Chapter 29: It's tantalizing but that is still a story for far ahead.
A/N: So fanfic wouldn't let me upload this like at all…but it finally is now :3. Maybe it's on to me…this chapter is just too adorable or something. Or horrible…dun dun dun. Anyways, here it is.
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter
Over the next couple of weeks Sirius' behavior didn't improve. We all knew he was with girls now, but it didn't do anything. He would get a snog date, only for her to get annoyed with him. And it was a constant battle. We knew it wasn't any closer to getting any better. The girls weren't helping. From what Kathleen had overheard from one of the girls he had snogged, Sirius apparently after like fifteen minutes if not less would break apart and say something like 'This isn't right' or 'No this isn't...ugh' and then he'd end up walking away. But the next day he would still try and find someone else. But as far as anyone could tell, no one was good enough for the great Sirius Black because his behavior stayed the same.
The one thing that did help was when he was practicing for Quidditch. That was about the only thing that kept him normal. Tryouts had already passed and he had been practicing non-stop. He, James, and Raven made it on the team. I didn't bother trying out. I just didn't have the heart.
In any case it had gotten to be that when Sirius was coming anyone would ignore him, unless they wanted a quick fifteen minute snog. I didn't really get that choice because often he would come up to me and single me out to talk. I tried my best, but something was always just off between us. And I knew for sure it wasn't me at all. It was all him and this behavior like someone stuck a wand up his nose or something.
Lily and I had just finished up in the library, we were trying to get all our homework done so that we could enjoy the Halloween feast this Friday. But it was a grim outlook for finishing all of it.
"I wish we have Vaveriuz back, this new DADA teacher is really...harsh." I groaned as I shoved my half completed essay into my back pack.
"Why did she quit anyways?" Lily asked.
Moving my backpack to its right place I sighed "She's wanted by you-know-who. Trying to gather as many mutants as he can from what I understand. So she's in hiding right now. I'm sure she will be a Vampire in no time." I shook my head truly feeling sorry for her.
"That's awful" Lily sighed and I had to agree with her. "At least we are learning a lot, I suppose..."
"This isn't stuff we will really use. Trust me" I said while skipping a trick stair.
"What do you mean? Why wouldn't we use some of these defensive spells?" Lily rose an eyebrow like I was crazy.
"You won't have time, he wants you dead he wants you dead." I answered simply knowing first hand. "He wants you tortured, you'll be tortured." I let out a shutter. "It's not prob-" I started but was cut off.
"Princess!" I heard someone shout. That nickname could only mean one thing. Death eater wannabes.
"Lily go ahead, see you in the common room." I muttered and turned around to see Avery, Nott, Sev, and Mulciber waving at me with grins. "Hey you guys!" I smiled as warmly as I could, finding it harder and harder now a days to put on this façade that I have when I am around them.
"Care to talk a bit?" Avery questioned hopefully.
"I've got some time I suppose" I didn't really want to be in their company right now, but I really didn't have much of a choice. "Besides we haven't seen each other in a while." I couldn't imagine why…
Nott snorted in disgust "You are always with that mudblood, like we want to visit you then."
I saw Sev shift a bit in his spot but he didn't say anything. "Regardless it's been a while." I tried my best not to narrow my eyes. It really hurt me when they called Lily a mudblood because personally she's a hundred times better than they will ever be.
"Yeah…" Sev said in a far off voice as a silence glazed among us.
Mulciber shifted closer to me trying to fill in the silence "Any news?" He questioned almost instantly as he and the others shook off the awkwardness that formed. I wonder sometimes if they have realized that I'm not a mudblood killing machine like Voldemort puts me out to be (seeing as I've only killed 3 Vampires in my whole life and no humans…)
"I get letters almost every day actually." I admitted "But nothing too extreme. Apparently just having trouble with the project I left behind." I laughed. I loved how he couldn't control the Vampires like I could. He would never be able to regardless of how much he wanted too.
"You always did a great job." Avery commented with a pat on my back.
