Chapter Twenty-Eight - Late
Xander cried out into the night. Olivia and Alex were both at his side, quickly. Olivia picked him up and he immediately stopped crying. It was times like these that Alex fell in love with her more. There was just something about the way Olivia was with him that melted Alex's heart. Olivia felt the same way when she saw Alex with him.
"What does he need?" Alex asked, groggily.
"I think that he is hungry. Will you go make him a bottle? I'll change him, too, just in case."
"Of course," Alex said as she made her way to the kitchen.
Olivia changed him quickly and was holding him in the rocker that Dana had provided them. Alex watched as Olivia rocked and cooed him. Alex couldn't help but melt at the sight of Olivia and Xander. It was like they belonged together, mother and child. She smiled as she handed Olivia the warmed bottle. Olivia smiled back at her.
Alex noted that it was the first time in the last few days that she could see Olivia's love through her smile. She couldn't wait for them to get home. Alex knew that scenes like this would become more and more regular. It was in that instant that she knew that she would do anything for Olivia. They had both become her family. Xander was as much hers as he was Olivia's.
"Go back to bed, Alex. I'll stay up with him. There is no need in both of us being tired. Go get some sleep. I'll be okay. Once he goes back to sleep, I'll come back to bed," Olivia told her.
"We can sleep in here," Alex stated.
Olivia watched as she left the room. She quickly came back carrying a handful of pillows. Alex dropped them on the bed and then walked back to Olivia. She kissed her, fully on the mouth with a hint of passion and desire. But, Alex turned away from Olivia before the kiss could get any deeper. Alex yawed as she walked over to the double bed.
Olivia watched her climb in and get settled. She smiled as her as Alex drifted off to sleep again. Liv watched as Alex's breathing got deeper and slower. It didn't take long for her to drift away. Olivia admired her for that. There were no demons to keep her awake. There were no nightmares to fight hoping for a good night's rest. No, Alex could go to sleep once she was comfortable. Liv wondered if she would ever be that lucky again.
She waited until Xander finished the bottle. She burped him and slowly rocked him until he fell asleep. He slept as easily as Alex did. Olivia smiled. Xander was lucky to have them both as his mothers. She could only hope that Alex would agree to adopt him, too, later once they were back in New York. Liv couldn't think of a reason that she wouldn't want to make Xander hers.
She looked back down at the blond haired boy, who was now sleeping in her arms. She placed him back into the crib, kissed him on the head, and watched him for a minute or two. Olivia then joined Alex in the bed. For once, sleep didn't evade her. Olivia curled up to Alex and immediately went to sleep. Olivia couldn't have been happier at that moment.
Tomorrow was another day. Tomorrow they had a session with Huang. Tomorrow they would face it together and if Olivia had her way, it would become a lot of tomorrows, together as a family. Tomorrow was a new day that they would share in their life together.
Alex woke up, quite refreshed. She was amazed at how well she had slept holding Liv after she had come back to bed after putting Xander back down. Olivia has cuddled up to Alex immediately and found sleep quickly. Alex smiled as she got out of bed.
She was hungry. She made her way into the small apartment kitchen. She started preparing a bottle for Xander, knowing that he would want it soon. She knew that Olivia would wake soon. She would be in the kitchen with Alex as soon as Olivia realized that Alex wasn't in bed. She wasn't surprised when she felt Liv's hands coming around her middle.
"Morning," Liv whispered in Alex's ear as she molded her body to Alex's.
"Morning," Alex replied, leaning back into Liv's warmth.
"You are beautiful," Liv told her.
"I just woke up and am making our son a bottle. I haven't had a shower. I doubt that I am beautiful. What do you want for breakfast?"
"You?"
"Now, Detective, I hardly think that classifies as a healthy breakfast."
"That depends on your classification of healthy, Counselor," Liv teased.
"We need to eat something good. We are going to see Huang. He said that any time after ten AM would be good. It is eight thirty now. I don't know about you, but I hardly think that gives us enough time," Alex told her.
