Sian sat back in the computer chair and clicked her tongue between her teeth, staring back at the laptop screen.

Sarah92 says: Sianyyy … When are you coming to see us?

Sian looked behind her at Sophie who was outstretched on the bed, lay on her left side facing towards the blonde, her left arm brought up and her elbow on the bed, resting her head in her hand as she flicked through the magazine she was engrossed in. Sian turned back to the laptop screen and strummed her fingers on the desk a couple of times before starting to type.

Sian_PowersX says: I've got sooo much to do! I'm moving to uni in 2 weeks

A reply popped up almost instantly.

Sarah92 says: Don't you miss us? : (

Sian let out a sigh. She didn't know what to say. Her friends from Southport had been trying to get her to go back for a long time now and yes, she did miss them. But that was her life then, and her life was different now. Now she had Sophie, and Sian honestly wasn't sure if her past and her present could be together.

Sian_PowersX says: I wouldn't have anywhere to stay. My mum moved to Spain remember? No house anymore : (

Sarah92 says: Stay with me! My parents go on holiday this weekend. Stay with me and I'll invite Lucy, Amy and Beth! It'll be just like old times.

Sian looked back at Sophie who was still reading her magazine. She couldn't decide what to do, she was so torn between her two worlds and knew it wouldn't be easy when they collided. She wouldn't want to go to Southport without Sophie though.

Sian_PowersX says: Can I bring a friend?

Sarah92 says: Are they as cool as you?

Sian grinned a little as she glanced at her girlfriend who was idly playing with a strand of her hair as she stared intently at the magazine in front of her.

Sian_PowersX says: Cooler

Sarah92 says: Then of course!

Sian pushed herself back from the desk so that the computer chair wheeled over to the bed. She spun it around and leant on the bed. "Soph?"

"Hmmm?" Sophie didn't look up from her magazine causing Sian to shake her head, leaning over and pulling it out of her hands. "Siaaaaaan .. I was reading that!" pouted Sophie

"I wanna ask you something." stated Sian. The seriousness in her voice caused Sophie to stop trying to snatch back the magazine, she sat back on the bed, settling herself in front of Sian and nodded.

"Ask away." Sophie smiled reassuringly.

"Well … you know how you said you would like to go to Southport with me?" Sophie nodded. "Do you still want to? Like … this weekend?"

"Of course I still want to. But … don't you think we're like … a little busy at the moment?" asked Sophie. "Why now?"

"Because my friends want to see me before I move to uni, it's been a long time Sophie. And … they want me to bring you as well and we'll stay at a friends this weekend while their Mum is away and we'll have a super fun time." Sian spoke quickly, trying to get all the information to Sophie in as little time as possible. The brunette sat back, looking a little stunned at Sian's sudden outburst.

"You really wanna go huh?" Sophie grinned a little, seeing the red start to rise up Sian's neck as she blushed at herself for getting so carried away.

"There's … There's something else …" Sian started as Sophie raised her eyebrows expectantly. "They ... Don't … know … about … us …" trailed off Sian.

"So tell them?"

Sian shook her head quickly from side to side. "I'm scared. That's not the Sian they know."

"So there's two Sians?" Sophie raised an eyebrow, clearly unimpressed.

"No it's not that it's just …"

"It's just that you're one person when you're with your friends and you're another person when you're with me. Well Sian … which one do I get, the real you or the fake you? Cause you can't be two flaming people! And I don't want to move in with someone who's pretending to be someone else!"

"Sophie I'm not pretending to be someone else, I'm just scared!" protested Sian as Sophie got up from the bed and moved in to the centre of the room, looking down at Sian angrily.

"And you think I wasn't Sian? You're scared to tell people from your home? Well guess what, THIS IS MY HOME! And EVERYONE knows about us. If someone walked up to me in the street today and asked me about us I'd be SO PROUD to say 'yeah you're right, Sian Powers is my girlfriend'. I live here and I had to tell people that have known me all my life, all my friends on the street, EVERYONE and I was more than happy to do it cause I don't want to pretend to be someone else. I want people to know the real me otherwise what's the point."

"This IS the real me Sophie!" shouted Sian.

"Well why don't you tell your so called 'friends' that?" mocked Sophie, putting friends in air quotes.

"BECAUSE I DON'T WANT THEM TO HATE ME FOR IT!" shouted Sian

"They're not very good friends if they hate you for having a girlfriend Sian. This is fucking ridiculous. All this time I thought you were actually happy to be with me but no, you're too ashamed to tell people, you were just pretending to be this proud, happy girlfriend the whole time." Sophie shook her head, running her fingers through her hair.

"I'm not pretending to be anything Sophie! I've never been anything other than myself with you!"

"So you were pretending to be someone else back in Southport, is that what you're saying?"

