Chapter 28 – In this Quiet Night

Oh God…Dearka is…Dead

The thought that she lost Dearka consumed her mind. She was alone in her hospital room cried hysterically. She couldn't stop thinking that among her last words to him was 'I hate you'. It wasn't the truth at all; the truth was that she was madly in love with him. She needed him. She could barely live without him when he broke up with her and now, how was she suppose to live without him in this world? She could have said so many things to him, he was stressed about seeing her parents and she added stress by asking him if he was only using her. She could have said 'thank you for coming back', 'You're doing a good job at being a father' or just the plain truth 'I love you' but instead she questioned him and said she hated him.

The nurses heard her crying and came in to check on her. They asked if she was okay and what was wrong but she was crying too much that she couldn't answer. So the increased her morphine and left her room. It seemed like no amount of morphine could take away the pain she was in.

When visiting hours started up again Cagalli, Athrun, Kira and Lacus came in the room to see her along with little Kyo. When the got there Mir's eyes we all red and puffy, her cheeks were stained with tears. It was obvious that she had cried herself to sleep. Lacus laid Kyo beside his mother and then got a cool cloth to wipe Mir's face. When the cool cloth touched her face she just laid in the bed without moving, although she was awake. She was too depressed and lost in thought. She loved Dearka, he had come back and she ruined it all.

The room was silent accept for the sounds of Kyo whining for his mother. It was making everyone said for the newly reconstructed family to be ripped apart so quickly. Lacus decided to try to lighten the mood by singing.

(AN: Lyrics are bold-italic Mir's thoughts italic)

In this quiet night, I'm waiting for you

It's so quiet without your laughs…

Forgetting the past, and dreaming of you

I forgive you for leaving…

Time passes by…

You were gone so long…

And memories fade…

You filled my life with so many happy days…

But time can't erase the love that we've made

You were the only one I'll ever let that close…

And the stars in the sky, that I wish upon…

Can't bring you back to my side…

You'll never come back this time…will you…

Thou you're not here with me I dream of the day

We'll meet again

How long will it be?...

Hold me close, so deep in your heart

You'll always be in my heart…

I will find you, no matter how far I have to go

You can't… just leave me like this

And dream of me, for I will be there

Follow the stars that lead

Into the quiet night

I love you…

Everyone was relaxed as Lacus sung; Kyo fell asleep next to his mother. Soon it was late and visiting hours were over. They never got a chance to talk to Miriallia she refused to open her eyes to let them know she was awake. She just laid there with Kyo tightly lying next to her.

When she finally knew they were gone she got out of bed and headed for the door. She needed to walk around, the last time she was in the hospital was when Kyo was born, Dearka was by her side then and she needed him there now…even if he was dead. She wonder around the halls of the hospital aimlessly for what seemed like hours. She avoided all nurses and doctors as she limped around. She was injured but she knew things could have been worst for her.

As she walked around she heard two nurses gossiping in the hall out side of the intensive care unit. Curious she leaned against the wall to listen in on the conversation.

"I heard that the driver's hand side was so damaged and crushed in they had to use the Jaws of Life to get him and his family out"

"It's a miracle that the baby only had a few scratches"

"The investigators say that he swung the car so he took the full impact"

"He must really have loved his family…I don't know if I would be able to sacrifice myself like that"

"I don't think I would be able to react that quickly."

"No…he must have been a coordinator"

Hearing this made Miriallia's knees weak causing her to fall to the ground. They were talking about the accident she was in. They were talking about Dearka. She needed to know more so no matter how much it hurt she keep listening.

"Most likely, you know I also heard he was awake when rescue workers got there. He watched as they got out his family. He was crying the whole time. I don't know if it was because he believed he was going to die or if he was concerned for them"

"I can't imagine going threw that"

"I don't think things will be the same for this family…not after this. All this because someone decided to drink too much, a to think he got out of this in the same condition as the baby barely any scratches"

"hmmm…"

Attention all staff there is a patient missing from room 234, Miss Miriallia Haww. Please all staff be on the look out for this pertinent and return her to her room immediately after you locate her. Thank You.

"Well we better get to work"

This was it. She knew if Dearka was alive he was there behind those doors. The nurses and doctors were going to be looking for her but she had to know. She had to see. Making her way into the intensive care unit Miriallia looked into each room but with every glance she only found more disappointment that is until she came to the last room. Inside was a young man. His legs were bandaged up and propped up. His left arm was broken. He was on a heart monitor and a machine to breathe for him. He was a complete mess. But the thing that stood out the most to Miriallia was his blond hair and tan skin. It was Dearka.

Running up as quickly as she could with a sprained ankle she went to his side.

"Dearka…" she whispered

"…"

"I'm so…sorry…I shouldn't…I know that you…that you…" she kept crying as she looked down at her ex-boyfriend. So much had come between them. The war, him being court marshalled, her becoming pregnant, his work, his drinking problem, his family. It seemed like everything was his fault but in the end looking at him none of it mattered. "I love you…I always have..."

"…"

"I didn't stay with you because of the baby; I stayed because I love you."

"…"

"I forgive you…for leaving…I know I'm not some booty call for you. I'm sorry"

"There you are!" yelled a nurse as she walked into the room. "Let's get you back into bed" Miriallia nodded and went peacefully with the nurse. Dearka was alive and so she knew she could get a good nights sleep.

I do love you, so you better not die.

TBC…

Chapter 29: Condition