HELLO WORLD! I am back after a week of being gone and I apologize for the wait on this chapter. The past week has bbeen super busy. I had like 3 tests and 2 essays and the weekend was busy with family stuff. Hopefully it will not take that long to update again! I don't own pll and warning for self harm! Please review and fave and alert and all that jazz! -lexus
Alison's POV.
I wake up to birds singing and outside it's raining. Rubbing my eye's and looking outside, I see that it's still early and the alarm hasn't gone off yet.
"First time for everything." I whisper to myself and smile down at Emily. After our make out session last night, we fell asleep cuddling. Em didn't have another nightmare and I finally slept without keeping one eye open constantly.
"Emily dear wake-up" I hear Pam Fields call from behind the closed door and then walk away. Shaking Em, she slowly wakes up with a yawn.
"What time is it?" She questions before streching.
"Your mom just got home so I'm assuming early."
"Usually she doesn't get home this early." Em states, looking at the time on her phone and then showing me.
*5:50 am*
"We've only slept for like an hour since we last woke up so why do I feel so rested?" I ask and she shrugs.
"I don't know but I feel the same way. I should probably tell my mum since we have time." I nod and go to turn off the alarm as she walk's out of the room. I stand in her room looking around at the 4 walls and a door that surround me, thinking about how Pam Fields was going to take the topic of her living with them possibly.
Walking out of the room silently and down the hall, the sound of two people whispering is evident. I go to step closer to hear them but as I step, the floorboards creek loudly.
"Shit." I whisper to myself and rush back to Em's room as quickly and quietly as possible. I quickly go to the closest and sit down in front of it to look at some clothes.
"I know you were listening in Ali." Somebody announces from behind me before sitting down and wrapping their arms around my body. I tense because even though I know it's Em, I haven't felt like this in a month and being alone for so long changes you, I am proof of that.
As I relax, Em puts her head on my shoulder and hugs me even tighter.
"Did you hear what we were talking about downstairs?" She asks and I shake my head no in response.
"Ok do you want me to tell you?" She asks again, already knowing the answer. I nod and I can feel her smile on my shoulder.
"My mum and I were talking about this amazing girl who I am head of heels for," Emily gives me a playful kiss on my neck. "She is smart," Em kisses my shoulder. "She is beautiful," another kiss but this time on the other shoulder. "She is kinda reckless," I smile, turn my head to face her slightly and gasp.
"I am not!"
"How do you know if I'm talking about you Ali?" She questions seriously and I lower my head. She is right. We haven't talked about what's really happened over the past month. What if she is seeing somebody or even worse is in love with them. Even though she has been kissing me, what if that was to let me down slowly.
"Now let me finish." I turn back around, symbolizing she can continue. "And best of all, she is completely mesmerizing in so many ways it takes my breath away." With that she turns my entire body to face me with ease. "This girl I'm talking about, it's Alison Dilaurentis." As Em talks, she puts a hand on the back of my head and leans in half way, waiting for me to close the gap. Without a second to waste, I crash our lips together and we just sit there kissing until we are both out of breath. Our faces stay an inch apart and I smile.
"She said you can live with us Ali."
"Really?" I ask almost on the brink of tears because of what Em said and the possibility of having a home.
"Yea, but no more running ok. No matter what." Emily replies seriously.
"Never again." She grabs my arms in excitement but I wince and she let's go automatically. When Em looks at me, her eye's are filled with such remorse and sadness that my stomach fills with guilt.
"I'm sorry." I state quietly and go to get up but she reaches for my hands, keeping me seated.
"Ali let me see, I bought some supply's in case this ever happened again so I'm prepared." I nod and take off the baggy T-shirt. Thankfully, I only cut on my arms and not to deep.
"Is this all of them Ali?"
"Yea, thats it." I sit there and look at my body. Though I'm not in the same mentality I was in a month ago, its pretty close. Every cut I've ever made will be there for a long time and it baffles my mind how somebody as pure as Em could ever fall for me. Suddenly, I feel Em put her one arm under my knees and and the other wraps around my back, successfully picking me up. She carries me all the way to her washroom. Once she sets me down on the sink counter, she asks me a question in a worried tone.
"Ali, why does it feel like I'm picking up a piece of paper when I pick you up?"
"I'm not that light." I reply avoiding her question.
"Babe, when was the last time you ate something?" I look away to the clock that is ticking and realize that even though we woke up early, she is gonna be late for school.
"Alison, look at me." She states and moves my head gently to look at her face.
"I eat stuff all the time, look at me Emily you can tell!" I whisper forcefully. She looks at me with such astonishment at what I just said and I stare into her eye's. Finally, she speaks up,
"Ali, I'm skipping school today." I do a double take because Emily never skips school unless it's really important.
"But-" I start but she interrupts me.
"No buts Alison. I don't have anything important like tests or essays. You and I are just going to be together today. I'm not gonna leave you after a comment like that because you are beautiful." I stay quiet during her talk because I honestly have no idea how to reply. She cares so damn much and I don't deserve even a second of her time.
Out of nowhere, three words slip out of my mouth before I can stop them.
"I love you." She smiles, then grabs my hand and places it on her heart.
"I love you too." We stay like that for another minute before she puts my hand back down on the counter and reaches for some first aid stuff under the sink. She pulls out some spray on hydrogen peroxide.
"This is gonna hurt worse then before cause their infected. I'm sorry." She states and then sprays the liquid on both arms rapidly. She was right, cleaning the cuts hurt a lot more this time. After each spray, I take a shaky breath trying to keep myself from shedding tears. Em pats my arms, signaling she's done and then turns around. I think she's going to walk out but Emily just crouches slightly, her back turned to me. After 30 seconds of wondering what she is doing, Em speaks up, giggling.
"Are you gonna hop on or just sit on the counter baffled and confused?" A thought jumps into my head and I immediately know what she is doing. I hop onto her and she makes sure I'm secure on her back. Then Em takes off, running through the house with me on her back and all worry's, all thoughts, everything just falls to the back of my mind.
