The Rouge Jedi

Chapter 29 – Today Is That Tomorrow That I Dreamed Of Yesterday.

WARNING THERE IS A BIRTH SCENE HERE. IF YOU DON'T LIKE JUST SKIP THIS CHAPTER.!


"Obi-wan" Xanatos exclaimed throwing back the sheets and jumping from the bed. He bolted to the stricken form before him.

"uuugnhh" Obi-wan winced clutching at his stomach, "Oh Xani… …it hurts !" He groaned , biting his lip as another wave of pain washed over him. He took a few unsteady steps into the room , before staggering forwards as his legs buckled.

"Obi-wan" Xanatos grabbed his companion before he hit the floor, pulling him close.

"Hang on Obi-wan" he said as he began to help the young jedi slowly towards the bed.

"AAARRGGHH!" Obiwan suddenly cried out, doubling over as another contraction hit him. Gasping he felt his knees go weak and tried to sink to the floor. Xanatos held him upright, and arm snaking about his waist.

"Come on Obi…we're almost there" he coaxed, trying to keep his voice calm and steady "Just a bit further to the bed."

He lowered Obi-wan on the bed, placing him gently on his side.

"Stay put Obi-wan I'll go and call the healers

"Please hurry.." Obi-wan gasped holding the older man's hand in a death grip.

Xanatos nodded, giving the hand a squeeze before bolting out the door "Just stay put" he called over his shoulder

Racing down the hallway, Xanatos looked down at his feet noticing small splotches of blood coming from Obi-wans room into his own. He gulped his eyes wide and ran faster.

Dashing into the kitchen he skidded to a halt tearing the phone from the wall and punching in the healers number with brute force.

/ RING RING/

"Come on come on answer the damn phone!" Xanatos cried clutching the receiver so hard his knuckles were turning white.

"Unnggh ...Xani!" Obi-wan called from the room.

"Im coming Obi..!"

Xanatos slammed the receiver back on the phone turning to run back when the thought came to him.

/Jemez!/

"Xanatos!" Obi-wans pained cry came to him.

Xanatos grabbed the receiver and raced back down the hall. Dialing the small aliens number and praying to whatever gods were listening that he answered.

"Xani.. " Obi-wan gasped as the raven haired man dashed back into the room.

"Shhh…" Xanatos soothed holding one of the young man's trembling hands "I'm here Obi ... I'm here". He watched as Obi-wan grit his teeth, a groan going through him.

"Easy...easy"

/ what the hell am I doing ?/ Xanatos's mind screamed / I'm so.. /

"Hello..?"

"JEMEZ! " Xanatos screeched mashing the phone to his ear.

"Master Xanatos"

"Yes ! Yes ! Oh thank the force! You're there" he cried.

"Jemez...?" Obi-wan gasped "Why are we talking with Jemez...I thought you were calling the healer...arrgghhh!"

"Jemez you gotta help, I can't get a hold of the healer and the baby's coming.."

"What!" the small alien yelped causing Xanatos to pull the phone back from his ear.

"Xani, what do you mean you can't get a hold of the healer..?" Obi-wan wailed, panic starting to edge his voice.

"It's ok Obi-wan," Xanatos tried to calm the younger man down. "Jemez is a trained healer he can help us."

Xantos turned his back to Obi-wan bending over the receiver " Jemez you gotta get back here we need you!" He hissed.

"I'm leaving this minute Master but I am almost 2 days travel away."

Xanatos felt his heart drop into his stomach " Jemez please…" his voice cracked "You gotta help us...you gotta help Obi-wan."

"Alright stay on the line" the alien stated firmly I'll give you instructions Master but you will have to deliver this baby."

"What!" Xanatos squeaked "… me ...b..but.."

"There's no other way Xanatos," Jemez said forcefully

"Unngh ... un...Xani whats going on?" Obi-wans pained face looked up at him, eyes glittering with worry

"Obi-wan needs you Master"

Taking a deep breath Xanatos set his nerve for the task ahead of him, it was up to him to help Obi-wan get through this. Tell me what I must do Jemez.

"First I need you to gather some items" the small alien began to list the things that would be needed.