"We should start walking to the Slyhterin common room, away from preying ears." Sev noted as a couple of Ravenclaws passed by us.
"Sure thing" I smiled, even though that was the last place I wanted to be. Reluctantly I started to walk with them.
"Dad says there was a big raid, the Daily Prophet hasn't reported it yet." Nott grinned trying to look impressive to all of us.
"Oh the one on Monday?" I questioned trying to think back. Today was Wednesdays, so that would have had to have been Monday.
Nott looked a little defeated but puffed out his chest none the less. "That's the one, dad says they managed to imperius another Ministry official." Nott said in a whisper. We all still heard him as we continued to descend to the dungeons.
"Proof right there, he doesn't need me." I smirked playfully.
"Darling, who doesn't need you? Look at you" Avery teased and rested his hand around my waist. I didn't protest, I was used to this treatment from the likes of them.
"I know I know" I laughed and put my arm around his waist as well. "But really, I don't think I did that much anyways. I mean I know I helped out a bit." I stopped talking, I wanted to say more, but I noticed a spell was coming. Before I had time to respond Avery's hand ripped off of my waist and fell flat on the ground.
"What the he-" Nott started but he too fell in a full body bind curse. Mulciber, Sev and myself looked around but didn't see any source of the problem. Well they didn't, I noticed right away behind suits of armor was Sirius, James, and Peter. Remus was off somewhere probably not wanting to cause trouble. James clearly didn't care that he was headboy and gladly hexed any Slyhterins.
Sev and Mulciber continued to look around wands ready, but before they could do anything more than just have their wands out, they too were in a full body bind.
Sighing I called out "Boys I was fine you didn't need too hex them." I sighed heavily staring where the boys were hiding. "You can come out now." All at once they crawled out looking guilty, all except Sirius. He looked furious. I mean more furious then he had been ever since school started.
"Sorry it was well deserved." James hung his head as I glared at him. I didn't get a chance to protest, he carried on "We should at least move the bodies. We can't just leave them here for someone to find." He commented pointing to each of them.
"No we are leaving them and going to the common room, you guys are in deep trouble." I growled and turned around to head towards the Gryffindor common room. I didn't bother checking if any of them were following me or not. I could at least trace one pair of footsteps behind me. That was good enough for me because I knew it was Sirius and seeing as he didn't look guilty at all, he was the one I wanted to talk to the most.
Once I felt I was far enough away from the scene, I went into an empty classroom and took a seat on one of the desk waiting. I And sure enough moments later Sirius came through the door looking as angry as ever.
"How could you let that filth touch you?" He growled as he stood in front of me. "Better yet, how could you touch him back?"
I crossed my arms in a defensive manner "Relax, I'm used to it." I shook my head, this was not he conversation I wanted to be having right.
He made a noise of protest before he threw his arms up "Used to it?" He nearly yelled at me "That is not something you get used too! Usually you hex any boy that touches you but Slyhterin's they can touch you whenever you want?" He threw his hands down on the desk and trapped me in as he inched his face closer. I could tell he was upset. His eyes were dark with anger and his face was a little bit red. It was all around us and in the air I breathe. His anger was making me sick.
I easily pushed him away trying to fight of this wave that was crashing down on me. "It is different because I had to deal with it all summer." I growled "That doesn't mean I enjoy it but I had no choice." I threw him a glare.
"You didn't have a choice?" He breathed.
"You don't even know what it's like okay! I still don't have a choice!" I cried "And seriously? You have no reason to be upset at me for my behavior! So why are you, huh?" I demanded now hoping off my desk and took a step towards him trying to get him to back off or react in some way.
He didn't move or inch away at all he just stood his ground. "I just don't like it okay!" He reasoned while raising his voice louder still.
I blinked at him "Is that what his is about?" I turned to leave "I can't believe you are jealous!" I said in disbelief as I grabbed the door handle.
I couldn't leave though. Sirius had grabbed onto me and turned me around "You are missing the point completely! I am not jealous at all!" He sneered with a sharp glare. "This is…you just wouldn't understand." He explained.
