasizing in her point. What she told me almost took my breath away. I smiled at her, running my fingerips across her cheek, crossing the inches between us to place a soft kiss on her lips.
"Wait Jasper," I pull back, rather surprised she stopped me from going any further, "I just realized that was why I ran away."
"Ran away? From what?" curiously I asked.
"From you, from that one absolutely perfect night. Oh my God, I don't think I am, I know I'm in love with you. Why didn't I see it before? I can usually see things coming, but I ran away because I was falling in love with you then," her eyes were wide with surprise.
"You were afraid because you've never had those feelings I evoked in you, so you ran from it," I told her. I know where this was going.
"I'm sorry," she mouthed, her eyes becoming watery, then very slowly, tears began to spill down her cheeks.
I wiped them away with my hand and she placed her hand upon mine.
"Don't cry, darlin, you're here now. With me and that's all that matters," I told her, trying to soothe her.
She smiled.
"I'm not crying because I feel guilty, I'm crying because I'm happy. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me," she told me. "I love you, Jasper."
Now my fingers that wiped her tears, made my way to her neck to pull her hard against my lips. Alice telling me she loved me was the most incredible thing I could hear from her. Instantly I was aroused and I wanted to make love to this woman that was meant for me.
Maybe she was right, maybe it was fate. We were meant to be, forces of nature, throughout everything that we've been through, was working its power on us.
"I love you, Alice," I whispered into her mouth.
This drove her to become more forceful and she pushed me against the back of the couch, straddling my lap, kissing me harder.
"Say it again," she told me.
"I love you, Alice Cullen."
"I love you, Jasper Whitlock."
"Perfect. Another perfect moment to put on the list," Alice said with a smile.
"Most definitely," I pushed her upwards, picking her up to straddle my body as I carried her to my bedroom, "let's make some more perfect moments, darlin."
Alice sighed, "I'll never get enough of you calling me that."
I chuckled and closed my bedroom door to enclose us into a place where nothing else would matter except the woman I love and I.
We continued slow sensual kisses while I walked us both to my bed. I turned, the back of my thighs bumping against the mattress, and I sat down with Alice still on top of me. Now her neck was easier to access and I directed my lips down her jaw, to her neck, then her collarbone. She cocked her head back to let me explore more of her, her breathing becoming heavy and loud. She whispered my name and I fisted my fingers to wrinkle her shirt at her back.
Alice's hands were combing through my hair, sending a chill down my spine as it tickled at the nape of my neck when she moved her fingers over it. Our bodies were flushed against each other and I could feel her chest heaving up and down with her breathing. I know that my heart was racing from the mere presence of her.
I was planning this night to be full of sex, make up for the hours and hours of missing her, but I didn't want to have just sex with Alice. I wanted to make love to her, for the rest of her life. I didn't want to rush into it, like we usually did, I wanted to take my time. It might seem torturous for both of us, but it would well be worth it. It would be the "perfect moment" that Alice called it.
We halted in the kisses to gaze into each other's eyes. It was a moving, touching moment. We didn't have to be kissing or making love or speak. It was comfortable to just be with each other. Her eyes were a beautiful silver shade when I looked into them. I watched as her pupils dilated, looking at me. I could see my reflection in her eyes and I remembered what made them dilate. It was me. I couldn't help but smile and I also wondered if my eyes did the same when she looked into them.
She picked my hand up, then the other, and laced them together, making us connected with touches of our hands. We went back to deep passionate kisses, our hands still laced. It didn't last long for our fingers to loosen and pull each other closer.
I twirled her around to be lying underneath me on the bed. I started to unbutton her shirt and let the tip of my fingers delve to touch her skin as I unbuttoned every one of them. She whimpered when I undid the last button and let it fall to tickle her skin as it fell off her body. I pulled away, helping her up, so she could shimmy out of them. She giggled and I kissed her smiling lips, just to have her laying down again.
She wore knee high length pants, I think they called them capris, and I unbuttoned, unzipped, and peeled it off her. She wore no socks, but slippers, and I took them off too. I kissed my way up her leg, brushing my lips like it would be my tongue. Her skin was soft under my touch and I could feel myself getting harder. She tried to grab for me, but I halted her, telling her I wanted to take my time. We had all night and all morning and all her life. She laid back again, watching me intently.
"Perfect," I kissed her hip bone that protruded slightly, "perfect," next her navel, "perfect," then her ribcage, "perfect," then the valley between her breasts.
She left whimpering moans with every kiss and my lips seared with the temperature of her body.
"You are so beautiful, Alice," I told her, my voice soft.
