I feel so bad about the last chapter! I don't even like to read stuff like that but for some reason my mind just makes me write it on occasion I can't promise this chapter is that much better, but it's slowly headed into the direction of being better. Thanks for all the reviews everyone, you really make writing this story worth it.

Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, teeny tiny bit of fluff, violence

Disclaimer: I do not own BTVS nor do I make a profit from writing this


Almost a week has passed, and no one has seen Spike. No one had gone by his and Xander's apartment; no one even thought about mentioning it. Xander was staying at Angel and Wesley's hotel. A part of Angel was frustrated by this, wanting to be with his new mate. Yet, a part of him ached for Xander. The man seemed so lost without Spike, barely functioning. He didn't even seem like the person everyone had come to know better over the past few weeks.

"We have to do something Angel, look at him. He won't eat, doesn't sleep. He lays there like the world has disappeared." Angel kept his eyes on Xander the whole time Wesley spoke, reaching out and taking the man's hand in his own.

"His world has disappeared Wes. Spike was – is – his everything. Being mated is serious, and he's just left him. I can understand why, but even Spike must know that this will damage Xander in ways that no one but him can fix." Finally looking at Wesley, he brushed his hand along his cheek.

"I can assure you I would be the same way he is now if you left." The silence that followed after Angel's words made the air even thicker. Blushing deeply, Wesley pressed Angel's palm harder to his face.

"I won't ever leave Angel, promise." Closing his eyes, he tried to fight off the pain he felt coming from Xander in waves.

~KTRY~

Cleaning up and filing away the last of the paperwork from the evening, Giles leaned up against the counter and tried to fight back the tears. Buffy was officially gone, Xander was falling apart. Watching the boy grow into a man, then to watch him slowly break the week before almost killed him. It wasn't right and there was nothing he could do to fix it. He'd gone on patrols, hoping to find Spike in the process but the vampire was nowhere to be found.

"Everything will work out as it should." Whipping around at the sound of the voice, Giles quickly turned back away as he wiped the tears from his face.

"If it is then Spike would be back already and Xander would be better." He bit out, voice rough from crying and exhaustion. Remin walked over to the counter where Giles stood, silently putting a hand on the man's shoulder.

"It will get better, I promise. You just have to give it time." Turning and pressing his face into Remin's chest, Giles took shaky breaths.

"Don't say anything more please." Remin could smell the liquor on the man pressed against him and was more than surprised that he would be running his store intoxicated like he was. The man seemed like he had more control, more long-term morals that would prevent him from doing things like this. Wrapping his arms around him, he pressed his face into Giles' hair.

"Alright Rupert, let's get you home." Remin put his own jacket around Giles and lead him out of the shop.

~KTRY~

"Where is she?! I know that stupid cunt is around here and you will tell me!" Spike snarled, slamming the man up against the wall harder by his throat. He'd already broken the man's arm and given him a bad concussion.

"I-I don't know any blonde chick I swear!" Spike's game face slipped on and the junkie shrieked in fear.

"I swear I dunno man! I buy from some guy! If anyone would know about anyone selling, it'd be him!"

"Then where is this fellow, huh?" Spike grinned, keeping his grip firm.

"I-I dunno. He meets up with me on the west side of 3rd every Saturday of the month. I swear I don't know!" The guy wailed, body shaking in fear for his life. Spike slammed up him up against the wall a few more times, causing the man's skull to crack and blood to flow out.

"Worthless," he spit as he tossed the guy into a pile of trash cans. He'd been looking all week for the Slayer; and no one would tell him anything. They all said the same thing, about some man they meet up with casually. He needed to kill her. Spike knew if he got rid of her, Xander would get the stupid notions out of his head about his worth. Fighting off the pain that filled him when he thought of his mate, he continued on his way to the next junkie.

'I'll find you Buffy and when I do – your life will end.'

~KTRY~

Remin had taken Giles back to his own home, before turning around and taking him to his own apartment when the man said he didn't wanna be alone tonight. Silently leading them into the elevator, he kept his arm around him while Giles leaned against his side. Hitting the very top floor, he led him into his penthouse, taking his jacket from him before hanging it up.

"Why don't you take a shower, clear your head? I'll fix you a drink before putting you to bed." Not willing to argue with the man who had taken such good care of him, Giles just nodded and made his way down the hall where Remin told him the bathroom would be. Shedding his clothes and stepping under the hot spray; his mind swirled with everything that was happening. Nothing was supposed to turn out this way. Even when he found out Xander and Spike mated, he had been a little shocked. Seeing Xander so happy with the vampire though had pushed all his fears away. Now they were all resurfacing. Whether the mating was the cause of the demon inside Xander, Xander himself was such a wonderful person. He trusted those he cared about completely and stayed by their sides no matter what. Now, now he didn't see any of that in Xander and it was all because of the stupid demon.

("If the bastard can try to pup me and then treat me like I'm just meant to warm his bed then he deserves it.")

Thinking back to what Xander's demon said made him flinch slightly. He never even thought about that, and being faced with the possibility that Xander could end up pregnant scared him a bit; especially since Spike had just disappeared.

'His demon said try to pup him, that doesn't mean he did, does it?' Feeling himself getting worked up, Giles jumped in shock when the bathroom door opened.

