Gravity
Disclaimer: I don't own anything or anyone from The Vampire Diaries.
July 2nd 2017
Sunday 8:45am
Charlotte, North Carolina
When I wake up the next morning Elena is still sleeping soundly in the bed wrapped up tightly in my arms. I smile slightly with a nervous pit in my stomach as I lean over to double check that she is still asleep. I press a soft kiss into the crook of her neck before untangling my arms and legs from hers and rolling out of the bed onto my feet.
I creep quietly over to my bag of clothes, pulling out some sweatpants I brought to change into for the drive home and plain navy blue t-shirt and silently walk into the bathroom to get dressed and freshened up.
When I walk back out, Elena is still sleeping soundly and I note that it's almost 9am. I know we have until 11am until we need to check out so I decide to let her sleep for a little while longer as I slide my shoes on and head out of the hotel room.
I let out a breath of relief the second I walk outside into the fresh morning air. I need a moment to collect my bearings and to reflect on what happened last night.
I slept with Elena.
I slept with Elena more than once.
I slept with Elena three times to be exact.
I smile slightly as my mind flashes back to the night before. It really was nothing short of amazing. Elena is still as beautiful and fun and naughty as she was four years ago.
I run my hand through my messy hair as I start to walk down the street towards the coffee shop I saw yesterday on our way to the hotel. If there is another thing about Elena that I'm sure hasn't changed in the last four years, it will be her need for caffeine in the mornings.
I try not to think about what last night means for our relationship. It was a huge step, and part of me is questioning whether or not this has happened too soon. We still have a lot to discuss and there are a lot of problems to overcome.
We have four years of our lives to catch up on. Plus, there is also the little issue of Elena's ex-boyfriend that has been playing a little bit in the back of my mind. When I told her I didn't blame her for moving on, I really wasn't lying. I still don't blame her. I'm actually kind of relieved that she somehow managed to create a life for herself. However I still want to know what it meant with Liam. I want to know how she felt about him and how much she felt for him.
I shake my head and my brush those thoughts away as I walk inside the café. Again that's another problem for another day. I've learned a lot in our time apart, and that was to live in the here and now.
I order us two coffees, praying that Elena still drinks lattes before I make the short walk back to the hotel. When I get back up to our room, Elena is still fast asleep and I smile, placing my cup on the bedside table before walking to her side of the bed and bending down.
"Elena," I whisper softly but she doesn't stir. "Elena," I speak louder this time, moving the coffee cup closer to her nose. "Elena…" my voice rises and I smirk as she starts to stir. I watch as she slowly wakes up, her nose twitching in a cute manner before her eyes flutter and her shoulders roll.
"Morning," I smile when her eyes finally open and land on mine.
I see her cheeks blush pink for a moment as she starts to remember where we are.
There is also the small fact that she is still completely naked.
"Hey…" she trails off with a soft smile, slowing sitting up and bringing the quilt with her to cover her up.
"I brought you coffee." I hand it over with a smile. "I thought you might need it." I wink at her playfully and her cheeks turn ten times redder.
"Thank you," she takes the drink from my hands and takes a small sip. I smile softly and stand back up, heading around the bed to pick up my own before leaning against the dressing counter opposite the bed. "What time do we need to get out of here?" she asks after a short silence. I notice the feeling in the room is a little awkward.
"Eleven." I answer simply. Elena nods, silently accepting my answer. She takes another sip and I notice her fidgeting with the duvet to make sure that she is covered. "Don't look so terrified." I observe. "It's nothing I haven't seen before, right?"
I swear I didn't think it was possible for her to blush any harder than she was already but boy does she prove me wrong.
She clears her throat, her eyes glued to the cup in front of her. "How are you so calm right now?" she finally acknowledges the situation, her eyes nervously lifting up to meet mine.
I shrug, a small smile playing on my lips before it changes to a smirk. "Beautiful naked girls apparently have a relaxing influence on me."
