A/N: I am sorry for the delay in updating. I've started on my Master's degree and time has become an issue now. Luckily the weekends are my time to get everything done.

Is everyone ready for another lemon?

JPOV

I opened my eyes and stretched. I was wrapping my head around the fact that I could do that. The last battle with Riley took me under again. Although I wasn't as near death as the first time, once again I found myself fighting to hang on to this existence. While I was gaining strength for myself, my medication hadn't been helping once Riley joined the clan. I don't even want to think how he managed to get past Carlisle; he guards his practice carefully. Regardless, Riley changed the medication to react with his venom and that ended up paralyzing me for awhile. Had I not had my family around, I surely would have died.

I don't remember what happened exactly. I know I heard a rustling in the woods and I saw Bella looking down at me. I thanked her and then blanked out again. Once again I returned to the dark hallway, walking towards the bright, humming light. Then suddenly I was yanked away, being pulled from my serenity to awaken to Emmett staring at me and smirking. "Thought we lost you, buddy," he said. "You gave us quite a scare."

My brain hadn't completely caught up with what he was saying. I just nodded slowly and closed my eyes again. I didn't want to think about anything, I just wanted everything to be normal again. I wanted my strength back, I wanted Bella okay. I wanted to hold Alice in my arms and hunt with my family. This whole thing was caused by a vampire who wanted revenge because of a human.

I wasn't blaming Bella for what happened. It wasn't her fault. I knew that she thought I did though. My powers had returned enough and I could feel it. Every time I tried to talk to her about it, something happened. Usually Edward was watching over her while she healed and when he wasn't, someone else was. I knew I would talk to her soon about it; I couldn't have her thinking that I blamed her for Victoria's vengeance.

"Oh, you're awake," Alice said as she entered the room. I smiled at her and watched as she sat down on the bed. Her body was amazing and I couldn't help but think that I wanted to be inside her. I had been thinking this a lot lately and still hadn't had any success. I placed a hand on her thigh and started running it up and down.

She didn't notice at first. She leaned over to look at me. "You're getting better," she said. She moved a strand of hair from my eyes. "I really hope everything is over now; I don't think you can handle another blow."

I nodded and stopped stroking her leg. Instead, I gripped it tightly. She looked down. "You okay, Jazz?" she asked me.

"Fine," I said softly. "I was just thinking that I'd heal a lot faster by making you scream my name."

She chuckled and removed my hand. "That would be too much energy for you. You need to save your strength."

I reached up and stroked her cheek. "Alice, I know what I can handle. And I know what I'm craving."

Alice shook her head. "It would be too much."

I growled. "Why don't you let me be the judge of that?" She raised an eyebrow and looked at me. "Seriously, Alice. I know you and Carlisle are trying to help, but I am going to go insane if I don't get laid soon."

She just continued to look at me. I removed my hand from her cheek and placed it on my torso. I was hurt at her lack of response and wished I hadn't said anything. I turned my head away.

"Oh Jazz," she said, reaching out and grabbing my chin. She pulled my face to her and leaned down to kiss me softly. "I'm sorry. I am not trying to hurt you. You need to save your energy and get well. Riley's tampering set you back. I mean, now we know why your progress stalled, but still. You would be at one hundred percent now if he hadn't—"

"But he did," I said, cutting her off. "We can't ignore the fact that he did and we know that I'll take longer to be back to normal, but you can't keep treating me like an invalid. I need to be able to hunt and do things I normally do; it's the only way I'll regain my strength and put the past behind me."

She kissed me again, deeper this time. "You're right. I'm sorry. I was so worried about getting you well that I completely ignored what you needed." She looked into my eyes. "I thought I lost you, twice, and I guess I went a bit overboard."

I looked at her. "Twice?"

She nodded. "When we found you, obviously and when I thought you had run off with Bella. Victoria had a great game going; I didn't know what to think. I was devastated when I received divorce papers. She had forged your signature perfectly. I shut down after that."

I pulled her closer to me. "I am so sorry about that, Alice. I wish I could have gotten word to you. I overheard her tell Riley that was her plan, but by then I was already too weak to do anything. I began thinking it would be best if you thought I had run off with her. I didn't want you to see me like that, weakened and unable to defend myself."

