~A/N So very sorry for making you wait for another chapter. I've been really consumed with my new story, Separation and Lies. (shameful plug if you haven't checked it out) Of course, this one's still very near and dear to my heart. I left you all hanging in a bad place last time. Some of you might be wondering if I'm all about angst and if I'm ever going to throw you a bone. Well, here you go, puppies... a nice juicy bone is in this chapter. Chew on it, we have many things coming up in the near future.
Chapter 29: The Worst of Times, The Best of Times
I'd never been so uncomfortable in my own bed. I tossed and turned, eventually stripping the whole thing down to only the fitted sheet. Fuck it. I was ready to give up on sleep to go for a run instead. Bella and I fought for the first time, like a real blowout. I couldn't figure out what her strange attachment was to Cullen. She swore it wasn't like that, it was just that she knew when or if he was lying. Naive is what is was. They were all cunning liars. She thought I didn't give her any credit. It was a big mess. I didn't want to sleep away from her, but she wasn't getting off that easy. I wasn't ready to forgive her for scaring me like that, so we hadn't spoken a word since the garage. I didn't glance her way even once during dinner. I wasn't sure if Mom and Charlie noticed or not. Bella claimed she had tons of homework and hid out in her room most of the night.
At least, the three inept pups were done with their extended patrols. I had enough of them for the day and I'm sure after the punishment that was inflicted on them, they wouldn't want to see me for quite a while. I decided to grab a snack first before heading out. A snack turned into a sandwich with a bag of chips. Then I decided to wash it down with a few scoops of ice cream. Being pissed made me hungry. I rinsed off my dishes and started towards the door. I heard her on the stairs before she said anything.
"You going out?"
My hand was on the doorknob. It was obvious. "You think?"
"It's not your normal patrol."
"Well, now that we're pretty sure Cullen murdered someone, I have extra shit to do. I've got three guys out searching for a body."
"Edward said the body would never be found."
I let go of the door and turned around. "Oh, so that's how it is. Edward's always right. He speaks the truth because the two of you have an unspoken language and trust. Tell me more about your special bond." My binge in the kitchen had only partially calmed me down. I was quickly becoming irate again.
Bella backed up a few steps, but ended up tripping and falling hard on her ass. I couldn't help it, I was alarmed to see her tumble to the ground, especially since it was all my fault. I was stepping towards her in a rather menacing way. "Bells, are you okay? I'm sorry."
She tried to stand but whimpered. "Ow, my stupid, bony ass. That hurt."
I came to her aid and scooped her up. I was going to take her back to bed, and make sure she wasn't hurt too bad. I laid her on the bed. "Do you need ice?"
"No, I don't think so. It's fine. Just a sharp, quick pain. It's easing up now."
"Turn over, let me see."
Bella smirked. "You want to see my booty that bad, Jake?"
I did, but I just remember I was mad at her. "No, I want to see if you're bruised or scraped."
She sat up. "Seriously, it doesn't hurt anymore. It wasn't your fault." I backed up a bit. If she wasn't hurt, I should be going. "Jake, can we talk please? I've been tossing and turning. I can't sleep."
"I really should go check on the guys."
"Can't it wait ten minutes? I screwed up. I'm sorry. Don't people in successful relationships swear not to go to bed angry?"
I had a seat next to her. Bella grabbed my hands. She had tears in her eyes. I knew she was remorseful, but I had done my best to convince her how dangerous Cullen was and it seemed I'd failed. It had nothing to do with me trying to control her or tell her who she could be friends with. That leech had been obsessed with her since she came to town. Him being anywhere near her, made my skin crawl.
"Bells, did you tell me everything?"
"Yes, I swear I told you every last detail. I was only going to let him know we saw him following Evette and hope that he might admit something. I honestly don't know what he did to make me feel so fuzzy, but I told you how he taunted me then pulled away. Maybe he's trying to convince me how dangerous he is as well. I'm so stupid. I know that now. I just wanted to help you. I've been so worried Evette won't wake up and you'll get pulled in as a suspect."