Sian let out a frustrated scream as she balled her hands in to fists. "NO SOPHIE! That is NOT what I'm saying. YOU changed me Sophie, I NEVER thought I'd fall in love with a girl and people who knew me a year ago would think the same thing. I'm sorry if you think me not wanting to COMPLETELY change their idea of me is unreasonable. "

"Well I'm sorry if you think me not wanting to be your dirty little secret while you play with your mates is unreasonable." spat Sophie as she picked up her jacket and walked over to the door.

"Where are you going?" Sian looked at Sophie, fire in her eyes and for a second, Sophie didn't want to go, my god was she sexy when she's angry.

"Out. Don't wait up." Sophie turned and slammed the door behind her as Sian threw the magazine she was still holding after her.

….

Sophie sat in the pub, gently swirling the glass of whiskey and coke in her hand before downing it.

"Another?" asked the barmaid, as Sophie nodded in response.

Sophie hadn't went to the Rovers, she didn't want to have to face people she knew, let alone people that Sian was friends with behind the bar. She couldn't handle the questions 'so how's Sian doing? Are you two looking forward to university then? Are you excited to live together, it's a big step isn't it?'

With every drink that had gone down her throat, Sophie had hoped she'd feel the anger being swept away, but it wasn't working. She still felt as angry as ever, but on top of that, hurt and betrayed.

She thought that they were both past this, that Sian was happy to be with her and wasn't scared of people finding out. After everything they'd been through with her Dad and now it was all finally out in the open, people finally knew and yet she was still hiding.

"Boyfriend trouble?" asked the barmaid, placing Sophie's drink down in front of her.

"Something like that." scoffed Sophie as she took a sip of her drink.

"If I've learnt anything from working in a bar, it's that drinking doesn't help. You should go and talk to him." The barmaid leant ever so slightly over the bar, watching Sophie intently as she placed her drink down and looked up.

"What if SHE is being a complete bitch?" asked Sophie, a smirk forming on her face as she watched the barmaid stand up straight.

"I'm sorry for assumi-"

"It's fine." Sophie raised her hand, stopping the barmaid from speaking and smiled.

"Do you love her?" asked the barmaid.

Sophie sat back in her chair, looking up at the ceiling and thinking of Sian. The way her eyes said more than her lips ever could, the way her nose crinkled up when she was annoyed at something, her laugh, god that laugh, it gave Sophie butterflies just thinking about it. The way she looked beautiful first thing on a morning when her hair was all messed up and she had no make up on, the husky way she said Sophie's name when they were making love.

"The huge smile on your face says you do." The barmaid interrupted Sophie's thoughts, causing her to look down from the ceiling. "Talk to her. I can see that you love her, so don't sit here wasting your time with me anymore and go to your girl."

…..

Sian had been sat on the bed playing games on her laptop, trying to cool down ever since Sophie had left. She looked up at the clock. Three hours ago.

She heard the front door open and close and slammed the laptop lid shut, pricking her ears up for footsteps to work out if it was Sophie. The bedroom door opened causing Sian to leap up from the bed and stand in the middle of the room as Sophie entered, throwing her jacket to one side. Sophie looked at her girlfriend, and Sian could see the fire was still in her eyes. They weren't their usual sparkling blue but were dark, black almost.

"I was wondering when you-" started Sian as Sophie started taking a few steps towards her.

"Don't talk." interrupted Sophie as she moved forward quickly, crashing her lips against Sian's.

Sian stumbled back, a little taken aback by the kiss but was quickly straightened up as Sophie wrapped her arms around her waist, moving her hands down her sides, past her hips and under her thighs. Sophie lifted a little and Sian took the hint, jumping up and wrapping her legs around Sophie's waist as the kiss continued to get more heated, both girls battling for dominance with their tongue.

Sophie started walking back in to the room, approaching the desk as she ran her hands around Sian's body, cupping her bum.

"I'm still mad at you." whispered Sian in to the kiss.

With one quick movement of her arm, Sophie swept everything off the desk, pushing Sian on top of it roughly causing her to let out a small groan as her body collided with the wood. "Good, I'm still mad at you too." stated Sophie huskily, kissing her way along Sian's neck. Sian let out little gasps as Sophie hit her weak points and ran her hands around the brunette's neck, tugging on her hair a little as she wrapped her legs around Sophie's waist a little tighter, forcing her to come closer. Sian let out a small moan as Sophie's body collided with her centre and she felt Sophie smirk in to her neck. Sian began kissing up Sophie's jaw line, eventually getting to her ear lobe and taking it between her teeth, biting down a little harder than she usually would.

"Urgh." moaned Sophie as she felt Sian's teeth clamp around her ear. "You can be a right stubborn cow you know that."

Sian smiled a little, moving back to Sophie's lips and capturing them with her own before sucking Sophie's bottom lip in to her mouth and nibbling along it. "And you can be a right bitch." groaned Sian, biting down on Sophie's bottom lip a little harder.