"You are very imaginary my dear, Alex."
"Oh, I have a very vivid imagination. It has served me well. But, today, my imagination and my desires will have to wait. We need to get going. Here, go feed Xander," Alex told her as she handed her the bottle. "I'll make a quick breakfast and then I'm getting in the shower."
"Alone?"
"That my dear, depends on how fast you decide to eat," Alex teased her, shoving her out of the kitchen to go feed Xander.
Alex could hear Olivia shocked intake of breath followed by a desirous moan. She chuckled at Olivia's obvious early morning desire. It wasn't that Alex wasn't interested, she knew that if they did have sex, that neither of them would be very truthful and forthcoming later. They would both be too afraid of the truth and emotions that it would cause. Being that open now would cause them to close up later, afraid that they wouldn't find the closeness they shared while they were together in bed.
She quickly scrambled some eggs. She fried some bacon and toasted some bread. It was a cliché breakfast, but it worked. She hoped that it would be enough to last time until Huang would have them break for lunch. She dished everything out, equally, on two plates. She sat down at the table and started eating.
Olivia joined her. She didn't eat the breakfast the same way that Alex did. She grabbed her toast and made a bacon and egg sandwich. She quickly ate it and was staring at Alex, who was staring at her.
"What?"
"Did you even taste that?" Alex asked.
"Yeah, it was good. I like bacon and egg sandwiches. Did I do something wrong?"
"No. I just figured that you would sit here and eat it with me. I wasn't prepared for you to inhale your food that fast. Don't worry about it. I'm not upset," Alex told her.
"Sorry, if I can make it portable I do. It is one of the hazards of being a cop. Sometimes you can only eat on the run. You learn really quickly where you can get something that will fill your gut, quickly, cheaper and not be very messy. This was perfect."
"Thanks, I think."
"It was a compliment. Besides, I think you said something about me finishing my breakfast that I might get to join you in the shower. I've finished mine, what about you?"
Alex looked down at her plate and then at Olivia. She could see the seriousness in Liv's coffee-colored eyes. She could see the want and the desire reflected in them. Alex put down her fork and took Liv's hand. She stood up and pulled Olivia behind her, towards the shower.
Olivia followed her willingly. When they stopped in the bedroom that Alex had been using, Olivia was worried that she would make her wait and take a shower on her own. She was surprised when Alex sat her on the bed.
Alex sat Olivia down and told her not to move. Olivia stared at her wide eyed. Alex looked over at the alarm clock. It was barely nine. She decided that she would tease Olivia just a little. They had time to shower and make it to Huang's office with time to spare. She would give Olivia a taste, let her know how much she craved Olivia's touch and love, give her something that would make Olivia want more…later.
Alex reached into the closet and grabbed a Harvard t-shirt and some jeans. She grabbed some underwear. Olivia just sat there dumbfounded and watched. Alex stopped in front of the bathroom door. She turned back to Olivia and made sure that she had Liv's full and undivided attention. Olivia was wrapped up in Alex's movements. She couldn't turn away if she tried. It was then, when Alex saw the look in Olivia's eyes, that she made her move. Slowly, painstakingly, she started to undress.
Olivia's eyes got wider as the simple white shirt that Alex slept in came off. When Alex shimmied out of her yoga pants, Olivia gripped the bed tighter, hoping it would keep her on it. She watched as Alex put her thumbs inside the waist band of her panties. Her breathing became labored and erratic. Alex locked eyes with Olivia as she slowly, seductively removed them over her hips, her thighs, her knees, her calves, her ankles, and then off. She spun them around one of her fingers before sling-shooting them at the waiting Olivia.
Alex watched carefully as Olivia plucked the projectile panties out of the air. Alex gave her a wicked grin and sauntered into the bathroom. Olivia immediately gave chase, shutting the door behind her as she entered the bathroom. Alex had nowhere to hide and certainly nowhere to go, so she decided to use herself against Olivia's obviously heightened libido. She kissed Olivia.
