Y´all I´m still alive!

And I´m so so sorry for not posting I have so much to do at school it´s insane. I have two to three tests per week :/

Anyway I know this chapter is short, the monologue is not the best, the story is bad blah blah blah. I just really want to finally get to the point slexie reunites but that will take a few more chapters. Probably 4.
Also i want the next chapter to be a christmas special so yeah and I will include Benley in the next one I forgot about them here.

Okay so enjoy this chapter which is probably one of the worst ever and yeah have fun.

We are family

Family.

We can´t choose our family.

We have to live with whatever we´re given.

Sometimes we want them and sometimes not.

"Are you ready?" the o.b. asked Callie as she made the ultra sound of her baby and Mark stood next to her excited watching the picture changing. "Here´s the head and there´s the body..." the woman showed on the monitor and Callie smiled looking at it touching Mark´s hand. "And here you can hear the heart beat." the doctor continued pressing a button and a fast beating sound appeared. Mark smirked and felt happier than he did in a very long time.

"You shouldn´t be here right now." Callie tore Mark out of his thoughts.

"What?" he asked kind of shocked about that statement.

"I mean of course you should...you´re the baby daddy." she explained. "And I´m it´s mommy but...I just wish Arizona could be here right now."

"Then why aren´t you talking to her?" Mark asked pulling his hand away and went in front of Callie so he could face her. In the meantime the o.b. printed the pictures and gave Callie the approval to wipe away the gel and get dressed again.

"I tried..but she..she wanted me to choose between you and her..I couldn´t...you are the father of this child and my best friend, I can not just abandon you." Callie remembered their conversation.

"I know...I mean it´s not okay to say something like that but...you love her and she loves you...she wants to be back together with you." Mark explained trying not to focus on the o.b. who was wasting time so she could listen to the conversation.

"I know but-"

"No! Listen, if I could have another chance with Lexie I would take it..I would take it any day, any minute without asking. Take her back if you love her and if you want it. I assure you that I won´t walk out of this child´s life." he let her know.

"Um..the pictures are done." the o.b. cleared her throat. "I would like to set an appointment. Let me know when you have time in about four weeks. Try to work less, and avoid stress, don´t drink, don´t smoke, you´re a doctor you know this stuff."

"Thank you." Callie took the pictures and hold one out towards Mark. "Take one. Pin it in your locker or something."

"I will. But..don´t you want one to show to Arizona?" he asked.

"I can print another one." the doctor suggested and Callie nodded. One printed picture later Callie and Mark left the room to start working.

"Thank you for coming here and dealing with my hormones...I know I´m hard to handle sometimes." Callie meant looking at her shoes.

"Hey..come here." he pulled her into a hug. "I´m not gonna let you down. I promise. I will be the best father you can imagine for her."

"Why do you think it´s a girl?" Callie pulled away a bit so she could look him into the eyes.

"I just have this feeling." he smirked and caused her giggling.

At some point in life you can choose.

Well, you can choose with whom you´re sleeping.

You can build up a family.

But that´s a long progress.

Jackson and Lexie exchanged passionate kisses as his hand stroke the side of her body underneath her shirt. He put off her shirt softly and exhaled when she laid in front of him only in her bra. Looking at his torso, Lexie´s hand touched his abs. Then she looked up again and they locked eyes.

"Are you sure we´re alone?" she asked unsure and Jackson smiled.

"Yes. Meredith and Derek are at work and Alex is with Izzie." Jackson meant leaning in for another kiss but Lexie stopped him right before. "What aren´t you ready? Are you afraid or something?" he worried and his self esteem cracked a bit.

"No..no that´s not the...I am just..a little bit nervous...I was only with one man in my whole life." Lexie looked down embarrassed because she knew Jackson was surely not the type of man who could count the amount of his partners on one hand.

"Hey look at me." he softly put her chin up so she could look him in the eyes. "You don´t have to be. I´m not gonna play dirty with you."

"Okay. I´m happy about that." she replied whispering before kissing him softly and getting more passionate with every kiss. Jackson wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her closer. The more passionate this situation became, Lexie got more anxious and was beyond grateful when Jackson´s phone rang.

