Hello, people! *shit-eating smile* Yep. I'm late! Again! DEAL WITH IT! :( (lol just kidding)
Raph sat on his elder brother's bed as Leo stared at the now closed-and-locked door. He may not be his brother's favorite at the moment, but he wasn't about to leave the unstable blue-clad turtle alone. They all knew Leo hadn't known what he was doing when he'd attacked Mikey after being catatonic; who's to say that he wouldn't hurt himself worse?
Leo twitched his fingers every few minutes, but otherwise didn't move or react to anything Raphael did. Raph looked around the room carefully, his eyes always going back to Leo every few seconds to check him.
The room seemed to be in order. The sheets were a little ruffled, and there was a thing or two on the floor, probably having fallen when Leo slammed the door when Mikey had made his mistake, but otherwise, it was fine. That was a good sign.
Leo pounded on the door to his cell, wondering why he couldn't leave once more. This was his mind; he should be in control. But no. He was being controlled by some stupid drug Karai had put in him.
His doppelganger appeared behind him, and he made sure not to have his back to him - it; he wouldn't refer to it as a sentient being. It had no conscience and he wanted nothing to do with it.
"Y'know, this would go easier if you'd just let me do what I need to. It'd be quick and painless. Just a snap." Dark Leo snapped, and Leo groaned, grabbing his head.
"No! I don't want to hurt them! They're telling the truth; I know it! Mike and April and Casey said they are!" he denied, scrunching his eyes closed.
"Oh, it's the BRAT and those two idiotic HUMANS that's ruining my plans. That's easy enough to take care of!" The doppelganger smirked, and Leo gasped as darkness surrounded him.
Leo sighed. It was his turn for HEADBANZ. It had been punishment for arguing with his brothers during training.
"I don't like this game..." he moaned. "I suck at it..."
"Fuckin' do it!" Raph exclaimed.
"Am I..." He decided to just go for it... "a book?"
"WHAT?! How did you-?!" Mikey demanded. "You cheater!"
"What? No! I guessed!" Leo defended himself, waving his hands.
"Nuh-uh!" Mikey retorted.
"Yes, I did!"
"No, you didn't!"
"Yes, I did!"
Raph tackled his younger brother to the ground. "Shaddup! Leo won!" he yelled, more out of annoyance than wanting to defend his brother.
Mikey broke out of Raph's hold and tackled Leo, who had been unsuspecting. He started beating on his brother's upper body with his fists, not caring what he hit.
"YOU - MOTHER - FUCKING - CHEATER!" he yelled in between his punches.
"Mikey! Get off - ow! - me!" Leo exclaimed as Leonardo's memory immediately started to copy this over.
Leo's mind copied pain and abuse over all his memories of Mikey, April and Casey. He opened his eyes and he was back in his room. He looked to the side, saw a figure, didn't care who it was; he tackled them to the ground.
"Whoa!" Raph exclaimed. "Leo, get off! I's just me! I ain't gonna hurt ya!"
Leo ground his teeth, but got up, crossing his arms and sitting back on his bed. He took out his notepad, scribbled something down, and showed it to Raph.
'What you doing here?'
"Makin' sure ya dun hurt yaself'r lose it'r somethin'," Raph said grimly.
Leo sighed as he put his pad back in his belt. He was fine. He just didn't want to be near anyone anymore.
"Y'know ya was catatonic again, right?" Raph asked his brother. Leo bit his lip. No, he didn't know that.
He's lying to you, just like always! Just ignore him!
'Yes, sir!' Leo thought sarcastically as he rolled his eyes.
Raph pursed his lips in irritation. "Why ya keep spacin' out, too? Flashbacks, catatonia, what is it? Leo, we wanna help ya. Ya gotta undastand dat. If you would just answa us when we ask, we can help fix you!"
Leo glared at his brother. "I'm not broken," he mouthed angrily.
"Well, it sure seems like ya are! Ya can't talk, ya can't go a day wit'out attackin' someone, and ya keep goin' catatonic outta nowhere! What da hell did Karai do ta ya when ya were in Foot HQ?!" Raph demanded loudly, momentarily glad Leo's bedroom door was soundproof.