"Ok" Xanatos nodded as Jemez gave him a list of required items.

"Got it ok..." Xanatos picked himself up from the edge of the bed.

"Xani where are you going ...? "

" Obi-wan" he whispered gently taking the young jedi's hand in his own and stroking the damp hair from his eyes. " I gotta go get some things we're gonna need ok.."

"Don't….don't leave me ..please Xani" Obi-wan pleaded his grip tightening.

"I'll be right back I promise Obi… I won't leave you. I will never leave you" Obi-wan's blue eyes reflected the fear he felt deep in his own heart, but at last the jedi gave a small nod release the grip on his hand.

Xanatos hurried from the room to gather the items.


"Jemez.. how many towels.. un huh…ok.." Xantos mumbled into the receiver, he felt as though he'd swallowed a huge slab of granite as he began to heat some water.

"What am I doing..? I've never done this before….. I can't deliver a baby !" he suddenly babbled into the receiver.

"Master please get a grip, control yourself, you are Obi-wan's only support….he needs you."

Xanatos closed his eyes and forced himself to breath slowly, calming down. "ok…ok….I ..I can do this ..I can.."

"Xanatos !" The pained cry spurred him forward with a speed he'd never known.

" I'm here Obi-wan …right here !" He cried dropping the items at the foot of the bead and once more taking the young jedi's hand in his own.

"Unnnn"

"I'm here now Obi …it's gonna be ok.."

" Xani ..I'm scared" Obi-wan said, his voice small. The older man squeezed the trembling hand held within his own. " Me too.." He admitted, trying to swallow the lump of fear lodged in his throat. " But we're gonna get through this ok..? You and me …" He brushed his fingers once more through Obi-wan's white mane, ruffling the locks up and earning a half-hearted growl from the young jedi. " Just stay with me..ok.."

Obi-wan nodded his ok and gave a small smile , laying his head back on the pillow.

Xanatos watched the young jedi as he breathed deeply, his eyes closed trying to gain a calm focus. When he was certain that the young jedi as ok, he turned gripping the phone to his ear.

"Ok Jemez .. Obi-wan's meditating now quickly tell me what I got to do !"

"Has his water broke.. ?"

"huh?"..Xanatos asked

"Water, does he have fluid on his legs " Jemez relpied curtly

Unn.." Xanatos thought back to the puddles he'd found in the hall "yes yes ..its broken.."

"Then you need to figure out how far apart the contractions are Master"

Xanatos tried to think back to the last time Obi-wan had cried out.

"Ahh ... about 7-8 minutes apart ..I guess"

"Ok stay with him master, the contractions are going to have to become much more regular before the baby comes and Obi-wan will have to be fully dilated before he can deliver."

"Ok..ok" Xanatos nodded. As Obi-wan grabbed a fistful of bed-sheets gritting his teeth against the pain.

"Master you will need to check periodically to see that the dilation is proceeding..."

Xanatos blinked "exscuse me..?"

Jemez gave a quick sigh "This in no time to be faint of heart Master"

"Unn wha... what's he saying..?" Obi-wan breathed a sheen of sweat on his brow.

"Ahh..." Xanatos fumbled for the proper words ".. you're doing great ... but..uhh.. the contractions have to get closer… together before the baby will come."

Obi-wan closed his eyes letting a slow breath out " ...uunnn.. ...arghhh..." he bit his lip as another contraction ripped thru him,

"Uhh.. Xani.. theyre getting stronger" he gasped

"...and closer together ..." Xanatos mumbled

"Xanatos!" Jemez scolded from the line " you must check."

Xanatos tilted himself away from the bed gripping the phone tightly and speaking in an urgent whisper

"Jemez, how exactly do I go about that ... I mean he was too shy to let me see him in the shower a few hours ago... and now you're asking me to...well you know. We haven't really gotten that friendly yet... I mean we just kissed last night."

He smiled at the warm memory of the previous evening.

"Xanatos !" Jemez snapped pulling him back to the present. "Did you not just promise him that you would be there for him..?"

"Yes"

"Did you not promise him that you would help deliver this baby?"