"You make me feel beautiful," Alice told me.
I kissed her once again, just stilling myself before moving my lips against hers. Alice was my brand of candy. Sweet, rich, delicious, succulent, heavenly. I pulled away again, to take my shirt off, then pushed myself down to her again. Our skin was hot, but felt excruciatingly wonderful. I ground my pelvis against her and she moaned into my mouth.
"Please Jasper, take it off," she tugged at my belt loop of my khakis.
I knelt to unbutton my pants and Alice pushed my hands away gently, sitting up and looking up at me the whole time. She did it quickly with a graceful smooth move and they were thrown to the floor where the rest of our clothes were getting accustomed to living. It seemed that everytime we ended up at my apartment, our clothes were on the floor.
I took this moment to take the rest of her clothes off, starting with her bra which clasped in the front. Her breasts sprang free from the cups and I held them in my hands, kneading them gently.
"Jasper," Alice whispered, closing her eyes at my touch.
She placed her hands over mine and urged me to go lower to remove the one fabric that was still adorned on her body. I slowly let fingertips brush with pressure against her skin, leaving her shuddering, then as quickly as my hands moved down her body, her panties were off as quickly. She raised her legs to help me and let her feet touch against my chest. I donned off my boxers, put on a condom quickly, then grabbed both her ankles to wrap around my hips.
Before I could enter her, I cupped her face, kissing her with deepness that came from within my heart and soul. I placed my hands beside her face to balance myself and she took the natural position of putting her hands around my neck. Still kissing, I slipped inside her, both of us groaning in unison. It was like the first time, but in a sense, it was. This was the first time we would make love.
I stilled myself to savor the feeling of Alice around me. I felt my breath was choking me when I couldn't take in a full breath of air, it was that amazing. Finally I slowly pulled out and inhaled a deep breath of air. I drove myself inside her again and she gasped. The pace started to pick up at a moderate speed, I didn't want to go too fast. Not yet.
Our bodies began to perspire from the heat of our bodies and Alice's voice was sweet sin in the enclosed bedroom. She voiced my name too many times to count as I made sweet love to her and I couldn't help but respond with her name against my lips. She wouldn't close her eyes, she kept them locked with mine. Soon, her lips parted to a bigger "O" as her orgasm was about to hit. That spurred me to go faster, making her practically screaming and panting. Soon, she arched her back into me, grunting loudly with her orgasm, squeezing me like a vice. I suckled her neck, tasting Alice and salty tinge of sweat mixed together. I never seen her cum like that before and it had mine coming so much closer. Her nails raked down my arm and I gritted my teeth at the sting, but pleasure of it also.
"Jasper, I love you."
That was it. That was the perfect moment I was waiting for. For her to tell me she loved me while I made love to her. I drove into her with a force repeatedly, which to only have another orgasm for Alice to arrive. She grunted again as she did the first time and my body was beginning to wash over with pleasure as I drained myself. I groaned Alice's name as I rocked our bodies with my forceful shoves.
When our breathing was the only thing that could be heard, instead of loud moans, I collapsed on top of her, resting my forehead against hers. Her hot breath was fanning against my damp skin, cooling it.
"I love you too," I responded, smiling that I could not answer when she stated that she loved me.
We both chuckled, holding each other tightly. I moved to lay beside her, still breathing heavily, my heart still pacing at a quick rate. I kissed her shoulder and gazed at her panting profile. Her lips were parted and her eyes were closed, some stray hairs sticking to the side of her face and forehead.
"Wow," I said, with a content smile on my face.
"Fuckin A, Jasper. That was fucking amazing," Alice said.
I couldn't help but chuckle at her. She was the one that was amazing.
"Damn incredible," I responded.
"So this is what it's like? Holy shit," Alice said.
"This is as new to me as it is to you, darlin," I got up to lean on my elbow, looking down at her pretty face.
She turned her head to look at me. Her hand went to my face, rubbing her thumb against my lips. Then she kissed me.
"Fate," that's all she said after she pulled away.
"I'm not gonna argue about that anymore, because I believe it was her that brought you to me," I said.
I smiled and she mirrored my expression. I pulled her close so that we were holding each other. Soon, she was asleep, our bodies wrapped around each other. I looked down at her peaceful face, kissing her forehead, while she slept. She "mm-ed" in her sleep and stirred just a little.
"Perfect," I whispered in the dark room.
A/N: Ok! Ok!! So I lied about the clue of Edward's disappearance. I'm sorry! Don't hate me. I hope this chapter made up for it though. Let me know!
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