Chapter 29 Planks

Raven's POV

I looked at the dumpy looking porridge wondering if I could keep it down. Somehow I didn't think so. Aimlessly I patted my growing stomach, the sad smile on my lips. I missed him with a vengence but I made my bed now I must lie in it. I really wanted to pound my head against something just to make it stop but I couldn't do that either. I couldn't do much in my current state.

Angrily I put the spoon down, couldn't do much was a big fucking under statement. Since my heart failure, my mangled leg and not being able to walk without an aid, I was back to having help with everything, and that meant everything. Luckily for me, Storm had offered to stay with me instead of Iziah, too much time with that woman would drive you crazy, that's how I got this way to begin with at least that's my theory. Having Storm stay with me wasn't really bad (aside from the fact that I needed her help to shower and to get dressed and all the other humilating things in genral) at least she still let me do what the hell I wanted which right now was fixing my house. Angrily I threw the bowl against the wall, the china smashing into a thousand peices.

"Are you ok?" Storm asked rushing inside from mowing the lawns, her hands badly blistered. Green marks over her face and white skin.

"Fan-fucking-tastic"

"You know what you should do?"

"What?" I was waiting for the "speech" since I discharged myself from the hospital. If I was going to die it was going to be in my own fucking house.

"Take your blanket, your Ipod and your spear-gun outside and play target practice. Think of it as a challenge having to hit the moving targets while sitting down"

I laughed despite the dull gut-wrenching feeling I had in my heart. I really couldn't tell if it was his absence or my heart not beating.

"Alright, you wanna help me up?"

Storm hooked her arm under my bad side and gently stood me up. I couldn't help but think of Randy, his way was way more effective but to be fair he was bigger than Storm.

"You know I had that dream again last night" I said as she helped me to sit outside.

"Which dream was that?"

"You know the one where your asleep and they come flying in through the window"

Storm chuckled "You know what we should do tonight"

"Get drunk?"

"No. We will have a girly night"

I just looked at her, neither she or me were girly girl sleepover types. Not that there was anything wrong with that, it just wasn't us.

"By that I mean we'll eat lots of chocolate and watch horror films" Storm laughed at my expression.

"Ooh can we paint each others toenails and talk about boys?" I mocked her somewhat.

"I don't see why you would want to talk about The Miz and his bum-boy but alright"

We both laughed at her comment, so far she hadn't said anything about Randy or my choice. I knew deep down she thought it was a bad choice but at least she understood because no one else did. I wasn't even sure I did. We both fell silent for a moment letting the pale sunshine flow over us while random birds made the odd sound.

"You miss him don't you?" Storm finally asked quietly almost timidly.

"Yeah I do"

"Raven" Storm let out a deep breath, "I think what your doing is stupid and mean. You have done some pretty bad things in your time. Things that would make Randy go 'OMG' and I think it's safe to say that you will be going to hell when you die so why don't you have a little bit of heaven before you go?"

"Are you done?" I asked coldly, her sudden attack bringing back that psycho in me that I tried to keep buried.

Storm patted my leg gently ignoring my tone "I'm just sharing my opinion and possibly the opinion of every fan-girl in this country. What you do is your business and I will support whatever you decide"

I couldn't deny the fact that she had a point, a very valid point. I couldn't chop and change though I had pushed him away I couldn't expect him to come back at my whim.

"I'm gonna go and get some stuff from in town. Are you going to be alright here by yourself?"

"Yes mother"

"No that's you remember" Storm joked at me making her way down the hill.

I just sat and watched her disappear into the distance not really thinking of much. Idly stroking my tummy I went back to the night I guessed our baby was concieved. If I was right it would of been the night he took me home from the club and revealed that he was my sweet stalker. Smiling at the faint memory I recalled how damn nervous I was, I always got nervous around him and the butterflies in my stomach. I loved being that close in his arms, every ripped muscle slid against me. As we danced his fingertips slid up my singlet and lingered on my lower back. I should of stopped him but it felt way too good to stop. The sexual tension had been mounting ever since he suggested a different activity he wanted to do with me. Little did he know that I was about to agree and ask him to take me back to the hotel right then and there. After a while he learnt that I would pretty much do almost anything he asked if he had those strong tattooed arms around me. I pushed the thoughts away, I couldn't linger on them anymore. I hated this, after everything I had been through this was how it was going to end.

