I woke up in Dan's bed.

Okay! Okay! Before you think of anything, nothing happened.

Let's recap what happened a few hours earlier.

***
The BRITs has been over for an hour or so and I figured that with Dan in Sri Lanka and their pre-BRITs commitments, I haven't had time to answer his question: will I take the risk?

I immediately grabbed my coat, running off and leaving everything else. Yep. Even my phone.

My mind was racing with thoughts of what I should do and what I should say, every single thing in the videos Dan sent me kept on flashing in my head, his words and Phil's finally sinking in.

I started running, then smacked my head, realising that I should hail a cab instead.

It was around 1AM and I know it's stupid and crazy but I didn't care. I wanted to see him and look at his eyes and give in to everything I have been repressing for the past six years.

"Are you okay, miss?" the cabbie asked, probably confused as to why I was sniffling like crazy.

"I... Yes. Never been better." I squeaked.

When I reached their flat, I knocked and called impatiently. One of their neighbours shushed me.

An hour passed and another, and I was slumping by the door, feeling exhausted. All of those days and weeks I spent crying finally taking a toll on my body.

***
"Hey." I heard Dan say. He was in front of the mirror, straightening his hair.

"Hey." I replied, immediately covering my face with my hands. "Sorry... I didn't mean to..."

He laughed like a wolf. "What the hell are you doing?"

"What?" I asked, still covering my face.

He unplugged the straightener and walked over to me, grinning. Taking away my hands from my face, he laughed ever harder.

"It doesn't look that bad. Trust me." he said.

I covered my mouth. Morning breath. Ewww. "Do you have an extra toothbrush that I could use?"

"I prepped everything you need in the bathroom." he said, still smiling.

I smiled back shyly, standing up from the bed and walking to the door.

"Hey. Come back here when you're done, okay? You have some explaining to do." Dan called and I secretly smiled.

After fixing myself up (the toothbrush he laid out was in my favourite colour) and after trying so hard to actually look decent, I sighed. All my imperfections showed. I'm not one of those people who could bravely post a morning selfie and say "I woke up like this."

"Stop all your shit, okay? You can do this. Right, Niall?" I told myself, nodding at Niall's face who was staring at me from the bathroom door.

I shook my head, thinking of how silly I am before going back to Dan's room.

"Hey." I greeted again as I saw him sitting on foot of the bed. "Where's Phil?"

"Still asleep, I think. Or sticking his ear on the wall to eavesdrop." he chuckled, shrugging. That made me smile wider.

He nodded towards the space beside him and I took my seat.

"So... What're you doing outside our flat at 4AM in the morning?" he asked, amused.

"Nothing really. Was just around the neighbourhood. Thought I'd stop by." I replied, smiling.

Dan rolled his eyes. "At 4AM. Wow."

I sighed. "Don't make this hard for me. You know why I'm here."

"To be fair, with everything you've done and said for the past couple of months, I can't say I'm sure." he said, studying me.

I was looking at my feet now, my heart thumping heavily. Ugh! Dan!

Taking a deep breath, I bit my lip and looked up at him. "I... I..."

"Thank you." he suddenly said, trapping me in an embrace.

I wrapped my arms around him, tears suddenly rushing down my face. He loosened his hold on me, looking down at my face.

"Why in the world are you crying?" he exclaimed, laughing.

"Shut up! You're ruining the moment." I told him, smiling. Yep. I cry laugh okay?

"What moment?" he joked, still grinning.

He kissed my forehead and all I could do is smile like crazy. Then all of a sudden, we heard Phil chanting "yay" over and over.

I looked up to Dan and he nodded as if to say "fine."

He let go of me, smiling as I bounced off and headed out to ambush Phil in his bedroom. I saw Dan follow me and he leaned against the doorframe as Phil jumped in surprise when I greeted him with a hug.

"What are you guys doing here?" Phil said, chuckling as he hugged me back.

"Don't act all surprised. We heard you from my bedroom, you eavesdropper." Dan replied, laughing.

Maybe things will start to get better from now on.

Or will it?