LONG LIVE
Chapter 29: I can make it through the rain
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I'll make it through the rain
My dearest Miley,
I love you. I love you more than my life but I have to do this, we have to break-up. I'm sure you think I'm a real coward right now because I deserve that for writing this letter to you, instead of just saying it to your face. I don't think I could handle seeing you hurt because of me. I'm engaged, Mi. I was engaged to Princess Selena from the minute I was born. I'm sorry if I hadn't told you. I thought I would be able to change everything, but I can't. Our love is different, Mi. I loved you with all my heart and I still do love you, it will never change. You are my life and I would do anything to keep you safe, even if I have to sacrifice my happiness. Our days in the island made me realize how amazing you are, how big of a loss you are to me if I let you go. I took you to that island so I could spend some alone time with you and just show you how I love you. I hope you realize by now that my love for you is really true, that I did not use you or anything. I really love you. I can't stop saying it. Please take care of yourself, baby. Don't do anything that would harm you because I wouldn't be able to forgive myself. I would die if I find out that something bad happened to you. You are my life; as long as you're breathing, I'll be fine. I'm really sorry, baby. You'll always be my princess and I will always love you. I love you Destiny Hope Stewart, and I'm sorry for all this hurt I gave you. I love you. Be safe.
Love,
Nick
Miley's POV
My heart was broken into tiny little pieces, which I doubt if it would be whole again. It's been four hours since I have been crying in my room in the empty flat that Demi, Joe, Nick and I used to live in. I'm curled up in my bed, I could still smell him in my bed sheets and I don't have the strength to get out of this bed. I would stay here forever if in this way I would be able to believe that he's still with me. I kept staring at the ring on my finger. Even if I hate him right now, I still love him with all my heart and I don't have the heart to throw away this promise ring. I'm still holding on to his promise.
I had called Taylor when I was in the car on my way here and she told me she'd be here as fast as she can. I really need someone to be with me right now.
Few minutes later she's already beside me, holding me in her tight embrace.
"It's okay, Mi. You'll be fine without him."
"Without him, I feel empty. I want him here, I want him holding me and telling me that he wouldn't leave me again."
"We'll be here, Mi. We'll help you through this. Mom is already cooking your favorite meal; we would never let you get through this alone."
"I don't want to leave this apartment. I don't want to leave this bed, Nick and I made love here for the first time three days ago, and when I'm in here, it's like he's still here holding me."
"Okay, that was gross. I'd totally say I would take these sheets in the laundry but it's okay, we'll pack these sheets and take them with us home so you'd still have it. Come on, Mi. Just sit on the couch and I'll fold these."
I lazily got up and brought my pillow with me as I walked towards the couch and sat there. I watched as Taylor scrunch up her nose as she noticed the spot of red blood on the bed sheet, reminding me of how I felt hurt and amazed as Nick took my innocence. He was so gentle and sweet, that now I have to stop thinking about it before I cry again. Tay helped me load her car with my stuff and when we're finished, I took a last glance around the house, smiling at every memory that rocked my brain. We left and got in the car. I cried as Tay drove away from the apartment. That apartment was special; it was the witness to all of me and Nick's ups and downs. I held onto the teddy bear that Nick gave me on our third year anniversary. It was the first time that I ever used this bear and hugged it, since I always had him to hug. I hugged it tighter and I felt something hard. I carefully inspected it and I found a very tiny zipper. Just when I needed it, I happen to find Nick's perfume in the stuffed toy and a note was also hidden there. It says, "Hey Miles! I gave you the same perfume I always wear because I thought you would need it when you miss me. I love you! -Nick"
"What's that?" asked Taylor.
"I just found Nick's perfume in the bear he gave me. It's custom-made, so it's one of a kind."
"What for?"
"So I won't miss him that much."
"You know, I hate that boy right now but he's damn adorable."
"I know, that's why I love him so much," I said as I went back to my gloomy state.
We reached our house after three hours. Mom and dad brought me into a tight hug and Tay joined in too. They tried to comfort me and made me talk but I kept pushing them away. I stayed in my room, unpacking my stuff. I put me and Nick's picture frame on my side table and placed his other gifts on my desk. I let Taylor bring my bed sheet to the laundry because of the stain, but I kept the blanket and sprayed his perfume on it so I would feel him with me. I lay on my bed and wrapped the blanket around me, imagining it's Nick's arms.
Demi and Joe came in around three in the afternoon and Demi just held me tight in her arms.
"It's okay, it's okay, Mi. You have us. You have me, I'm your best friend and I would do anything for you."
"Thanks, Dem and Joe."
"How did you know what happened. I haven't called you, sorry."
"That doesn't matter. You have to be strong, okay? Wait, it smells like Nick in here."
"He gave me his perfume. He hid it inside my teddy bear."
"Really? That's cute but he's a jerk to me now. How are you? Do you hate him now?"
"No, I love him... So much," I said as I looked up to her. I know Demi would understand.
"I would never hate him, even if he'll hurt me so many times."
Demi hugged me again. She and Joe stayed until dinner. I barely ate anything for dinner, I wasn't hungry. That night when I lay on my bed, I cried again because I totally got used of having him hold me when I sleep.
I sat in my bathroom floor crying harder than I could imagine. This couldn't be happening. Not now. I hugged my knees as the white stick fell from my grip. I buried my face on my knees as my body shook with gut-wrenching sobs. The door opened and I lifted my head to see Taylor with a heart-broken look on her face.
She knelt in front of me and wiped my tears, "What's wrong?"
I turned my head to my right and stared at the little plus sign on the white stick lying on the floor; it mocked me.
I closed my eyes as I heard her gasp, "OH MY GOD."
AN: I'm sure you kinda saw that coming since they did it a THOUSAND times. LOL. Jk well, that's the number of times they did IT in my mind. They didn't use protection, STUPIDLY IN LOVE NILEY. LOL anyway... hahaha I won't give hints regarding the next chapter. LOL well, except that Nick would marry Princess Selena =] LOL I'm getting confused with my writing. LOL I kinda spent my day thinking on what should happen next in this story. I had 3 choices/ideas and ended up sticking to my first one. LOL weird. hahaha
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