"I´m just gonna pretend I didn´t hear it." he smirked breaking the kiss for only a second.

"But maybe it´s important." Lexie meant between the kisses. Jackson pulled away and looked at her. "Could be a massive car accident." she joked and so Jackson turned around and picked up.

"Hello?...April...wait, what?...No I can´t I...you are what?!...I´m not home...fine...fine I´ll open you." Lexie listened to the talk and wanted to know what they were talking when he hung up.

"April´s in front of the door. She wants to spend the time until she goes to the hospital here because it´s closer." he explained annoyed.

"Wait...your best friend is standing in front of my sister´s house´s door? How?" Lexie asked while Jackson stood up and put on sweat pants.

"Yeah. She saw my car in front of the house so she knew I´m inside." he meant and stood up walking to the other side of the bed and leaned down to give Lexie a kiss on the forehead. As much as she was happy about the disturbance, she was also annoyed about the red head spending the next hour in her kitchen.

"Okay." she whispered during the kiss and watched Jackson leaving in his sweat pants but without shirt. But she didn´t worry. She knew that it would be insane if he would choose the wall flower over her. Not to be rude.

And the choosing is also not that easy.

Because whoever you´ll choose,

You have to live with the other person´s family.

And that can be really overwhelming.

"Jackson. Finally." April greeted him annoyed when he opened the door. "What are you wearing? Or rather what are you not wearing?" she asked stepping him and directly going to the kitchen like she would know the way.

"Well, I had other plans for the morning than spending it with you." he meant and closed the door behind her.

"For example?" she asked turning around when she arrived at her destination – the kitchen table – but quickly changed her mind. "Forget it. I think I can imagine it."

"Hello." Lexie greeted April when she went downstairs dressed in one of Jackson´s shirts which was hanging down on her till her knees.

"Hi." April replied with her highly pitched voice.

"I´m gonna make some coffee." Lexie whispered to Jackson and went to the coffee machine.

"For me too please." April told her loudly and Lexie rolled her eyes while Jackson looked down knowing how bad the decision to let her in was.


"Thank you very much." Teddy thanked a man who opened the door to the hospital for her. They went next to each other, drinking coffee and laughing about each other´s jokes. "So here´s the nurse´s desk and over there is an on-call room. And down the hallway is the cardio-thoracic ICU. But I´m afraid I can´t take you there." Teddy showed him everything and he looked around smiling.

"Wow that´s impressing." he flirted with her and made her giggle.

"And now we´re in the waiting room...oh and my shift starts so I need to say goodbye to- Henry!" she interrupted her own sentence when she saw her fake – husband sitting in the waiting room.

"Teddy hi." he came to her and hugged her.

"What are you doing here?" she asked forgetting about her date behind her.

"I´m here for um... my blood sugar check. Who´s that?" he changed the topic to the man with a bit of jealousy in his voice.

"Oh that´s Calvin...he wanted to see where I´m working." Teddy introduced him and the men shook hands.

"Nice to meet you. And you are?" Calvin asked him and smiled widely.

"Henry. I´m her husband." Henry replied and Teddy froze and so did her date. "Just kidding. I´m a friend." he tried to cover up the true joke.

"Well, anyway...I need to go now. I´ll call you okay?" Calvin meant turning back to Teddy.

"Okay." she meant and he went away.

"Calvin?" Henry asked when he was sure the man couldn´t her them anymore.

"Don´t worry. He was a one time thing. Such a suck up." Teddy explained.

"Glad to hear." he smirked and made her smile a bit.

"Anyways...Would you like to go to the cafeteria for lunch later on? I have a few rounds to make and them I´m ready." she meant while both sat down.

"Yeah sure. I think it will take some time until Webber gets my results." Henry answered looking around if his doctor was anywhere to be seen.

"Great. I´ll meet you there at 12." Teddy stood up and went away.


Derek was having a meeting over the phone when Meredith knocked on the door and stepped in quietly because he put his finger on his mouth showing to be silent.

"Yeah of course I understand...thank you very much...thank you...goodbye." he meant and hung up feeling Meredith coming closer and looking flirty.

"Who was that?" she asked straightening his lab coat, biting her lip.