"Then explain it to me would you?" I pulled my wrist out of his tight grasped and crossed my arms over my chest in irritation. I knew I was right. I could sense jealousy all around him. You can't lie to me, not anymore.
"I just…Kobato…you" Sirius stumbled around for the right words. He looked confused and afraid in some ways. Finally he frowned and all emotions were erased from his face accept anger. "No I'm not jealous. Personally you are letting all this attention go to your head. You are turning into some kind of whore." And with those harsh cold words, he left slamming the door with an ear splattering ring.
I had no clue what just happened. But it wasn't at all what I was expecting. I couldn't help but let my body slouch down to the ground. I didn't know how to approach this problem at all. He was in denial. He was jealous. But jealous of what? That I was getting attention and he wasn't? Or jealous that I let Slyhterin's touch me when he can't even touch me that way? Does he want me like that, as another girl to snog or does he love me?
All I knew was I had to form some sort of plan to get him back to normal. Wasting no time I rushed to the Gryffindor common room in search for Lily and Raven. To tell them what just happened. And both of them agreed with me, Sirius was jealous of something and we had to get him to acknowledge it. So setting aside our goal of making Lily confess, we worked on an angry and more aggressive Sirius.
With hopeful thoughts we started our plan on Friday.
"October 31st, today is Halloween!" Raven squealed as we exited Charms.
I stopped walking, we were headed up to the common room for a rest before the great feast, but something just hit me. October 31st…It was my last time I would see Lily and James alive on Halloween. I couldn't help but let a pit settle in my stomach. Another pit fell in my stomach. If I couldn't get Sirius to fall in love with me it would be the last one spent with him as well.
"Kobato?" Lily questioned breaking my thoughts.
"Just a little tired is all." I lied not wanting her to know my true thoughts. "Let's just get up so we can get ready. This plan needs to go through." My heart wanted it and I knew I had to get him no matter what.
"I feel like there's something you're not telling us." Lily started at me raising an eyebrow in curiosity.
"Like what?" I questioned as I began walking again.
"I understand you don't like Sirius' behavior and all…" Raven caught up to me and was staring at me prying eyes "I mean Lily and I were wonder you don't…" She stumbled on her words. She obviously didn't want me to get upset.
"What she's trying to say is that you don't like Sirius." Lily added finishing the statement for Raven.
I tried not to blush, but I couldn't help the warmth that was spreading to my cheeks "Of course I like Sirius, he's one of my best friends." I filled in trying to cover my discomfort.
Raven let out a laugh "We know that, I mean like, like you want to be with him." She stated.
I looked down to my left, was I really being that obvious? "You can't tell anyone" I glared harshly and slowed my pace a bit as I tried to scope out that no one was listening to us. "I somehow have…you know, falling for him." I admitted with a blush.
Lily smirked "Then we will get this to work." One last look and she carried on walking to the common room "Let's get to the dorm and wait for Potter and Black as planned." Lily nodded and we all agreed.
We didn't have to wait long in the dorm for the boys to be pulling stunts for the first years to awe at and swoon several ladies before the great feast. I had been spying on through the windows in the common room in my dove form. Once I saw them for sure I went back into the dorm and we were ready for the plan. We wanted a good solid reason for me to be "stuck" hanging out with Sirius, James, Remus, and Peter tonight and for several nights to come. On top of that we needed something to set Sirius' anger over the top, that part was all in James' hand. I honestly had no clue what he was doing but he told me to go with it. Just as I told him to trust me on what I had planned so Sirius wouldn't find it weird that I'm spending every day with him.
"Ready Lily?" I nervously questioned as we stood at the door to head down the stair case.
"Yes" She nodded "Wait…Kobato?"
I stopped opening the door "Lily?" I responded in a confused voice.
"Just no matter how nasty this gets just know I don't mean it." She smiled.
"Of course" I laughed. I knew full well what I was getting myself into. "Raven, give us a couple of minutes." I nodded to Raven who was hovering nearby.
"Right, I know the plan." She gave the thumbs up and with that Lily and I exited down the stairs.
