Dear Readers,
I swore to myself that I would never do this, but it seems like the right thing to do under the conditions I'm living with right now. I have decided to put this story and all my other stories I'm working on, on hold. It's nothing you guys did and it's not because of my not-so-recent-updates.
After 20 years of marriage, my parents have decided to get a divorce. They just broke the news to me Friday and right now, my heart is just not into writing at all. I have so many issues going on in my family now. I have to make some very tough decisions right now, and a story just can't keep me weighed down while I try to make them.
I'm under so much stress right now with school grades, considering it's almost Christmas, and now my family splitting apart. I just can't focus on the story right now.
My dad is moving back down to my hometown in Mississippi, while my mom stays in the place we are now. So, I'm a little confused on life right now and I just need to get my thoughts straight and figure things out.
I'm hoping to get this story off hold maybe sometime after New Year's or after the month of January. I'm not making any promises, but I'm hoping I'll have a clearer head sometime around then.
So I hope you all aren't mad at me. Those of you whose parents are divorced, or are getting a divorce, should understand what I'm going through. It's tough for me right now, because it's my junior year in high school and my sister is only in 8th grade. We're trying to figure things out together.
My toughest decision I have to make is to whether stay with my mom or go with my dad. For sure, me and my sister are staying with my mom until the end of the school year, but now I'm leaning towards moving in with my dad my senior year.
I just need to focus on life and God right now, because right now I seriously need to find him again. Ever since my family moved a year and a half ago, we've lost touch with God and now I need him more than ever. I have no idea why God is splitting my family apart, but I know he has a plan for it.
Who knows, maybe in the future my parents will get back together and this split will make us stronger, but then again maybe not. But something good has come out of this. I've gotten closer with my dad than I have ever been over these past few days. Before, I would always shy away from feelings with my dad, but now, we're doing nothing but sharing our feelings.
So please, just be patient with me and let my heart heal some and let my friends that I have help me through this, but most importantly let God help me through this, and I promise to dive back into this story.
I love this story and it's got a lot of hits and I plan to finish it and my other stories. During these next few months though, I'm just going to pause. I may do a few one-shots, but they'll probably be crappy cause like I said, my heart won't be into anything.
So, I love you guys and I hope I didn't disappoint anyone who thought this was an update. I'm sorry. Please just keep me in your prayers and be patient. I promise that when I come back to this story, it's going to get a lot better. I have all my ideas down for this story and I'm anxious to see how you guys react to it.
I'm going to go ahead and say Merry Christmas and a Happy New Years. Until next time.
~Taylor~