"That, my dear, was doctor Michael Reilly. The man who allows you to make a clinical trial." Derek replied whispering.

"Clinical trial? You want to do one?" she asked surprised and he nodded smiling. "About what?"

"Alzheimer. I want to cure it." Derek meant and Meredith pulled away a bit. "Now that you´re pregnant, I want to know how to stop that disease."

"Because you think I have it?" Meredith wanted to know now less happy and enthusiastic than before.

"Come on...don´t be mad. I want to have a happy and long life with you. And I want to cure the illness that killed your mother and could take you away from me." Derek tried to convince her but she was still skeptical. All the times her mother forgot her or thought she was still the 7 year old girl had burned into her memories. Of course Meredith didn´t want to end up like her mother. And she always wanted Derek to have this great opportunity, and now that she was pregnant, she wanted her baby to have a good childhood unlike she did.

"Okay." she eventually meant. "I´m so happy for you."

"Us. For us." Derek corrected her and put his lips on her´s.


Izzie was laying in her bed, with Denny in her arms and playing with his little fingers. She was so focused on the baby in her hands, which giggled when she tickled his nose, that she didn´t notice Alex standing in the door watching her.

"Here are the papers doctor Karev." a nurse´s voice tore Izzie out of her perfect world.

"Thank you." he replied taking a chart and signing it.

"What´s that?" she asked curious watching Alex coming to the bed.

"That, were the papers for your discharge. You can come home with us." he smiled at her and her shocked eyes welled up, not believing a single word he said.

"Are you serious? I am allowed to go home?" she asked huskily and with a shaking voice.

"Well, as long as you go to your treatments and I take care of you-"

"I would hug you and kiss you heavily but I have a little child in my arms so I´m gonna safe it for later." Izzie smiled happily.

"Where´s your bag? I´m gonna pack your stuff together." Alex meant after giving her a soft kiss on her lips.


"Excuse me what does that mean?" Lucy Fields stood in Webber´s office, her arms crossed over her chest looking controlled and fearless, her teeth biting on her lower lip nervously and anxious.

"Since the fusion with the Mercy West we have to cut our staff. Your work here was a great essence to our hospital. You´ve done a pretty good job. But doctor Robbins is back and we had to decide between you and her. The management chose her. I´m sorry to tell you, doctor Fields but...you´re fired." Webber tried to focus on the protocol the management gave him. He was beyond uncomfortable with the situation and with losing his people but he had to if he didn´t want to run his hospital into financial troubles.

"Why would you? I´ve been here longer than she was, and I didn´t leave after a few months because another hospital gave me more money." Lucy was mad about the chief´s comment and she didn´t want to take it and back up.

"As far as the management told me, doctor Robbins´ resumé has been much better. She did a lot of fellowships, was the best resident at Hopkins and graduated from Harvard as second best of the whole year. She was the first choice. I can not tell you how sorry I am but you need to go." he tried to explain the decision.

"You know what? Fine, I´ll go! But this is a joke. Everything´s here a joke! You have doctors falling in love with patients and marry them or kill them. Interns that sleep with their bosses for better surgeries and oh my god in this hospital is a quarter of your patients your own doctors! I´m glad I´m out of here because maybe a bus would have run me down, or I would have fell down the staircase or whatsoever. You will notice that you shouldn´t have let me go. It´s your loss!" Lucy pointed with her finger on him now furious and wild. "I´m hella out of here!" she shouted walking to the door and shutting it close behind her.


April, Jackson and Lexie were sitting in the cafeteria for lunch and April couldn´t stop talking which annoyed Lexie massively.

"April." Jackson murmured seeing how his best friend was clearly overstepping the line.

"What?" she asked confused after he said her name for several times. Jackson looked up and wanted to say something when Lexie cut him off by standing up.

"You know I have to go now. Prepare for a surgery or something." she meant awkwardly and kissed Jackson goodbye before leaving the table with her tray in her hands.

"Thank you." Jackson meant to April annoyed.

"What? Is everything alright?" she asked confused and worried.

"It would be if you could stop to be a part of our relationship." he explained angrily.