"Damon," she lets out a small laugh despite herself. "I'm serious. I…I feel like a nervous teenage girl who has never even kissed a boy…how are you just…" she shakes her head, clearly frustrated in not being able to elegantly explain herself. "Standing there so chilled out with that look on your face?"
I smirk nonchalantly. "What face?"
"That face." She smiles slightly and I shrug. I place my cup down and slowly walk towards the bed, sitting down on the edge of it to where Elena is sitting. She looks at me questioningly, the tiniest of smiles on her face which is probably the most genuine one she has.
"I'm happy." I confess in a whisper and Elena's smile widens. "This is probably the happiest I have felt in over four years…" I continue, bravely reaching out and caressing her cheek. "And you want to know why?" she waits with baited breath, her eyes wide and glistening. "It's because of you." I lean forward and tap her nose with my own lightly. "That's why." I finish before brushing my lips against hers in a slow sensual kiss.
Elena lets out a sigh against my mouth, I feel her fidget around me to place her coffee on the bedside table before her hands wrap around my neck tightly, deepening the kiss as she brings me down against her.
"Why did you put clothes on?" she murmurs in between kisses. I chuckle as she attempts to pull my t-shirt back over my head. "Too much clothes." She tosses it across the room before flipping us over so she is on top. "These need to go too." She unzips my jeans and I lift up my hips to let her pull them down. I see her lick her lips at the growing bulge in my boxers and I harden even more when she slowly rubs her hand up and down before hooking her fingers into the straps and tugging down. "And these," she finishes with a whisper. I see her eyes widen like it's the first time she has ever seen me naked when we both know it is anything but.
"Ah…shit." I hiss through gritted teeth when she dips down and takes my now rock hard member into her mouth. My eyes roll back with pleasure as she deep throats me.
Holy shit.
"Fuck…Elena…" I grip her hair tightly as she continues to suck on my cock, her head bobbing up and down. "Oh boy." I see her look up at me briefly with a smirk but she doesn't slow down her movements.
"I'm gonna…Elena…" I try to tug her away but she grabs my wrists tightly with her spare hand, the other lightly playing with my balls.
"Shit." I squeeze my eyes tight. "I'm gonna…fuck…" before I know it, I am exploding into her mouth, panting breathlessly. My eyes flutter open just in time to see Elena sitting up straight while wiping her mouth with her hand. She looks completely innocent but I know that she is anything but. Her hair is messy and all over the place from where I was gripping it but she has never looked so beautiful.
"You're so…so…sexy." I wheeze out breathlessly. Elena smirks before crawling up the bed on top of me. She leans down, her lips lightly brushing against mine before her tongue darts out teasingly.
"Fuck me…Damon.
So I do.
"You can't just wing a speech, Damon!" Elena laughs while looking at me in disbelief. We are sitting in my car outside of her house and have been for the last forty minutes. After spending the morning making the most of our empty hotel room, we eventually made it to check out (five minutes late I might add). The car ride back to Mystic Falls went by far too quickly, and I would have given anything to stay in that room for even just an extra ten minutes.
"Yes I can." I roll my eyes at Elena's dramatic response. "Nobody likes a long speech at a wedding, they are boring and they kill everyone's buzz."
"That's only the boring clichéd ones. If you actually put some effort into what you were writing and let it come from the heart, then nobody is going to be bored." Elena scolds me.
"Maybe I'll google a good one." I wink at her teasingly.
"Damon!" She slaps my arm in disbelief.
"I'm joking!"
"You better be!" She scolds me but I can see that she is fighting off a smile. "Seriously though, let me proof read it beforehand. I want to make sure it's appropriate, I know what you are like and there will be children present."
I roll my eyes. "Whatever you say, Miss."
"Shut up." She tuts at me with a smile. "I just want the wedding to be perfect, they both deserve it."
"That I agree with." I nod understandingly. "And I know that it will be perfect. You want to know why?" she nods slowly, "because you are the maid of honor and any wedding with you in it is bound to be phenomenal."
The words leave my lips before I even think about it and I can immediately sense the change of mood in my small Camaro. My mind flashes back to a moment almost four years ago to this day.