Leo snarled at his brother, insanity trying to make itself known in his eyes. He fought it down as he got in Raph's face. "I'm. Not. Broken," he mouthed again.
Raph ground his teeth angrily. "You know I hate admitting it just as much as you do, bro, but it's true!"
"No it's not!" Leo rasped out as best he could before he tackled his brother again.
Raph groaned as his shell impacted the ground and Leo snarled down at him. He knew his brother was lucid, so he wasn't too scared of what would happen.
Hopefully he didn't have any reason to be.
"Leo. Get da hell offa me!" he ordered.
Leo ground his teeth at him. He did so.
Raph stood up and dusted himself off, not noticing his brother's obedience and putting it off as fear. "Will ya please jus' answa my questions?"
Leo plopped onto his bed and faced away from his brother. He then sighed, looking back at Raph's waiting face. He took out his notepad. 'fine,' he wrote.
Raph smiled and sat next to his brother. "First t'ings first: Yer aware dere's a drug inside ya, right?"
Leo nodded, a flat expression on his face.
"An' it's doin' all dis weird crap ta ya."
Leo nodded hesitantly as he fiddled with his mask tails, a nervous habit of his. He was pretty sure, but his brothers often lied. Raph was the only one doing OK with him since he'd gotten home.
"OK, we've covered that. Now, what makes ya freeze up outta nowhere?" Raph asked, hoping his brother actually knew.
Leo froze his fiddling. He didn't want to tell his brothers about the voice in his head. They'd think he was crazy, put him in a padded room or a cell or -
No. No, not a cell. The voice had already done that to him twice…
While he was catatonic. Oh.
You're lucky I let you remember that, you shit.
'I fucking hate you, did you know that?'
"Leo!" Raph's voice interrupted his thoughts. "Yer spacin' out again! What is it, bro? Are dey flashbacks?"
Leo immediately nodded, unable to think of another excuse.
"OK. Tha's da age-old question. Now, what did Karai do ta ya, in a few words, if you want. Don't just write 'torture', though," Raph requested gently as he sat next to his brother hesitantly.
Leo small silent chuckle in response as he wrote something down, then frowned as memories hit him. He breathed out slowly, closing his eyes momentarily. He drew a picture in his notepad instead of writing.
Raph pursed his lips as Leo seemed to lose himself in the drawing. He hid a smile; Leo was really concentrating. It was the first thing he'd shown interest in since he'd gotten back, even if it was just of his capture.
Leo showed his brother the small picture, and Raph squinted a moment to see it. His eyes widened when the unintelligible lines formed into a picture. And that picture was Leonardo strapped to a table, as Karai delivered cuts to his arms with a sadistic grin on her face.
"Leo…" Raph breathed as Leo looked away in shame. He shouldn't have given it to Raph… He should've just kept it to himself. His brothers hated him; they didn't care. No one cared. He was just broken… Just a broken liability…
"Leo…" Raph said again, this time addressing his brother. Leo looked at him. "I'm sorry."
Leo nearly started, not having expected that. "What?" he mouthed in disbelief. He shook his head. No, no, Raph hadn't done anything!
Yes, he did, remember… the voice chimed in in a low, calm voice that Leo found hard to resist.
'N-no! No, he said he was sorry!'
For what?
'Um?'
'4 what?' Leo wrote on his notepad.
"Everything. Whatever it is Karai put in your mind to make you hate us, I'm sorry for all of it. I'm also sorry for lettin' ya go out by yerself and not bein' able ta get ya outta dere sooner," Raph said wholeheartedly.
Leo's eyes shone with unshed tears. He gave his brother a smile as he sniffled.
"Thanks, Raph," he rasped out. Raph gave his brother his own smile.
"So, uhh, wanna get a quick snack'r something? I'm hungry!" the hothead then asked his brother, making the latter chuckle silently and shake his head. He nodded in response to the question, trust starting to fill his heart slowly.
FINALLY FUCKING DONE. HOLY SHIT THAT TOOK TOO LONG. Please review! BYE!
Shadow