"Yes"

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"...honestly Master, not to seem condescending but where exactly did you think it was going to come out….?"

/dummy/

"...right I guess I deserved that..."

"AArrghgh...Xani..." Obi-wan doubled over, rolling on to his side his arms wrapped across his stomach as he panted with effort.

Xanatos bit his lip feeling his determination fire up to life.

/ I'm not gonna let you down Obi-wan/

"Sshhh... just breath though it..." he soothed.

"Uhh...un..un..."

"Good ..that's good ...you're doing great. The contractions are getting closer, it's gonna be ok.." he gulped swallowing his hesitation at the next words he was about to say

"Uhhh... Obi-wan I need to unn...to check and see how things are progressing ..um...down there." He said pointing to Obi-wans lower body.

Obi-wan looked up at him with a shocked expression on his face "You need to look...down there...?"

"Honestly!...did either of you give this much thought" a voice stated dryly from the phone

"I guess we both deserved that " Obi-wan said as he gave Xanatos a smirk.

His expression changing to one of intense pain a moment later

Xanatos took his hand an squeezed it meeting the jedi's stormy gaze with his own intense ice blue. "Please Obi-wan you gotta trust me I won't hurt you...I'm here for you."

"Uuungghhh ...yes " Obi-wan agreed "Yes you are...ok...I ...I trust you Xani.."

Taking a deep beath Xanatos pulled back the sheets and attempted to gauge the situation

"Ok Jemez what am I looking for exactly ..."

"Has the birth canal dilated to 10cm."

"Unn ..n..no " Xanatos mumbled trying to ignore the burning of his cheeks. He glanced up at Obi-wan noting a similar crimson blush across his face as well.

/ ya but he's in labour stupid..he's gonna be flushed/ though he suspected it wasn't all do to labor.

You'll have to wait Master, it may take some time for full dilation to occur then you'll _"

"Jemez...Jemez! " Xanatos exclaimed

"What happened..?"

"I..I lost..Jemez...the line went dead..." Xaantos gasped, feeling his guts twist..

/ What do we do now...? / he felt Obi-wan's panic though their bond.

Hanging up the phone, Xanatos took a place by Obi-wans side letting the young jedi to lean back against him. As he wrapped an arm over his abdomen

"Why did you hang up ! ?" Obi-wan panted

"He must be caught in an area with poor transmission .Its ok Obi... Jemez said that its gonna take some time until your bodys ready." He soothed seeing the uncertainty in his eyes.

"I'm sure the connection will be back soon, we just have to wait it out... how are you feeling?" he asked rubbing the young man's back."

"Tired" he yawned

"Why don't you try to get some rest" he coaxed

" ..unngh.. it hurts ...please...stay with me.." he pleaded.

Xanatos ran his hands over the bulge, feeling the strong ripples running thru Obi-wans body. Laying down behind the young jedi he pulled him against his chest, spooning him close. "I'm not going anywhere" he murmured


"AAArrgghh ... oh force Xani! Aarghh" Obi-wan screamed throwing his head up and arching his back.

It had been almost 24 hours since the start of their whole ordeal, long hours of walking about the bedroom, laying on one side then the other, getting back up sitting back down and a constant pain that was getting worse. Sometime within the early morning hours after another bout of walking back and forth, Xanatos had lain Obi-wan back on the bed, lifting the covers to check the progression of things.

\\ Ok he's dialated. \\ Xanatos felt his stomach drop \\ ..what do I do now ? \\

"Arrrgghh...Xani ! I have to push ...un...I have to!" He clenched his teeth bearing down. Xanatos winced feeling sure that the bones in his hand were now broken.

A voice of guidance whispered within his mind.

/Don't try to stop him, push with the contraction he must, the hardest point this is, keep him going you must./

Looking at the exhausted jedi, Xanatos nodded "come on Obi-wan, come on, just a little longer I promise..." he grabbed a cloth running it across the young man's brow.

Obi-wan kept his eyes close a moan slipping from him

/ his fevers getting worse/ Xanatos frowned, noting the berry bright flush on his cheeks had gotten brighter.