Sophie pushed Sian back on to the desk, grinding herself in to the blonde, causing her to let out little moans from the friction of their bodies together. Sian moved her hands to the top of Sophie's shirt, pulling it quickly so that it tore open before flinging it to one side.

"That was my favourite shirt!" growled Sophie as Sian just smirked back. Sophie moved her hands to the bottom of Sian's top, pulling at the material as it started to tear all the way up her body before throwing it to join her own shirt. Sophie leant back in, kissing Sian hard as her hands snaked around her body, unclasping her bra and throwing it angrily away as Sian did the same to her.

Sophie began kissing down Sian's chest, occasionally nibbling her on her skin as she made her way to Sian's breasts, cupping one with her left hand. She took her other nipple in her mouth, running it between her teeth as she nibbled around it before soothing it with her tongue. Sian ran her fingers through Sophie's hair, tugging on it and pulling her up so their heads were level. Sophie moved her hands down to the top of Sian's jeans, quickly unbuttoning them and pulling them down her legs before Sian stepped out of them, kicking them to one side.

Sian pulled Sophie in to her closer, forcing her body to press against her centre as she let out a moan of satisfaction. Sophie moved her hands down to Sian's waist, firmly gripping her hips and moving her body against her own as she grinded in to her.

"Why can you never stick it out and just talk?" groaned Sian, digging her fingernails hard in to Sophie's back causing her to wince slightly. "Why do you always run away."

Sophie pushed in to Sian hard, causing her back to collide with the desk and a groan to escape her throat. "Because you're infuriating to talk to." murmured Sophie moving down to the waistband of Sian's underwear and slipping her hand in before starting to slowly circle the blonde's clit. "For someone who's mad at me, you sure do feel like you want me." whispered Sophie as Sian let out a moan of both pleasure and frustration.

"Shut up and fuck me." groaned Sian as Sophie pushed two fingers in to her, causing her to throw her head back and let out a loud moan.

Sian ran her fingernails down Sophie's back, causing a grunt to escape Sophie, both in pain and pleasure. "Harder." instructed Sian as Sophie did exactly as she was told, thrusting her fingers inside of Sian and quickening her pace. Sophie could feel Sian getting close as she ran her thumb expertly over her clit earning her a moan of approval.

"Fuck .. Soph…" Sian gripped on to Sophie tighter, it would be impossible for them to get any closer. Sophie curled her fingers, knowing Sian was just a few moments away from tipping over the edge.

"Tell me you love me." whispered Sophie in to Sian's ear as she curled her fingers again, feeling Sian's muscles tighten around her.

"I … I love you. I love you." whimpered Sian. Sophie curled her fingers a final time as Sian clutched on to her body, a wave of pleasure rippling through her as Sophie let her ride out her orgasm before removing her fingers and collapsing into the blonde. A light sheen of sweat covered both of their bodies as Sophie rested her head on to Sian's shoulder, both of their breathing heavy and ragged.

Sian moved her hands up Sophie's body, wrapping her arms around her neck and holding her. "I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too." whispered Sophie against Sian's shoulder, both of them still extremely out of breath.

"I'm not ashamed of you. And I'm not pretending to be someone else." Sian spoke quietly, barely audible to Sophie but she caught it.

"I know that really." muttered Sophie, still not getting up from her spot on Sian's shoulder.

"I've just lost everyone else. I lost my family because of this. And I don't want to lose the last people I've got left." sighed Sian, begging her eyes not to let any tears fall.

Sophie suddenly guilt surging through her stomach, she'd never thought of it like that before and she'd never truly stopped to think about how much Sian had sacrificed for their relationship. Sophie leant back off of Sian, cupping her face with her hands and looking in to her eyes. All the anger had faded and what remained in Sian's eyes was nothing but hurt and fear. It broke Sophie's heart that she looked so fragile. "I know. I know baby." Sophie rested their foreheads together, taking a deep breath. "You don't have to tell them. I understand your reasons and it's okay … Lets go to Southport." Sophie stood up properly, looking down at her girlfriend and smiled. "Let's go as friends."

Sian grinned and hugged Sophie tightly. "I'm sorry for being so selfish."

"I'm the one being selfish . You've given up so much for this relationship, so this is the least I can do for you."

"I'll tell them eventually." whispered Sian, looking in to the blue eyes in front of her, seeing that the sparkle was back.

"I know you will." nodded Sophie. "But I warn you, this is gonna be hard for me. I dunno if I can keep my hands off you for a whole weekend."

Sian giggled and broke out of the hug. "I know exactly how you feel."

"How about … we get in to bed and you can tell me all about Southport and you friends and what we'll be getting up to?"

Sian nodded eagerly as Sophie placed a kiss on her nose before they both made their way over to bed.