A/N:
Hello my beloved readers and reviewers! How's the story going for you? XD Anou… Guys thank for the ongoing support… Honestly, those reviews are the reason why I keep on this story. Alright… Enough in the drama…
Alright! Minna, the last chapter was quite short right? This one too but it is more… I think… ^^
Disclaimer:
Hunter X Hunter is not mine but they will be mine soon! Joke it I only in my dreams but… dreams sometimes come true! Yay!
Chapter 29: To deal with my Insanity
Nobody can really tell what the fate is planning. Predictions are not enough as well as hunches. The thing that inspires us to believe in them is because we want to know the future and prevent the hurt that will come so; we'll just rely on them. But because of that, we are ignoring the fate's will and be controlled by those predictions.
Now, as early as six o'clock, the young boy woke up and went on the terrace. The sun was finally up but its brightness still cannot overpower the darkness because it's too early. Like him, it's too early to think about the thing that will happen when he dealt with his insanity.
The insanity that made him do reckless things and made him so selfish. The insanity that overpowered him and created a new person in him that wants to kill his own friend!
He wanted to end it now but what if the fate is not with him? What if he needs to pay for what he had done to his friends? What if, this will be the last time that he can see the… world?
No one can tell when or where we will take our eternal slumber but, we should still enjoy each days that passes on us.
Gon who is standing by the railings forced himself to hold a smile on his lips then whispered as the cold morning air passes on him. A soft mourning voice came out from his mouth that made himself ironic.
He is smiling and keeps on telling himself to be happy but he's also the one who lets out his agony by his words. How comical…
As he speaks, his grip on the railings lightened. His body started to tremble but the smile on his lips was still there. "I will be… glad if… this will be my last day on… seeing him… Finally, he can be back to his normal life with our friends before… Without me indeed. Maybe that doesn't bothers them anymore because… the Gon they met before was now replaced by a Gon that was full of wrath and selfishness…"
He was saying that but inside, his perplexed heart screams at him, in fact scolding him for what he is uttering now.
He knows to himself that he is still the Gon they met but maybe because of his mistakes that made his friends thinks that he already changed.
He let out a deep, depressed sigh then lowered his head; shadows slowly covering hi now sorrowful face. He tells to himself that although the events later might lead him up a blind alley or add fuel to the fire, he will still continue it because all of this needs to end.
Thus, he also wanted to make his friends happy and get revenge for what happened at Kurapika that he thinks because of him. It doesn't matter, at least I had the chance to confess at Killua and apologize at Kurapika for what I've done to him. But, I still need to make Kurapika and Leorio alright again because they fought because of me but how…? What will I do now?
CONFUSION. The endless thoughts that again came in his mind but decided to ignore it and told himself to keep his dirty secret from Killua. Those white lies will save his bestfriend and now lover from their treacherous foes. He shook his head then ran to the living room again.
~HxHxHxH~
Hisoka is also watching the sunrise when a sudden thought came on his mind. That made the smirk on his face turn into a frown and the unreadable eyes that he wears became sad.
I think I'm already tired playing with him… I want to help him but… he wants to kill my prey. I also don't know what happened on me. I think I finally fell for this numb, heartless, cold whatever assassin. How can I turn my back at him?
A sigh escaped from his lips and suddenly turned to Illumi who is currently dozing off. He walked carefully towards him and knelt beside his beautiful sleeping figure. He slowly strokes his face then lowered his head leisurely.
Hisoka doesn't know why a person that looks tranquil as him now came from a family of assassins and needs to be in that business too.
This pat few days, he and Illumi became sweet at each other but all of a sudden, the assassin became cold again and it as if colder that he is before and that made the jester wonder. "What I really happening on Illumi?"
~HxHxHxH~
Eyes slowly opening; observing the whole place that welcomed him. He reached for his phone and checked if there were another calls.
His eyebrows twitched and his lips curved into a sad smile. Indeed, he was really disappointed. "Nothing…" he mumbled as he sits up slowly and fixes his own clothes that was clad onto his body. He wanted to take back everything that has said before. Sorry Kurapika… he thought bitterly.
