Author's Note: Trigger Warning for Sexual Assault/Rape

"Why am I concerned about you?" Four asked me, repeating part of my question. "You're acting like the other Amity members that joined Dauntless. I did research on them. Each came here escaping from something that happened to them in Amity. You don't seem any different. I know you've told me and others that nothing has happened. Personally, I think you're lying. You're not just lying to others and I. You're lying to yourself."

"What exactly am I lying about?" I challenged him.

"If nothing really happened, why are you so angry?" He replied. "Why are you having these simulations involving confronting your emotions and being raped?"

"Just because I have these simulations doesn't mean it's actually happened." I countered.

"You have a fear of spiders." He pointed out. "You were bitten by a Brown recluse spider. It's why you have a Raven on your hand to cover up the scar of the bite."

"So?"

"You beat a boy named Adam when we visited the wall a few weeks back." He added. "I know what he sounds like from when we met, and that's the voice I hear in the last two simulations."

"What's your point?" I said impatiently. I was beginning to get uncomfortable. I know where this was going and I wasn't ready to say anything.

"You've been raped." He told me. His eyes looked sympathetic. "You were raped in Amity and you came to Dauntless to get away from it. You're worried he's going to attack your family in Amity if you say anything."

My mouth dropped in surprise. Holy Hell! He's good. Too damn good

"That is a mighty fine theory you have there." I said to him, trying to keep my voice from shaking. If it shook, he knew something was up than it already was. "However, that never happened."

He looked at me without saying anything for a moment. It was freakishly unnerving. "Whatever you say" He said after a while. "You're free to leave."

I bolted up from the chair as fast as I could. I froze in my tracks when I heard him call my name. I turned around to look at him. "Yes?"

"You know where to find me when you're ready to talk." He told me. Obviously, he wasn't convinced of what I said. I rolled my eyes as soon as the door was closed behind me.

The days came and went. I spent most of the time either training or in my bed. Finally, Friday arrived. I debated if I was going to meet Jonas at the wall. I decided that I would. I was interested in what he had to say. Plus, it would be a bonus if he wanted to get back together even if we weren't supposed to because we were in different fractions.

Jonas said he wanted to meet at 9 p.m. It wasn't hard to dress all in black since that's the color of Dauntless. I made sure I wore a hoodie, so no one could see my hair and face. I jumped on the train that would take me to the wall. I didn't have to jump off it this time since there was a stop at the wall. I moved stealthily between the damaged buildings to get to the wall since I didn't want any of the Dauntless guards that protected the wall to see me. I finally found the door that I had gone through when I saw my family in Amity weeks ago. I made the sound of a Raven. I heard a bird's call in return. He was there!

I memorized the code that Four used on the security panel. I punched it in and the door opened. Jonas came through the door. He was wearing a cloak, so I couldn't see his face.

I threw myself into his arms. "I've missed you" I whispered as I hugged him tightly. "Have you missed me?" Jonas didn't say anything. Just nodded his head. "How have you been?" He titled his hand back and forth that indicated "so so". "I guess my dad's death hit you too." I mused. He nodded. Why wasn't he talking? "Obviously, I got your note. What did you want to talk about?"

He kept me to his. However, he reached into his pocket and pulled something out. "I want to talk about this!" He began softly before he stabbed me with something in back. He pushed me away from him. I reached behind me and pulled out the dart. It was a sedation dart. Oh, no

I reluctantly looked up to see that I was staring up into Adam. He was smiling. "This was easy." He mused. "I can't believe how stupid you were to fall for it."

I began to move away from him as he stalked me. The effects of the dart were already working. He went into to grab me, but I jumped kicked him in the face. He slapped me across the face hard. The impact cause my vision to blur, although I'm sure some of that was from the sedation dart. He pushed me onto the concrete before I had time to recover. He straddled my hips and held my wrists on either side of my head.

Fear gave in to anger. I wasn't going to let this happen again. I bit into his shoulder and he cried out in pain. He smacked me a few times across the face before he punched me. He pulled out a knife and held it to my throat.

"If you do that again, I will kill you right here." He threatened with his lips near my ear. He sucked on the ear lobe. I frozed right there. I felt ashamed for freezing. However, he had a knife at my throat. What the fuck was I supposed to do?

As I passed out, he had begun taking off my pants. When I came to however amount of minutes had passed, he was standing up and zipping up his pants. My pants were already back on. However, I felt very wet and sore between my legs. It happened again. He raped me for the second time in less than two months. I was an initiate in Dauntless and I couldn't even stop him.

I saw that he had left the knife on the ground. What a dumb move! I may not have stopped him from raping me. However, I will kill him. I grabbed the knife and launched myself at him. I aimed for his back. He heard me coming unfortunately. He turned around and side stepped. He kicked the knife out of my hand before grabbed me behind my neck and slamming me into the wall...face first. I stumbled back and he kicked me in the chest.

I fell to the ground holding my chest. I was having trouble breathing. It came out in gasps. He punched me again in the face and I ended up on my back again on the ground. He took turns between kicking me in my stomach and in my chest.

"Please stop!" I begged him. There was a gurgle sound, and blood flowed out of my mouth.

"You're pathetic!" He snarled. "You thought you could get away from me in Amity by joining Dauntless. Well, I got you too even though you're in Dauntless now. You're not exactly Dauntless material, are you now?" He kicked me again in the chest and I heard a snap. More blood flowed from my mouth. I was going to die right here.

"What's going on there?" I heard someone shout. I was lucky the guards heard something.

Adam had a look of panic on his face. He didn't want to be caught. "See you again, babe" He said as he knelt beside. He pressed his lips against mine and went through the door. He closed it behind him.

I lay on the ground panting for air with a strong taste of copper in my mouth. My vision was blurry. There was a ringing in my ears. I saw a few blurry figures surround me that had Dauntless uniforms on. One of the knelt beside me and took my pulse. "Let's get her to the medical ward!" was the last thing I heard before darkness overcame me.