"Elena?"
"Hmm?" she replies softly, our joint hand falling back between our chests.
"Marry me?"
Our life was a lot harder back then but it was also so much simpler.
"Yes." She giggles slightly her hands pulling away from mine to wrap around my neck, standing on her tip toes and softly nudging her nose against my own. "I'll marry you, Damon." She whispers softly against my lips.
"Really?"
"Yes," she throws her head back with a laugh and I look at her in complete awe, wondering how the hell I got so lucky. "Really!" she giggles before I crash my mouth against hers hungrily. "God I love you so much." She whispers against me, pulling away with the biggest smile I have ever seen on her face.
I see the tears in her eyes and for the first time I feel like I have no idea how to make her feel better.
"Elena…"
She swallows hard and shakes her head. "It's okay."
My mouth opens and closes like I've lost all sense of speech. My heart is pounding painfully in my chest and not in the good way.
I don't know what to say.
Elena doesn't seem to know either.
Luckily neither of us has too. I see a car pull up in front of us and I roll my eyes when I see Elena's Dad inside, his face turning into a scowl when he recognizes us.
He climbs out, slamming the door hard and storming inside. Elena follows him with her eyes before sighing loudly.
"I should go." She whispers out, her voice quiet and shaky and I nod my head in agreement. I watch her silently open the door but before she can leave I reach out and grab her hand.
"Elena…" I trail off like a moron.
"I know." She smiles sadly at me, squeezing my hand tightly before leaning over and pressing a soft kiss to my cheek. "I know." She whispers again softly before leaving.
No other words are needed.
I know exactly what we both mean.
"Oh my god, Elena, you totally had sex!"
My eyes widen and my jaw drops. Bonnie gasps loudly beside me as Caroline stares at me suspicious eyes from her place on her bed.
"A hello would have been nice." I mumble awkwardly as I close our dorm room door behind me. I'm just glad the majority of our floor has gone back to their home town for the summer or the entire building would know my business.
"Explain!" Caroline demands me. I roll my eyes and turn to Bonnie for some sort of moral support but she is looking at me with the same curious eagerness.
"At least give me a second to get in the room before you give me the Spanish inquisition." I huff and throw off my shoes before sliding onto my bed. Bonnie smiles in amusement as she shuffles onto Caroline's bed and they both look at me questioningly. "How did you know?"
Caroline scoffs loudly. "Oh please, you have the whole I've just been fucked and it was great look on your face."
"Caroline!" I gasp at her word, my eyes wide and my cheeks heating up.
Caroline rolls her eyes. "Oh come on! It's so obvious."
"Well Bonnie didn't notice and we just spent a whole two hour car ride here together."
"That's because Bonnie hasn't got laid in forever."
"Hey!" Bonnie cuts in offended but Caroline sends her a questioning glance and she huffs loudly. "Okay fine, it has been a little while."
"A little while? Bonnie, I think my grandma gets more action from you these days." Caroline teases and I can't help but laugh.
"Hey! Enough about my sex life, or lack of apparently….this is about Elena." She smirks at me and I groan when the attention is turned back on me. "I want full details."
"What do you want me to say? Yes, Damon and I had sex…it was great…end of story."
"No! Not end of story…that wasn't even a story! How did it happen? Who made the first move? Was it just the one time? Did you cum?"
"Caroline!"
Bonnie sniggers as Caroline shamelessly continues. "What! I've been holed up here all pregnant and alone, I need some juicy details to keep me going."
"You've just spent the weekend in Mystic Falls; you got back here like an hour ago." I reply critically.
"Minor details," Caroline waves me off nonchalantly. "I didn't invite you here so we could play scrabble…I want to hear all about your birthday surprise."
"I thought you invited us here so you could plan a strategy to finally tell your Mom that she's going to be a grandmother."
"Boo that's boring…I want to hear about you."
"I want to hear about you too." Bonnie agrees with a smile and I groan. I pull out one of my pillows from behind me and hug it tightly against my chest.
