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Take a chance on me
Chapter: 29-Yes, yes it can
by: bcastletime

"Castle this is ridiculous." Beckett sighs, getting more irritated with the situation. She starts to wiggle some.

(Beckett's mind:) why are we hiding like criminals, I mean he was...
what right about this man...that would be confessing that he was right all along? something that you never admit to...
I...
she was getting ready to defend herself. I...
face it you don't...never have that's just...
I just want to go home...
I know...
don't we all...
her heart comments...
that's not what your heart was thinking when you said "home"...
what then...ah...am I even going to see home again?
And if I...
ut-um...
we... happen to find our way back home what's it going to be like?

whatever you want it to be like I mean...
huh? she questions herself.
you'll just have to find out...and...
will it be the same... I mean...we...
he knows...you...I think he always has...let go and let him...

"Go, see what's going on?" she demands.

(Beckett's mind:) I didn't mean demand him like that...
but you just said...let go... that I'm too much in control...
yes I did but I didn't mean...
to late for that now...thanks

"Me?" Castle glances up at her. "Why me?"

(Castle's mind:) really? now she's wants me to...
yes...take it...
I...
she's letting go...
but now...when...
why does it matter when just that she...does...and now...she's...
I...
are you scared?...you can't...
me scared...no...not a chance...
then...what are you waiting on...now's your chance...to...
my chance...to shine...
he sighs slightly. I can do this...

(Beckett's mind:) why is he just staring...and...how could he be asking... like that...that's what...
shock maybe you have never let... him...
I just did and...
well, you were the one that wants to be in control and he was well...being...
no he wasn't... he never...has been
I think now, he is... he's learning to...
learning to what...
respect you...she almost busted out laughing at that...
when has he once respected me...I don't see it...he's...
all he wants... is...
what?
he wants to...well you know...
she sighs my mind does have a point... I never...let go...I...

"You always wanted me to let go of the control so..."

(Beckett's mind:) He wanted me to...and now that I have he...just...
all he wants is for you to be...
to be what I don't...
he wants to please you... to make you...
what...make me what?
he wants you to know that he is right here... not trying to take over...he's trying to help.
what...I...
you're not letting him...
what take care of me...I don't need, anyone especially a man...to...
she shook the thought...I'm capable...
yes, you're capable of a lot of things...love apparently is not one of them...
what...
what? that's all you can say is...what...come on girl you know what he wants... always has... just...
he wants to make my life...
before you finish that thought, I'll add the words... better,
fuller, happier come on work with me here...

"I didn't.." she accidentally says out loud.

(Castle mind:) What?...wait did I hear...
just tell her yes, now...

"All right." he finally answers not really understanding what was going on between them. "We are still moving so..."

(Castle's mind:) what could possibly go wrong?
anything and everything...
thanks for putting that out there...
you thought it,... not me...

He slowly slides the blanket down some.
(Beckett's mind:) Why is he...
shhh...
he's really going to risk it? .she swallows, I...she blinks.
let him do this...he's proving...
proving what...he's...

"See nothing to worry about." he smiles down at her. Then he hears a clunk, clunk, clunk. His smiling face turns, to a face that worries her.

"What's wrong? What's the face for?" she questions seeing the now worrisome look on his face.

"I don't know," he shrugs, "A strange noise. a clunking noise," a silent pause between them, "There is goes again." He points out.

(Castle's mind:) what could be making that kind of noise while we are...
all kind of things...being a writer...though...maybe you don't want to know...
oh but now I do...I'm intrigued...I have to see what's happening...
you don't have to be...

what brave...I...I'm already too deep in this to worry about that...

Castle wiggles his body so that he could sit up to see what was going on. He makes sure that he is still able to duck quickly if he had to hide again.

"Stay. I'll go check," he was scared, but he had to know what was going on. Always did. that was the one dangerous thing about him. He was too curious, never leaving things alone, unanswered. I owe her that much to find out what we are up against.

"Don't be to long." Beckett forces a smile, but only for his benefit. She wanted him to stay with her and not go out there alone.

(Beckett's mind:) why did I even say anything about going to look...I...
now...he will be fine...
but...

