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The party wound down and everyone left, we thanked Sam and Emily for a truly wonderful evening helping pack it all away feeling so tired now. Paul drove us home the lights off, walking up the steps unlocking the door carrying the empty dishes, turning the lights on with my elbow.

'I'm going to get ready' Paul announced placing the dished on the top

'Okay baby' I smiled feeling sleepy walking upstairs the boards creaking slightly as he made his way up. Closing the drapes and turning the lights off as I moved though the house.

'Use the downstairs loo' Paul called down

'Oh, Ew Paul!' I said as I heard him laugh turning and using the downstairs. Turning the lights off yet again, Paul laying in bed on his phone, I stripped down looking at my scars in the mirror, seeing his eyes on me thought the reflection.

I ran my fingers along them, all raised up I hated them, grabbing the baby oil and rubbing it into the scars hoping it would make them less red and visible. Looking into the mirror Paul still looking at me though deep in thought.

Pulling on my pyjamas and turning to switch the light off. Wiping my hands on my arms, climbing under the sheet, laying facing Paul, he was still deep in thought. I reached out touching his arm.

'Babe? You alright?' my voice low, wishing I had brought some water up.

Turning to look at his arm a tear falling bouncing off of his cheek,

'Wha-?' looking to where my voice had come from his face going from lost confusion to a small smile his eyes softening.

'Are you okay?' I asked him again as his eyes darted about looking at my hand still on his arm.

'Yeah, I'm okay thank you. More than okay' sliding down the bed the sheet only half over him, dressed in his boxers. Paul looked at me as my eyes roamed him as I was looking at his tattoos, I loved each one of them, my eyes wondering over them feeling them close for longer each time I blinked.

'Good, what were you thinking about?' I asked moving my head, as though nuzzling into the pillow, feeling his had running over mine slowly.

'How lucky I am' as he leant down kissing my hand,

'Awe that's so sweet' I smiled 'I'm lucky too, all we have been though, look where we are' my eyes keeping closed now. I heard him sniff holding his breath slightly, Paul was never one to show much emotion apart from anger, my eyes blinked open, adjusting to the light to see his fists rubbing his eyes.

'Hey...' moving closer to him as I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him closer his head on my chest as he moved down a bit more, kissing his forehead a few times and he just held me tightly.

'I could have lost you' it was the way he said it, the fear in his voice making me close my eyes holding him tighter.

'I'm here' I whispered to him a few times close to his face, aware that he would be able to hear me, running my fingers though his thick hair as my arm wrapped around him my other hand laying over him running up and down his back.

'I love you' he mumbled after what felt hours of holing each other

'I love you too' I held him close to me as we drifted off to sleep, only to be rudely interrupted by the morning alarm.

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10 months later..

I took a deep breath checking my make up again.

'Leave it you look amazing' Kim re assured me in her long pastel pink bridesmaid dress

'It is amazing thank you for doing it' I smiled at her as she looked so gorgeous

'You're welcome now if I can get Beth to stop- Beth stop wiping your face, you need to DAB!' she rushed over to Beth I laughed as Beth saw Kim and dabbed her face instead of wiping, Beth had done the hair for all of us, I looked at Emily rubbing her bump, she was 5 months pregnant the dress showed it off and she loved it against the window she looked heavenly.

'Ready?' Sue came in,

Sue saw my 3 bridesmaids lined up, their hair all braided up, make up soft and long dresses. I nodded looking at her looking down at my long tight fitting dress I had dieted for to fit into. The long lace sleeves that connected to the lace running up my neck and back my hair wavy flowers twisted in and soft make up, Sue gasped at us all her hands flying to her mouth.

'You all look so amazing, so pretty, oh your dress is perfect, you girls have done so well you oh' tears springing to her eyes.

Paul stood in the woods looking behind him the villagers and friends and families sat in the chairs that they had borrowed form the school, Paul ran his hand though his hair Seth behind him as his best man, after all Seth had done for them both and how he loved Lily it was an easy decision.

Embry, Quill, Jake, Jerrard and Sam all sat in the front row smiling at him Quill gave him a thumbs up but Paul was absolutely flustered checking everyone was okay, having his vows where the rings were.

'Chill it'll all be fine' Seth reassured Paul who seemed to calm a little.

Hearing the car pull up as there seemed to be a signal the soft music softly started to float around though the speakers Paul turned facing the front.

(Listen to: still by Seinabo Sey)

Sue stood next to me linking my arm with hers,

'I'm so proud of you' she smiled kissing my cheek

'I am so glad I came home, I know Mom is here' smiling looking up, checking my bridesmaids were in toe. Hearing the music as we walked up to where the white petals were covering the ground, the trees letting the sun though, everyone stood and looked at us, I saw Billy in his chair Bella right beside him she wanted to help Billy today and that was more than okay with me, the flowers in his pockets a space for him so he could see, Jarreds and Kims parents who helped decorate and Embrys Gran who helped cook the food. They all smiled there were exclamations though my main focus was the large figure I could tell was itching to turn around, the suit framing him so well, Seth turning winking at me, I squeezed Sues hand as she wiped a tear away, I smiled at the guests.

The pack were all smiling Sam looked at Emily as though she was floating with their pup, Quill and Embry smiled as they nudged each other Jake and Jarred checking Paul but they were all so handsome and amazing I could feel the tears on my cheeks I was just so happy!

When I saw Luke and his family I blew them a kiss.

Walking up to the small step, I let my last breath out and Sue letting go of my hand I walked up next to my future husband, my best friends by my side, my family behind me and out lives ahead of us.

'Paul turned and looked at me, his eyes widened as some tears fell from his eyes the girls standing in their place we had rehearsed it hundreds of times in our heads but this was too good to be true.

'You are perfect' he took my hand as he kissed the back of it. I smiled looking up into his eyes

'I love you' I whispered before looking ahead as the ceremony started, a gentle breeze disturbing the petals as it picked a few up landing near me, knowing Mom was there for us.

'I will' Paul said the biggest grin on his face

'I will' I heard myself say

The cheering and applause all melted away when I wrapped my arms around my husband as he kissed me, and I sure as hell kissed him back.

Thank you to all who read and gave this a chance….. love ya x