Randy's POV

The entire world seemed to be quiet and lifeless or maybe it was just this street. I looked at the hill for a moment wondering if I could get up there. I had thoroughly scrubbed myself clean so I didn't reek of booze and ciggirettes, that didn't stop my freaking hang-over though. Every noise was amplified by a million today and I just prayed that her sister wasn't there. I powered up the hill unsure on what I was going to say to her, I wasn't sure there was anything I could say to her.

"You know what I like about this street? It's quiet and away from people" I said making her jump a little. She was too lost in her own thoughts to notice me.

She looked up at me, she tried to keep her eyes cold but I saw them melt and I knew Iziah was right. "Why are you here?"

I half shrugged sitting beside her "Lets see, your pregnant with my child, I have a right to see how thats going"

"It's fine. You can go now" She picked up the spear-gun pointedly.

I took it from her like she asked me if I wanted to see it "I've always wanted to shoot one of these things. Do you have a target?"

"Why are you here?" She asked again as I put the spear gun outta her reach.

"Told you, pregnant, have a right to know and so on and so forth"

She hated it when I spoke in riddles or when I just avoided the question all together. "How have things been going?"

"Fine"

"Is Iziah staying with you?"

"Storm" She was back to answering with one word answers. My patience had finally come to an end and I just wanted to be honest. It had worked for her most of her life, maybe I should give it a shot.

"Raven why did you lie to me?"

"Because I thought that I could forgive you if I acted. Turns out I can't"

"You know that's not what I meant. You lied about not loving me"

"And how do you know that?"

"I had a visitor last night and she told me"

"That tratiorous bitch!" Raven yelled smacking her hand on the porch. "I knew she would find someway to interfere."

Gently I took her hand in mine and made her look at me "Look I'm tired of this crap and I know you are too, it's not good for the baby. Do you love me or not?"

"Yes" She slid her hand out from mine "But I can't do this to you, not after everything you have worked for"

"Raven your entire life you have looked after everyone else. Let me take care of you"

"No Randy" She looked away from me, her eyes filling up with tears.

Gently I grabbed her face and made her look at me, "Ok. Just answer this one question before I go. Why are you pushing me away? The real hidden reason Raven"

She just looked at me like she was too frightened to speak. Instead she nuzzled her cheek into my hand.

"Raven" I probed, I knew there was something more to this and I needed to know what the fuck it was.

"I'm scared"

It came out like a strangled whisper, the words getting stuck in her throat.

I pulled her closer to me wrapping my arms around her, "I am not going to let you go through this alone Raven. I will be here every step of the way even if I have to handcuff us together"

"Are you sure that's what you want? Because you don't seem to realise just what this means"

"I don't give a fuck what it means Rae. You are stuck with me now and the only way out is suicide"

She giggled at my dry-wit and bad choice of words.

"I love you Randy" She sighed against my chest. As I looked down at this small woman in my arms I saw something different. She was no longer that strong, strange, psychotic woman, she was a scared, lonely, lost girl wondering why she was going through this shit. I kissed the top of her head lovingly, right then and there I made a silent vow to always love her no matter what.

Raven's POV

I finally peeled out of his arms and I finally realised that I couldn't let him go, I had fought so hard to defend our relationship I couldn't just walk away from it now. He was ready to go to the lengths for me, why couldn't I do the same for him? Gently I lent up and pressed my lips against his, I had missed them alot more than I realised. It wasn't long before his tongue pushed into my mouth, his arms wrapped around me. I broke away needing to breathe, my hands running up his arms. In those beautiful blue eyes I saw the certainty and love that I had been looking for. With more passion I kissed him hard my tongue snaking inside his mouth. Gently he pushed me backwards so I was on my back and he was on top of me. The groans started as soon as he kissed down my neck, sucking and biting the sensitive flesh. Like we were in my bedroom and not out in the open I tugged his shirt up over his head.

"Inside?" Randy breathed looking at me. The look in his eyes suggested he didn't care where this happened as long as it happened.

