Chambers, Kelly

I'm suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder, Shepard.

Again.

It's so great having a Psych degree: you always know what's wrong with you.

Although, of course, its no use when no one will let you use it to help people.

Sometimes I wish I had never met you.

Never been put on the Normandy.

Never been captured by the Collectors, or run from Cerberus, or ended up on the Citadel in a holding bay with the refugees.

Of course, I'm grateful for all the times you saved me - really I am. But I don't think I would have need quite so much saving if I hadn't ever met you...

That's not really fair, is it?

I don't really know any more. I just -

I want to be Kelly again. I want to be chipper, and happy, a little bit brave, and really very cheeky.

But Kelly is gone now. It's repression. I know that. I'm repressing who I was, so that I don't have to remember how she died.

And between a revoked-licence for psycho-analysis and an eidetic memory, I'm pretty screwed on that front.

But then, that was all any one remembered me for, right?

Screwable Kelly. Bubbly Kelly. Kelly - I - I...

Can't you rescue me again, Shepard?

I want to be Kelly.


A/N:
As I think I showed with Joker, the happy ones just aren't safe around me.

This probably seems like a little of a departure from regular Kelly, but that is sort of the point.

Hopefully you guys will have enjoyed it anyway.

Expect Chapter 30 anytime between now and tomorrow evening, depending on whether I can hold myself back or not, I'm quite pleased with how it's turned out. And it is based on a suggestion from one of you guys, so I'll have to stick in a little thank-you.

Responses:

Fuenoable: Thanks for the feedback, and sorry for missing your question. Shepard's mother has always been part of the plan (especially as both my Shepard's have that back-story) but we won't be hearing from her for a long time yet.

Patient131071: Even if I was inclined to open up my brain for public inspection, I don't think it would be a good idea, or an enjoyable experience. For anyone.

Till next time.

-Nevery.