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Magnus POV
Magnus hated Woolsey Scott. He hated him with a burning passion. Before Alec, Woolsey had seemed like the perfect guy; he was hot, smart, and completely emotionless. There were never any complications for Woolsey Scott; he knew what he wanted and had he took it, never letting feelings get in the way. Woolsey made fun of people who let emotions run their lives, especially women. Tessa had always hated him; she had even threatened to stab him with a fire poker after a particularly spirited argument. Woolsey liked to bug her about Will and Jem, how could you love two people at once? He would ask. She would invariably reply, "At least I have the capacity for love", or something else to that extent. But no matter what she said, Woolsey would just laugh, like she was an amusing character from a book.
After the business with Camille, Woolsey had seemed perfect to Magnus. He had used to admire Woolsey's objectiveness and nonchalance, but that was before he had met Alec. Now it was different. Now Magnus realised that for all his talking, Woolsey wasn't happy, not really. Happiness came from caring, and Woolsey didn't care about anything. If he hadn't been gay as a maypole, Camille would have been perfect for him. Now Magnus saw what bugged Tessa so much. It wasn't that Woolsey was mean; it was that he treated love like a disease, and one that only stupid people could get. He was selfish and inconsiderate, and only talked to people whom he thought would help him get something, or advance him socially. He was like an old society lady and he was no better than the homophobic jerks at the institute.
Magnus had changed in the past few months. He no longer aspired to be like Woolsey, he wanted nothing to do with him. The thing that had changed was obvious; he had fallen in love. He had caught the disease. In Woolsey's eyes he had probably sunk, from the level of a friend/occasional lover, to yet another one of the "little people" with "funny little emotions" who he liked to observe. But Magnus didn't care what Woolsey thought; Woolsey had sunk low in Magnus's eyes too. Woolsey had hurt Alec, and had enjoyed it. That was unforgivable
Magnus knew that he had hurt Alec as well; he had seen the horrified look in his eyes. The very look that he had always feared that he would see. He felt awful about it.
Magnus knew that he was not good or innocent like Alec; his past was complicated and uncomfortable. He didn't want to talk about it; he didn't want to face Alec's judgement. Woolsey had implied that he loved Alec he would have told him about Camille and Will and…there were things that not even Woolsey knew. But what did Woolsey know about love? The reason Magnus hadn't told Alec anything was because he loved him, if he told Alec everything, he might lose him.
The look in Alec's eyes as he fled the apartment had nearly broken Magnus's heart. Everything had been going so well! Magnus fingered the necklace that Alec had given him, the one that was the exact blue of his eyes. It was simple, but it was still somehow the most beautiful piece of jewellery that he had ever owned. The fact that Alec had one as well was even better. Alec didn't even seem to understand how much it meant that he would wear something like that. Something that showed the world, even in a tiny way, that Alec was his. It meant that he and Alec were getting even closer, and Magnus wasn't about to screw that up, especially not because of something Woolsey Scott said.
He tried phoning Alec, but his call was rejected with a text;
Alec: Sorry Magnus, can't talk now, family dinner.
Magnus couldn't tell if that was the real reason Alec didn't respond, but Alec wouldn't blow him off. Right?
Magnus obsessed about it for the rest of the night. He wanted to call someone, but nobody else was free. It was probably because Magnus was the only person ever who would be alone on Christmas. Except maybe Woolsey, but there was no way in hell Magnus was going to call Woolsey. He tried to distract himself with America's Next Top Model, but not even Tyra Banks and bitchy models were helping him feel better.
Alec didn't call him back until the next day. Magnus picked up on the first ring. "Alexander! Thank you for calling."
"Yeah, I'm sorry for not calling sooner, but you know… Family…" There was an awkward silence, "Listen Alec, what Woolsey said about me…"
"Was it true?"
"What?"
"Was it true what he said?" Alec's voice sounded very small, near breaking point. Magnus didn't know what to say, for all his obsessing, he still didn't know what to do. "It is sort of true. I did go out with Camille, but it wasn't anything like what we have."
"Really?"
"Of course, I-" Magnus decided that this was not the time to profess his love and possibly scare Alec off, "I really like you, Camille is nothing to me."
"What about-"
"Alec. I was… different before I met you. Do you think we could just, not talk about it?"
"Like, not talk about it ever?" Asked Alec. "I don't know," Replied Magnus, "I just need you to trust me, can you do that?" After those words left Magnus's mouth the silence was the longest he had ever experienced. Finally Alec spoke, "I do trust you Magnus and… I guess, you don't have to talk about anything of you don't want to."
"Thank you Alec."
"Yeah… I have to go, my family is going to some ski resort and I need to pack."
"Really?" Magnus heart sank. "Yeah," said Alec, "It was a Christmas present. I'll be gone until after New Years. Sorry."
"It's not your fault. Just promise to call me."
"Of course, bye Magnus."
"Bye darling." Magnus sighed as he hung up. He hated this. He felt like he was suddenly losing Alec and he didn't know how to fix it. His past would scare Alec away, and keeping his past a secret would push him away, either way, both options included the word away. Away was the last place Magnus wanted Alec to be.
Woolsey had said that their relationship was destined to crash and burn. Magnus didn't want to believe it. But along with being an asshole, one of Woolsey's worst traits was that he had an annoying habit of being right.
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