Castle winks before, Beckett covers back up with the blanket. Castle leans forward, looking down at the road going by, wishing he hadn't. What he saw was not only disturbing on so many levels, but the image, he would never forget. A blood trail was following them and accompanied by the continuing clunking sound. Castle couldn't tear his eyes away from it.

(Castle's mind:) is that...
blood sure looks like it so...
and that sound it's not...what I think it is... is it?,...

could be...what are you thinking it is...

Castle starts to feel sick to his stomach.

When he first started off this "quest" , he never imagined the things that he would see. Now he thinks he's seen it all. He shakes his head trying hard to forget what he saw but the clunking sound continues haunting him. And that, drives more thoughts into his mind.

(Castle's mind:)
can't you see it...it's the red brick road,
what? I don't...
don't you get it...it's our wedding road, his mind laughs,
what, what wedding? he questions, where did that come from...
you know like the yellow brick road except this one...well it's in blood, what you can't see it? blood trail after your "just married" limo, I can...
that's not funny,
I didn't say it was funny...I just...it's fitting isn't it. He tries to shake the thought off but that wasn't happening. could be true, but without...

He continues to stare at the same spot for what felt like an eternity.
(Castle's mind:) Beckett...she doesn't need to see this...
no she doesn't...so don't let her...
how... if I can't...

When the tractor turns the corner Castle is finally able to look away.
(Castle's mind:) that's how...

Looking through his mirror the driver could see that Castle was glancing around.
(mystery man's mind:) oh good I see one of them is awake...but where's...sleeping I hope.

"Good to see that you two...both of you right?" he didn't let Castle answer before he continues on talking. "are still with me. We are..."

"We are what...? We are what?" (Castle's mind:) you don't asks a question that you don't want the answer...
but I do...I...

"Moving along...at a regular speed, well at a good speed...sorry it's taking too long. We had to stop to get gas and I thought the two of you would be fine by yourselves out of sight... Was I wrong?" The man chuckles,
(mystery man's mind:) having them alone was not only to get gas...the plan was...
you didn't need gas did you? you wanted them to...
get some rest...they needed it...
uh huh you wanted to...
so maybe I did...there's nothing wrong with that...is there?

"Did something happen, while I was gone?"
(mystery man's mind:) hopefully something did...
stop interfering...
I will not he's...

"No," Castle shook his head. "Nothing happened." mystery man notices that his voice had some disappointment in it.
(mystery man's mind:) why is he holding back...why can't he just go for it...it's so obvious that he would do anything for her...maybe that's it...maybe he's too in love with her...he thinks that he will screw it up.

"Why not...what are you scared of?" asks the mystery man.

(Castle's mind:) scared of...I...how...
you are...and he knows it...
he doesn't even know me...how could he...
he just does..like everyone else...everyone sees that you're in love with her...well, except you...that is...

"Am I wrong?" mystery man continues, after a silence. "I don't think so...what does she mean to you?"

(Castle's mind:) what does she mean to me...everything I...Castle glances at the blanket, she means everything to me I...He swallows, she's my life.

"We have known each other for a while." Castle said not really speaking what was really going on in his mind.
(Castle's mind:) This guy asks...
just listen...he's...
he's what...

"As in..." a pause, "Being..."

"No, just friends. Good friends."

(Castle's mind:) good friends? come one now...you're more then that, you just wont admit it and...you might lose her...
I can't...I just can't...I would die...

The mystery man turns to face Castle. "Given the look on your face, she's a hellva lot more than that and your heart knows it."
(Castle's mind:) he doesn't know what my heart is feeling...
yes he does...
what...
he's been there...haven't you been listening to him. Castle blinks, then gives into the truth.

"I...I want her to be...I just..." (Castle's mind:) why am I telling a stranger this?
cause he's...he's trying to help you see that you're in love with her and if you...
if I what?
don't act then...
I'm not going to finish that sentence for you...

"Then go for it, you will regret it if you don't 'son'." (Castle's mind:) There it is again, he used the word son... "I know I gave up on my lover and well, I never got over her, still to this day I think about what could have been. Trust me you don't want that...it's more pain than..." Mystery man let the words fade, hoping not to start crying again. His heart was.

"It's..." (Castle's mind:) it's...
don't say complicated cause it's not...you just make it that way.
but isn't it?
what?...somewhat but that's why...

