Chapter 29 (I don't own anything) Read and Review Please Thanks. Someone wasn't very happy with how I'm doing things all I can say is be patient and it's just a story… Calmz down lol. You also got to keep in mind everything that happens in the Supernatural series things are always taking weird ass turns. Anyway thanks for those that review and continue to read!
Deanpov
"What's this?"
"Security tape…"
"Oh…"
I take her hand and lead her towards Charlie's.
"Did my dad get a new door?"
"Um yeah…"
"Why? And is he back from his trip already?"
"Dunno… And yep…"
She looks to me accusingly like trying to piece it altogether. She opens the door and Charlie practically jumps up and heads over.
"Bells."
"Um hey dad you made it back quick."
He nods put pulls her in for a hug.
"Are you ok?"
"I'm fine Bells hun."
I swallow back hoping we cleaned up well enough there's no suspicion. I'm however thankful to see the look of relief on her face.
"Bells what the hell are you doing to your hair?"
Charlie says running his fingers through the even wider strand. She shakes her head and sits down on the couch.
"You look pale even for you Bells."
I noticed it too but I knew why… Thanks Sammy you ass…
"Where's Sam?" Charlie asks.
I clear my throat.
"He went on ahead."
"Ah…"
Charlie sits back in his recliner and looks to Bella a certain way.
"Hey Dean you think you can give Bella and I a few moment's alone?"
"Sure. I'll be at the library angel." I say I was itching to see what was on that tape anyway, yet hated leaving her when I just got her back.
"Ok…"
I give her a wink and head out.
Bellapov
"Bells hun we really got to talk ok."
"Um ok…"
My dad sighs and leans over looking to me his elbows resting on his knees.
"Your father did something pretty stupid a few years ago." He swallows back shaking his head.
"To be honest I didn't want to tell you and I made Dean swear to me that he wouldn't but the more I think on it. The more I don't have the heart to keep it from you any longer. I suppose having a near death experience changes a man. I for one want to be a better father to you and in order to do that I need come clean. Now I know you're going to be very mad and what I say is going to hurt you something fierce and for that I apologize in advance kiddo."
My heart is racing but I sit quietly and listen…
He tells me the story about the cancer and the deal with the crossroad demon. My head spins around, my heart picks up pace I feel sick. I stand up and pace the room not sure what to think or how to feel.
"He told me he was sick!"
Charlie nods pressing his lips together.
"You told me you were leaving town…"
He nods again. Madly, I run my fingers through my hair. I wasn't sure how much more I could take. One lie after another this bullshit of let's keep Bella out of EVERYTHING! Hell even my man of all people wasn't being honest with me and it made me wonder just how many lies he'd been stacking up all this time. Yet at the same time I was pissed all to hell at Dean and my father yet my heart I swore grew like the fucking Grinch when I thought of Dean protecting my father like that. He risked his fucking life and one of the things he feared most he'd dealt with in order to protect him and keep him alive and out of hell. It was odd I hated him yet I loved him even more if that makes sense. Dean is the only person I swear that I can have this amount of hate and love and it somehow works because I get him and he gets me. I wanted to march up to that library and pop the fucking shit out of him yet I also wanted to grab him by the collar of his shirt and ravish him.
The tears come down and I swore I'd cried the last few days more than I ever have before.
"Ah Bells hun."
My dad puts an arm around me.
"I can't believe he stayed behind like that."
"Honestly me either. You got a great man there but I've to be honest Bella. He scares the crap out of me and it scares the hell out of me for you to be with someone so insane yet oddly enough I also feel you're safer with him than you ever could be with anyone else. That boy gives me more mixed feelings than anyone I've ever known. I want chase him off with one of my guns and tell him to get the hell away from you yet at the same time I want to hug him and thank him for giving me my life back and another chance." I do a little laugh cry into my dad's shoulder.
"That's Dean alright…"
He sighs.
