Whaat? Only one review? Ok guess that means I need to work a lot harder on this story, what I post isn't as moving and angsty as I thought pouts
Time to wake up the sleeping beauty, don't ya think? lol
Disclaimer: see chapter 1.
New York Mercy Hospital
12 May - 06:42 pm
Casey woke up after six days of coma, and for the next week, she kept zoning in and out.
Olivia knew she would have no memory of it but she kept talking with her when she looked conscious enough.
It was weird and very unreal to see her speaking to her one moment, have a real conversation, and then fall asleep in the middle of a sentence. The first time she woke up with no memory at all of their conversation, Olivia freaked out but the doctors assured her it was totally normal with the trauma her body went through and the heavy medication pumped into her body.
Both surgeries went well and there was no sign of cancer, which was a huge relief to both of them.
For her lung, they removed the part with the tumor and there was no bad surprise, the rest of the organ completely sane.
Casey would have to take it easy for a couple months but she will be fine in the end.
Regarding the meningioma, he warned Casey that she will have to go through radio therapy sessions since a small part of the meningioma couldn't be removed, too risky.
When the nurse left the room after her cares, Olivia entered Casey's room to find her crying silently. Sitting on the matress, facing her, Olivia moved to take her hand but she jerked it away with a loud growl.
Puzzled, Olivia tried again but without success.
- "Case, what is it? What happened?"
- "Nothing", she whispered between her tears, wiping her cheeks angrily.
- "Casey?"
- "Will you just leave me alone!"
- "No. Tell me what's wrong", she pushed her gently, her voice neutral.
- "You promised you wouldn't leave me!"
- "I didn't! I didn't leave your side since you came to surgery"
- "What about now?", Casey accused her, her voice icy.
- "Excuse me?"
- "Where were you?"
- "Outside, where did you expect me to be? Back home?"
- "I expected you to be here!", Casey half screamed.
- "Casey, what happened? Did she hurt you?"
- "Yes … and … I … why weren't you in here?"
- "Case honey, you know they prefer not having strangers in the room during the cares"
- "I don't care what they prefer, I wanted you here, I needed you here!"
- "Case…"
- "You are not some kind of stranger Liv, you are my best friend for God's sake!", she yelled then fell silence, her breathing shallow, a hand covering her mouth.
"I… that's not what I meant Olivia, I mean I … you are not .. I'm so…"
Olivia interrupted her babbling with a hand on her forearm, effectively silencing her.
- "Case, stop it. Calm down. Take deep breaths. In, out, that's it…slowly", she coached her gently but sternly.
It took a couple minutes but Casey's breathing went back to a more reasonable speed. Her eyes fixed on the cover, she refused to meet Olivia's concerned eyes when she tried to catch her eyes.
- "Now tell me what happened", she queried softly, her hand moving from Casey's forearm to her hand.
- "I'm sorry Olivia, I shouldn't have said this, I don't want you to feel unconfortable. You are my only friend, I overreacted"
- "Casey, start at the beginning"
- "But…"
- "Ok if this is bothering you so much, I'd feel honoured if you considered me your best friend", she whispered, lifting Casey's chin to force her looking at her, reassuring her with a grin.
- "No Olivia, I can't ask you … I mean it's not a decision to be made, it's… we have known each other… the situation …."
- "You are right. It's not a decision to take Case, it's a feeling, it comes from the heart, not from the mind. And we have known each other for close to two years now, what happened lately just brought us closer faster, that's all", she interrupted her gently, squeezing her hand.
She gave her a moment to think about it before going on.
- "So now that this is out of your mind, tell me what happened?"
- "Nothing really, I …. I overreacted, I'm sorry", she smiled sheepishly.
- "Case, it's not nothing that have you crying. Please tell me", she requested gently.
- "I…", she began, avoiding Olivia's eyes, fidgeting with the blanket with her free hand "she…the nurse… she took the drainage tubes out", she winced at the memory causing Olivia to squeeze her hand harder.
"It… it hurt so much… like my heart was ripped out of my chest…I…wished you've been here…you know… to hold my hand", she breathed, blushing furiously.
When Olivia said nothing, she went on:
- "Told you it was nothing. I act like a baby, I'm sorry Liv", she forced herself to smile.
- "Case, it's not nothing, those damn things hurt like hell when they are pulled out", she responded gently.
"I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I didn't want you to feel unconfortable with me around… you know as they were changing the bandages, and stuff…", she tried to explain, cursing herself for not sensing Casey's distress.
- "Liv, there isn't any part of my anatomy that you haven't seen! I'm way behind being ashamed!", she exclaimed, suddently self conscious at how much Olivia has seen of her in the past months.
- "Are you ashamed?"
- "Yes"
- "Why?"
- "Well, it's not really a normal behavior between friends, don't you think?"
- "It's not exactly a normal situation either", she countered gently.
"You have nothing to be ashamed of Casey. I'm glad you accept my friendship in this moment."
- "And I'm grateful for it Liv, I really am. I just feel I'm asking too much from you. I never had someone this close, I guess I need to learn that there are things I can't ask you, that you can't be by my side 24/7"
- "I can be if you want me to"
- "Liv…"
- "Casey I offered my help in any way you need it. It's for you to decide how you want it: if sleeping in my arms at night keeps the demons away, or if me holding your hand during your cares help you feel better, then that's what I'll do. That's why I'm here for Case"
- "Doesn't it go beyond friendship?"
- "Maybe but that's what best friends are for, right?", she smiled an ear to ear smile, assuring the younger woman that everything was fine between them.
- "Yes", Casey breathed as she freed her hand from Olivia's grasp.
Sensing her need, Olivia gathered her in her arms, hugging her as tight as she dared, not wanting to hurt her.
- "I'm here for you Case, all you have to do is ask", she whispered, kissing the top of her head.
- "Thank you", Casey whispered back, her voice laced with tears. Tears of joy…
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