"Take the chance while you still have one, I do anything to get mine back. To get the time that I lost...to see... to feel...to enjoy... to..." a pause. Mystery man could feel tears beginning to build up in his eyes just talking about her. "...to love her and...her... " he sniffs, and then takes a deep breath.

"Our relationship...It's complicated, always.. " Castle smiles, "has been."

"Only if you continue to make it that way," mystery man comments.

(Castle's mind:) see he even get's it... why can't you...
what? I...

"Trust me writer-boy, it's now or never. You have the power today to write you own ending. A happy ending," (Mystery man's mind:) not like mine...I wish... he sighs, "Risk it before it's too late."

"Too late for what?" Castle asks with a confused look of his face. (Castle's mind:) I...to late for what?...
you don't get it do you?...

I guess not...
he means take the chance before it's and she's gone forever...take a chance on love...take a chance on her...your one true love...to make her say yours...
but I...things...he twist his head a little, then back.
that's why they are happening...they're a sign...of what can happen...just...not waste another moment...Castle leans back against the haystack bending his head down, closing his eyes. (Castle's mind:) he's right I'll never...
then rewrite the ending...to have your happiness...
what if...
no, no what if's...

precinct morgue: Lanie thought by being in the morgue, that she would find some comfort but it didn't help. "Why isn't this working girl, all I can think about is...is you, tell me that you are okay. Or tell me, you're in Castle's arms somewhere, so I can stop worrying." she said out loud to herself. She glances at the clock, watching the hands tick down.

tick.

tick.

tick.

"Why haven't we heard anything," She paces back across the room from the sink to the big freezer then back to the sink. "Javi is right...it's just so damn frustration...now I see why he wanted to leave...I wonder if they have found anything. I need to leave and find out what, if anything, that they found...no one knows that I'm down here but..."

She starts to walk to the door. "I wonder if they are even back yet." She walks up to the swinging door just about to push it open when it opens from the other side. "Dr. Parish," one of her assistant calls to her rolling in a gurney cart with a black body-bag on it. "Where are you going?"

"Back up stairs to check on..." She stops herself in mid sentence. She didn't tell anyone else down in the morgue about the missing detectives. "Bodies or parts I should say, are coming in from a wreck," the assistant continues talking.

"What kind of wreck?" Lanie asks with a hint of worry in her voice.

"Don't know." the assistant shrugs, "They just told me to deliver them to the best and well that would be you. So..." he pushes the cart forward some. "A young female, it's a shame..." the assistant comments to himself, shaking his head slightly. "This is, one of the whole ones that we found, some weren't so lucky to be together." Lanie wasn't really listen to much to what the assistant was saying.

(Lanie's mind:) a young female...be together...
don't go there...
how can I not...

Lanie blinks away tears, could be easily she thought. Then she swallows, placing her hand on top of the black body bag.
(Lanie's mind:) This is where we all end up
don't say that... this is not your friend... Lanie starts to sniff.
I know it's just...she starts to huff a little.
you can't help getting emotional... she closes her eyes. I know that you are someone but please don't be...my friends...

She swallows, I can do this, I can do this... I can do this...She reaches for the zipper-pull that would tell her if she was going to be the one that had to face the unthinkable. I can't... not yet. She takes in a few deep breaths to calm her nerves. But the wait is going to kill me. She takes one final breath then slowly pulls on the zipper, I don't think that I could handle this if...the tears starts to flow.

"Is everything okay?" her assistant came back through the back door. Seeing how she was crying, makes the comment, "Did you know any of them?"

"No... I don't know." He rolls past her with another cart. "Body parts only this time." then man leaves again. With shaky fingers she slowly opens the body bag, she didn't get that far. After seeing strains of brown hair, she fell down to her knees crying out. "No." she shook her head. "This... it can't be happening. It's not...it can't be her." she says between sniffs. She places her hand up to her mouth so she don't scream out again.

She then places her head in her hands letting loose and starts violently shaking. "It just can't be her. " She says out loud. "I...and that..." she points.. "Can't be..."

"Can't be who..." Alexis calls as she walks through the swinging doors to see what Lanie was up to. She sees Lanie on her knees on the floor. Above her was a table with a... Alexis blinks, (Alexis' mind:) is that a body in the bag...Why would Lanie be on the floor unless...oh no is that...
don't think that don't think the worst...