"A lot of what happened is kind of personal…" I trail off. "I don't even know where we stand myself…I don't feel right telling other people about it just yet."
Bonnie sends me an understanding glance but Caroline just seems disappointed. "Come on Elena we're your best friends it's what were here for."
"You don't even like Damon."
"So? I like you. Besides…"she trails off somewhat reluctantly. "Damon's not so bad these days." I feel a smile creeping onto my lips. "But don't tell him I said that!"
I let out a defeated sigh, deciding that while I won't go into full details of what happened, I could at least go through the easy stuff. "Fine, he took me to Charlotte to see a tribute band of the Arctic Monkeys." Caroline pulls a face and I remember she is more of a Bieber fan herself. I roll my eyes but keep going. "It was something to do with our past…anyway it was super thoughtful and just so Damon. We ended up in a hotel room and well…you know…"
"He fucked your brains out?"
"Caroline!" I scold her for the millionth time. "Filter!"
"Sorry." She rolls her eyes because she is anything but. "So what happens now? Are you two back together?"
I groan. "I don't know…"
"Did you ask?"
"No." I admit and I think back to his wedding comment in the car. I felt like I couldn't breathe. So many emotions came rushing back and I didn't know how to handle it. Damon seemed to be feeling the same and we both somehow managed to come out of it unscathed but it was another reminder that we still have so much we need to talk through before we can even think about starting a relationship again. "I want to be with him, I do…I love him. I love him so much but so much has happened and I don't know how to fix it. What we have right now…it's working for us. I'm happy," I can't fight the smile creeping onto my lips. "I'm the happiest I've been in four years and it's all down to him."
"So be with him." Bonnie states like it's the easiest thing in the world.
"It's not that simple, Bon."
"It seems pretty simple to me."
"I don't even know if Damon wants to be with me again."
"Come on, Elena, Damon wouldn't have slept with you if he didn't want to be with you."
I pause, deep down knowing there is a hell of a lot of truth to that statement. However he's had some time to think things through now. It's been 24 hours since I last saw him and although we have been texting a lot (we've even had a couple of phone calls), our night and morning after in Charlotte was not mentioned by either of us.
"Do you want to fight for him?" Caroline speaks up after being momentarily quiet. I nod silently. "Okay, so go to him and tell him what you want." I go to argue but she cuts me off. "Seriously, Elena, I've seen you without Damon and you're miserable. I'm not his biggest fan, not even close, but anyone can see how much he means to you and you'll never be happy without him in your life so just grow some balls and go get him."
My jaw hangs open from her statement. Wow. I didn't think I would ever hear those words from Caroline.
"She's right, Elena." Bonnie agrees softly, her approach a lot more gentle than Caroline's. "If you want to be with Damon, just be with him."
"But what if he rejects me?"
"He won't. He loves you." Caroline answers quickly.
"Elena, you don't even have to declare your undying love for him tonight. Just…let him know that you're here and that you want to be with him. You have your whole future ahead of you…don't let another day slide by. If you want to take things slow with him then take things slow. But at least then you'll both be moving in the right direction." Bonnie smiles softly at me. "Be brave."
I nod slowly, a new found confidence overwhelming me. "You're right, you're both right."
"Hallelujah!"
"I uh…" I awkwardly stand up, "I'm sorry," I look at Caroline guiltily but she waves me off. "I know you wanted to talk through how you were going to tell your Mom."
"Don't worry about me, Bonnie's here." She smiles softly at me. "Just go get your man."
"Yeah…" I nod nervously, before glancing at Bonnie. "Shit…I'm your ride."
She rolls her eyes. "They have these things called public transport. Don't worry about me, Elena, I'll be fine."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes! I'll crash here tonight and get a bus back to Mystic Falls tomorrow. Now go!"
"Right…yeah…okay…" A nervous pit clenches in my stomach but I use it to help me. "I gotta go."
I'm out of the door in a flash, car keys in my hand and it's not even until I'm half way down the freeway before I realize I forgot to put my shoes back on.