"Your damn pride," she said. I chuckled and pulled her head down for a kiss. My tongue immediately entered her mouth, battling with hers for domination. Her hand wound its way into my blond hair and she tugged on it lightly. I moaned in her mouth at the sensation and wrapped my leg around hers.

"Jazz," she said, pulling back slightly. "Are you sure you're up to this?"

I growled in response and headed straight for her neck. That had always been her weak spot and I wanted to hear her moan in pleasure.

It worked. She released the loudest moan that I ever heard. Normally, I would be worried about the family downstairs, but at the moment I was feeling selfish. I didn't care about them, I cared about the woman I loved. I wanted her, so much and nothing was going to stop me now.

I ripped her shirt quickly and tossed it across the room. My lips trailed down her neck to her collarbone and further south. I saw a red bra as I reached her breasts and groaned. Alice's pale skin in red always did things to me. It made me grow incredibly hard and I pushed her pelvis down so she could feel me.

"Jazz," she breathed. I reached behind her and unhooked the bra, throwing it across the room. Her breasts were so beautiful and perky. I cupped one gently as I teased the other with my tongue. She purred at the sensation.

After driving her to the brink more than once with my tongue, I unzipped her jeans and pushed them down her legs. She broke away from me for a moment so she could remove them. She stood in front of me, completely naked and I was mesmerized.

"You are so beautiful, Alice."

"And you have way too many clothes on," she said. Chuckling, I tore mine off of me in two seconds. "Now we're even," I replied, flinging them out the door. She climbed on top of me and sat on my waist.

"Last time to come to your senses," she said. I pulled her to me and kissed her, the sensation of her breasts against my chest making me harder than before. "Fuck me," I whispered against her lips. She smiled and raised her body up, lowering herself slowly onto me. She sheathed my shaft with her warmness. I immediately began thrusting deep into her, enjoying the vision in front of me. I raised my hands up to run all over her body. Her breasts bounced in front of me happily, nipples taut and I closed my hands over them. I felt this incredible need to feel her, all of her and I planned to never let her go again.

"So beautiful," I murmured. She closed her eyes and leaned back, allowing me to go deeper. She was so tight and perfectly made for me. I loved her so much and was so happy to be back with her.

I ran my hand down the front of her body, stopping when I reached her nub. I pinched it slightly and she screamed in pleasure.

"Don't…stop…" she breathed. She was practically lying on my legs, eyes closed as I thrust even deeper into her. I began rubbing her clit furiously, determined to feel her clamp down on me. She began shaking as she neared her release.

"Come for me, Alice," I whispered. I pulled her to me, feeling her breasts against my chest again and increased my pace. I pinched her clit one more time. She went rigid and screamed my name, her walls clamping down on me hard and I held her as she came down from her orgasm.

I could feel myself nearing release as her walls continued clamping me. In one last attempt for us to come together, I pulled her torso up and grabbed her left nipple with my teeth. I bit down hard and her walls clamped my shaft one last time. Its grip was like steel and I released my venom into her as my orgasm washed over me, draining my energy. She screamed again and we rode through them together in perfect bliss.

She fell against me and I held onto her as our breathing returned to normal. I ran my hand up and down her back gently. We remained like that for what felt like eternity, just enjoying the feel of each other. That and the fact I was spent.

"Amazing," she said. I smiled, my cocky side taking over. Still got it, I thought. She slapped my chest. "I know what you're thinking," she said.

I kissed the top of her head. "I thought about this," I said quietly. "When I was imprisoned and growing weaker, I thought a lot about us and about all the times we made love to each other. It kept me sane."

She reached up and stroked my bottom lip gently. "I thought about it too, even when I was convinced you didn't want me. I kept thinking of the good times, the times when you were so gentle with me and so loving. I held onto that during my darkest times."

"I've always loved you, Alice. I'll never stop."

She sighed. "I know that now. I should have believed it then. But Victoria had a great way of fucking with our minds."

I didn't say anything. I was thinking about what she had done to me in that abandoned building. There were things that I would never tell anyone, not even Alice because they were so horrific, so terrifying that I didn't want to relive them. I would carry these memories through the rest of my existence. I just hoped they would fade over time.

"Jazz?" she looked up at me. "You okay?"

I sighed. "Yes. I'm just thinking. I had a rough time. I still will. Sometimes I wonder if I should have gone into the light."

She rose up on her elbow and looked at me. "Light?"

