Hey! So, a few things about this chapter. One, it took me forever to write. Two, if this isn't the most futuristic Harry Potter story you've ever read, I want to know which others that you've read that are worse than this. I mean, none of these songs even came out in the 90s... lol.
The list for songs and a bit of explanations are as follows (in order of appearance):
Thank You & Goodnight - Tonight Alive (I wanted to give Jasper and Bella a song together.)
Mz. Hyde - Halestorm (I love this fuckin' song!)
Respect - Pink (I thought it was cute for Alice and Bella.)
I Waited For You - Valora (I liked it.)
Miss Nothing - The Pretty Reckless (Again, liked it.)
Issues - Escape the Fate (Now that I think about it, kinda represents the control that Dumbledore and Voldermort have over everyone...)
Soldiers - Otherwise (The name is a little self explanatory, but is talked about more in-depth in chapter.)
Unbeautiful - Lesley Roy (Liked it...)
Permanent - David Cook (explained in story.)
A Thousand Years - Christina Perri (Twilight... Duh! lol)
Your Gaurdian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (This is what I imagined Jasper would want to say to Severus... Even if he isn't there to hear it...)
Beautiful With You - Halestorm (Explained in chapter)
Skyscraper - Demi Lovato (Explained in chapter.)
Now, none of these songs really have a meaning that isn't described in the chapter (or above), other than I like them. ^.^ lol. I own none of these lyrics; they all belong to the excellent artists. If you don't know these songs, be it all or some, I highly recommend you go and listen to them, if only so that you can get the meaning behind the explanations I gave for the songs without lyrics.
Also, I am not a musician, so if my descriptians of music being played are complete crap, let me apologize in advance. So, no flames or anything saying, "That's not how it happens!" Because... Oh guess what... I don't care. I wrote this as best as I could with my lack of knowledge, so :p. lol.
Oh! Lyrics are italic, and everything else is normal. :)
I think that covers everything... lol.
Anyway, after my longest freakin' A/N ever, I own nothing except for the spelling and/or grammar errors.
Later that day, after dinner and everyone but Molly, Ginny, Arthur and Dumbledore were sitting in the living room, Jasper, Alice, and Emmett went to work. Emmett and Jasper lugged all of the instruments down from the third floor –It wasn't safe for the instruments to shrink or even put a feather light charm on them- and Alice began to place charms on the amplifiers that would make them work here in the wizarding world. In such a small room, we wouldn't need the overly large ones, but an electric guitar just didn't sound right without an amp.
After about thirty minutes, everything was set up and I couldn't wipe the smile off my face. It had been so long since I had sung with these guys that I was getting antsy. I would have been bouncing in my seat had it not been for me sitting on Draco's lap.
Being so far away from home and our comfort zone, we decided to forgo getting completely shit faced, like we usually did. Something about being that vulnerable to the people we hardly knew, never knowing what would come out of our mouths wile inebriated; or what we would do, for that matter, made all of us a little uncomfortable.
Jasper looked over at me and smiled. "Alright Bells, whatcha wanna do first?"
I smiled back at him and leapt from Draco's lap. "Let's do Thank You & Goodnight." I said, biting my lip in excitement.
Jasper just laughed at me. "Alright, honey. You look like you could pass for Ace in all your enthusiasm."
I was too damn ecstatic to even bring myself to glare at the jerk, so I just stuck my tongue out at him. Jasper picked up his guitar as Emmett got on the drums, and Rosalie grabbed the base. I lifted my own guitar and slid the strap over my shoulders. We weren't using microphones, due to the small space and our loud voices so Emmett just counted to four and started.
I'm feeling stuck here,
Break it up, break it up.
A little low here,
Take it up, take it up.
I'm getting bored here,
Shake it up with me, now.
Your ego's starting a game,
And it's coming through
I'm seeing you're just the same,
But who's blaming you?
Well I know that you can't help it.
I need to,
Pull myself together,
If we're talking about forever,
Yeah this room just got a little bit smaller.
And it's not like I signed up for this.
I'm sorry, but I just got to be honest,
You're not my type,
No hard feelings,
Thank you and good night.
I finished the chorus, Jasper playing through the small guitar solo, before he took over the next verse.
