Chapter 29, enjoy!
Over the next few weeks, Dani couldn't help but notice how distant Santana was being, intimately. The taller girl wouldn't seem interested in taking advantage of having the room to themselves and sometimes she'd make excuses and claim she was busy or just not in the mood. She'd cut their kisses short, along with any other close contact. In the beginning, the blonde thought she was just being paranoid, but when things didn't change, it concerned her. She finally decided to speak up and ask Santana what's wrong.
They were relaxing in Dani's room alone, Christine out at her club meeting. Dani was curled into Santana's side as they lounged comfortably in bed. As the shorter girl nibbled and nipped at Santana's neck, her hands traveled under her shirt to cup her breast. Santana slowly moved her hand to Dani's arm and gently pulled it away.
"Not tonight, babe."
Dani sighed and removed her lips from the taller girl's neck to look at her. "You said that the other day, and you also said it last week. What's going on with you, San?"
"Nothing, I'm just…a little sore from the gym," Santana lied. She didn't want to tell Dani the real reason why she'd been avoiding much contact with her. She knew her reasons were silly, but she couldn't help how she felt.
Dani didn't believe Santana for a second. Since when was she ever sore from the gym? They went together 95 percent of the time and they always did the same routines at the same pace and intensity. Her body was used to the workouts, she wasn't sore. "I don't believe you. You've been distant for the past couple of weeks, what's wrong? Are…are you not attracted to me anymore?"
"No Dani, of course I'm still attracted to you. It's just…I…"
"What is it? Baby please just talk to me. Tell me what's wrong."
Santana avoided eye contact with the blonde, trying to think of the best way to explain herself.
"Santana, look at me." Dani waited for their eyes to meet. The brunette slowly looked down at the girl on her side, taking in the worry and fear in her eyes. "I don't like this. Tell me what's wrong."
"Okay." Santana took a deep breath before she began to talk. "Every time I kiss you, I just can't seem to get the image of Jennifer kissing you that day out of my head."
Dani silently cursed Jennifer in her head.
"I know you said it meant nothing and you didn't feel anything, and I believe you. But it just really killed me to see someone else kiss you. And that someone else happened to be the person you were once in love with. It's just too much. And I love kissing you, you know how much I love kissing you, but I just…"
The blonde looked at her girlfriend and felt horrible learning that she was dealing with this for weeks. "I'm so sorry, San. Wha-what can I do?"
"You don't have to be sorry, babe. You didn't do anything wrong." Santana lifted her hand to cup Dani's face.
"But I feel like I did."
"You didn't. It's me. I want to forget about it. I need to forget about it. It's not fair to you."
Dani leaned up and captured the brunette's lips with her own. She pulled away after a few seconds, then leaned in to kiss her lips again.
Santana was trying, but the image kept popping up in her head. She began to pull away as she slightly shook her head.
"Don't pull away," Dani said against the taller girl's lips. "Santana, I love you. I love you and only you. Jennifer doesn't matter."
"I'm trying," Santana whispered. She needed her brain to cooperate. There was one more month until graduation, then they'd be apart until she went to New York in June. So she should be making the most of these moments because she knows she wont be able to touch her for a month.
Dani pecked the darker girl's lips softly. "Try harder," she said between kisses. "I need you to kiss me. I need you to kiss me and not think about her." She kissed her again. "This is exactly what she wants. Don't give her what she wants." The blonde shifted herself up and swung her leg over Santana's body so that she could straddle her thighs. The taller girl sat up some so her back was leaned against the headboard of the bed and rested her hands on the shorter girl's thighs.
"Just forget about her." Dani pecked Santana's lips. "Forget about her, okay?" She kissed her deeper. "Forget about her. I love you." Dani was practically pleading. She didn't want to spend their last month before they graduated, distant because of Jennifer. Once again, she refused to let her screw up her and Santana's relationship. "Please. I need you, Santana. I feel like we haven't touched each other in ages."
The taller girl glided her hands up to Dani's waist and squeezed gently as she kissed her back, fighting all the negative images in her head. Dani was right and she wasn't about to let Jennifer have the upper hand in this. She kissed her back with more force and brought her arms around Dani's back, pulling her in closer. "I'm sorry I was distant. I love you Dani."
"I love you too." The shorter girl parted their lips and lifted Santana's shirt to remove it. She tossed it to the side, then took off her own shirt as well. Their lips met again and Dani was hungry to feel Santana on her fingers and wasted no time sliding her hand into the taller girl's sleep shorts. Dani's hand grazed the taller girl's core outside of her underwear, earning a satisfying moan. After teasing for a few more minutes, she slid her hand into the underwear and felt the wetness that always made her so excited. "God, I really missed touching you."
Santana managed to spread her legs more, despite Dani straddling her. She missed her girlfriend's touch so much and mentally kicked herself for allowing her thoughts to get in the way of making love with her. A moan erupted from her throat as she felt Dani's fingers gently circle her. She pulled away from the blonde's lips for air and looked up into her eyes. "You're so beautiful," she breathed. Dani grinned and placed a kiss onto her lips.
"So are you." Dani entered two fingers into Santana without warning and smirked when the taller girl gasped from the sudden invasion. She pumped in and out slowly at first, then sped up the pace, curling her fingers up to find her most sensitive spot.
"Oh my god, right there," Santana panted when Dani found it. She was getting close to her orgasm and knew that if Dani continued to hit her g spot, she'd explode any second.
"Are you gunna come for me baby?"
"Yes. Please don't stop," Santana begged. "I'm so close."
Dani leaned down and took the darker girl's bottom lip into her mouth and sucked just the way she liked it and it sent her off the edge a few moments later.
Santana leaned her head back, her lip popping out of Dani's mouth, and let out a soft cry of pleasure as her orgasm took over her body. She unconsciously tightened her arms around the blonde's body and ground here hips against her hand.
Dani crashed her lips into Santana's exposed neck as she rode out her orgasm. Once she felt the brunette's body loosen under her, she pulled her head back down and captured her lips. She wanted to kiss Santana as much as possible and make sure she's working toward getting rid of Jennifer in her mind once and for all. Dani removed her fingers from Santana's dripping wetness and made a show of sucking them clean. She circled her arms around the taller girl's neck and kissed her with every ounce of energy and love she had for this girl. "I love you so much."
"I love you so much more." Santana slid herself down until she was lying on her back and Dani was on top, and then rolled over, switching their position. "Now it's your turn."
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