Lily and I tipped toed down and waited till we were at the right height and then gave a nod to each other. It was now or never.
"No Lily! You are being unreasonable." I shouted as I emerged off the stair case and entered the common room.
Lily huffed an irritated manner "I am? I am?" She stepped down the stairs as well. I had my back to the rest of the common room, so I didn't know who was looking. Lily didn't dare take her eyes off of me either, she wanted to do this right. "I am not the one who lied to my best friends!"
I scoffed and backed up a little more so we could be farther into the common room. "I didn't lie to you, I would never lie to you!" I argued while daring to take a peek. We had some of the common room's interest. And I couldn't hear Sirius and James talking at all. They had to have been listening.
"You did too and worst of all you didn't bother telling us anything. You left us in the dark while you…you" She paused searching for the right words. I'm not sure if she even knew where she was going with this.
I cut her off trying to fill in so we didn't blow this "Lily why won't you believe me? I didn't have choice." I stepped closer to her trying to reach out and make this more convincing.
Lily played her part well. She slapped my hand away in one quick motion and grabbed her wand and pointed it at me. "There is always a choice and you chose wrong." She pushed her wand closer to me. "I thought we were friends, but apparently not."
I pulled out my wand as well. "Obviously-" I started but Raven had finally come down.
"You two stop it now!" She cried with a panicked look filling her eyes. Both Lily and I turned and glared at her before we started to 'duel'. Her and I had rehearsed what spells we were going to throw and when. We planned it perfectly, but then something happened we didn't plan on, both our wands flew from our hands at the same time. We watched them fly in the air and land in James' hand. We glared at him but didn't say anything. Out of the corner of my eye, I was Lily turn to me. I caught her eye at once. We both had the same thought, fist.
Without a second thought her and I charged at each other and threw our fist up. It seemed to be in slow motion that they collided with one another. I barely even bruised her but she hit me as hard as she could. I know she was going for convincing. And I think it was working because she had pinned me to the ground, produced, made my lip bleed, and give me a fat lip.
But as soon as it started it stopped. I was 'crying' as Sirius was pulling me from underneath her and James was pulling her away.
"LET ME AT HER!" I screamed with as much lung power as I could muster "She…I…I HATE HER!" I stumbled around trying to find the right words as I fought Sirius' grip.
"NO! SHE'S A TRAITOR! LET ME AT HER!" Lily screamed back. I was watching her closely before Sirius finally threw me up on his shoulders as best he could and dragged me up to his dorm. He didn't say anything as he pulled me there either. He did let out a couple of sighs but for the most part he just walked in silence. I felt like I was in deep trouble, but deep down I couldn't help smiling. The plan worked out perfectly. Everyone bought that fight. I was even starting to think it was real.
We were finally in the dorm and Sirius had set me down on the bed. He kneeled down and stared into my eyes wondering what was going on. Neither of us said anything as he continued to stare into my eyes. "She didn't hurt you too badly did she?" He finally broke the silence as he reached forward with his handkerchief to wipe the blood off my lips.
I shuttered at the touch. It was so soft and gentle. "No, I'm fine." I reached out and rested my hand on his wrist.
"Usually you would be dying by now" He looked at me skeptical.
I rolled my eyes "I'm a big girl now." I teased as he pulled his hand down and rested it on my leg. "Remember?"
"What were you two fighting about?" He asked ignoring my question.
I looked down at his hands that were rested on my legs and licked the blood of my lip. I wanted it to look like I was upset and didn't want to talk about it. But Sirius wouldn't have any of that. He grabbed my chin and peered into my eyes with concern and curiosity. I blinked a couple of times feeling uncomfortable at his strong gaze "Lily…found a letter from you-know-who in my trunk. She was looking for a necklace she could borrow. And well…yeah" I looked away in my attempt to feel bad. Truth was Lily didn't actually find anything.
"I can see where she would be upset, but she'll come around." Sirius smiled warmly as he reached out and rested his hand on my cheek.