"Unnn..un...UNNNNNN.. " Obi-wan groaned louder his head thrashing back and forth. " Unnnn...AAArrghghh !" suddenly he opened his eyes wide "Xani...help! it's coming I can feel it."

"I'm here Obi-wan, right here" he tried to comfort the young man, reaching for a flailing arm only to have the jedi grab his collar and yank him down to his face.

"Get down there and get this baby out of me!" Obi-wan snarled pushing Xanatos to the foot of the bed.

/hormones/ Xanatos grumbled rubbing his neck

/ I heard that! ...just get in there..\\

/so much for modesty.../

/I heard that too! ... Im still here you kn..../

"Ooowww ..." he cried all anger falling from him as he turned scared blue eyes up to Xanatos. The dark jedi looked back, his own ice blue sparkling with uncertainty. No words were needed they understood that each had the others back. Xanatos gave a quick nod and took up his position, at the foot of the bed holding gently to Obi-wans knees, in silence.

He licked his lips nervously , "OK Obi-wan next contraction you push with all you got ..ok..?"

"Unnn...ok..." Obi-wan answered in a ragged breath. "Aahhh ...Xani...I ...unnn.. think its ..coming AAAAAArrrgghhhh!". He screeched as the contraction took him.

Xanatos leaned forward "now Obi-wan push push!"

The young jedi obeyed, his muscles straining as he began to expel the child from his body. Xanatos stared transfixed in a mixture of awe and horror as a head began to appear.

/ ..it looks like a wet wookie trying to get out an ewok hut ! /

/XANATOS ! SHUT UP !/

Xanatos shook himself back to reality

"Sorry...ok..ok Obi-wan you're doing great... you're...um...un..you're ...well the heads coming out" he shrugged

"Crowning...Xani " Obi-wan rolled his eyes. "Unnnnn..."

"This is it Obi-wan... I need you to give me all you got...one big push ok?...ok?...Obi-wan...?"

He glanced up to see Obi-wan with his head laying back on the pillows, shallow breathes coming from his lips, eyes closed as tears streamed out.

"Obi-wan please he begged taking the jedis hand "you gotta give me one more , just one more push.."

"I .. ..I can't... so tired...unn...hurts so bad" Obi-wan groaned. Xanatos grabbed the cold compress running it along Obi-wans flushed cheeks

"Please Obi-wan... Obi-wan !.."

The young jedis mind spun with fever and exhaustion. Memories of the last few years of his life, leading up to this point swam before his eyes. He cried out at the pain they caused him, thrashing on his childs birthing bed. Memories all leading up to this, this one most important event. And one thought surged through his mind above all the others and tore at his heartstrings.

/ Qui-gon... why aren't you here...? /

Then the contraction hit full force, Obi-wan bolted forward partially thrust from his ramblings

" AAAARRGGHHHH!"

He felt a strong searing pain and bit down on his lip

/ you should be here../

"Arrrghhh!"

"That's the head ! Obi-wan come on! Come on just a bit more" Xanatos exclaimed

/ why aren't you here..?/

"Arrghh..". he cried as a shoulder slipped out.

"You're almost there". Xanatos's voice was shaking with barley restrained emotion, hands trembling as he held a towel and prepared to catch the infant as it entered the world.

"Oh..oh.. Obi-wan " he breathed as the second shoulder slid free, " Just one more..." he felt his stomach flipflop

/ this is amazing.. this is awesome… this is..unnn/ he cringed as his hands were coated with amniotic fluid / …..I think I'm gonna hurl/

Obi-wan took a great gulp of air and bared down with all his might, pushing with all the strength he had left.

/ Qui-gon where are you?...you should be here .../

He felt the pain increase in intensity threatening to rip him apart.

/ you should be part of this..../ his thoughts spun, spinning about in anguish.

/Where are you../

"QUI-GON?" He shrieked . He suddenly felt the pain decrease and heard the plaintive wailing of a newborn infant before the world went black.

Xanatos flinched as he heard Obi-wan cry out his Masters name. /In his moment of greatest need he called for Qui-gon...after all this time...he still loves him../ he thought sadly, feeling his heart begin shatter. He heard a high wailing coming from his arms.