"It is just me, Rupert. I am laying some clothes on the counter for you. I will be in the living room when you are finished." Silently shutting the door behind him, Remin left him alone once more. Finishing the shower, he got dressed before heading into the living room. Taking the glass of scotch handed to him, Giles nodded a silent thanks before sitting on the couch. Remin sat next to him, sipping his own glass.

"I am here if you wish to talk about anything." Remin put out, sitting his glass on the table as he crossed his feet. Giles glanced over to him, before clearing his throat and adjusting his glasses.

"Xander says he doesn't know actually what you're capable of, but to have been alive as long as Angel – if not longer – must make you very powerful." Remin only nodded his head to agree, waiting for him to continue.

"So tell me, you must know things no one else does. Will everything truly work out the way it should?" Giles looked up into Remin's eyes and could feel himself getting lost again. Remin stared back, holding back from reaching out and touching Giles.

"Yes, it will. It's true I know things other don't, but something I just can't talk about; I'm sure you understand. Don't fret over the small facts; just know that everything will work out as it should."

'What if that means that someone else important dies?'

"People die all the time Rupert, it's a part of life; you know this. Don't let these fears clear your judgment. Relax, Xander will be alright." Quickly looking at Remin, he adjusted his glasses again.

"That is the second time you've read my mind, do you do that often?" Remin chuckled softly, leaning back on the couch to relax.

"No, I actually try not to do it at all but sometimes I don't pay attention to my field, I apologize."

"It's quite alright, just slightly unexpected." Finishing off his glass, Giles looked back at Remin.

"Will you read my mind now?" Remin looked up at him from where he was laid back against the couch.

"Not if you are willing to tell me instead." Not sure where he gained the courage, Giles climbed into Remin's lap. Quickly rising and putting his hands on Rupert's hips; Remin looked deep into his eyes.

"I will not stop if you start this. I'll never let you go; you know this." Giles bit his lip, his eyes roaming down to Remin's.

"I know, and I don't want you too." Leaning down to kiss the taller man, Remin quickly leaned forward and connected their lips in a deep kiss. Putting his arms around Remin's neck, he couldn't stop the moan that left him when the man – demons – nails dug into the flesh at his hips through the thin t-shirt he wore. Growling into the kiss, he stood quickly and made his way down the hallway.

"You're mine now Rupert." Remin hissed against the man's lips, trailing rough kisses down his neck as he laid him out on the bed. Giles stared up at him in lust filled eyes, lips swollen.

"I'd have it no other way Remin."

~KTRY~

Xander stared at the wall lifelessly, ignoring his demon rambling off to him. They'd had the same conversation every day, but it didn't matter. He just wanted his mate back. Blocking out Wesley and Angel talking, he knew he needed to leave soon. He was taking up their space, and their time; something he seemed to always be bad at doing.

'Maybe Buffy was right. I'll never be good at anything. I'll never be good enough for anyone.' 'Don't you dare believe anything that bitch says. You are amazing Xander, otherwise I wouldn't be a part of you.' Xander blocked the sound of Auksinė Sidabrinė talking to him. Over the week that Spike had been gone, Xander had named the demon inside of him since just telling him to shut up all the time became annoying. Not knowing anything about the demons true origin or likeness, Xander named him after his eyes – Golden Silver. Spike had told him what his demons eyes looked like and how soul-sucking they were. Thinking about Spike made his chest ache and his eyes burn.

"Angel? Can I speak to you for a moment?" His voice was raw from crying and lack of use but he finally decided what he would do. If he didn't, he'd go insane waiting. Coming across the room when he was called, he sat on the edge of the bed; Xander still facing away.

"Yes Xander, what is it?"

"I'm leaving; I just thought I would thank you for everything you've done for me." Angel was shocked to say the least, unsure where to start.

"Leaving? Sunnydale? Xander, you don't need to do that. Spike will come back." He saw the man visibly flinch at the vampire's name. Biting his lip, he waited for Xander to speak.

"I can't keep staying here; it's unfair to you and Wesley. He did what he felt was needed; I can't hold that against him. I'm not leaving Sunnydale, but I can't stay here, you understand?" Angel sighed, reluctantly reaching out his hand to touch Xander's arm. The man flinched away from him, and he only sighed louder.

"I understand Xander, but you aren't being a burden. We only want to make sure you're going to be ok." Slowly sitting up, Xander stretched out his muscles he hadn't used all week.

"Thank you for your concern but I'll be alright. I'm gonna finish this once and for all and if you even think about stopping me, don't think I won't lay you back on the floor like last time." Making his way to the door, Angel stood quickly.

"Xander, don't be stupid. You won't find her." Xander glanced back over his shoulder at Angel and the vampire's chest tightened at the mess that Xander looked like.

"Of course I'll find her, that's what she's been waiting for." Without another word, Xander left. He would stop back by the apartment, change his clothes, and then head out for downtown. Almost two weeks ago he could have sworn he'd caught Buffy's scent by the apartment, but he believed it paranoia. Now he knew that she'd been waiting to make a move, but he'd make it first. Once he dealt with Buffy, Spike would have no choice but to accept him as his equal and return. If he didn't, well – he'd deal with that when the time came.


There is it! Two chapters in two days! I'm gonna do my best to keep up with this because it is edging it's way to a close. Also - Auksinė Sidabrinė - is Lituanian and as stated in the story, means Golden Silver. I thought it fit ^^' Lemme know what you think! -R.F.