Alexis couldn't stop the tears from running down her face either, thinking about Beckett and her father. (Alexis' mind:) That's the only reason that she would get so emotional over a dead body in a body bag. It had to be one of them, it had to be...Lanie wouldn't...unless it was somebody that she knew.

"Dr. Parish," Alexis rushes up to her. "Are you okay?" she places a hand on her shoulder. Waiting for her violent sobbing episode to subside.

A teary eyed Lanie glances up recognizing the soft voice.

"Yes, sweetie. I..." Lanie starts she clear her nose and rubs her stinging eyes. Lanie tries to cover up her emotion around Alexis. "I'm fine...I just..."

"No you're not. You don't have to be brave for me...I..."

"No, I'm not...I.." she sniffs. "What are..." she sniffs again, "You doing here?"

"Came down to see how things were...I was going stir crazy upstairs." Lanie lets out a deep sigh as she gets to her feet with the help of Alexis.

Alexis now sees the same brown hair sticking out of the body bag. (Alexis' mind:) oh no she's right... that could be. "Is that..." she swallows.

Alexis too had more tears burning at the edges of her vision, but she wouldn't let them fall cause she knew if she did they wouldn't stop. Instead she took a deep breath than another one, stay calm she told herself. (Alexis' mind:) Dr Parish needs me to be calm
but who's going to calm you?

I will...I have too. She angrily wipes the tears from away her face.

"Is that Beckett?" Alexis asks then lowers her head so she was looking at the floor and points to the table, "Is that her?"

(Alexis' mind:) if so then my dad...
don't think that...
but they...they were together...
you don't know that...
yes, yes I do they're always together...even...she starts to sob...I just...I can't...

"I don't know yet...I..." Lanie shakes her head, "I..." she sniffs. "You shouldn't see this. If...I don't..."

"I'm not leaving..." she stomps her foot like a childish brat not getting their way. "I need to know. if...if it's her..." the doors the back open once again. Both Alexis and Lanie watch as another cart rolls in. "A male, this time." the intern says, not knowing anything about what was going on. " Kinda handsome, if you ask me."

Lanie wags her finger at the intern who stops, "Oh sorry." she looks up seeing Alexis, who was running up the cart. "Is that my dad!" She faces Lanie for her answer, then she yells, "Dad!"

"Oh, no." whispers the intern, after seeing Lanie's stare. Then she slowly backs out the door.

Lanie takes Alexis by the arm and away from the cart with the body-bag. "Honey, we don't know."

Alexis points, "She's..." points back across the room at the body bag on the table near the sink. "And now." deep breath she reminded herself "...another one..." she sniffs "a man...how..."

"Let me check," Lanie walks over to the first body bag that was brought in. Slowly unzips more of the bag. Alexis stands watching Lanie and her reactions. Lanie closes her eyes, (Lanie's mind:) Kate I love you...forgive me and she glances her eyes over at the other table, without moving her head. And Castle she sniffs I'll never forget your crazy sarcasm it was priceless, she sniffs as tears flow once again. I can do this, I have to know. Lanie opens her eyes and pulls the zipper to find out. Alexis approaches, waiting for her to say one way or the other...

outside on the road:

Castle smiles as a flashes comes to mind. One that he won't forget.

Castle walks up to a beautiful woman. "Shall we..." he held out his hand. "dance the night away..." She reaches out putting her hand in his. A perfect fit, one he could feel, the tingle, the spark. Beckett, he questions. With one hand on his shoulder, and the other clasps warmly in his, they seem to be made for each other. smoothly they move, as she starts to slow she leans closer into his sweet, welcoming arms. Their feet shifting to the rhythm as she drifts closer against him. He spun her around, and then dipped her, glancing into her eyes.
oh those eyes, oh those hands...oh her warmth..."Then go for it..." he heard over a loud speaker in his memory, what the...

Castle shook his head, blinking. He wipes his hand down his face, then glances over at Beckett,

(Castle's mind:) oh how I want to be doing that right about now...
what dancing with her...
in more ways than one...
then why don't you ask her...
what?...he chuckles to himself. she...
she touched your life for a reason...changed you...