"I can take care of myself. You, however, are vulnerable."
Bella begged me to forgive her again. Of course, I was going to. I couldn't stay mad at her. She needed to understand our entire fight had been about my fear for her safety.
"Swear you'll never take a risk like that again."
"I swear. I promise. I love you so much, Jake. I would be miserable if you broke up with me."
Broke up? Hell, she was taking one fight a bit too seriously. I didn't think breaking up was ever an option. I wouldn't survive without her. I kissed her softly. Sue was doing really well on Dr. Cullen's treatment plan, I wouldn't make them leave because of that reason alone, but he was going to have to keep Edward on some type of lockdown. I was done with allowing him at school. That charade was over. I really needed to find that body, not only for the investigation, but also to prove to Dr. Fang his son was unhinged.
"You have school tomorrow. I should let you get some rest. I'll go see what's up with the guys and then I'll be back."
"I don't want you to go just yet. I need you."
Bella climbed into my lap. She started kissing my face, down my neck and eventually my lips. I needed her too. It didn't take long before a few gentle kisses turned into a heavy duty makeout session. Quil, Sam and Jared could call me if something was up. I really didn't have to leave if this is what she had on her mind.
She'd gotten much bolder. Each time we were alone, she was a little more forceful and sure of herself. My skin twitched wherever her fingers roamed, first on my back and then down my chest. Bella traced the lines of my stomach muscles. I was painfully hard. I knew she felt it underneath her. When she got down to the waistband of my shorts. I grabbed her greedy fingers.
"Bells, wait... " I wanted to go further, do more with her, but I wasn't sure what her motivation was. I didn't want our first time to be motivated by guilt. I still was trying to plan something special for her.
She shook her head side to side. "I know, but remember what we said? We can have fun without going all the way. Let me take care of you. I want to."
I let go of her hand, anxious to see what she meant by that statement. Bella stayed on the outside of my shorts, but she found how turned on I was and massaged her palm over the bulge that was barely disguised by my loose fitting gym shorts. I groaned at her touch.
"On your back, mister." I hiked my eyebrow at her. "I mean it. Lie down."
Oh shit, this was about to get good, really fucking quick. I did what she asked. Bella sat on her knees next to me. She stroked my cock a few more times over the fabric, but then grasped on each side at the waist. I lifted my hips and let her push them all the down, only giving her assistance when they reached my knees by kicking them out of the way. I sprang to life right in front of her. She froze.
"Oh my gosh, sex is gonna hurt so bad. What if it won't fit?"
I grinned with a mixture of amusement, anticipation and pride. I pulled her down, slipped my hands under my tee shirt that she wore so well. I nipped her neck. "I'll make sure you're okay, trust me, we'll fit together perfectly." We kissed some more, but I was completely naked, Bella had too many clothes on. I pulled the shirt off her so I could feel her breasts against my heated skin.
She moved her hand slowly back down my body again. She was a little more hesitant without my shorts on, but I guided her. Bella's tiny hand wrapped around my erection for the first time almost made me lose it. She didn't even have to move, I could easily come on the spot. That would have been an injustice. She would probably worry if I'd last long enough to please her once we actually did have sex. I took a deep breath. You can do this Black. You're girl wants to please you, let her.
I bit my lip between my teeth, as she started tentatively moving her hand up and down my shaft. "Is this good? I don't know what I'm doing."
She was too cute. The fact that she asked if it was good, when her touching my junk had been my number one fantasy, since the first time I jerked off in the shower with her body soap made me smile. "Yeah, baby. Keep going. You can be a little rougher, don't worry, you won't hurt me."
"Show me," was her simple request. At first she watched, which was hotter than I imagined, then she joined in until I was extremely confident she was fully ready to take the lead. My hand would be better occupied touching parts of her. I rubbed her tits, rolled her nipple between my fingers while Bella worked me with perfect motions. I could smell that fruity soap in the air mixed with the heady scent of her arousal. It was the perfect combination.
