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Finn had been going to the PTSD meetings for a month now. He had been meeting with Eric the counselor two times a week. He was starting to feel better. He was still having the nightmare, but it wasn't as frequent. When he woke up from it he wouldn't find himself screaming. He knew he was making process, but he wished it wasn't such a long process. He was starting to drive short distances as well.
Finn had talked to Eric about Erin. Eric told him that it was time to finally put Erin to rest. He told him it would be good for him to go to the cemetery and give a final goodbye. It was a good form of closure and it would give him the chance to move on with his new family with a clean slate.
That was why Finn Hudson was standing in front of a simple headstone that said:
Erin Elizabeth Clancy
May 4th, 1992 – June 14th, 2012
Loving daughter and friend
Finn got down on the ground in front of the headstone and laid the half a dozen roses next to it. He couldn't believe that it had been almost four years since it had happened. He said, "Hey Erin. I know it's been a long time. It's been a rough time around here. I just wanted to come and say goodbye. I probably should have done this a long time ago. I just couldn't do it. After losing you and the baby I just didn't want to go on. I felt like it should have been me. I should have been the one to lose my life. Not you and our innocent baby. I hope you are taking care of our little one. I can't wait to meet them someday.
"E, I met someone. I have two daughters. They are beautiful and perfect. Erin, I'm in love. I never thought after you I would find someone else, but I have. She has been there for me through all of this PTSD stuff. In the beginning I was the biggest jerk to her. It is something I'm not proud of. I really don't deserve her or our girls. Mollie and Alydia are my world. I know I would feel the same way about our little one had things worked out that way.
"I just want to thank you for loving me and showing me love. I appreciate it and I am thankful for the year that we got to share together. I miss you. I think I will always miss you. I just have to let you go. Rachel needs all of me. I need all of her, too. I plan on asking her to marry me. She actually reminds me a lot of you, but she is her own person. I will never forget you, but I need to move on like Puck and Quinn have been telling me to for years."
Finn kissed the tip of his fingertips and touched the top of the headstone.
Finn walked back to his car where Rachel was waiting on him. He leaned over to kiss her. She asked, "Are you okay, baby?"
Finn smiled and said, "I am, now. It was hard, but it was overdue. Rachel, I love you."
"But you love Erin, too."
Finn lowered his head. "Yeah. I'm sorry."
"I understand. There are just some people you just don't get over."
"That still doesn't stop me from loving you, Molls and Lydi."
Rachel kissed his cheek. "You don't have to explain anything. I know it is hard. I'm going to be here. I just want you to know that I love you, too."
Finn reached over and grabbed her hand. He looked in the backseat of the car and said, "And how are daddy's little girls? He sure does love you."
Rachel looked back as well and said, "They love their daddy, too. Can you believe they are two months old already?"
"It doesn't seem possible. Rach, we have been together for two months, officially that is."
"They have been a pretty good two months, too."
"Let's go get something to eat. If daddy is hungry his girls have to be starving."
Rachel chuckled and said, "I actually think you are right. It is about time for the girls to have lunch. I'm a little hungry myself."
Finn squeezed her hand and they were on their way out of the cemetery to lunch. Finn felt like he could really move on now. He was hoping that this would help with his current situation and maybe make it easier to get past some of the PTSD stuff he was feeling.
Finn and Rachel walk into their apartment with the girls. They are getting ready to sit down on the couch and have their nightly play with the girls when Puck and Quinn race into their apartment with Beth trailing behind them with a big smile on her face.
Finn looked up at the pair as Beth went straight to Rachel to play with Mollie. He cuddled with Alydia while waiting for an answer.
Puck said, "We're going to have a baby. Q is four months pregnant!"
Rachel looked up and said, "Four months!"
Quinn said, "Yeah. I wanted to make sure there was a chance this one would last. We aren't going to buy anything for a while though. I have had the suspicion that we were pregnant, but I didn't really want to think about it. I was afraid to be heartbroken again."
Finn said, "Bethy, you are going to have a baby brother or sister. What do you think about that?"
"Cool. I like babies."
The adults chuckled. Beth was adorable and in love the Finn and Rachel's little girls. She would be a great big sister.
Rachel said, "I'm so happy for you. The girls and your baby are going to be best friends."
Quinn came over and took Mollie from Rachel. She was happy to think that she would hopefully be holding a baby of her own in her arms in five months if all worked out this time. Puck just stood off to the side and watched his wife. She looked truly happy. He just hoped that this one worked out.
Finn and Rachel had put the girls to bed in their room for the first time. They had gotten a little cramped for their bassinets. It broke Rachel's heart to think that her little girls were already getting big.
Finn told her, "Rach, they are supposed to get bigger. That is why they have the cribs. They are going to be fine. They are right across the hall. You have the baby monitor so that we can get to them if they need us. They are sleeping through the night practically anyway. We just have to wake them for feedings."
"Finny, they are getting so big."
"Oh, babe. It's okay." He kissed her head and pulled her out of the nursery. They made their way to the living room to spend some time alone.
Rachel put a movie and cuddled up to Finn on the couch. She loved the little alone time they got after they put the girls to sleep. Finn kissed the top of her head and pulled her closer to him. He loved to have her as close as possible.
She smiled up at him and said, "Today turned out to be an interesting day, huh?"
Finn said, "Yeah. It was like one book closed and another opened."
"I really hope things work out for them this time. They are so happy. I don't think I could see Q go through that again."
"I just have a feeling that it will. It is time for good things to come their way. They got Beth and now they are going to have another baby. I'm just sure of it."
Rachel smiled. "You are such a sap. Fatherhood has made you cheesy and super cute."
Finn sarcastically and said, "How dare you say that? I thought you thought I was cute for the beginning."
"Well, I did. Then things changed, but I think you are cute again now."
"I'm glad you feel that way now. I don't know what I would do if you didn't. I want you to know that I'll fight for you until the very end."
"I know you would and that helps me out. Seeing the way that you waited for me all those months. I'm glad I can call you mine."
"I will forever be yours. Well, you, Molls and Lydi have me until the very end."
Rachel smiled. "That is all I ever wanted."
"Good." The two of them snuggled up closer again and watched 21 Jumpstreet. It was a good chance for them to have a break and spend some much needed time alone in a moderately quiet atmosphere. That was until they were shook out of it by their daughters.
