Chapter 29

John checked all over town for her. For Natalie. He and Simon went at it for a few minutes on the roof after she left. A few minutes of Name-calling and some fist fighting. John wanted to have him thrown in a jail cell so bad but he knew... knew the truth that he was a Federal Agent and that Fed's very rarely did anytime for minor crimes. Simon had said he didn't force him self on her and he knew that would be enough for the government to turn the other cheek. John was hesitant to Believe Simon's story but...but until he found Natalie and had her go back to the hospital… until he found her... he couldn't know for sure.

John was starting to feel panicky after he couldn't find her anywhere after about an hour. He racked his brain trying to think. Figure out some place maybe out of Llanview even that she would go. He had called her cell a few times and she never answered. He walked into the police station hoping her uncle could tell him where to look for her. Where she might be if she needed time alone.

"Bo… can I speak to you for a few minutes?" John asked as he walked into his office after knocking. " Sure John I hope it has to do with the note you left me about not wanting the job" Bo asked and john shook his head no.

"No... Its not... actually this is more important than that... its about your niece… about Natalie... " Bo saw John's face. He knew this man well enough to know something was wrong. " What's wrong with my niece?" Bo asked and John felt he had to explain the whole story to him just to get his help. John did explain… everything but the part about the baby... about Natalie being pregnant with his baby.

"I hated agent Ferrar the minute he walked into town years ago..." Bo said shaking his head after hearing the story. " Bo… I need to find out where she is... I need to talk to her... I know you probably think I should've gone with my gut... confronted her and I would've known there was something wrong with her but… but I've been hurt in the past and ... and I guess I'm just a jerk" He told Bo smiling weakly.

"That you are but… all men are jerks… don't you know that" Bo said trying to lighten the mood. John's horrible mood. " Any idea's where she might go?" John asked and Bo knew exactly where she was.

"Yeah... I think I know exactly where she is" Bo told him and gave him the address to the cabin and directions. John thanked him and was walking out the door when Bo called out to him.

"The job is still yours John...Natalie... she'll get over this… she's not dumb enough to let Simon Ferrar come between her and you" Bo told him and it made John smile some. He left the office and headed over to her Grandfathers cabin.

Bo watched John Mcbain walk out of his office, almost run actually. Bo was careful not to show his true feelings because he knew what John's temper was like. There was no need to get him angrier then he already was. But Bo was pissed... Mad as Hell. If he ever saw Simon Ferrar again he would kill him after what John said Simon tried to do to Natalie. Bo was so damn angry, so enraged, he couldn't see straight for a minute. A red haze clouded his vision as he thought of the terror Natalie must have gone through, was still going through. Natalie was his niece... the closest thing he had to a Daughter

Bo quickly picked up his phone and Dialed Bruce... Natalie's partner's extension.

"I need to see you now… it's about Agent Simon Ferrar"

Llantano Mountain

John approached the cabin. It was pretty late and dark. It had been a long day and he knew she was probably curled up on the couch inside resting. He looked thru the front window of the cabin and that was exactly what she was doing. She looked so beautiful lying there. Resting. He had to make her understand. He knew she would. He trusted it. Trusted what they had this time. He wouldn't be a fool and not trust what she felt for him again.

John smiled, as he didn't want to knock and wake her. She was pregnant… she needed her rest... She was pregnant... he thought again. She didn't even know it. He would have to tell her.. He smiled. It was finally sinking in... She was having a baby… his baby... He continued to smile wondering how she would feel about it. She would be excited about it… Happy about it. He thought. He remembered her telling him once about wanting kids in her life. John came out of his thoughts long enough to turn the knob of the door. To see if it was open... It was.

John entered the Cabin quietly and went over by the couch. He looked at her beautiful face and he sighed quietly. He reached over behind the couch some and took a blanket off the back of it and covered her up with it. He turned towards the Fireplace. He put a few more logs on and then he settled in on the chair opposite the couch. He faced her while she slept for a few minutes till he too fell asleep.

"Get Off of me!!! No!! Off!!!" Natalie screamed out in her sleep. Moving about and breathing heavy. John jumped the minute he heard her screams... her cries... He ran over to her the few feet to the couch and pulled her to him. She calmed but didn't wake completely at first.

"John?" She questioned coming out of her sleep state. She pulled off of him for a minute and regained herself. She pushed his arms away so he wasn't touching her. Natalie stood like nothing had just occurred.

"Natalie... are you alright? You were screaming and crying in your sleep," He told her alarmed. She was walking around the room strange and he feared that what he just witnessed. The words she just screamed out might have to do with What Simon really did to her last night. He shook his head hoping… praying he was wrong cause if he found out that Simon did it fact do something to her... He would Kill HIM!!! He came out of his thoughts long enough to watch her more closely.

"I'm fine… I guess it was just a bad dream.. When did you get here?" She asked him and it surprised him. First he was surprised how she so nonchalantly changed the subject of her dream and then that she didn't seem surprise to see him there.

"Late last night... you were sleeping… I didn't want to wake you" John told her answering her question. She walked over towards the front window. She looked out. The early morning was still dark. It was a crisp darkness she thought and she heard him speak.

"I went to your uncle... He told me about you and this place… How you come here to feel safe... I hope you don't mind I came... but... I ...I was worried about you and I need to Tell you how sorry I a-"

"How sorry you are that you didn't trust me… see that something was wrong… off… know that I would never do that to you... trust that something like that isn't who I am" She told him her tone raising as she continued to speak. She was now turned looking at him as he was behind her.

John saw her eyes still angry… but ... he saw something else in them.. Something he didn't recognize... fear? He thought at first but then dismissed it for the time being. He put his hand on her shoulder gently as he stood closer to her.

"I… I guess I blew it...Huh??? This... us..." He told her and he saw her turn away from him. She shook her head yes but then started shaking it No as she turned back to face him.

"No… you didn't...No... At first..." She started to say and she paused for a moment " at first when I heard that you saw me… drugged and thought I was Making Love to Simon... yeah… at first I was pretty pissed off... Still am a bit mad but... but I can't hold a grudge for something I've done too. Something I was tricked into believing... All the years ago... I fell for the fake pictures of Chris... and I actually know how it feels to be so hurt that all you want to do is run... lash out… punch something." She told him, as her eyes got teary. He came closer some.

"So then... then we're okay? … alright? ... just like that.." He asked her almost not believing it. She didn't blame him. " We're okay... I'm... not... not at this moment No." She told him and he put his arms around her back and pulled her body close to him. He brought his mouth to her ear and spoke to her softly.

"You're gonna be fine... I'm gonna make sure of it...I Love you Natalie" He told her and she closed her eyes upon hearing his words. She felt his content ness upon her and she wished she could figure out a way to be fine. To forget again not just what occurred with Simon but what was now consuming her brain. What he had just heard consuming her dreams a few minutes ago.

To be continued...