I'm lost for words here,
Make it up, make it up.
This is the worst can't,
Shut you up, shut you up.
I gotta chill so, bottom's up with me now.
You think you're playing a game,
well it's playing you
I think you all look the same,
But who's blaming you?
Well, I know that you can't help it.
I joined in again at the chorus
I need to,
Pull myself together,
If we're talking about forever,
Yeah this room just got a little bit smaller.
And it's not like I signed up for this.
I'm sorry, but I just got to be honest,
You're not my type,
No hard feelings,
Thank you and good night.
Jasper sang the next part of the song.
Well I just don't know
I kinda wanna go home
I wonder if she knows I'm ready to go
I then sang, with him echoing his part right behind me.
You can't help it,(I just don't know)
I can't help but (I kinda wanna go home)
wonder why, (I wonder if she knows I'm ready to go)
wonder why.
We repeated it, making eye contact as we smiled at each other. It was good to sing together again.
You can't help it,(I just don't know)
I can't help but (I kinda wanna go home)
wonder why, (I wonder if she knows I'm ready to go)
wonder why.
I took the last part alone.
I need to,
Pull myself together,
If we're talking about forever,
Yeah this room just got a little bit smaller.
And it's not like I signed up for this.
I'm sorry, but I just got to be honest,
You're not my type,
No hard feelings,
Well I need to,
Pull myself together,
If we're talking about forever,
Yeah this room just got a little bit smaller.
And it's not like I signed up for this.
I'm sorry, but I just got to be honest,
You're not my type,
No hard feelings,
Thank you and good night.
Thank you and good night.
Thank you and good night.
We finished the song, Jasper's guitar holding its last note for a few seconds. I couldn't wipe the smile off of my face if I tried.
The room began to clap, bringing me back to the present. I turned around and almost blushed as I remembered that there were people watching us. There was usually never anyone there when we did this, just us in the Cullen's studio, and during the song, I had completely zoned out to everything but the music.
I offered up a shy smile, something that didn't occur often. I made eye contact with the only person in the room whose opinion I really cared about. Draco was looking at me with a grin on his face and a soft look in his eyes. I knew that he enjoyed hearing me sing. My smile grew broader in happiness.
My smile turned to a smirk as I turned to Rose. "So, you wanna do Mz. Hyde?" Her answering smirk was just as devious as mine.
Jasper looked at the both of us with a smile. He queued to Emmett that it was time to start up again. After telling him the song, the music started.
Rosalie took the first verse, her voice almost guttural, yet somehow feminine.
In the daylight,
I'm your sweetheart,
You're goody-two-shoes prude is a work of art.
But you don't know me,
And soon you won't forget,
Bad as can be, yeah you know I'm not so innocent
Better beware I go bump in the night,
Devil-may-care with a lust for life,
And I know you,
Can't resist this,
Soon though you,
Are so addicted.
Boy you better run for your life!
Welcome to the nightmare in my head,
(Oh god!)
Say hello to something scary,
The monster in your bed,
(Oh god!)
Just give in and you won't be sorry,
Welcome to my other side,
Hello it's Mz. Hyde!
I took the next verse, smirking as I sang.
I can be the bitch,
I can play the whore,
Or your fairytale princess who could ask for more.
A touch of wicked,
A pinch of risk-ay,
Good girl gone bad, my poison is your remedy
Some of the people in the room laughed as I winked at them, nodding my head during the verse, acting out, with my facial expressions, the words as I sang them.
Better be scared, better be afraid,
Now that the beast is out of her cage,
And I know you,
Wanna risk it,
Soon though you,
Are so addicted.
Boy you better run for your life!
Welcome to the nightmare in my head,
(My god!)
Say hello to something scary,
The monster in your bed,
(My god!)
Just give in and you won't be sorry,
Welcome to my evil side,
Hello it's Mz. Hyde!
Hello it's Mz. Hyde!
Hello it's Mz. Hyde!
The next part, Rose started singing, but we alternated between lines.
I'm the spider crawling down your spine,
Underneath your skin.
I will gently violate your mind,
Before I tuck you in.
Put on the blindfold
There's no way to be sure,
Which girl you'll get to know!
(It's me, I swear!)
We took the last chorus together.
