Because these things will change

Can you feel it now?

These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down

This revolution, the time will come

For us to finally win


Kenna Rockwall, 17.

District 8.

Victor of the third annual Hunger Games.

I think at one point in everybody's life, there comes a point of serious self-doubt and self-questioning. For me, that has been my whole entire life. Ever since I was a little girl, I wanted to know everything that I possibly could about myself. I would constantly be looking at photo albums and at old pictures. Maybe I thought that if I knew how everyone in my family was, that I would know how to behave too. Unfortunately, my parents were always very secretive about relatives. More so, on my mom's side. She was never up to talk about anyone on her side of the family, until now. But now, I don't know if I'm ready.

The victory tour was the most miserable thing that I have yet to encounter in my seventeen years. The way people looked at me, sullen and sunken in faces with glazed over eyes, scowling faces and expressions that could kill. I got up there, looked at my notecard and got off the stage. I didn't have a problem with speaking in most of the districts because I only killed two people. I still killed two people though and that is something that I don't know how to deal with. Seeing the look of disgust mixed with rage on the faces of Cierra's and Claudio's parents made me want to crawl in a hole and never come back out. I can never explain to them how incredibly terrible I feel, the Capitol won't give me the opportunity too. The two districts that really gave me a run for my money though, were four and five. The look on the faces of the parent's who just lost their twins made my heart shatter into a million different pieces. It was an empty look, inconsolable and pained. Nothing I could say would make that better, so I didn't even try. District five broke my spirit. Bryce's parents looked at me with love and they didn't even know me. After what I just did, the last thing I deserve to be looked at with is love. As I was speaking, his parent's reached out for one another and nodded at me with a smile before disappearing into the crowd. I couldn't breathe and my body started to give out.

My mind is going in circles around all the events that have occurred this month as I sit with my head in my hands at the kitchen table. My mom said that she had something to tell me, and that is was big news. I don't know if I can handle another surprise right now, but she was insistent.

"Hi, baby girl," my mother walks into the room and kisses me on my forehead before sitting down at the black table.

"Hi, mom," I smile at her as I sit up straight in my chair.

"I am so proud of you, Kenna. You used what I taught you in there and I couldn't be more proud of the young lady that you are becoming," she smiles.

"Please, don't say that. Your daughter killed three people. That is not something that you should be proud of." I say with tears welling in my eyes.

"Kenna, you only had two kills. Are you feeling okay?" She raises from the chair and places her cold, white hand with her red finger nails on my forehead. My eyes get wide as I realize what I just said. I told Hilda that I would never tell a soul, my mother included and my absent-mindedness almost just gave that away. I thought that winning the hunger games, would help me figure out who I was, but so far, it has just made me question it even more.

"Oh, yeah. I'm fine. I guess things from inside the arena are still a little foggy," I lie.

"Okay, sweetie. Anyways, I know that you have always been curious about my side of the family. I have a surprise for you today. You have proved to be a very mature young woman, so I think that it's time that you met a few people." she says, standing up from the chair.

A look of confusion passes over my face and she just nods me towards the door. I have no idea what to expect, all I can hope for is that it helps me understand who Kenna Rockwall is, just a little bit more.


To you, everything's funny

You got nothing to regret

I'd give all I have honey

If you could stay like that

Oh darlingdon't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up


Kadence Marquet, 7.

District 2 resident.

Papa says that I am meeting someone special today. He says that as soon as she walks in the room, that I will know who she is. He says that I have seen her before. I've met a lot of people, but nobody that I think is very special.

"You look very pretty, pumpkin," Papa says picking me up and twirling me through the air. My pink dress billows and my pink bow that was perfectly nestled into my blonde curls,flies across the room.

"Papa, you messed up my hair, that took me a million years!" I pout. He laughs at me and calls me cute.

"Why do we have to meet more people, people suck," my brother Colby says as he stuffs a peanut butter sandwich in his mouth, leaving traces of peanut butter all around his lips.

"New people are good people, besides. I haven't even met the young lady myself, and I really would like to. I am very proud of her." Papa says.

Papa is only supposed to be proud of me. I am his little cupcake, and I want it to stay that way. I crinkle my eyebrows and cross my arms across my chest.

The doorbell rings and papa's face lights up.

"Sit on the couch, I will go let them in," papa says, smoothing his shirt.

He is gone for what seems like forever. I hear the voices of two females enter the house. When they enter the room, papa is holding hands with an older woman who is very pretty. They are both crying and holding onto each other. Who is this woman and why are her hands all over my papa. I feel angry. When they move out the way, she walks in. I've seen her on TV, but she is even more beautiful in person. Her long brown hair is curled and tucked behind her ears. She is wearing a black dress with bright red heels and her green eyes are so bright. I want to look just like her when I'm a grown-up.

"Kadence, Colby, I would like you to meet your cousin, Kenna." papa says.

Hey, lovelies. :)

I know this chapter is short, but I just wanted to get something out there. The last chapter will be up before the week ends and it's going to be a long one because it is going to tie everything together and answer a lot of questions. I love Kenna so much, y'all. This last chapter is going to be so much fun but it won't be the last you see of Kenna. :)

GUYS. Caleb and I are writing a collab on his account and we are both super excited for it. We are still accepting tributes, but we would like to get them in pretty quickly so that we can select them and get the blog up. If you are interested in submitting, you totally should. It's going to be such a fun thing to write and not to be weird or anything, but it's gonna rock. :P haha Go, go go!

Hope y'all enjoyed this short chapter.

Let me know your thoughts?

XOXO

Jenna.