"What? I´m not trying to-" April shook her head unbelievable when Jackson cut her off.

"Yes you are. I love you April, you´re my best friend. But I really like this girl. She makes me feel like I´m something special." he smiled thinking about her.

"I..I´m sorry...I didn´t know...Jackson I just don´t want you to be hurt like you were the last time." she put her hand on his shoulder which gave him chills.

"I won´t. She´s not like that. She wouldn´t hurt me that way." he promised his best friend.

"Okay. Well, then just tell me when I cross the line." she gave him a comforting smile and their eyes couldn´t stop staring at each other for a moment.


Teddy was walking into the cafeteria, looking around where Henry was, when she found him sitting in the corner by a quiet table.

"Wow. You found something relaxing." she said when she sat down next to him.

"Well, I thought we could talk a bit." Henry meant with worried eyes and Teddy immediately noticed something was wrong.

"Oh my god...what´s wrong? Why are you really here?" she wanted to know and he looked down at his hands nervously.

"Teddy, my cancer is back...I have metastases on my colon...it looks bad." he explained holding back his anger and sadness.

"What do you mean with it looks bad?" Teddy stuttered unable to believe him.

"Webber meant the chance to cure this one is very low...and it would probably be better if I´m not gonna let him operate...the risks are too high." he continued to tell his fake wife the diagnose.

"How long? How long could you live without it?" she asked silently and came closer to him.

"6 months, he said." Henry explained. Teddy sighed and grabbed his hand caring.

"Henry I´m...I´m so sorry I-" she started but he cut her off.

"I´m letting him operate." he said and Teddy looked up quite shocked.

"What? That...that could kill you!" she whispered harshly so nobody could hear them.

"I´d die either way. But I don´t want to die, being known as a coward." Henry and Teddy looked into each other´s eyes for a moment without knowing what to say.

"Henry I don´t know if-" she replied but stopped when Henry leaned back closing his eyes and sighed. "I´m just being realistic. I´m a doctor on my own...I know the risks...but if that´s the way you want to go I will support you. I married you because I wanted to save your life, and if you believe this will save it, I´m in." Henry clearly didn´t expect these words from her and leaned forward again which caused her to smile.

"Thank you." he whispered and Teddy hugged him happily.

"You´re welcome."


It was already dark outside when Alex carried Izzie, who still had Denny in her arms, in a wheelchair towards the exit of the hospital when he saw Derek passing by.

"Wait here for a sec." he meant to Izzie and chased after him. "Derek. Hey."

"Karev. What do you want? I´m in a rush." Derek replied stressed out closing a chart and Alex bit on his lower lip nervously.

"I´m wondering if you could borrow us your trailer...?" he asked shyly and Derek raised an eyebrow. "You know now that Izzie is allowed to go home and we can eventually have a family...and of course we don´t want baby screams to bother you.." he tried to explain stuttering. Derek liked the nervous Alex so he hesitated for fun which made Alex even more anxious.

"Of course you can. The keys are in the drawer in Ellis Grey´s dresser in the anteroom." Derek told him smiling and Alex exhaled relieved.

"Thank you so much." he replied and went back to Izzie.

"What was it?" she asked focusing on Denny.

"We can finally start our own little family." Alex answered carrying her towards the parking lot.


"Hey." Jackson suddenly stood behind Lexie, who noted something at the nurse´s desk, and whispered into her ear.

"Hi, you." Lexie turned around smiling and wrapped her arms around his neck.

"I talked to April about this morning...she promised me not to overstep the line again." he explained and Lexie smiled even brighter.

"Thank you." she whispered and kissed him softly and for a brief second. "I see you´re in your normal clothes. Did your shift end already?" she wanted to know when she noticed that he didn´t wear his scrubs anymore.

"Yeah. When does yours end?" Jackson replied smiling at his beautiful girlfriend.

"Um...in 20 minutes." Lexie meant looking at her wrist watch.

"Okay, I´ll wait for you in the lobby." he suggested and Lexie nodded. In the meantime Mark came around the corner but quickly stepped back so they wouldn´t notice him but he could watch them.

"Thank you." Lexie answered and gave him another kiss on his lips, before he went away smiling.

