Chapter 29:Lost without you

Ok so this is back to Lissa's point of view. I hope you enjoyed the last chapter, now I'm really trying to get up more chapters for you because I know I haven't put anything up for like a month or two I don't know I can't remember. But I know when I have someone writing a review demanding another chapter that I haven't been writing in a while so heres another chapters for you. Hopefully you like.

I couldn't stay here anymore. It was to painful. Knowing that I was hurting Rosalie and the rest of the family and knowing that I was hurting josh. I grabbed my back pack from under my bed and put in the bare essentials. I didn't really need to worry about anything because I could provide it all in the blink of an eye but I still took the bag with me. I'd waited half an hour since Alice had gone back down stairs and no one had bothered me since. They were bound to come up sooner or later so I took now as my chance to leave. I climbed out one of my windows and onto the roof. I jumped down in front of the kitchen window. It was the only place no one was likely to be. Before I knew it I was charging across the field. Away from my home and away from the family I loved.

Suddenly a horrible smell hit me. Please tell me he hadn't come here. Sure enough there he was bolting through the forest towards the house. "hey over here idiot" I called quietly. he stopped suddenly to turn and face me but I was already in front of him pushing him back into the cover of the forest. "are you insane? Do you want to die?" I asked shocked. I was still pushing him back as I spoke. "I needed to see you again" he stuttered, "yer well you saw me now go home Josh" I snapped giving him one final shove. "what are you doing here?" he asked curiously. "I live here" I growled stating a fact. "No I mean why are you out here? Why aren't you in there? And why do you have a back pack? Your not running away are you?" I could have been half way to Italy by now, why did he have to turn up and make leaving so dam hard. "it's non of your Business Josh now go home" I ran off further into the wood and he followed.

I went faster but he caught up and pinned me to a rock, "you can't go Lissa" he whispered. "Josh let me go, I'm not good for you. Go imprint on some normal human girl" I yelled trying to push him off me. "I don't want any normal human girl Lissa. I want you. I don't care what you are" tears came back into my eyes, "let me go Josh" I snapped shoving him off me. I took off into another sprint. Flying through the forest but he caught up again. I wanted him to catch up. I wanted him to make me stay and tell me everything would be alright. I wanted to believe him. I could have easily imagined myself already walking through the gates of Volterra but instead I didn't. he had me pinned again and this time I didn't bother fighting back.

"Lissa we can make this work" he whispered. I knew we could make this work, I could make anything work but I knew I wasn't good for him. Josh deserved a normal human girl. One who could visit him and not have to worry about a treaty line. A girl that he could stand the smell of and that could stand the smell of him. I wrinkled my nose in disgust then imagined both the smells gone. Ok so now I was slightly more like a normal girl but it still didn't mean I was good for him.

"I'm not right for you Josh" I cried. He wiped my tears away then brought me into his chest and held me tight. "if you weren't right for me then I wouldn't have imprinted on you" he whispered kissing the top of my head. "and just out of curiosity…where were you running off to?" he asked pulling me back to look at me. "Italy" I mumbled, he looked at me confused then decided not to ask anymore questions. "I should probably head home they will notice I'm gone soon" I mumbled. I slipped out from his arms and stepped away from him. "so your not going to run off to Italy?" he smirked taking my hand. "no, not anytime soon" I smiled giving him one last hug.

"why Italy though?" he asked curiously. "it's better that you don't know" I smiled before walking off. "what time is it?" he asked suddenly. "eight why?" I asked watching his worried face. "my mum is going to kill me this is the second time I've disappeared today" he smiled then took off. "bye" I mumbled kind of angry that he didn't even bother saying anything before taking off. "how rude" I snapped before walking back through the forest. It wasn't long till I picked up a familiar sent. "I know your there Alice" I smiled turning to face her. "since you weren't coming out of your room I decided to see if I could pick up any plans that you might have been putting into play and I saw that you had taken off but then suddenly you disappeared. Like Bella dose when he hangs around with those mutts." My eyes widened and I looked down at my feet.

"you know you don't have to worry about me don't you?" I asked biting my lip. "Lissa their dangerous" she sighed, "your lucky I didn't tell Rosalie that you'd snuck off". I was kind of really glad to hear that. Rosalie would have been so upset. "I'm not running off and Josh is not dangerous" I snapped, Alice raised her eyebrow at me. "is he their new flee bag? Lissa he's not good for you. He's a young werewolf, that's not good company to be keeping" I rolled my eyes at her. "I'm not Bella you know, you don't need to tell me this. I'm more dangerous to him then he is to me. I can make him disappear with a single thought. What's he seriously going do to me?" I questioned walking back to the house.