"I know…but I was going to sit with her at dinner and I was just looking forward to it" I sniffled.
He lightly patted my face "You can sit with us whenever you need too." His eyes were filled with love and comfort, he meant those words.
I laughed while leaning forward to push my forehead against his "I was planning on it and there's nothing you could possibly do to stop me." I grinned.
"You really think so?" He raised an eyebrow and pushed his head against mine with more force then I was.
"I know so, I'm better at dueling then you and I have powers you couldn't even dream of." I teased, knowing part of it was true.
He leaned back to get a better look of me "Yeah okay." He shook his head in disbelief. "I am better than you and we all know that."
I crossed my arms acting like I was pouting "Wanna bet?" I questioned down at him.
"I don't need too. I told you I am better than you." He said in his cocky voice.
I stood up. "Right whatever helps you sleep at night. Oh and speaking of sleeping, I'll sleep in your bed. Best if I don't sleep in the same room as Lily." The thought just popped in my head. Why not? It's a Friday night. I can get away with it till Sunday night. That way I can get as much time with Sirius as I could.
"What? You can't just decide these things!" He tried sounding angry but his laughter destroyed that.
"I just did" I quickly said before turning my face into sadness "Please…this isn't easy. Lily is my best friend" I paused and closed my eyes "Can't I just be near you and and James?" I asked opening my eyes to give him big pouty eyes.
He reached out and pulled me into a tight hug "Just this once." He let go and ruffled my hair. "Come on it's about time for the feast" He gave me once last smile and started walking for the door.
"Have I ever told you that you're my favorite?" I questioned as I ran to his side to grab his arm.
He didn't protest to me holding onto his arm, rather he pulled me closer to him. "No I don't think you have." He grinned from ear to ear.
"Well I just did and that's pretty much the highest honor you can receive." I laughed as we made our way down the stairs.
"Too bad you are only my second favorite." He said in a serious tone.
"Really? Whose your first?" I questioned not being phased at all by this news. "Wait let me guess, your lover James." I said in a sing song voice.
"How'd you know? My love for James was supposed to be a secret!" Sirius pouted as we entered the common room.
"Lucky guess maybe?" I laughed, I couldn't help but laugh. I loved being with him.
"Sure" He rolled his eyes as we scanned the room for James, Remus and Peter. They were an easy find seeing as most of the common room was now dead, everyone was ready for the feast.
"Everything okay?" James asked when we finally made it over to them.
"I think so" I shrugged not really sure what to say or what happened to Lily.
"I don't think Lily is, Raven and her headed down already." James shook his head "She was pretty hysterical in disbelief. Whatever you two fought over must have been bad."
"I don't want to talk about it." I scowled "Can we just go down to the feast?" I questioned hopefully.
"Please, I'm really hungry." Peter groaned. I couldn't help but laugh.
"You got it Peter!" James saluted him with a grin and started walking, all of us following his lead. "Oh and Kobato?"
I picked up my pace so I could stand next to him "Yeah James?" I questioned.
"Remember that homework assignment you wanted me to help you with?" He threw me a small wink. I was utterly confused at his question. I just stared at him for a bit.
"Homework…" I thought for a moment before it hit me. The assignment to get Sirius upset. "Oh right right that one." I smiled finally catching on.
"Yeah I looked into what you needed, we can talk about it tonight." He nodded. I wanted to ask more, but I knew I couldn't. Not with Sirius here.
"What did she need help with?" Sirius looked at James in confusion.
James just smirk "Its top secret." He responded in a playful voice.
Sirius scowled, we all thought for sure he was going to land into one of his anger fits. But he shook it off "Well whenever you need help Kobato, I'm a much better choice then James." He smiled and grabbed my arm "For future reference."
I held on tightly to his arm "I know you are, but only James could take care of this job, sorry."
He put his scowl back on his face "I don't see wh-"
I cut him off by pulling on his arm hard "Was Lily really upset?" I asked in my attempt to change the subject.
"She wouldn't say what she was upset over, but she was really bent over it." Remus sighed "And she had to have been, she's not the type to throw a punch or curse at just anyone." He noted.