Hard to believe one of the most suck ass days of my life had come to this. "Bells, you're so fucking hot. This feels so good." She leaned over so I could kiss her. We both said "I love you" when we took a breath. I wanted to touch her now, like she was touching me, but as I made a move for her panties, Bella pushed my hand back.
"Honey, please."
"No, this is all about taking care of my man." She licked and sucked my skin into her mouth directly over my collarbone. Her fingers kept moving over me and I allowed myself to fantasize what it would be like to be buried in her sweet pussy. My wolf stirred and reminded me how perfect that virgin channel would be. Bells was pure, untouched by any other. I would forever be the only man with claim to her body. Again, I could easily come in her hands, but Bella was descending down my chest again. This time it was her mouth, her hands were occupied.
We were testing brand new waters, she didn't have to try everything at once, but I couldn't help wondering, was she going to go there? She looked up my body with hooded eyes. Her hand stilled. She was chewing her lip. I could tell her right now she didn't have to, but instead I slightly nodded in an affirmative motion. I wanted to know what it would feel like, I needed to know.
She let go of her lip and hesitantly leaned her face in. I propped up on my elbows. I had to watch. I moved my right hand down to her cheek. "Only if you really want to."
She answered by taking just the head in her warm, wet mouth. My hips bucked, my hand grabbed tighter against her neck. Bella swirled her tongue around me and once again, I was struggling with losing control. She quickly developed a technique. No way, could I tell it was her first time. It was the best I'd ever had. Bella put so much care and attention into pleasing me. I realized just how different it was being with someone that I loved so completely, that also loved me back.
I managed to growl out a few sentiments. "Fuck, baby. That's so hot. Just like that... " I was about to blow, so I gently pushed her up. I grabbed over her hand and helped her give the last few strokes that would culminate in a fucking fantastic orgasm. I spewed all over our hands and my stomach. It seemed like I'd never stop coming. Bella smiled ear to ear and let out a few giggles.
"Laughing, huh? Not sure if that's how you should finish off your guy by laughing at him."
Bella grabbed her shirt and started to clean me up. She was so precious to me. I stared at her bare top half, so damn sexy. Mine. All mine. She told me what was so amusing. "It's just so much. I had no idea."
I tossed the shirt aside, sat up and wrapped her tightly in my arms. "That's normal for me, so you better never forget one of your pills baby, cuz next time I come like that, it's going to be deep inside you." We started kissing again and toppled over to the mattress.
Bella pulled back, "Do you mean it, Jake? I'm so ready. I mean, how long until you can do it again?" I was already on my way after kissing her with her shirt off. "I want to right now."
I told her I had other things in mind, but I'd be making love to her soon enough. I was ready to return the favor she'd just given me. I wanted to taste her too. I couldn't wait to make her come. We started kissing and it wasn't long before I had her under me. She opened her legs wide and my newly acquired hard on was pushing against the crotch of her panties. She was soaked through. I groaned in her ear. I really did want to wait for another night before I made her completely mine, but she was making it tough to postpone the inevitable.
I wasn't sure I could stop with her practically begging for it as well. Then out of the silence, a distinct howl rang out. Fuck, really, now of all times?
I stopped. Lifted my head and listened. Two more howls. "Shit. I've gotta go, honey. It's Quil."
"Quil? Didn't you give him a death threat about all his interruptions?"
"Yeah, but this is serious. It's a distress howl. I have to go." I kissed her. Damn, I hated leaving her more than ever. I totally owed her for how good she'd been to me, but it would have to wait until another time. "I love you. Thanks so much, you know for... for everything. You were so amazing."
"You're pleased."
I kissed her another time just as more howls echoed in my ears. "You have no idea. I officially owe you, big time."
"You don't owe me, Jake. I wanted to make you feel good. I wasn't expecting anything in return."
She succeeded, but I still was going to repay the favor. That moment couldn't come soon enough. I told her goodnight and that I'd be back as soon as I could.
Bella asked one more question before I walked out the door. "You forgive me? Are we good?"
I blew her a kiss. Yeah, we were better than good. Bella and I together were actually pretty fucking great.
~Thanks for reading.
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