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When I got to Tessa's house I got out of the car and walked to the front door. I knocked on the door but didn't get an answer. I was worried because she was still carrying mine and Ryan's child and I didn't know what kind of mind state she was in. I knocked on the door again and got no answer. I turned the doorknob and walked into the house. "Tessa," I said as I opened the door. "It's me. I'm here."

"John," she said from the floor in front of me. She looked like an emotional wreck, her eyes were red from crying as well as her entire face. She had mascara running down her cheeks as she cried in front of me.

"Tess, are you okay?" I asked as I shut the door behind me and got down on the floor with her. "What happened?"

"John, I fucked up. Everything is fucked up."

"What happened, Tessa?" I asked. "Come on. Let's go into the living room and talk." I helped her up off the floor but she would not walk on her own. I don't know if she was too weak to move or what but she was not moving on her own so that added some weight to her. It was dead weight but I got her to the living room. "Where is Scarlet?" I asked as I noticed she wasn't around.

"I don't know. I think she went upstairs," answered Tessa.

"Okay," I said. "What happened?"

"He left me, John."

"Dave left you?" I asked.

"Yeah. He said that I need to choose a friendship with you or my marriage. He's making me choose."

"That's not right," I said. I didn't see how Dave could make Tessa choose between her best friend and her husband. I thought that was pretty harsh and unfair for Tessa. She was obviously a wreck over it all. "So he just left you?"

"Yes," she said as she started to sob. "He's gone, John. I love him. I really do."

"I know you do," I said as I wrapped my arms around her. "Does he know about us?"

"No," she said. "I could never tell him I slept with you behind his back. He would demolish you. Did you tell Ryan?"

"Hell no," I said, "She would kill me if I told her what happened with us."

"Good because she already hates me."

"She doesn't hate you," I said, "she just doesn't like the idea of us being together."

"And she has a point, John. Look what happened when we were together. We had sex.. Both of us together two married people had sex with each other. After I cheated with Dave behind your back I vowed never to cheat again and I broke that promise. I screwed up."

"You were just in an emotional place," I said. I don't know how true that was but it also made me look like an asshole that played off her vulnerability. That was not the case it was our love for each other that brought us to that point.

"No, John, no excuses. I was aware of what I was doing," she said. "I fucked up. We fucked up."

"I know," I said. "I know."

"My entire life is fucked up," she said.

"It is not. I think you went out and made a great life for yourself. It is not fucked up."

"Yes it is," she said. "I don't know what I want or who I want. I don't know if I love my husband more or my ex-boyfriend more. I just don't know. I am so confused and I would love to have you both but I can't. I just don't know what or who I want," she said.

"Tess, I'm married," I said. "You can't have me."

"I know," she said, "but it's just knowing that I still love you and I will never stop. I screwed up my marriage. Dave and me were having issues before I offered to carry yours and Ryan's child and I just made it worse. Then I lied to him about going to West Newbury by myself. I screwed up. I love him, John and I can't believe he left me."

"That's his problem, Tessa. If he can't see that you love him and he can't be there for you then he doesn't deserve you. I told you about him. I told you what kind of guy he really was. And I'm sorry it's taken this long for you to figure it out for yourself. He has no regard for anyone or their feelings. He's Dave Bautista; he's an animal and a womanizer. He will never change, Tessa."

"He is also my husband and the father of my children, John. I know what you think of him but he is not that guy. He did nothing wrong, John. It was all me. I did him wrong. I did him wrong by offering to carry your child and sleeping with you. It was my fault. I know that."

"Tess, it is not your fault. If he can't accept the fact that you're a great person that is willing to do anything to help out a friend than he is an idiot. I'm sure he will be back."

"I doubt it," she said. "My life is so fucked up right now."

"It is not, Tess."

"Yes, John it is. I lost my husband, I have two kids to take care of, I don't know who I want anymore and to top it all off my parents are gone. My parents are gone, John, they aren't coming back just like Dave."

"Tess, Dave will be back," I said "You know why he will be back?"

"Why?" she asked.