"Speaking of which, your fat lip" Sirius turned to me and looked at my lip "It's already healed and gone" he stared at me in confusion.
"Fast healer?" I shrugged while making a face.
"Or there's something you're not telling the rest of us and Lily found it out." Sirius glared at me.
"Now is not the time Sirius." I growled and picked up the pace as we neared the great hall. "Please" I begged, I wasn't in the mood to have a fight with him.
"Fine" He scowled as a silence fell between all of us. It stayed over us until we walked into the great hall for our final Halloween feast at Hogwarts. I couldn't help but grin from ear to ear as I sat down in between Sirius and James.
"Our last one, eh?" Remus commented the one thing all of us seem to be thinking.
"Seems pretty surreal" James sighed and looked around the Gryffindor table, no doubt for a glance at Lily. We all had sad smiles laced upon our faces as we peered around at the giant pumpkins and all the glorious decorations. It was a sight to behold. I could just feel the air around us get thick with emotions, but no one said anything. We just stared around and enjoy each other's company until the feast started.
Dumbledore gave a great speech as usual. It may have started off as gloom and doom, but he still did a great job and pulled through with happiness in the ending, leaving us all ready for the food. And the food was fantastic. But I think it was made even better by the fact that I was with such great friends. All of us had a great time, laughing and talking and eating. And by the time desert came around we were so full, we were just eating because it was there. But it seemed to be adding to our euphoria.
"No I don't want to try that one!" I groaned not wanting another bite of anything else.
"Please you barely eat anymore." James sighed holding a piece of red chocolate in front of my face.
"I eat a lot! I'm getting fat, I swear." I pushed the chocolate back towards him.
"Oh whatever" Sirius rolled his eyes. "Just try it! We want to know what it is."
"Then maybe you should try it." I rolled my eyes and grabbed the piece of chocolate out of James' hands and shoved it towards Sirius.
"I will if you kiss me." He smirked.
"That is not a fair trade. Remus tell him that's not fair." I turned to Remus who was munching on a piece of cake.
"I'm staying out of this." He said truthfully and went back to his food.
I scowled "Fine, Peter tell him that's not a fair trade!" I pouted over to Peter. He couldn't say no to me.
Peter made a face "Sorry, I can't argue with Sirius."
So he could say not to me…
"Fiiiiiiiiiiine" I whined as Sirius looked hopeful. I instead of leaning forward and kissing him, I ate the chocolate whole. I moaned, it was delicious "Best chocolate ever."
Sirius looked a little upset "What kind was it?" He questioned regardless of what his true thoughts were.
"Bl-" I started but then realized it might be weird that I enjoyed blood chocolate. No point in lying though. "Blood chocolate."
"Ewww, really?" James looked at me with disgust written all over his face.
I rolled my eyes "Would I lie to you?" I pointed out and grabbed another piece and ate it happily.
"That's nasty" Sirius finally said well staring at me.
"Try some, you might like it." I said while handing him one.
"No thank you, I am not a Vampire." He grabbed it at any rate and handed it to Peter "Here Peter you eat it."
"Why me?" Peter groaned and looked at it with fear.
"Because you can" Sirius commanded.
Peter wanted to retort but I felt arms fall around my waist and a head rest on my shoulder. I wasn't suspecting it at all so I let out a loud squeal.
I gasped and turned around to see Avery smirked. "Oh my god, you scared me Avery." I said with a big smile.
"Sorry, but we were wondering, would you like to hang out with us tonight Princess?" He questioned still holding me in a tight hug.
I didn't look at Sirius or James as I pushed Avery off to stand up "I would love too" I smiled warmly.
"She will not" Sirius cried out standing next to me.
"She's not your property brother." Regulus appeared out of nowhere and glared at his brother. "She is free to hang out with us whenever she wants."
Sirius stood there staring at his brother while opening and closing his mouth. He didn't say anything at all.
Avery took this as a chance to grab my arm "Then it's settle, she's coming with us." And with that I was whisked out of the great hall and was lead down to the dungeons to the Slyhterin common room.