"why do I even bother?" Alice mumbled to herself. "because you love me" I smiled skipping across the field. "and you love me so this weekend your going to help me keep an eye on Bella while Edward goes away to hunt" she laughed skipping up beside me. I stopped suddenly. "excuse me?" I asked shocked. "you can help me baby sit, it will be so much fun" she smiled. "we don't even have to do anything really I just have to keep an eye on her decisions to make sure she doesn't go and do anything dangerous" I rolled my eyes at her. "Bella always dose something dangerous. And besides I thought we were going hunting tomorrow?" I asked walking into the lounge room. "we are, but were" she pointed to me and herself, "were going to stay closer to town to keep an eye on Bella. Doesn't that sound like fun?" she asked bouncing up and down. "not really" I mumbled folding my arms. "I know it sucks" Alice frowned as she stopped bouncing.

"your weird" I laughed before walking over to the TV. "thanks" she frowned before walking up stairs, "Rose she came out of her room". Suddenly Rosalie came shooting down the stairs. "are you ok? What happened? Who do I kill?" she blurted out. I gave her a look that said are you serious? "what? who was it? Are you ok now?" so many questions! Well actually just repeats of questions. "Mum I'm fine I was just a little angry that's all. Everything's fine now" I reassured her. She smiled and brushed my hair out of my face. This wasn't a I'm actually glad your ok smile, this was more like an I'm glad your ok but your still going to punish you smile. "How could you do this to me!" she yelled suddenly standing me up in front of her. "you had me worried sick! How could you just shut me out like that?" she shook me lightly, she was just getting started.

"don't you ever treat us like that again, you hear? If we tell you to open the door you do it" I turned towards Emmett as he took his turn to yell at me. "were a family Lissa, if you have a problem we face it together" Alice smiled holding jaspers hand. "am I not aloud to deal with my own problems on my own?" I asked skeptically. "you should have at least told me what was going on. I don't like being shut out of you life like that" Rosalie let me go and I stepped back from her. "what if it doesn't concern you?" I snapped angrily. "a problem with the werewolves dose concern the rest of the family Lissa" Alice explained. "a werewolf!" Rosalie asked angrily. I turned to glare at Alice. "I just had an argument with a boy at school who just happened to be a werewolf it didn't concern the rest of the pack" I growled angrily. "and besides its all over now" Emmett looked shocked, "you've been talking to a werewolf? How long has he been at the school for?" Emmett asked curiously. "a while but he's only just become one" Alice stated.

"God Alice this is not your conversation!" I yelled. "ever think that maybe I didn't want to tell them because I maybe wanted to actually see him again?". Alice was for once speechless. "No way it's to dangerous. I won't let you" Rosalie yelled. "He's not dangerous! Seriously people it not like your trying to protect a bloody human! I am a vampire and I can take care of myself or have you all forgotten that I can make the whole bloody universe explode with a single thought!" I completely freaked out glaring at all of them when suddenly Carlisle came into the room. "ok calm down Lissa what's going on" he asked calmly. "Rosalie won't let me see my boyfriend" I shouted stomping my foot.

"Boyfriend! Oh God Lissa! He's a bloody werewolf. I will not have my daughter dating a dog!" Rosalie shrieked. "Why not! Edward gets to date a human" I wasn't sure if Carlisle was following the conversation or not. "that's not the same, she's not a threat to him" Emmett pointed out. "and Josh isn't a threat to me! You haven't even met him!" I yelled, they were being completely unreasonable. "they are the only thing that can kill us Lissa" Jasper pointed out. "correction … they are the only thing that can kill you! Nothing can kill me. HE CANNOT KILL ME!" I screamed. "I agree with Lissa" Carlisle whisper. "He is of no threat to her or any of us. He is still bound by the treaty. And if I recall there is nothing in the treaty that says that a werewolf cannot be friends with a vampire" he stated.

I was speechless, this was the first time someone had agreed with me this whole afternoon. "so I can still see him?" I asked Carlisle surprised. "that is not my call, we all agreed that Rosalie and Emmett would be your parents so they get the call" I frowned. Hope. Gone. I turned back to Rosalie, "please Mum don't do this to me" I whispered feeling my eyes fill with tears. "God dam it! Why dose the one on trial have to be the only one who can cry" she grumbled. "I suppose I don't really have a choice, I don't agree with it but I'd rather see you happy with a mutt then hate me for the next century" I gave her a hug and wiped away the tears. "thank you" I whispered. I turned to Emmett, he smiled and opened his arms. "I want to meet this kid first" he laughed, " I wonder if they play fetch?" I looked up and frowned at him.

"now it just depends on whether his pack leader will allow it" Carlisle pointed out. Great, it's just hurdle after hurdle. I rolled my eyes then went over to Alice who was standing quietly in the corner with jasper. "I'm sorry Alice" I whispered looking at my feet. "am I aloud to talk or are you going to yell at me again?" she grumbled. "you can talk again. I'm sorry I yelled at you like that" Alice smiled then gave me a hug, "that's ok I know you were angry".

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