Two days later Carla was getting stronger and stronger. She was now up and able to walk round the hospital room, even if it did hurt to do so; slowly but surely.

"So when are you getting out of here?" Michelle asks reading the cards Carla has been sent.

"Tomorrow they think." Carla replies quietly.

"And why don't you seem too happy about that then babe?"

"I just don't want to be far away from Emilia" She looks down.

"She won't be alone, she has nurses with her."

"But when I'm in here I can simply go and see her but at home it is a whole different story."

"Look nick will be bringing you in all of the time Carla, it's his daughter too. I'm sure he doesn't like leaving her but it's just one of those things sweetheart you need to do. And you can be with Hayley when you're not with Emilia can't you?" Michelle reassures her.

"Yeah suppose you're right."

"How's the name Emilia working out for you then?" She questions contently.

"Yeah it just suits her you know? Have you seen her?"

"I've seen photographs but not in person."

"I bet it felt absolutely wonderful holding her again." Michelle adds.

"It was so special...until I had a complete meltdown."

"Yeah nick said. He's worried about you Car."

"Well he shouldn't be. He calls me a drama queen. Hypocrite." Carla snaps.

"I wasn't having ago Carla but if you're feeling bad you really have to talk about it."

"I know. I will." She smiles weakly.

"Anyway I have to go, I'm already 30 minutes late for the bistro. Take care of yourself darling" she kisses her just as nick and Hayley whose on his hip walk in.

"Oh hi." Carla says. "Hello gorgeous one. Are you coming to mummy?"

"Mummy" She smiles sweetly as nick places her on the bed.

"Anyway seeya." Michelle pipes up.

"Oh don't leave on my account." Nick frowns.

"Nah I was just leaving." She smiles.

nick and Hayley were now talking to Carla who was sat up in bed crossed legs as nicks phone goes off.

"Sorry babe, It's about the repair in the bistro. I'll be 10 minutes" he says leaving the room.

"So Hales, are you excited to have mummy back home tomorrow?"

"Reallyyyy excited" She shouts.

"Well you're very hyper today aren't you baby?" Carla chuckles slightly watching her daughter run round the room. "Hayley calm down."

"No!" Hayley replies playfully.

"Stop running about, play with your toys then"

"Make me!"

"Hayley stop acting so spoilt. Do what I say!" Carla snaps.

As Hayley carries on running around the room with her toy ponies in her hand, Carla looses it.

"HAYLEY JUST STAY STILL!" Carla yells, immediately making the 3 year old cry.

"Oh...oh baby...mummy didn't mean it" she adds getting teary herself.

"What the hell was that?" Nick asks hearing shouting from outside the room. "What's the matter Hales?" He carries her.

"Mummy shouting" the little girl cries into his shoulder.

"I didn't mean to!" Carla tries to justify herself.

"I'm just gonna take her out to calm her down" nick tells her gently, knowing how much this will break Carla heart.

"I love you sweetie" Carla shouts to her daughter.

When the door closes, she silently brings her hand to her mouth, sobbing at the thought of how much this accident has defined her.

How much she now despised herself.

The next day...

"Right you ready to go?" Nick asks Carla who is sat on the bed lost in thought.

"Carla?"

"Oh...sorry I was miles away"

"Anything on your mind"

"I don't want to leave Emilia on her own" Carla says quietly.

"She won't be alone; they'll be nurses looking after her." Her reassures her.

"Yeah but when I'm in hospital, I can just pop in to her whenever. I spent every day by her side and now I'm gonna be so far from her nick. She's only little."

"We're still going to visit her, the nurses said she'll be able to come home next week if she carries on like this"

"And don't you want to see your family? And Hayley?" He adds.

"I still feel really bad for shouting at Hayley like that" she trails off.

"She'll understand. Come on beautiful" he takes her hand as they go out the hospital.

"Right you just lay down and relax, I'll get you a glass of water" he tells her as she slowly lays down on the sofa in their home. "Does it feel good to be out?"

"Yeah" Carla murmurs.

"Hales is having a nap" he says to which she nods.

Knock. Knock. Knock

"Ugh who the hell is that?" Nick groans.

"Oh hi Aidan" he says opening the door.

"Is it a bad time?" He frowns.

"No course not come in. Carlas on the sofa" nick smiles.

"Hey sis" he greets Carla by kissing her forehead and sitting on the chair opposite to the sofa.

"Hi" she mutters tiredly.

"It's so good to see you out of the hospital room" he smiles.

"Mm"

"How's Emilia?" Aidan questions awkwardly noticing Carlas distant mood.

"I don't know. She's not with me"

"Car I need to go out. Meeting" nick comes out of the kitchen. "Aidan do you mind looking after her?"

"I'm not 5!" Carla snaps.

"Yeah it's fine" Aidan replies.

"I know you're not car but you've just got out of hospital. I'll see you in a bit"

"All he seems to do is sort out the bistro. Forget his fmaily who were all nearly killed in there" Carla grunts as nick leaves.

"Oh come on Carla you know that's not true. When you were in a coma I've never seen nick be so frantic with worry. He loves you."

"Pff funny way of showing it" she mumbles.

"What's up Carla? You're one of the lucky ones. Your baby has survived and you've got no lasting damage-..."

"No lasting damage? Aidan, at my three year old daughters birthday party a roof fell on me. I can't remember lots of things; my daughter hates me! My other daughter I had to give birth to early...she nearly died! My relationship is in tatters. Nothing is the same anymore?" Carla interrupts.

"Carla I think you need to speak to someone." Aidan says.

"What? Like who? Norris? Rita?" She snaps.

"Just speak to nick about it...okay?" He pulls her into a hug as she breaks down; strong sobs escaping her lips. "Come on, let it out"

"Hiya. Where is she?" Nick greets Aidan whose sat on the sofa alone.

"Oh she went upstairs for a sleep. She's knackered." Aidan responded.

"I'm not surprised. The medication and obviously the accident has really took its toll."

"Look nick; I don't want you thinking I'm sticking my nose in but...don't you reckon you should take Carla to see a doctor?" He stutters.

"She just left hospital? What do you mean?" Nick frowns.

"Maybe get her a counseller or something. She isn't the same Carla that she was before, something's seriously wrong. I'm worried."

"You think she's got some kind of problem? I did think it but I didn't really look into it because I thought it might of been just the shock of everything." Nick sits down, putting his head in his hands.

"I don't want to intrude but...she was having a breakdown to me earlier on. A proper heart wrenching cry and all. I don't want her to do anything stupid..."

"Yeah yeah I'll see what I can do. Thanks Aidan." He weakly smiles.

"No problem mate. If you need anything, I'm just a phone call away alright?" Aidan replies standing up and gathering his things before leaving.