"Stop cheating!" Klaus accuses me in annoyance as he taps his fingers against the Xbox remote furiously.
I tut loudly and roll my eyes. "I'm not cheating, stop being a sore loser."
"You just knocked me off the road!" Klaus replies back loudly.
I smirk in amusement. "You were in my way."
"Ass." He mutters coldly. I cringe as I watch my car crash into a wall, Klaus chuckles as his car overtakes mine.
"Ass." I repeat in annoyance as I hurriedly press my fingers on the control in an attempt to speed up.
"Come on baby!" Klaus leans forward excitedly as he continues to take the lead.
"I'm coming for you, Klaus!" I taunt him arrogantly. "I'm right behind you." I lean forward as well. "Here we go…here we go…"
"Damnit, Damon!"
"Come on, come on!" I furiously shake the controller in my hands even though I know it won't do anything different. "Yes!" I overtake Klaus happily and he huffs beside me but keeps on going. "I told you I would kick your ass."
"The race isn't over yet, Salvatore!"
I make a swerve turn; the side of my car scraping against the wall slowing me down but luckily for me Klaus does the exact same thing.
Before either of us can comment we are interrupted by the loud pounding on our door. I frown confused. "Did someone buzz in?"
"No." Klaus replies but keeps his eyes glued to the screen. "You can get it."
I know it's an attempt to try and win but I roll my eyes anyway and tap pause. "It's probably the pizza." I mutter, thinking that it's early considering we only ordered it fifteen minutes ago. "You should make it quick so I can finish kicking your ass."
"I think we've been playing two different games if you think you're kicking my ass!"
"Just answer the damn door!"
I laugh but follow his instructions anyway. I open the door but instead of finding a greasy teen with pizza, I find a frazzled looking Elena who is standing there with wide eyes.
I look at her surprised. "El-"
Before I can even finish my sentence she jumps in my arms and kisses me. I stumble back slightly but don't hesitate in kissing her back. My arms wrap around her small waist tightly as hers find their way around my neck. Her lips are just as soft as they were yesterday and I'm reminded by how much I have missed kissing her today.
"Hey, don't mind me!"
I hear Klaus's annoying voice and I groan. Elena immediately pulls back, her face red and eyes wide as she looks at Klaus who is looking over his shoulder at us in amusement.
"HI Elena." He winks at her and her blush deepens.
"Hi Klaus," her voice is croaky so she clears her throat. "Didn't see you there…"
"Nope." He smirks. "I figured as much."
I roll my eyes and glance back at Elena. "I thought you were spending the night at Whitmore with Caroline?" I ask confused before adding. "Not that I'm not happy to you see you…"
She smiles softly. "I was but…I…" she glances in Klaus's direction again before lowering her voice. "I wanted to see you."
I can't help it. My smile widens and I reach my hand out to take hers in mine but then I look down and notice that she's not wearing any shoes. I frown confused and Elena giggles embarrassed. "I left in kind of a hurry." She explains shyly.
I send her a questioning glance but she shakes her head like she is pleading with me not to say anything.
I turn to Klaus. "Sorry buddy, games over."
He rolls his eyes but I can tell he doesn't really mind. "Forfeit?"
"Urgh," I grimace slightly. "Fine…I suppose so." I reluctantly agree and Klaus grins happily. I turn to Elena who is looking at us both slightly amused before I pull her along to my bedroom and close the door behind me.
"Keep the door open and no funny business!" I hear Klaus shout behind us. I roll my eyes and ignore him as Elena smiles amused.
"He seems happier." Elena notes.
"He is," I agree. "But I doubt you came here to see Klaus…especially from the greeting you gave me." I tease playfully and wiggle my eyebrows. Elena's cheek heat up but I swear this is a constant thing these days. "Did you really drive all the way back from Whitmore just to see me?"