"Because he's going to realize that you are the most beautiful woman in the world with the bluest eyes that shine like diamonds in the night sky. He's going to realize that you are the most intelligent woman in this world and he is going to realize that you're a woman with the biggest heart and the kindest most friendly person in this world. He's going to realize that there is NOTHING that you won't do for someone. He is going to realize that you are the best thing to ever happen to him and he's going to realize that if he lets you go he will NEVER find anyone better than you no matter how many other women there are in the world. He is going to realize that you are one of a kind and he's not going to let you go. And if he does it will be the biggest mistake of his life and he will live the rest of his life regretting letting you go. He will be back because he will realize all that," I said. I knew what it was like. I was the man that let Tessa go and ever since I had not found anyone better than her or anyone that could replace her. Not even Ryan. I love Ryan and everything but she is no Tessa nor will she ever be Tessa. Tessa is one of a kind and I regret everyday letting her get away. I should have fought harder and I just hoped that Dave was smarter than me to let her get away. No matter how I may feel about the guy I do not want him living with the same pain and regret that I live with everyday.

"John," she said. "That sounded so real to me."

"That's because it is real, Tessa. You have no idea how amazing you are. You are absolutely amazing and letting you go was the biggest mistake of my life, Tessa. I should have never let you go because everyday I wake up regretting letting you go. I wake up everyday wishing I fought harder or that I didn't push you into the arms of another man. I love you, Tessa and I always will. You were the best thing to ever happen to me and I will NEVER find someone better than you."

"And what about, Ryan?" she asked.

"I love her but she is nothing compared to you, Tess. I'm sorry but it's true. You just don't know how beautiful, intelligent and amazing you are.. I…" I began to say before she cut me off by pressing her lips against mine. "Tessa."

"Shh," she said, "that was the most beautiful thing anyone has ever said to me. Thank-you."

"You're welcome," I said with a smile before I felt her lips pressed against mine. I tried to fight the temptation. I tried to resist it but I couldn't I couldn't resist her and soon my hands began to wander her body. I didn't know where Scarlet was but I did not care at that moment and neither did Tessa as she led me upstairs to her bedroom. She shut the door behind us and locked it before leading me over to the bed. We soon began to remove our clothing and we were back in the same position as before and we ended up making love to each other once again. I was upset at myself for putting myself in this position again but I couldn't resist it. I finished making love to her and then removed my body from hers. "I can't believe we just did that again."

"Things happen," she said with a smile, "and I don't regret it."

"Tess, I should get going," I said as I got out of bed to get my clothes on. I didn't know what to say or do. I didn't even know how to feel. I think I was in the same position as Tessa not knowing who I wanted or what I wanted. We both needed to figure it out soon because what we were doing was wrong. I hated hurting Ryan that way so I needed time to think about what I wanted.

"You're leaving?" she asked.

"Yeah. I told Ryan I would be gone for a little bit. And Tessa, I think we are both confused and we don't know what we want. I think it would be best if we stayed away from each other for a while till we figured it out."

"So you're leaving me too?" she asked.

"Not exactly. I'm just saying we need time away from each other to figure out what we want and who we want. I don't want to keep hurting Ryan like this and I know you don't want to keep hurting Dave like this so we need to decide what we want and who we want."

"You are leaving me," she said.

"Tessa, I'm not leaving you. I just think time apart will help us out to decide our futures whether it be together or apart but we need time to figure it out. I promise you, Tess I am not going to leave you."

"You promise?" she asked.

"I promise," I said. "So we can take this time to figure out what we want and we will get back to each other in a week or two to tell each other our decisions or maybe longer but we need time to get things together and make a choice. Okay?"

"Okay," she said. "I can handle that."

"Me too," I said. "All right. I'm going. I will talk to you later okay?"

"Okay. Bye, John."

"Bye, Tess," I said before walking out of her bedroom. I walked down the stairs out the front door and got into my car to head home. I think that Tessa and me taking the time to think and make a decision was what was best for us. The only problem was I didn't know how easy or complicated that decision making would be.

I arrived home and walked into the house where I found Ryan in the kitchen getting herself a snack. "I'm back," I said.

"Took you long enough. Where'd you go?" she asked.

"Ryan, I think we should talk," I said. I had to tell her the truth. I couldn't lie to her anymore. I didn't want to lie to her anymore. I was willing to deal with whatever wrath came my way.

"What's wrong?" she asked.

"There is no easy way to say this so I am just going to say it," I said. "I wasn't entirely honest with you."

"What happened, John?" she asked with her smile fading.

"When I was in West Newbury I slept with Tessa."

"You did what?" she asked.

"I slept with Tessa and not just then but just now. I just left her house," I said.

"You what?" she asked. She was full of a rage I had never seen before. "You lied to me. Get out, John."

"Ryan.."

"Get out," she said.

"Just listen to me. Please…."

"No, John. Go get out. I don't even want to look at you. Go."

"Fine," I said. "I will go." I grabbed the keys and walked out the door to one of my other cars. I got in it and I didn't know where I was going to go or what I was going to do as I drove through New York.

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