Chapter 28- Into the night
Tris POV
My skin glows with luminous nerves as I focus on the turning metal door knob.
I flutter my eyes close for a few mere seconds waiting upon Tobias' arrival.
'That shower isn't as good as our-'Tobias abruptly stops, his eyes spinning out of his head as he sees me and the romantic ambiance in the room.
'Wow,' he mutters, seemingly speechless. I see his already dark eyes dilating as his eyes pound into mine.
He still stands half in the doorway, half in the room, his eyes sneaking glances at me from head to toe making my cheeks redden.
He blinks once. And then twice, as if to make sure he isn't dreaming and begins to walk towards me.
'Hey,' I say, nerves sparking in my stomach and my heart pounding, as he buries his hand into my hair, caressing my cheek.
'Wow,' he repeats, glancing down at my body and wrapping a hand around my lower back. The movement makes my breath hitch as I feel his entire hand through the thin material.
The kiss begins much the same as usual- passionate, slow, almost teasing and my heart begins to beat furiously like it always does when I was wrapped in his arms. And then something happened. Suddenly, his lips became much more urgent and one of his hands twist around my front and into my hair, pulling me closer towards him, and mine too went up into the back of his neck, gently tugging his hair.
We break away breathless and he leans his forehead against mine. 'What are you thinking about?' He wonders in a whisper. I hesitate for a second before I muster up the courage to speak. 'Well, I was thinking that I would like to finish up with what we started half an hour ago.' I answer quickly, hoping that my nerves and beating heart within me can't be seen nor heard.
A chill tingles down my spine as he looks back at me.
'You're greedy tonight,' he grins, sheepish.
'Yes I am,' I chuckle, 'but please don't do anything you don't want to do.' I add.
'God forbid, with you in this-,' he laughs, 'I don't believe I would have enough self-control to stop myself even if I wanted to.'
I chuckle too, my nerves momentarily evaporating off of me. He places his hand under my chin and kisses me softly. I take my lips off his and place a kiss on his jaw, feeling a slight but attractive stubble on his chin.
'I love you,' I say, knowing they are true in every way.
'I love you too. Truly I do.'
My heart inflates at his words and his kisses, as if it is going to crack through my ribs.
He really does want me the same way I want him-forever. I realize now that as my fear of intimacy washes slowly out of me, compared to the fear of loosing him, almost like I did today, my intimacy fear seems insignificant.
I watch as his desired filled eyes drift down to my lips then collarbone then return back to my eyes. Still staring into my eyes, he gently tugs on my robe and grazes the top of my bosom with a kiss.
And then the urgency returns. His lips smash into my blood red lips and he roughly lifts me up, my legs wrapping around his waist. My robe falls to my sides as he walks us to the bed.
He pulls his face away from me slightly as we near the bed and I pout which he grins at. 'Are you sure?' He asks.
'Yes.'
What I see in his expression is enough to tell me that he is feeling exactly the same way, and he gently throws me on the soft bed.
Tobias kisses me with everything he has, everything he wants to be, burying his hand in my hair. I let out a small murmur of contentment as he places his body closer towards me, hovering over me as I lay on my back and he opens his mouth and teases me with his tongue. He kisses my cheek, my neck, nibbling softly as his hand travels up my body, and then back to kiss my lips again. All at once, I know that he is right for me and I am right for him as we fit perfectly together.
Whispering his love for me in my ear, he starts to undress me. I felt my body quiver with pleasure as my bare body touches his.
We took our time making love.
As morning drew near, I wake with my bare body pressed against Tobias chest, his arms wrapped around me. A smile flutters onto my face as I gaze at his sleeping form. Tobias always looks younger in his sleep.
'It's rude to stare you know,' he whispers.
I laugh. He traces a line with his fingers along my arm.
'Thank you for last night. I couldn't lose you like I almost did yesterday and not show you how much I love you... Physically.' I add.
'And now we can call you Six.' He winks.
'Four and Six.'
Curled beneath his strong arms, we talked, laughed and nuzzled until making love for the second time. Afterwards, we cuddled in contentment, enjoying the way our bodies molded into each other.