"Yeah," she admits with a shy smile. "I…Bonnie and Caroline were being surprisingly supportive and…as much as I love them and as much as Caroline needs her friends right now…sitting in my dorm room with pizza and chocolate with my girlfriends isn't where I want to be right now."
I nod slowly. "Well I'm glad for that."
"Are you?"
"Yes."
My hand reaches out to brush some of her soft brown hair from her eyes. "Do you want to talk about what happened yesterday?" I question gently. Elena swallows loudly. "It didn't take me long to realize that you kept our engagement a secret from everyone." She looks panicked. "Don't worry," I quickly jump in. "I'm not mad."
"It wasn't because I was ashamed." She answers hurriedly. "I swear it wasn't, Damon."
"I know." I pull her onto the bed beside me, my arm still wrapped around her waist tightly.
"I just…I didn't want to give people another weapon to shoot me down with." She frowns slightly before continuing. "It was so hard when I came back to Mystic Falls…" she begins and I realize this is probably going to be the first time she's gone into detail about this with me. "Everyone sort of had the 'I told you so' attitude going on, and I couldn't face them knowing that not only was I a jilted girlfriend, but I was a jilted fiancé too."
"I'm sorry." I squeeze her hand tightly, my body laced with guilt at her going through it all alone. "I wish I could have been there. I've heard some things from Klaus about how much of a hard time you had during your senior year."
She lets out a shaky breath. "I'm surprised I even made it to graduation to be honest." She cringes slightly. "I wasn't a nice person back then. I was so hard to live with and to be around."
"I'm sure you weren't that bad," I try to reassure her but she shakes her head.
"I was. I was awful, but luckily Bonnie and Caroline never gave up on me. Jeremy was the one who filled in my college application to Whitmore because I had missed the deadline." she reminiscences with a distant look on her face. "I was so busy trying to find out ways to free you that I completely neglected even the idea of going to college. I'm just glad they accepted me without the process of interviews because God knows where I would be right now if I had to go through that. I probably wouldn't have even turned up."
"And look at you now," I nudge her lightly with my shoulder. "Star student."
She smiles slightly. "I'm not exactly valedictorian." It doesn't take long for her smile to fall. "God I shouldn't even be complaining – I got it all so easy compared to you."
"How many times do I need to tell you to stop being sorry for living your life? I turned myself in. It was a choice I made. I wanted this for you…" I trail off. I take a let nervous breath. "Which brings me to my next question…"
I see the cringe on her face and she knows exactly what I'm about to say, so much that I don't even have to actually say it myself. "You want to know about Liam, right?" her voice is laced with guilt. I nod slowly. She squeezes her eyes shut for a moment. "Do you want the whole truth?" I nod again and her face scrunches up slightly.
"Hey," I quickly wipe away a fallen tear and tilt her head to face me. "Whatever you're going to tell me, it's okay." I lean forward and brush my lips against hers softly. "It's okay." I say again reassuringly.
She takes another deep breath, her confidence raised from my words. I think I do a great job of hiding my nerves and dread from the conversation that is coming.
"I met Liam through a mutual friend at a party. I…I had finally moved on and I felt good about myself for the first time in years." Her face is laced with guilt and I want to reassure her but I also want to hear the rest of this story. "Caroline and Bonnie had been pushing me to date lots of different guys for years, especially in the last couple of months leading up. When I met Liam…he asked me out and I said no. I wasn't ready to date, as much as I felt better, as much as I believed I had let you go, I still wasn't ready to date. So…we became friends…but he never gave up, he was constantly sending me flowers and trying to woo me. It didn't help that Caroline and Bonnie were completely smitten with him. In the end…I kind of took pity on him and eventually said yes." She smiles slightly but it quickly falls. "Even then, deep down I knew it was different. The weeks went by and he would take me out on dates and he would buy me gifts and treat me right. I genuinely started to feel something more for him…" I cringe internally, a painful clench hitting my stomach but in order for us to move forward I need to know everything.
"Damon…we don't have to do this…" Elena seems to catch on to my feelings but I shake my head.
"No," I clear my throat. "Please…tell me everything…I want to know…I need to know."
