"You can take your apology and your trophy and shove 'em straight up your ass!"
- Tanner Boyle, Bad News Bears
The truth is, she doesn't want to hear it. She doesn't want to hear his explanations, his apologies. She doesn't want to hear him be reasonable. She just wants to not see him, to not think of the words "I can't" whenever she does see him, to not feel bad for mirroring them when she told him "You can't" in reference to hurting her. She wants to be in Cabo with Bryce or Fiji with Cole or San Tropez with Carina. She wants to be on a train leaving Prague or Ellie's wedding reception or a hotel in Barstow. She wants to tell him that he can shove his apologies and his shiny new Intersect up his self-sacrificing ass. She wants to tell him she misses him.
She doesn't know what she wants and that's the most frustrating thing, really.