"I see you two are good." Mark suddenly stood next to Lexie, who was looking after Jackson and turned around surprised. "That´s good...very good."

"Yeah...yeah we are." Lexie answered awkwardly and both nodded not looking at each other. "How´s..Reid...your little girlfriend." she asked reminding him of his hook up.

"She´s not my girlfriend Lex..." he looked at her and their eyes met and they couldn´t break their gaze.

"So then Callie is? Because she´s the mother of your baby?" Lexie asked when she eventually found her words again.

"No...no she wants to get back together with Arizona...Guess I´m gonna be a single dad." he giggled trying to not show how much he misses Lexie. But although they knew each other for only a half year, Lexie could read his mind.

"Yeah...how´s the baby anyway?" she tried to not get this conversation awkward, but everything about talking about the baby of your ex boyfriend and his best friend was awkward.

"It´s good...we made an ultra sound today. You want to see it?" he asked and put his hand in his pocket where he carried the picture with him but Lexie shook her head.

"No I...I don´t need that." she meant and Mark nodded.

"Right..." he replied and both remained silent. "Lex...I love you..I want you back."

"No Mark. Stop." she cut him off.

"You can´t tell me you have no feelings for me." Mark came closer but Lexie stepped back.

"No I can´t. I love you, Mark. I always will. But I don´t want to love you. I want to be happy. And Jackson he...he makes me happy. Please let me be happy." she closed the chart she was taking notes from and put it onto the shelve, while Mark was watching her with hurt eyes. "Please...I beg you...stay out of my life." Lexie meant showing him with her hand to not come closer, and then turning around and walking away.

The only family we can´t choose are our friends.

Our people.

And thank god they are always there for you.

Meredith walked down the hallway when she heard sobs out of the resident´s locker room. She went to the door and recognized her best friend – Cristina – sitting on the bench cradling her head in her hands.

"Hey...hey what´s wrong?" she sat down next to her and placed her palm on her friend´s shoulder.

"It´s...nothing...I´m okay." Cristina replied but Meredith of course remained on her seat, knowing she was lying. After a few moments, when Cristina noticed Meredith wouldn´t go away she looked up and dried her hands on her scrub pants.

"It´s Owen. I miss him so much." she finally admitted.

"Oh...I know...come here." Meredith offered her a hug but Cristina shook her head. "I´m your person. Come here. Now." she ordered and Cristina came to her.

"I know it´s hard. But he will return soon. And you have Teddy and cardio back." she tried to make her friend feel comfortable.

"But I want him back." Cristina sobbed into Meredith´s arms.

"I know...I know.." she replied. "You want to go to Joe´s and get drunk with Tequila?" Meredith asked but Cristina shook her head.

"You want to go home with me and get drunk there?" she asked and her person nodded. "Okay. Come on." they stood up and changed into normal clothes before driving home.

But every now and then we can decide if we want the family.

Because, let´s admit it.

No matter how insane or complicated or exhausting

it sounds,

you love those people. And if you love them,

you want to live with them.

No matter what.

"What is that?" Arizona asked annoyed looking at the picture not even paying attention to it.

"It´s an ultra sound. Of the baby." Callie replied smiling and Arizona looked up to her and then back at the picture now seeing the peanut – sized dot in black and white. "Arizona look. I want you in my life. And I want you in this baby´s life. I know you never wanted children but our baby won´t end up in your ICU. It will be a strong boy or girl because it has two strong moms." Callie explained and Arizona´s eyes welled up. "But of course it will also have a father." she continued and Arizona´s smile stopped. "I´m sorry but Mark is my best friend and he is the father. He wants to be a part of it´s life and I will not push him away. So either you start making compromises or you have to stay out of-"

"I´m in." Arizona cut her off.

"What?" Callie asked surprised.

"I´m in. I want you Callie. The past few weeks had been the worst of my life. And I can´t live without you. I can´t live without you and our ten kids. And I will get along with Mark. For you. For it." Arizona explained and both got tears in their eyes. "I love you Calliope."

"I love you too." Callie whispered underneath her breath and quickly stepped forward to kiss her. They´re lips met and both felt like they didn´t in a very long time.