Welcome to the nightmare in my head,
(My god!)
Say hello to something scary,
The monster in your bed,
(My god!)
Just give in and you won't be sorry,
The nightmare in my head,
(Oh god!)
Say hello to something scary,
The monster in your bed,
(Oh god!)
Just give in and you won't be sorry,
Welcome to my evil side,
Hello it's Mz. Hyde!
Hello it's Mz. Hyde!
Once it was over, Rose and I smiled at each other, panting. That was always our favorite song to sing together because of how… devious, for lack of better term, it was. It had some truth for the both of us, making us fall in love with it the minute we heard it.
I shook my head as Rosalie looked over at Lucius and winked at him causing him to smirk in her direction.
By the looks of it, Rosalie would be getting laid soon.
Alice pounced on me then, making me grunt at the force. "Hey, watch the guitar." I said as I pulled the poor thing out of the way of the bouncing pixie.
She giggled at me. "Sorry." She said, not sounding apologetic in the least, making me scowl down at the top of her head.
"Bella, can we sing our song. Please?" She begged up at me, her puppy dog eyes in full force.
I sighed. "Ace, you know that song is only for when we are alone." It wasn't that it was bad or anything, just that it was rather crass.
"Please, Bella. I know that's what you said, but I know they'll like it. Please, please, please?" She pleaded, her voice getting louder in my ear as she spoke.
I winced and said. "Fine! God... set up the machine for it."
Ten minutes later, the music for Pink's Respect was blaring from the speakers Alice had set up. Alice took the first verse, swinging her hips and moving around the room as she sang. I took the second, getting into the song until I was dancing with Alice.
By the time the song was over, I was smiling wickedly as the room laughed at me and Alice's dancing.
Next, Rose sang I Waited For You by Valora; then together we sang Miss Nothing by The Pretty Reckless, her singing the first verse and chorus, me the second with us ending it together.
We took a break, laughing and enjoying the company around us before Jasper sang Issues by Escape The Fate with me and Emmett singing the choruses with him. Emmett sang Soldiers by Otherwise, sobering the others in the room as everyone thought on the fact that soon, this would happen to all of us and there was nothing we could do to stop it. It also served as motivation for them as the lyrics went on.
After that, and another break, the night seemed to be winding down; the songs were slower, and a little more heartfelt. Rose started with Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy, her voice just as guttural, if not more of a soprano.
Jasper sang Permanent by David Cook, wailing the notes in his deep timbre. Alice set the machine to play the violin when needed and I sat next to Edward as he played the piano; I sang the lyrics to the chorus gently, conveying to him that I would never leave. After the song ended, he gave me a small smile in thanks, a tear track on his cheek where a tear had fallen unnoticed to me. I swiped at it softly and placed my forehead against his, comforting him.
Rose sang A Thousand Years by Christina Perri, a smile on her face as she looked at Lucius during certain parts of the song, making me wonder just how much I had missed since he had gotten here, or if the feelings were just developing that quickly. I supposed mom's Christmas present to Lucius must have meant that whatever it was that was happening between them would happen soon.
Jasper played his acoustic as he sang Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Emmett, Rose, and I were ready when the end of the song came and the heavier instruments were needed.
It was getting late by that time and while everyone had enjoyed our performances, we were all getting tired. Before we went to bed though, there was one more song that I wanted to sing. While I didn't exactly want to do it in front of all these people, I figured now would be as god a time as any.
When I told the others, they all just smirked at me, making me scowl as I blushed slightly. I was already nervous about singing it, damn it; did they have to make it worse?
Everyone got ready, and I stood in front of them, looking at Draco, catching his eye as the music for Beautiful With You by Halestorm began.
I stare at the girl in the mirror
Tee-shirt, torn up jeans, no beauty queen
But the way that you see me
You get underneath me
And all my defenses just fall away
Fall away
I am beautiful with you
Even in the darkest part of me
I am beautiful with you
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be
You're here with me
Just show me this and I'll believe
I am beautiful with you
I stand naked before you now
No walls to hide behind
So here am I
You see all of my scars
Still here you are
I bare my soul and I'm not afraid
Not afraid
I am beautiful with you
Even in the darkest part of me
I am beautiful with you
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be
You're here with me
Just show me this and I'll believe
I am beautiful with you
I had to close my eyes as I sang the next part, not able to look into the intense stare I was getting from Draco.