'Beatrice Prior! You are glowing!' Christina squeals, grinning wickedly, as she punches me in the arm, instead of the bag in front of her. We have spent a lengthy time in the gym over the past couple of days, pushing ourselves to the limits.
'No I'm not,' I sneer, trying to hide my upcoming blush.
'You're blushing…' Christina trails off, turning to fully look at me as she grabs hold of the punching bag to stop it swinging. I, on the other hand, continue to look straight ahead, punching the bag with ever growing force.
'Tris, love.' Tobias grins, wrapping his arms around my waist as I lean back against his chest.
'Hey,' I grin, relieved Christina has stopped talking. Tobias kisses my cheek and then looks up to Christina.
'Hello Christina.'
'Hi Four, we were kind of in a middle of a conversation.' Christina rolls her eyes as his arms are still around my waist
'Ah yes, sorry about that,' he laughs, 'I can tell you were because Tris is blushing. You weren't by any chance talking about me were you?' he smirks.
'Why would you think that?' I ask raising an eyebrow.
'Because I'm so hot obviously,' he wiggles his eyebrows. 'And,' Tobias lowers his lips to my ear, 'whenever I come up in a subject, you always blush.'
'Out!' I demand playfully, pushing his chest away.
His eyes scream mischief and love as he unwraps himself from me. 'I came over here by the way, to tell you that Eddie has postponed the camping trip and it's going to be in a couple of days. And Serena wants to talk to you, she's running.'
'The trip should be fun! Now get away from me, you smell!'
He chuckles again, 'love yah!' He shouts before disappearing further into the gym. I decide to catch up with my close becoming good friend: Serena before finishing up for today.
The next time I see Serena is at lunch. Greeting me with her ever present smile, she walks towards me wearing blue jeans, black knee-high leather boots, a white business shirt as the sun fountains down its heat around us.
'Hello,' she kisses the side of my cheek confidently. 'How are you?'
'I'm good thank you, and you?' I reply politely, it is odd being with her alone like this.
'I'm good,' she pauses, 'this place is new, I have been meaning to try it,' she smiles widely as she tilts her narrow neck up to get a better look at the outside entrance of restaurant.
Inside, the far wall to the left of the entrance is covered in large red brick, creating an ambiance of contrast with modern and old. Placed along black metal racks that curl at the end are ancient looking wine bottles. Above, modern silver lights hang from the white ceiling above, from one side of the restaurant to the other, illuminating it. Laughter and talking sweeps into my ears as our waitress guides us to a table along the back wall. The dark mauve-color booth I sit in is a splash of colour against the mostly black and white tables, fully dressed with glasses and cutlery in the middle of the room.
To my far left a door opens and a waiter comes out holding a tray of delicious smelling, sizzling food. He walks past me and settles the tray down at the next booth.
'So,' Serena starts, 'everything looks so good here,' she continues looking down at the beautifully presented menu. I still haven't even bothered to look at since I'm still gob smacked about seeing this place.
'Yeah it does,' I reply.
After a few minutes, a waitress walks over with a tablet in hand and sets some bread with oil down for us.
'I would like the Gnocchi di ricotta, dressed in butter and sage please' Serena orders.
'I'll have the same,' I reply simply when Serena looks at me.
'Yes, and we will have a bottle of champagne with two glasses please.' Serena smiles.
'I don't drink.'
'Well,' she smirks as the waiter disappears, 'we will be changing that.'
Serena doesn't say anything for a while. Then, all of a sudden, and much to my dismay she squeaks: 'I think we should go shopping.'
I don't reply, instead I just stare at her as her face starts to light up. 'We have many shops here and it will be really nice seeing you out of black-'
'I always wear black, it's my faction.' I interrupt. I don't need to tell her about Abnegation grey, she will probably insist for me to go shopping more. 'But you should ask my friend Christina, she loves shopping.'
'Then she should come too. Come on Tris, you have every girls dream, endless amount of money because you will just charge it to the Leader. It will be fun. Plus, I need to get some things for camping and obviously you do to. And, you can buy some presents to give to your family.'
And just like that, just as my eyes drift to our food quickly approaching us, that just freshly came out of the kitchen, I know there is no way I am going to get out of it.