I had forgotten how dark and dreary the Slyhterin common room was, so I was a little shocked after being in the bright colorful great hall to be here. But I didn't protest.
"We didn't go overboard did we?" Regulus turned to me and questioned as we went to go sit down on the couches.
"Overboard on what?" I looked between Regulus, Avery, Sev, Nott, and Mulciber feeling confused.
"Did Potter not tell you?" Regulus looked confused now as well.
"Wait, he talked to you guys?" I looked shocked as I got comfortable on the couches.
"Yeah, we couldn't understand why he came up to us in a friendly manner." Avery commented.
"But all he said was we needed to grab you in a 'loving' manner and pull you away from them." Regulus filled in the rest. "He just said it was part of a plan."
"I honestly don't know why we agreed" Nott growled.
I let out a laugh "It was to help Sirius, we are trying to get him to realize what's making him so mad lately."
"Do you think he's jealous of something?" Regulus moved closer to me on the couch feeling curious.
I nodded "We think he's jealous of the attention you boys give me." They let out a laugh.
"Anything to cause him discomfort, I'm in." Sev smirked devilishly.
"Well I don't want to go to excessive" I quickly well looking sharply at Sev "I…he's my friend and I just want him…normal." I looked around shiftily. I didn't want them to know I actually loved Sirius. That was the last thing I wanted.
Nott laughed "Not what I heard. Rumors are stirring among Death Eaters you know." He turned to me with a raised eyebrow. I didn't say anything. I swallowed hard wondering what he had heard. "Apparently the Dark Lord, from what I understand, tortured you for an hour for being in love with a blood traitor." He said in a low tone. But we all heard him loud and clear.
"I heard that too." Mucliber nodded in agreement.
I looked around at them "But there weren't any names called out, he never said who I was in love with." I tried not recalling the memory. He had invaded my mind when I wasn't ready and found out how much I really cared for Sirius. And he knew, he knew Sirius was a blood traitor. The thought along made him angry enough to nearly torture me to death.
Sev laughed "Have you ever seen yourself around Black."
I wanted to retort and say something mean to him, but I couldn't. I just stared at him and didn't say anything, but I caved in they were expecting something out of me "He tortured me for a lot of things. I'm a cheeky kind of girl."
Nott laughed "You were, this is true." He commented. "You should just be respectful of him."
"I will once I get back, starting to miss those nightly tortures." I said sarcastically.
"It's for a good cause." Mucliber said in a voice that let me know he meant it. It made me slightly sick to think about that.
"It will take a while. He only has petty ministry officials now. If he wants to take over he's going to need bigger names." I smiled knowing full well how little power he actually did have. He could kill almost anyone he wanted, but taking over the ministry was going slower than ever.
Avery shook his head in agreement "From what I understand he wants to get actual spies, the ones that are being controlled won't last forever."
Nott edged forward on his seat "Dad reckons he wants to use one of us to get into the ministry once we get a job there."
Sev laughed "I won't be getting a job with the ministry as far as I know."
"Kobato will won't you? Especially being his right hand girl." Avery patted my back as if he was proud.
I sighed "Not sure really…I plan to be a Vampire hunter." Everyone let out a snort of laughter at my words.
"That won't happen, not anymore." Avery laughed practically crushing my dreams.
"Who knows" I shrugged.
We carried on talking about Voldemort, his plans, and our plans with Voldemort a for the rest of the evening. I didn't mind, we were having fun. But around midnight something strange happened. I was beginning to get a little tired and was dozing off on Regulus' shoulder when it happened. I had stopped listening about an hour ago and now I was just attempting to sleep. But just as I was falling asleep my eyes snapped open and my heart felt as if it was crying out. I couldn't explain it. I felt like I had forgotten something very important and in forgetting I felt like I was getting over a severe break up. Or something to that manner, it was just so hard to explain. I did know one thing though, I wanted to cry.