"Here" I said huskily running a hand down to the growing bulge in his jeans. Suddenly Randy pulled away and for a moment my heart sank. Instead he moved so we were lying across the porch instead of down the steps. Aggressively he pulled the blanket towards him until I was pinned under his 6'4" frame. His lips crashed down on mine again, his hand sliding up my shirt. I tugged him tighter to my body his hand squeezing my tits as we kissed. Randy slid his hand further down until it was up my skirt teasing me through the black material. I pushed my hips up best I could trying to get more of his hand. That familiar shiver chorused through my body as he kept delivering that delightful pleasure. In a frenzy and a blur of hands I undid his jeans while he pushed a finger inside me. The walls clutching at him desperately wanting more. He pulled his fingers out and forced them in my mouth, the juices running over my tongue. Even that drove me crazy with lust as he pulled my panties off and tossed them some where. I needed him inside me never before, it was more than just a horny craving, for the first time ever it was making love. (Man I hated that phrase but it was the only one that made sense right now) He peeled off his jeans and pulled the blanket over him, his lips going back to mine in a rush. Randy slid inside me easily until he was buried fully inside. Gently as first he slid inside me, short gentle strokes at first, sliding my hands up his arms I pulled him down to me basically slamming my tongue down his throat. With each movement his strokes got harder and faster, my hips rising to meet his thrusts. He had never felt so huge before and I was afraid he would actually do some real damage but I couldn't stop nor did I want too.

The growls and moans just kept getting louder and louder and I'm shocked that none of my neighbours heard us. With his hands entwined in mine he gave a few final strokes as he came deep inside me. The new warmth had never felt so amazing and I wanted it to last as long as possible. He dipped his lips to mine again, his kisses more gentle and slow. He just lay on me kissing as the excitement settled down. Eventually he rolled off me and pulled me into his arms, his lips still on mine as we lay in the blanket on my fixed porch. For the first time since we were children I was glad Iziah had interfered.

Randy's POV

I never wanted this to end even though I knew it was going too, I didn't want to think about it but it was in the back of my mind. This beautiful woman who I loved with all my heart was dying, man if only God was real I would punt him for doing this. It was like we were in bed as she snuggled up in my chest I was just thankful we had a blanket cause that would of gotten real awkward if someone came up the hill. Her smooth back was against my chest my hand stroking over her growing belly. Everything was silent and all that could be heard was the random bird and water sprinklers. Raven let out a small giggle and I had to wrench my head over to look at her.

"And what are you giggling at?"

"We're acting like we've been apart for years"

"It seems like that to me" I shrugged, it really felt like I hadn't seen her in forever. "At any rate I'm glad your sister came over last night"

"Did you have fun with her?" She asked innocently, I realised how dodgy that sounded.

"Yes I did. I really enjoyed it when she smacked me on the chest and kept calling me an idiot"

"Well she don't have the guts to call me an idiot so my guess is that she called you one instead even though she meant me"

"Why is she so afraid of you? From what I hear your as psycho as each other"

Raven giggled again "I shot her with my crossbow"

"Why?"

"Because she touched it"

"Now I'm beginning to see why people call you insane"

"I'm not insane I'm just addicted to sharp things"

I kissed her neck gently "If it helps I won't touch your crossbow"

"Thank you"

"Raven is there a reason your panties are in the middle of your drive-way?" A voice cut in. We both looked up and for once I saw a girl that looked just as weird as Rae and Izzy. She was tall with long white hair and white eyes. She was whiter than Sheamus.

"Hey Storm" Raven said before laying back down. "He threw them down there"

She looked at us before smiling "Aww your back together"

"Yeah bout fucking time too" I said possibly over stepping the mark.

Storm laughed "See Raven, he got it. Why couldn't you?" She took a seat on the steps only inches away from us. I guess it didn't phase her knowing what we just finished doing.

"Because I was trying not to be selfish"

"Yes and I know that you have this policy about not being a selfish bitch and I think it's adorable but now it's time that you start acting like the insane monster that we as a society have made you out to be"

"Yeah I got cha Storm, now shut it your ruining the images of the hot naked man next to me"

Storm laughed "I'm just glad I'm off the hook for girly night because I couldn't find any decent films, all I could find in the horror section was The Marine" She stood up and stepped around us to go inside.

"Storm that's not a horror"

"Clearly you've never seen John Cena act Randy"