I clasp hold of Tobias' hand roughly, playfully putting my weight into his hand so that he drags me. Turning his head around, he flashes me a smile. Instantly, I remember one of the reasons why I fell in love with him, the way that if he is truly happy, his eyes smile first then his mouth. I reciprocate the expression and let go of his hand and keep climbing- or rather struggle to keep climbing- up the rocky dangerous footpath on the side of the cliff. This path reminds me of the glass trail to the fear landscape rooms in Dauntless and I try to remain calm and keep my breathing steady. It's not the height that scares me, in fact the height feeds my adrenaline but rather it's how far we have been hiking for and I am exhausted. I should be used to this. I am Dauntless. As we inch closer to the peak, I start to feel nauseous and dizzy and now I grab onto Tobias' hand for real support; he wraps his fingers around my hand and helps me climb. He's exhausted too. He always acts fearless and selfless so he walks on the opposite side to me; the side which is closer to the edge of the cliff, ignoring his fear of heights, he wraps an arm around me.
'Hey, guys, come on! We're almost there!' Eddie shouts encouragingly. In another life, I can easily see Eddie being Erudite and Dauntless at the same time.
While I do climb with ease, chatting and giggling in our squad, nausea is still twisting in my stomach. It must be what they injected me with during my time with the Mayor of Security.
'Are you okay?' Tobias asks.
'Yeah,' I gulp, my eyes trained to the floor. Forcing a smile which still comes out weak, I carry on.
Slowly, as the ground evens out, stretching across the peak on the mountain, the nausea peels away from my gut and my eyes search over the sight. Like a hit to the stomach, the sudden beautiful view made me gasp. I stare, observing the unraveling scenery lying out before me: the early morning birds soaring swiftly through the sky. How the recently awoken sun's rays, peeks through the vastly scattered clouds and the lake reflects the beautiful diversity of yellows given out by the sunrise. Wanting to freeze the moment, because just like any good things in life, they are so beautiful but they happen all too quickly.
'This is so breath-taking,' whispers Christina, who now stands beside me. Smiling, I take in the sides around me as the sun continues to rise. The tree tops for off in the distances are arranged in a random order of trunks and colours, yet exactly that makes them so appealing to look at, reveling nature's true beauty.
'Come on,' Christina nudges me with her elbow. 'Let's go back and help set up with the boys.' It's when she hooks her arm through mine and drags me around, my back towards the sunrise, that I notice the boys are setting up the tents.
'Hey,' I smile, placing my hands in my back pockets of my shorts as I greet Tobias, who is bending down on one knee, hands slung over his knee, studying the tent.
'Hey,' he replies looking up. I slip around him and sit on his bent knee and place my arms around his neck and he abruptly moves his arms to support my back.
'This is a nice greeting,' he chuckles against my lips.
'Shut up and kiss me,' I command, grabbing his shirt and pulling him closer towards me. There is something about showing your love to someone physically that makes me able to touch him more, especially in public.
'Ahem,' a high pitched voice says. 'Can you stop making out for once?' Christina laughs. I pull away from Tobias and notice the whole squad gathered around us. A blush creeps over my face, and I bury my head in Tobias' shoulder.
'Did you propose or something Four?' Zeke snickers, motioning towards the bending down on one knee position Tobias is in. I blush deeper as I pull my head back at Zeke's comment and I get off of Tobias' knee. He stands beside me.
'No, of course not,' Tobias laughs lightly, but I still feel a small ache to my chest when he says it.
'Anyway,' Eddie drags out the letters awkwardly, 'why don't we set up the fire here? Then we can spread out the tents around here.'
We get a mumble of agreements.
The sun begins to drift down into oblivion, as my eyes slowly gaze from the warm flames of the fire to Tobias' strong chin and flexing muscles next to me as he talks to the Eddie on his left. It is too soon to fall asleep, so here we are, gathered in a circle enjoying our first night of camping with Eddie and Serena and the squad. But as Tobias snakes his arm around me I feel my innocent thoughts disappear and I have to take a deep breath and hope I can make it through the night without my sexual instinct clouding my thoughts.
A/N I'm really sorry this took me ages to update! I have had half of this written for a month now and yet I wanted to write more but I had to do it justice! My exams are next week so I am going to put this on hold for a little bit. 4 weeks at the most.
Hope you enjoyed it and please review!