"Shhhhh ... its ok...I"m here..."he soothed, as he looked down at the small squirming infant he held in a towel. He pulled the little one to his breast rocking the child till his cries ceased.

"Welcome to the world little one.." he murmured quietly as he began to clean the child up.


Obi-wan groaned opening a heavy eye " ..Xani..?" he croaked, looking up to see the raven haired man gazing down at him.

/ Is that pain in his eyes..? \\ Obi-wan thought, blinking he looked closer, trying to get his eyes to focus. No, he must have been mistaken all he could see shining in the older man's ice blue orbs was endless concern for him.

"How do you feel..?" Xanatos asked in a quiet voice, hoarse with disuse.

"How do I look..?" Obi-wan whispered giving him a tired lopsided smirk.

Xanatos chuckled softly rolling his eyes "Believe me.. you don't wanna know"

"That good huh?" Obi-wan scoffed.

"I think there's someone who wants to meet you" Xanatos came up to sit at Obi-wans side passing him a small bundle, draped in a blanket.

Obi-wan felt his breath hitch, as he took the bundle in his arms and looked down into the peaceful face of the small infant. He felt tears come to his eyes and a surge of emotions sweep through him "Beautiful.." he whispered

"Congratulations .." Xani smiled, watching the emotions flicker over Obi-wan's face. "It's a boy"

"Oh Xani … look at him.., he's perfect.." Obi-wan crooned gazing with unabashed love at the small child nestled in his arms.

Xanatos looked on quietly taking in the short locks of chestnut brown hair, the shockingly white forelock and the deep stormy blue eyes. He felt a twist of pain in his heart.

/ He looks like Qui-gon….. like the one Obi-wan truly loves../ his thoughts whispered to him

" Ya… …he's…..he's perfect….." he finally mumbled, looking away.

Obi-wan could sense Xanatos's unhappiness.

/ Why is he suddenly so upset..? …. Does he feel replaced..?/

Reaching out, Obi-wan grabbed Xanatos by the hand as he attempted to get up and pulled the older man into an embrace

" Thank you …. I would have died without your help Xani.."

Xanatos gave a shrug, " I just…."

"You were there for me when OTHERS were not" The young jedi firmly stated. Xanatos looked up holding his gaze for a moment before nodding. They both knew who said other was.

" Ahh .. sooo … um… what have you decided to name him..?" Xanatos asked attempting to steer the conversation away from the awkwardness that was Qui-gon and his third wheel.

"I'm naming him after someone who means a great deal to me " Obi-wan began.

Xanatos furrowed his brow, / Qui-gon? /

Obiwan gazed down lovenly at the small infant, brushing aside a white lock.

"Myison…. His name is Myison"

Xanatos turned his head sharply "Myison..?" he blinked, giving the jedi a questioning look.

You have been more than a friend to me Xani… You took me in, you gave me shelter you gave me food, but what I love most was the small glimpse you gave me of the real you…"

Xantos looked at the jedi perplexed. Obi-wan smiled continuing " that night in your study, when you asked to sketch me, you weren't a business Mongol, a war lord or a sith… you were Xanantos and you painted with Myison, with hope…and now because of you I have my child, my Myison,..my hope…I thank you"

Xanatos felt the longing stir in his heart. / Maybe there is a chance for us..?/ He looked down at the infant cradled in Obi-wan's arms .

\\ I guess the chestnut hair isn't so bad. He's got a shock of white from Obi-wan, not to mention the same stormy blue eyes and …!/

"I don't believe it !" Xanatos gasped

"what..? what's wrong..?" Obi-wan asked looking at Myison with worry, trying to see what had gathered such an extreme reaction from the dark jedi.

"Oh you poor kid !" Xanatos exclaimed picking the bundle from Obi-wan's grasp and bringing it up to mere inches from his eyes as he scrutinized the child.

"What !" Obi-wan winced heaving himself up in the bed, truly terrified now as Xanatos turned to face him with a look of horror clearly written across his face.

"He's got the old goats schnozz!"

To Be Continued ….