Chapter 29

"I can't believe this."

"What?"

"How does Tom not want us to happen?! He's my brother! I deserve his support don't I?"

"Bill....you're avoiding something really important......."

"What?"

"Oh come on! I'm BLIND and even I can see this! Tom misses you! And you obviously miss him.....you have to go back..."

"No!! I'm not giving this up! I told you I would take a risk...

"A risk WITH me! Not FOR me!"

"I don't care! I'm risking everything I have...there's no way I'm goin back...not now......"

"Bill........."

"I said I love you because I mean it. Everyone in the world could be against it, even Tom, but....I still care about you...and you need me......"

She smiled a bit, a chill going up her spine.

Easy to handle
hard to let go of
Knowing what he'll do next
but never know what he's thinking
Quietly killing you

But loving every minute of it

Proof that my mind has gone missing

But heart still present to lie to me

The connection they had when they were together, it was still there. She had once asked herself; did they understand something that no one in the world could? She now knew the answer to that. They understood that in order for them to be together, they had to get away from everything else that existed. Nothing else in the world mattered anymore, so long as they were together.

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"Tom....Tom...Tom...slow down." She said, running after him. "Tom, wait up."

"What do you want?"

"Tom.....Tom....listen! Tom...you know I'm here for you right?"

"Not really, Seems you're so anxious to go away."

"Tom...I'll stay here as long as you want....I just need to know you'll be ok."

"It's not up to you to protect me."

"And while you're so busy looking after me and Bill, who's gonna make sure you're ok, huh? Who's gonna protect you?"

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'Can't we runaway together?'

Runaway lovers escaping the troubles of life. That's what came to mind whenever he looked at her. As hard as he tried, no matter how much he wanted to, he would never be able to cure her lifelong scars. "I like it when you're near me," she'd say to reassure him. But to see her so pale, so fragile, it broke whatever was left of his heart. All he wanted was to keep her, to possess her, to make her his own. To make her feel good, to be near her the way she liked it. No matter what bill Kaulitz did, he wouldn't win. But the risk was worth taking. He would lose everything if that's what it took.

"Akira, you have to eat something."

"I'm not hungry....."

"You haven't eaten a single thing since you got here."

"I'm just not hungry......"

You're so weak....I hate you seeing you like this....."

"At least you can see me."

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He looked down from the balcony, down at the massive crowd of people that just kept growing and growing. The band was told they should go back home to Germany, but they refused. No matter where they went, there would be harassment. He walked into the hotel room, where his friends.

He felt a bit sick every time he looked at the beds. He'd leave his brother all alone for his own selfish pleasures...and now....all he wanted was to lie down on his bed, his brother throwing skittles across the room just to bug him...and both of them laughing together like nothing else mattered.

"Ugh......." he mumbled underneath his breath.

Andreas and Anna exchanged looks, both of them thinking that it was the right choice not to tell Tom about that phone call. "If you guys are gonna keep makin stupid faces at each other, why not go to the other room?!"

"Tom...." began Yicelle.

"No! I don't wanna hear it! "

"I know your not feeling so great but....."

"But nothing. Just shut up."

""All this anger you have is about Bill. You don't have to take it out on us......" said Ande.

"Yeah...well...ya know what........?" Nothing. "Well....I'm sorry....."

"It's fine....just....just try to calm down." Taking what his friend had told him to consideration, he took a seat on the edge, taking deep breathes; it was a trick Ande always made him do to cool him down...ever since they were little.

"Hey Gustav, ya still got my phone?"

"It's charging in the other room......."

"Hey...uh...Ande...lemme use you're phone, will ya?"

"What for?"

"I just wanna call my mom, alright?"

He walked back out to the balcony going through Ande's contact list. He stopped, looking down at an unfamiliar number. He pressed 'send,'

It rang once. It rang twice. It rang three times. "Hello?" Wide-eyed, he let the phone drop on the floor. "Hello?" repeated the person on the other line. "Hello?"

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Bill put the juice carton back in the refrigerator, when he heard the phone ringing. It rang once. It rang twice. It rang three times. "Hello?" A loud thump. "Hello?" No answer. "Hello?" Once again. No answer. Hanging up, he walked back into the living room sitting beside Akira. "Well that was weird."

"What?"

"Someone called."

"Who was it?"

"No one answered."

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He stared at the phone that was lying on the floor. He recognized that voice. He'd know it anywhere. How the hell did Ande get this number? The answer was obvious. Five days without having a single clue to where Bill may be, and he was about ready to go insane. Now that a clue was right in front of him, he didn't want it.