"He loves the hell out of you kiddo. He's got the worst mouth on him though I've ever heard, he's got hell of a bad attitude yet I've nothing but respect for him."
My father clears his throat and leans back as I wipe my face.
"You're hunting with them Winchesters aren't you?" He randomly says and I thought I was going to pass out. I swallow in thought and nod.
"Jesus Bells…"
"I know dad but this is who I am. This was always in me this was the missing piece. I'm sorry I just never was meant for the college life or any other things that crossed my path before Dean stormed into my life so to speak."
"Being a hunter?"
"That and the Winchesters dad…" Even if I was completely confused by Sammy at the moment I just hoped he was ok yet I was also very hurt by what he pulled this wasn't the Sammy I met or the one Dean had talked about.
He shakes his head.
"I want to hate the bastard."
"Dad!"
He half grins.
"Like I said I want to hate him but can't but I can't lie I don't like him putting you in danger like that."
I break into a smile.
"Dad I more or less forced it upon him. He didn't truly want me hunting in fact he makes me mad because he keeps bringing up how I can get out anytime I want when something goes down."
"After what I witnessed last night I just can't imagine nor do I want to.. You're my little girl Bells. I can't think about you getting hurt."
"Then don't dad…"
"So there's no stopping you is there kiddo? No matter how much I beg for you to quit?"
I shake my head.
"Sorry dad but this is me. This is who I am."
"Hell kiddo."
I sigh in thought.
"Bar fight my ass."
"What?"
"Nothing… Just something else I got to deal with.
"Don't be too hard on him kiddo."
"Oh I know just how to handle Dean Winchester dad don't you worry on that…"
Deanpov
"What in the hell?" I think as I'm watching the tape and finally find the part with Sammy.
I watch a bit of them in the parking lot and I see the part of him getting out of the car. He's kneeling over and Bella's checking on him. She goes to her room I note how he's checking her out as she enters her room. He goes to his but a couple hours in get trippy as hell. I watch as Sammy exit's his hotel. He looks to be sleepwalking and he slides the keycard into Bella's door and enters.
"What the hell is he doing going over there in the middle of the night like that and without knocking?"
I mumble to myself and watch as a few moments later he exits. He looks freaked out and he's pacing around then puts his head to Bella's door leaning back. He runs his fingers through his hair madly and rushes to his hotel room. He comes back out and his things are packed he's carrying his suitcase and has his backpack on and I watch as he slides the cell phone under her door. He looks to her door for a moment saying something shaking his head looking like hell.
But then he turns and points to someone as if furious. He throws his hands in the air as he continues his way through the parking lot leaving the hotel. He literally looks like he's arguing with someone but there's no one there… "God damn Sammy what the hell is going through that head of yours and why is it involving my girl?"
I'm watching the tape as someone slams a book "Being Gay Being Christian." I laugh.
"Huh… let me guess…" I tease and turn.
She's smiling but that of a broken smile.
"Hey you ok angel baby?"
She nods but wraps her arms around my neck and leans into my chest.
"Hmm, what brought this on?" I say softly putting my arms around her waist.
I suddenly felt like a dog in heat I wanted her like right this moment. She pulls back with an evil grin but wiping a few tears away.
"So why were you at a bar if you were sick tiger?"
Ah, shit…
"It was after I got better angel I just went and had a few drinks and…"
She folds her arms tapping her foot.
"You lying son of a bitch…"
The librarian shh's her. I sigh and rewind the tape to show her what I saw.
"Look we'll get to that but first I need to hurry and show you something before they close."
She looks anxious to deal with the current issue she wants to deal with.
"Please…"
She nods and I start the tape only this time I watch her reactions. The poor girl's jaw drops when she sees Sammy enter her room in the middle of the night and how he leans against her doorway.
"Is there anything you need to tell me about that visit?"
She looks to me in complete shock. I note her breathing picking up in an uncomfortable pace.