Olivia parted her mouth and deepened the kiss. Alex allowed her to deepen the kiss. Alex moaned as Olivia pushed her against the bathroom door, slightly lifting her off the ground as she continued to kiss her. The added height from being lifted gave Olivia better access to Alex's neck. She nuzzled it for a few seconds before she began to kiss the soft skin and Alex's pulse point. Alex purred at the sensation.
Alex wrapped her arms around Olivia's neck and shoulders, as Olivia continued to feast on her throat. Alex pulled her against herself hard, needing to feel Olivia's muscles crushing against her bare skin. Olivia's hands were everywhere, all over her skin and Alex could only want more. Olivia pushed her further into the door and gripped her ass lifting her further off the floor. Alex rewarded the movement by wrapping her legs around Olivia's waist.
"Alex…"
"Liv…please."
"You were the one who wanted to go slow. I'm going slow. Do you want something else now, Counselor?" Olivia teased her as she descended to Alex's collar bone.
Alex moaned and arched off the door into Olivia. Olivia took her weight willingly. She let Olivia hold her against the door. She could see Olivia's passion building in her eyes. Olivia wanted more. She wanted to give Alex more. She needed more. She snaked a hand down Alex's side and to the door knob. Olivia clinched it in her hand as she turned it. She pulled Alex up and away from the door.
She cradled Alex as she pulled the door open. Alex turned staring into the open doorway. Olivia shifted Alex's weight and sent them stumbling into the bedroom. Olivia righted them and made her way to the bed. She deposited Alex on the bed, staring down into Alex's sky blue eyes.
"We're going to be late," Alex told her.
"I don't care."
"Olivia…"
"I love you," Olivia told her, as she came up Alex's body.
Alex froze beneath her. She didn't know what to say. It wasn't that she wasn't happy that Olivia had just confessed her love to her, again. It was something else, something that had been nagging at her since the night before.
Olivia watched the change in Alex's eyes, but she didn't move. She didn't say anything. She waited for Alex to come back to her, to the moment. She didn't have to wait long.
"Liv, honey," Alex stated.
"Yes?"
"No matter what happens today, promise me that you'll tell me the truth and be open about everything," Alex demanded.
"Of course, Alex, I have nothing to hide."
"I don't want you to lie to spare my feelings. I need to know what happened. We need to face it together now. Promise me that, please."
Olivia stared down into Alex's eyes. The depth of feeling that she saw reflected in Alex's eyes almost made Olivia cry. She didn't know what was spurring Alex's sudden need, but she would willingly tell her anything about what happened in Atlanta if it would make her wounded look go away.
"I promise, Alex. I promise. Why are you so worried about it? What is eating at you?"
"Us," Alex replied.
"Care to explain that further?" Olivia asked with a sudden shock in her voice.
"I don't want our relationship to make you think twice about your testimony. I don't care if it will hurt me. I don't care if it will anger me. I need you to always tell me the truth."
"Yes, Alex, you know I will. Look at me. Alex, look at me. What brought this on?"
"I just don't want things to be different because we're together. I don't want you to think that you have to protect me from your life, your memories, or your nightmares. I want you to be able to tell me anything, anytime, anywhere for any reason."
"Alex, I love you. I'm not going to sugarcoat what happened. I need to let it out as much as you need to hear it. I know that you are only trying to help me. I need you to know what happened so you'll know where I am coming from in the future. But, Alex, look at me. I know that things may get bad later and they might be difficult to hear. But, there is one thing that you never need to worry about when it comes to me," Olivia explained to her.
"And, what is that?"
"It is something simple. It is something that I should have told you so many times before now. It is something that I plan on saying for years…that is if you'll let me."
"What is it? Olivia, tell me. Please."
"Alexandra Cabot, I love you."
Alex melted. She kissed Olivia, hard and passionately. She turned to look at the clock, one more time.
"Olivia, we are going to be late."
"I don't care," Olivia told her as she sat back and tore her wife beater off, "Huang can wait. You shouldn't have to, and damn it, I'm not."