I pulled my head off of Regulus shoulder and stood up. My body felt heavy with emotions. I couldn't figure them out. Something strange was going on with my heart and my mind. I couldn't explain it.
"Kobato? Are you okay?" Regulus asked the minute I turned to look at them. I could see in the dimly lit room that worry was etched on his face.
Slowly I nodded "Yes, I just…I'm going to go to my dorm and go to bed." I wiped my eyes wearily as my eyes began to swell with tears.
"Do you want someone to bring you back?" Avery questioned hopefully.
"N-n-no" I said while staring off in to the distances. I wanted someone to hold me and to make it be okay. I want to cry, but most of all I didn't want to be around these guys.
"Okay, well goodnight." Avery smiled warmly. I returned it, but only slightly before I turned and left.
I didn't care what time of night it was or that I could get in trouble. I wondered loudly to the Gryffindor common room as I fought my hardest to keep the tears from coming. But I lost that battle. My heart was feeling worse and worse by the minute. To be honest it was scaring me. I couldn't explain it. I kept feeling like I forgot someone important. Someone important that I loved and that thought alone was making me want to cry. But it wasn't just that, it was also that I felt heartbroken. All this urged me to make it to the Gryffindor common room at the very least.
When I finally stumbled in I couldn't help but want to go straight for Sirius. There was no way to explain it. My heart just yearned for him. I didn't protest with my heart at all, I let it pull me right into his dorm as the tears streamed down my face. I walked all the way over to his bed, knowing full well he was asleep. I didn't care though, I crawled right in and snuggled up next to him.
He jumped backwards at first but then when he noticed it was me he glared.
"Si-si-Sirius" I sniffled a bit before I finally fell into complete sobs.
His face lightened up as he realized I was crying. He grabbed onto me tightly and pulled me into his chest. "What happened? What did those boys to do you? Are you alright?" He spewed a thousand questions of concern as I continued to cry into his shoulder.
"Nothing" I cried louder and let out a couple more sobs "Happened" I carried on as I rubbed my face in his bare chest, just realizing now he was in nothing but his boxers. I paid no attention to that and continued to cry.
"Then why are you crying?" I could feel the warmth of his body spread across mine as he held me closer in a tender embrace.
"I don't know" I answered truthfully and took in every scent of him. "I just miss…" I could explain, I missed something, or at least that's what I felt. That I missed someone or something and I forgot something or someone.
"Do you miss home?" He questioned as he stroked my hair lightly. I didn't know what to say because I didn't know what I was missing. So I settled for nodding my head. He seemed to understand "Shhhh, it's okay." He smiled warmly and lightly kissed the top of my head. The kind gesture shocked me and sent comfort throughout my whole body. I looked up with tear stained eyes in attempted to so my gratitude. "Why don't you get some sleep?" He questioned as he pulled my face back into his chest.
"Is something bothering you?" I asked while I wiped my eyes. I could tell that something was bothering him from his scent and the way he held his body right now. He probably didn't want to talk about it, but I could tell something was up.
"Yes, but you don't need to worry yourself about it right now." He said softly as he carried on patting my hair.
"Padfoot, who are you talking too at this hour?" I heard James question "Or are you talking in your sleep again?" He laughed.
"No one, just go to bed Prongs." Sirius held me closer trying to shield me away from James, for some odd reason.
"You have a girl here don't you?" Peter groaned from the bed across from us.
"None of your business, go to bed" Sirius snapped.
I didn't say anything, if Sirius didn't want them to know I was here just yet, than I wouldn't let them know either. But I didn't see what the point was, come daylight they would know I was here.
"It is seeing as we are all in the same room." Remus called groggily from his bed. Everyone seemed to be edgy with Sirius tonight.
That's when it hit me. I could sense from Sirius' emotions, he was trying to save me from embarrassment of everyone finding out that I was crying or that something was wrong. He was protecting me, no matter the cost.
"I'm going back to sleep" Sirius said without a second though pulled the curtains closed around us and crawled right back next to me. He let a smile graze across his lips before he kissed me lightly on the forehead "Goodnight Kobato."
