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Chapter 29
Edward's POV
I didn't know where I was going to go. Driving around wasn't helping either. I just needed to clear my head. I was tired of the same argument over and over again. I gave up everything to be here with my family. I keep trying to help her but she just keeps pushing me away. How can Bella not see that I'm completely in love with her. Everything I do is for her and Orion. I need to see my son.
I don't know how long I sat in the driveway staring at Charlie's house. I shouldn't be here. This is Bella's family. I should just go to a hotel. A knock on my window breaks me out of my musings. I roll down my window and come face to face with Bella's father.
"It's cold out here. You want to come in?" He states glancing at me.
"I'm going to go to a hotel."
"Why would you do that?"
"Didn't Bella call you?" I question, waiting for him to finally tell me what she said to him.
"I haven't talked to Bella since last night. What's going on? Was it bad news?"
"No, it was great news but Bella is still pushing me away."
"She turned you down?"
"She didn't even give me a chance to ask. She got upset over something stupid and accused me of wanting to leave again." I remark, as frustration started to rise in my chest again. I still couldn't believe she got mad at me for buying condoms.
"Come inside and I'll get you a cup of coffee."
"I shouldn't. You're Bella's family."
"Boy, get your ex Hollywood ass in the house. You're family too. I know Bella's been acting off lately. We've all seen it."
I follow him into the house where we talk for a couple hours before I realize I can't hide anymore. I kiss my son goodnight and head home.
I park in the driveway so the garage door won't wake Bella and so she can't leave for work without talking to me. I make up my mind to sleep in the spare room tonight and give Bella some space tonight. She's going to need it for tomorrow. When I come in the house I see the groceries put away and Bella curled up on the couch sleeping. I don't want to disturb her so I make my way into the spare room..
I tossed and turned almost all night before falling asleep just before the sun came up. Waking up to the smell of breakfast almost made me forget what I needed to do. I walk into the kitchen to confront Bella only to encounter a covered plate. I check the garage and her car is still here but mine is gone. I'm about to call Charlie when I hear the front door.
"You're awake. I just ran out to get milk. You forgot it last night."
"Bella..." I state, turning around to look at her.
"No, let me talk. Last night and every other night since we got home I've been irrational. I know all you've been trying to do is help. After we got home we never talked about what was next. That's my fault as well as yours. I thought if the doctor said I couldn't have any more kids you'd leave because you needed to experience someone carrying your child."
I just stare at her while she takes a few deep breathes.
"You didn't need that. I know but I felt like I'd be damaged goods. I love you and I know you love me no matter what. I want a fresh start with you but as the Bella you fell in love not this crazy paranoid person I've become. I'm going to start seeing Dr. Alistair a few times a week and work on my issues. I want us to be a family. I want your name on Orion's birth certificate and I'm going to change his last name."
I see her eyes start filling with tears. I had to fight down the urge to run to her and pull her into my embrace. My heart was soaring to hear her say all of this and for her deciding to see Dr. Alistair.
"I should have done it a long time ago. I'm always saying we need to move slow because I was afraid of you hurting me again but I realize I've been hurting you too."
She takes a few steps forward.
"I don't want us to hurt anymore. I want you in my life not just as my live-in boyfriend and the father of my child but as my husband again. So, will you marry me again?"
"Bella, last night made me realize that we both need to work on ourselves. Whether that's together or apart. We aren't just hurting each other but our son too. We need to talk to each other and work through our problems not run away or withdraw. What was last night even about?" I remark searching her eyes to see if she was okay.
"I thought you knew I wanted more kids but then you bring home condoms. It made me feel like you didn't want a family with me."
"That's it? I bought them because ever since the first night we made love we've been reckless. I don't regret getting you pregnant either time but we never really talked about the future. Yes, I want more kids with you but I didn't want to assume you were ready now. We need to talk about having more kids not just having sex and accidentally getting pregnant for a third time." I replied searching her face.
I see the tears start falling, "I'm sorry."
"I'm going to start seeing a therapist too. I need to talk to someone about everything." I whispered as she wipes the tears that were streaking her face.
"So, is that no?"
"It's not a no. It's a we need to work on ourselves before we try working on our issues. Nothing is going to change but we just aren't ready to get married again."
"You were going to ask me tonight."
"Yes, but last night has open my eyes to some things. You aren't the only one who lost a child. Shit, baby do you not realize I almost lost you too. I'm hurting just as much as you. You need to realize you aren't alone in all of this. When you start to see that, I'll marry you."
"I'm going to do anything I can to get back to the Bella you fell in love with."
"It's not about you being that woman anymore. I love the person you were before the premiere. We both changed after Orion was born. I love the fierceness you have when it comes to him. I just want happy Bella back."
"I'm working on it."
"Good. I've been starting to miss her." I remark as I close the space between us.
Bella gives me a weak smile before I take her into my arms. She'll never know how much I truly love her. I wanted to marry her again more than anything but I want it to last this time. If I said yes tonight I know it wouldn't have been good for either of us. We both had amazing childhoods and incredible parents. I want that for our son but until we both get help we can't provide that.
….
Everything started too look up after a few weeks had passed. Not only was Bella seeing Dr. Alistair three nights a week, I too was going to a therapist and it was a tremendous help. Bella went as far as cutting back her work hours and life appeared to be returning to normal. That was, until Bella and I received summons to show up at Tanya's trial.
Bella finished reading the document before turning to me, "Edward, we can't not go. It's a legal court ordered summons."
"Bella, I refuse to testify for her. She's just trying to make our life harder." I couldn't believe that yet again, just as I was finding normalcy in our lives Tanya makes another appearance.
"Just go and testify. Anything you say will be the truth so it can't help her." Bella remarks dropping the paperwork on the kitchen counter.
"I feel like I would be testifying against you. I can't do that."
"The district attorney will get a chance to cross examine you and it'll be fine. We just need to be a united front."
"I don't want you back in Los Angeles. I almost lost you there."
Bella looks me in the eye and pushes me onto the couch, "You listen to me Edward Cullen. You are never going to lose me again. If it makes you feel better you can hire a bodyguard for me while we are there. The trip doesn't have to be all the trial either."
"What do you have up your sleeve?" I remark eying her.
"We'll be in a hotel room anyway so why not make the most of it? We can get the honeymoon suite preferably with a hot tub. Order some champagne and light some candles. Reconnect on a more intimate level."
"Baby, that sounds amazing but I don't want our next time being clouded by anything to do with Tanya."
"I won't be thinking about her and I'm sure I can keep your mind off her."
"My mind is never on the silicone bitch and you know it."
She kisses me and smiles, "I know. You only have eyes for me. That's one of the reasons I love you."
"What are some of the others?"
"I'm not inflating your ego."
I grab her tickling her sides as she struggles to get free. She giggles as she squirms in my arms.
"Edward stop! Please. I can't breathe!"
"Say sorry first."
"Sorry. Sorry. Now stop."
I stop to watching her regain her breath. She really is beautiful. From her plump pink lips and scattered freckles to her soft thighs.
"You're beautiful."
She blushes the perfect shade of red.
"I love you."
"I love you too now go make reservations for our trip. Oh, and make sure my bodyguard is cute."
I throw a pillow at her retreating form. I'll never get tired of that woman or her wit.