"Dean I didn't even know he came in the room."
I sigh in thought.
"Keep watching it only gets stranger…"
"Who the hell is he talking to Dean?"
"That's what I'd like to know."
Bella leans over the chair looking mighty ill over what she saw.
"Why would he come into my room like that Dean?" She hisses.
"That's so fucking creepy what was he doing!"
"Another thing I'd like to know."
Another thing comes to thought as I know my girl's sleeping habits at least when we're together.
And I think about how she wraps her legs around the covers and I suddenly feel nauseas all to hell.
I clear my throat.
"Angel baby do you happen to remember what you were wearing to bed that night."
She grows white as a ghost looking to me.
"Honestly Dean you're not suggesting that he…"
"At this point who knows he's not acting himself."
She closes her eyes.
"I was in my tank and panties…"
I take in a breath that's not great either but she normally sleeps in the buff. My fists fold at this and I see that look of guilt forming on her face.
"Hey! Don't you dare you didn't do a damn thing wrong you hear me baby?"
She nods but looks completely blown away and shaken up all to hell.
"Why would he do that Dean? I don't understand what's going on?"
I take the tape out and lead her out of the library.
"I say we head out in the morning try to find his god damn sorry ass and straighten this out once and for all. I'd say we go now but to be honest I'm afraid I'll kill him and you and I need a night just to ourselves to recoup."
"But Dean what if something's really wrong with him."
"There's nothing we can do about it at the moment we've no clue where he is and I know Sammy better than anyone. If he doesn't want to be found, he won't this will be like a fucking needle in a haystack for us angel."
She follows me back and we head into the house so we can talk about everything without Charlie overhearing.
"So that bar fight…"
I shake my head and lean back against the wall.
She walks over towards me but starts unbuttoning my shirt. I think I'm about to get lucky until she whips me around.
"So this man… he must have had some claws…"
I take in a breath trying to think.
"I already know the truth you ass! You're a real piece of work Dean Winchester you know that! You lying JERK! YOU LIED TO ME and you're KEEPING THINGS FROM ME! I HATE THAT! I HATE IT when you do me that way! How the hell am I supposed to have any kind of future with you when all that comes out of your mouth is complete crap?!"
She says this and bows down putting her hands to her knees.
"Thank you…"
What the hell is she losing it like Sammy?
"Um what?'
"You saved my dad tiger. He told me everything. If it wasn't for you my dad would be in hell they'd had taken him and I'd have never even known. For that I love you, you big ass."
I stumble back in wonder as I'm trying to take all this in. I thought he didn't want to tell her hell what was with the change of heart? Near death must have kicked him in the ass.
"I also told him about me."
I raise my brows.
"Oh really?"
She nods.
"How did pops take that cake?"
"Not too great but I let him know he'd not a choice and he knows this is what I want."
"Can't really blame him there angel."
She nods.
"Why do you make things so complicated Dean? Why do you have to leave me out so much? You welcome me to your world yet you feel the need to go about it the way you do. That's not quite inviting me inside now is it? If this is to work you've got to be frank with me about everything and I mean everything Dean!"
"But I'm not Frank…"
"See knock that shit off. I'm being serious right now. You confuse me more than anyone yet I love you more than anyone yet you piss me off more than anyone. QUIT PISSING ME OFF DAMN IT!"
I half laugh shaking my head. I fold my arms and continue to watch as she flips out on me. But I understood completely and she was right it was time I stepped it up and quit leaving her out. I wanted to protect her but honestly when I think on everything and look to her hair and everything else that's taken place during our relationship. I needed to come clean like confession time and that's what I planned on doing tonight before we head out in the morning. But right now?
No right now I wanted her to shut up…
I reach over and grab her by the arm. I don't give her a chance to spout off anything else. I kiss her lips and press her hips against me. She goes to pull back and say something else.
"Shut up…" I whisper and I begin stripping her down.