In the midst of his train of thoughts about Kurapika, Gon and Killua suddenly flashed in his mind that gave him a shiver. He really doesn't know why so, he just bit his lips then went to the living room.
~HxHxHxH~
The younger boy was inside the room of Killua, watching him as he sleeps. Maybe an hour of reminiscing cleared his mind. Gon laid his back slowly beside Killua then brushed his hands on Killua's silver locks leisurely; not wishing to interrupt with his sweet dreams. He slowly closes their gaps and as he does that, his heart thumped fast as if t will gonna pop out of his chest. When there were only few centimeters separating them, he spoke up with his ad but gentle voice.
"If I won't be able to come back, I just want you to here this once more… I love you…"
He didn't hold back his emotions anymore and finally made his and Killua's lips meet again for the hundredth time. He cries harder as he tightens his embrace on Killua's body.
Gon deepens the kiss until Killua moved and kissed back at hm. But after a few seconds, he pulled out and spoke up; his voice was masked with tiredness and annoyance. "Yamete (stop) I still want to sleep…" But Gon was so stubborn, he went o Killua's neck and started to fill it with his sweet kisses. "Aaah… Gon…"
The sound of their faint voices was the only thing that can be heard aside from the sounds of the sheets that are rubbing against their bodies. Killua instead of appreciating, pushes Gon and says…
"Not now, I'm till sleepy…"
Gon stopped the jut let Killua close his eye again and sleep. The albino lay with his stomach that made Gon mile, he pulled the thick blanket over the others body and tucked him under it. He stood up with his arms crossed and just whispered a morbid statement although he knows the other can't hear it.
"Killua… maybe that's the last time I can kiss you… Sorry but, I really need to go. I will not let Illumi get you."
After that, he kissed Killua's cheeks then ran outside with the worried look on his face and the only thought that strengthens his inside is Killua.
~HxHxHxH~
Kurapika slowly opened his eyes then looked around. As he sits, his head hurts more. Hangovers really are troublesome indeed.
He cleaned his Leorio, Gon and Killua's bedroom like house but when he remembered the three's messiness, stubbornness, and other things, he cried again. Feeling like dying.
"Oh my… why did I leave them? *cries harder*"
A sudden sharp shiver came up into his spine that made him wonder again. "Why do I feel bad? What is happening on them?" He stopped crying then decided to just go to the bedroom and rest again.
~HxHxHxH~
Killua suddenly opened his eyes then he felt the cold breeze kissed him. A thought suddenly flashed in his mind. Gon… he ran outside for an unknown reason of worry and checked if Gon was till there but all of a sudden, he became astounded.
Gon's room was o clean and even a glimpse of him was not there. What if! He bit his lip to stop himself from breaking down because of the thing he discovered.
"Gon ran away?!"
He got that when he remembered that the night before now, Gon said something as if he is saying farewell so, he realized that it is true now that it's too late.
He took his phone and immediately called Kurapika. Killua thinks he knows what to do.
~HxHxHxH~
"As early as we expected…"
Hisoka stood by the corner filled with shadows and smiled at Gon mischievously. The boy stepped back then cleared his throat.
Suddenly, hands held his shoulders then a voice came from behind him. "You're trying to stop us don't you?" he said coldly that made Gon shiver. But, he fought with his fear then kicked the guy behind him but…
Hisoka caught him then asked what he really needs to do. Gon struggled from the jester's tight hold on him then shouted at them angrily.
"SHUT UP! YOU CANNOT TAKE KILLUA! HISOKA! YOU'LL PAY FOR STAINING KURAPIKA'S PURITY!"
Hisoka laughed then tightened his grip at Gon's hands. "Maji? (really?) I'll pay huh? Let's see.."
After that, Gon' sight became black but before he loses his consciousness, he heard a voice. "Betrayers like you should die…"
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Tbc…
Alright minna, do you have questions or any suggestions to fix my grammars in this story. XD Ummn… comment or flames are accepted but please be gentle… HAHA! Alright… wait for the next chapter… The shattering chapters will be soon released! XD Just give me three to five reviews! thank you minna san!
~Ja ne! ^^