"We took things so slow…" she trails off and I see the nervous look on her face. "One night…we had both had a lot to drink and…shit…" she curses, running a shaky hand through her hair. "We did sleep together."
My heart drops into my stomach. I'm not surprised really. You don't date someone for seven months without sex. It was unrealistic to believe otherwise.
"I didn't think I would ever see you again, Damon." Her voice cracks, her hand squeezing mine tightly and my eyes close shut. "I swear…if I knew…I would never…I would never have…" she's crying now and I blink once, twice, three times before I snap out of my daze.
"Keep going."
She looks put off from my response but she lets out a shaky cry before continuing.
"I was distraught the next morning." She admits. "I snuck out before he woke up and…that was the only time we did sleep together. It wasn't for his lack of trying but I somehow always managed to put him off. I felt terrible. I felt like I had cheated on you, which then just made me angrier at you because at the time I genuinely believed you were the one who had left me. You did leave me. You pleaded guilty and I was devastated for so long. Despite my anger, I couldn't stop the way I was feeling. So I did what I was doing so well at the time…I put on a smile and I kept going. I pushed away those thoughts and I kept things going with Liam. I always knew I didn't feel the same way about him as he did for me." She bites on her bottom lip nervously. "At the time I wanted to love him but deep down I think I always knew that I was trying to force something that just wasn't there…" she squeezes my hand again.
I nod at her to continue.
"On paper, Liam was the perfect guy for me. He was a pre-med student who was not only smart and attractive, but sweet and polite too. He treated me well. My friends loved him and my parents approved. He was everything that was right and so in turn I was doing everything right." She lets out a dry bitter laugh. "On paper it should have been perfect." She glances at me again and I can see the nerves all over her face. "You know more than anyone how much reality is different." Her voice grows stronger and I'm surprised when she sits up and moves over to straddle me.
She places one hand on my chest while the other sneaks into my hair, her fingers playing at the bottom on my neck. "Liam was a distraction…he was…God…I feel awful saying it but he was second best. He was my second choice. My first choice is you. My first choice has always been you and my first choice will always ever be you, Damon." She leans her forehead against mine and I draw in a nervous breath. "I love you, Damon. I love you so much; I can't stop thinking about you. I can't get you out of my head and out of my heart. I don't want anyone else. All I want is you. I'm sorry that I gave up on you. I'm sorry about Liam…I've never regretted something so much…I just…please forgive me…I love you." She's speaking fast, her voice is giving away her fear but it doesn't matter.
All I can hear is those three words.
The three words that I spent the last four years believing I would never hear again.
"I love you." She whispers against my lips rapidly. I can't stop myself anymore. I clutch the back of her head harshly and crash my lips against hers.
She gasps against my mouth but she responds immediately. Her tongue brushes against mine as we both fight for dominance. I flip her over onto her back and kiss her again before trailing my lips along her cheek to her neck. I nibble on her skin hard, knowing that I will probably leave a mark as I continue to suck, lick and kiss her. "You're mine." I breathe into her neck hastily.
"I know." She breathes out between gasps as I unzip her jeans and I roughly slip my hand into her panties. "I'm yours, Damon." She pants against my neck, her fingers clutching me tightly against her and she shudders when I slip two fingers inside of her. "I'm yours." I keep pumping my fingers back and forth as I hurriedly move her shirt down, my mouth trailing down between the valley of her breasts. "I love you. I'm so in love with you."
I hurriedly pull off my own pants; I don't even remove them pull them past my knees before I'm inside of her.
It's hard and it's fast.
It's probably even a little too rough.
Judging from the noises she is making Elena seems to be enjoying it though.
We both know what this is.
We both know it's what we need.
It's what I need.
Elena reaches her orgasm first but it doesn't take me long to follow. When I do, I collapse in her arms.
Elena holds me tightly in her arms and I feel a tear fall onto my cheek.
I don't know who it belongs too.
"I love you." She whispers into my ear softly.
I believe her.
I don't say it back.