"There was a part of time that is hard to explain. I was walking down a hallway. It was dark all around me. No matter which way I turned, all I could see was darkness. But I felt I was being pulled in a certain direction. After awhile, I began to see a light. It was faint at first, but not scary. As I kept walking, I began to feel a calm wash over me. I felt at peace. It was as though I was coming home, though I didn't know where I was."

Alice was looking at me, her jaw slack. I stroked her cheek gently. "Alice?" I said.

"Was there any sound coming from this light?"

"Not at first. But when I got closer, I heard a humming. It was similar to singing. I couldn't make out the words, exactly, but it sounded like wind chimes. It was beautiful and calming."

She swallowed. "Jazz, do you know where you were?"

I shook my head. "I've been trying to figure it out."

"You were on your way to Heaven."

I scoffed. "Yeah, right."

She sat up and looked at me, wrapping her beautiful body in the sheet. I frowned at the sight. "Jazz, listen to me," she said. "What you are describing can only be Heaven. You were walking towards a bright light that calmed you. You heard singing and felt at peace." She tilted her head. "Is there anything else?"

I remembered suddenly. "Yes, actually. As I approached the light, I began seeing images of my human life and my life now. I saw when I was changed and when I met you. I saw the time with the Cullens and up to the present. When I saw you, though, I began questioning if I wanted to go into the light. It was a hard decision as the peace I was feeling was the first time ever."

She blinked. "You turned away from Heaven for me?"

I took her hand. "It's not Heaven without you."

Alice squeezed my hand. "You turned away from Heaven for me? You walked away from the feeling of peace, what I know you've desired for years, for me?" I nodded slowly. She smiled. "You are crazy!"

I chuckled and pulled her face towards mine, kissing her passionately. I missed this so much. She returned my kiss in kind and I found my arousal and energy rising again.

"You know what this means," she said against my lips. "It means you have a soul, Jazz."

I doubt that. I wasn't convinced that it was Heaven that I was approaching. I believed that I didn't have a soul due to all the people I killed during my time with Maria's army. How can I redeem myself after that? No matter how hard I tried, I would never be able to outlive the past. It had to be something else.

"You don't believe me," she said, looking into my eyes deeply. "You don't have to, now, but I hope you will in the future. I'm convinced that you were being led into Heaven. And although I'm happy that you came back to me, I think you made the wrong decision."

"I don't."

She smiled and kissed me again, running her tongue over my bottom lip. I placed my hand against the back of her head, holding her to me as my tongue darted into her mouth. She tasted divine, like peaches and I wanted to devour her.

"We can't do this again," she said softly. I growled and ran my tongue down her jaw line, eliciting a groan from her. "And why not?" I asked.

"Because you're already weakened. If we do this again, it could make it worse." Her breathing grew heavy, I knew she didn't want to stop. Her hand ran down my chest slowly, heading south and rested on my already engorged member. I threw my head back and hissed as she ran a finger up and down it slowly, teasing me.

"I know what I can handle." The intense orgasm from before had taken a lot out of me, but I wasn't about to stop now. I may fall back to what I was before, but I would take my chances.

"Carlisle won't like this," she said.

"So what else is new?" I retorted.

She smiled and crawled down, taking me in her mouth deeply. The warmth of her mouth wrapped around my member was overwhelming; I knew I wouldn't last long. I stroked her hair and thrust into her mouth gently.

With my other hand, I grabbed her breast and massaged it roughly. I gripped it, groped it and pinched her nipple. It was still red from where I had bitten it and I knew this would drive her insane.

She began humming with me in her mouth. I was reaching the brink and when she cupped my sac, I lost it. I came, hard, into her mouth and she swallowed my venom down greedily. My grip on her increased and she threw her head back, panting.

"You…need…to…rest."

I pulled her to me and flipped us over. She reached up and gripped the headboard as I positioned myself over her. In one solid move I entered her, watching her back arch and bringing her beautiful breasts up to meet my mouth.

I began thrusting furiously, determined to make sure she couldn't walk. I knew my energy was waning and I was using everything I had to give her the best sex of her existence.

If I die now, at least I'll die happy.

A/N: Yay! Jasper's on the mend and horny as ever.

Only one chapter left to this story. Thank you everyone who has read it, I genuinely appreciate it and I hope you'll check out my other stories.

Happy Halloween!