I've been the strong one for so long
But I was wrong
Does it make you weak if you're needing someone
I'm not holding back and I know what I want
A tear slid down my cheek softly as I almost whispered the next two lines.
I am beautiful with you
I am beautiful with you
I gazed at Draco for a moment before closing my eyes again for the next part.
You want for myself
Look at me like no one else
I am beautiful with you
I am beautiful with you
Even in the darkest part of me
I am beautiful with you
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be
You're here with me
Just show me this and I'll believe
I am beautiful with you
I had never felt so vulnerable before in my entire life, not even when I had first sung my mom's song. I lowered my head and breathed hard as I stared at the floor as the room went silent. I looked up as polished shoes came into view.
Draco didn't say anything, just pulled me gently into his arms. I rested my head on his chest as he pressed his lips into my hair. He held me as a few more tears slipped down my cheeks as the raw emotion coursed through my veins in a way it never had before.
After a few minutes, I pulled back, composed, and smiled up at Draco. He smiled back and bent his head down to kiss me. I took a deep breath and stepped away from the warm embrace.
I turned back to the guys and said, "Alright, I think we should call it quits for the night." All I wanted to do was go upstairs and go to sleep in Draco's arms.
Jasper looked at me and seemed to realize what I was thinking. He nodded, "After one more song."
I narrowed my eyes at him, praying he didn't want what I thought he wanted. Hadn't I just ripped my soul open for the world to see not two seconds ago? Why must I do it again? "And what, pray tell, would that song be?" I asked quietly.
He smiled innocently at me. "Why, your song, of course." I knew what song he meant and I instantly shook my head.
"Jasper…" I started but I was interrupted by an arm wrapping around my waist.
"Is he talking about the song that your mum used to sing for you? The one from your memories?" Draco whispered in my ear.
I stiffened and hesitantly nodded my head at him, knowing what was going to come out of his mouth before it did. "I'd like to hear it, love. Will you sing it for me?" He whispered in my ear again, his voice persuasive.
I turned my head to look at him and glared into his soulful eyes. After a few moments when it looked as though he wouldn't be backing down, I sighed. I could never deny this man anything, damn it.
Looking at the others as a last-ditch effort to maybe get them to be tired enough to give me an excuse out of this, I received no help whatsoever. It seemed as though all the tiredness in the room had drained out of them all and in its place was curiosity.
Sighing, resigned to my torture, I turned to Edward. "Would you mind playing the piano for me, love?" I asked softly, knowing he was tired by the dropping of his shoulders. I could see that he desperately wanted out of the room, the amount of people really beginning to get to him, but he nodded his head with a small smile anyway.
I considered using his need for space as my out, but I knew that Edward would be argue that he was fine, especially because it was me he would be playing for, blowing my thought process out of the water.
I pulled away from Draco and moved to sit on up on the piano in the room. Edward began to play softly.
Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending, like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Alice's machine kicked in with the orchestral instruments and the beating of the drums.
As the smoke clears
I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed
All my windows still are broken but I'm standing on my feet
I began to cry as I entered the next chorus, not being able to hold them in as thoughts and memories surged to the forefront of my mind.
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Go run run run I'm gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear yeah
Go run run run yeah it's a long way down
But I'm closer to the clouds up here
I whispered the next part of the song, tears steadily leaking down my face.
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
My voice came back full force as I almost yelled the last chorus, the same feeling of determination filling me as it always did when I sang this song, my thoughts on Charlie and all that he did to me.
Ohh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
I sat there, sniffling for a moment. Draco came to stand in between my legs and I wrapped my arms around his neck.
"Take me to bed. Please." I whispered in his ear. I didn't want to see the others, didn't care to look at them as Draco nodded against my neck. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he lifted me from the piano and carried me from the room, the door swinging shut against the intense silence of the room.
So, let me know what you thought. Like I said, I'm not a musician myself so if my descriptions suck really bad, I apologize again. :/ Anyway, this chapter makes me nervous, so... ease my nerves with a review...? :)
xoxo,
kitkat