A smile crept across his lips as another small chuckle escapes...that's she did, in more ways than I know...I think that I found my soul mate...
well, some memories should last...
I know, I just...want...
more...you need new ones...then go for make some to remember her by... he smiles at the thought... that's what I'm...we are talking about, take his advice and go for it...
I like to see him do that his heart complains...
hey, I'm right here...
I know but you have shown not to act in the past...
it's now or never the voice of the mystery man echos in his brain. He glances over at Beckett, who was still covered by the blanket...their blanket. he sighs. I know but...how do I?
if you don't know how to answer that then...I can't help you...

The slowing down of the speed makes Castle once again nervous. He slips under the covers with Beckett. Her eyes lit up, she was so glad to see that he was back, unharmed.

"Hey," she smiles at him. "How did it go? Where are we? Do we need to worry anymore?"

(Castle's mind:) to many questions at once Beckett. Slowdown. i can't concentrate.
I know you are thinking...about her and what you want to do to her...
He shook his head slightly.

"um...I..." the smile on her face quickly fades,

"Castle, what's..."

"shhh..." she swallows, not a good sign when he hushes her. (Beckett's mind:) That's not a good thing, not at all...seems like I was right, that we are...

"All was going well..." Castle looks down and then back up at her.

"And now..." she questions as worry fills her voice.

The tractor seen from the outside:

"Castle," the mystery man calls. But he hears nothing. "Good thing he knows when to hide. This traffic jam could take a while, at least I don't have to wait and find out. I think that I'll take the back roads. That might be better anyway." the mystery man says to himself. The tractor eases off the road onto a grassy field. "Good thing that I can." Horns honk as he passes by them. "suckers," he whispers at them as he continues on. "A park, okay that works, I'll go through 'Gateway Park' to the other side and get out of this mess."

"Why does he get to do that." one driver shouts out his window. "I want to." Thanks to the loud mouth, a cop over hears and flashes his lights, but the mystery man continues on his way without looking back. "If I stop then..." he turns his head. "I can't let that happen not now..." It was a bumpy ride for the tractor.

Tractor seen from under the blanket:

"Something must be wrong." Castle sighs, "We aren't on the road anymore."

"Maybe he just wants to take the scenic route." Beckett tries to joke to calm herself down. Everything's going to be okay. She sighs.

"I think he's running from someone again."

"Who's having no faith now."

"I just..." The two of them hear the sirens coming closer and closer. "Great more trouble."

"That's not good, I..." Beckett swallows, "I..."

"Shhh..."

"Pull the tractor over," shouts the officer, "Now,"

The tractor stops. Both Castle and Beckett held their breaths as they hear footsteps approaching where they were.

"What can I do for you officer?" They hear the mystery man say. "Did I do something wrong?"

"One you can be quiet and sit right there. I need to check the back." The mystery man doesn't listen to the officer and climbs from the tractor.

"Why? What did I do?" the voices come closer.

"I told you to stay," The two voices were just inches away from where Beckett and Castle were. "Castle," Beckett mouths, "what do we do?" He puts a finger up to his lips. "Shhh."

The mystery man continues to talk, loud. "Yes, but you didn't tell me why you needed to check back here."

Castle swallows, he was sure that they would be found out. "There's nothing back there but a bunch dry of hay, see I work on a farm and..."

"I'll be seeing that." Beckett and Castle both close their eyes, just waiting. There's nothing they can do now, except wait and see their fate...being sealed.

"I have to get going..." the mystery man pleas.

"In a hurry are we..."

(the officer's mind:) that comment makes me more suspicious like he is hiding something that he doesn't want me to find, but really what could he be hiding in there it's not like...

"No, it's just I have to get going. I have a job to do and if I don't get done..."

"I got a job too, and mine says that." Just then, as if on cue, the officer's phone rings. "Officer Dick," he answers.

"Fitting, isn't it..." Castle chuckles.

"Castle you are going to get us caught."

"Be right there. I have to get a name, for my ticket." the officer calls.

"A ticket, why am I getting a ticket?" mystery man responds back.

"Stop stalling, I told you that I have a job to do and this is it, so I need a name."

(Beckett's mind:) yes i like one too, then I will know who you are and if you are a threat to us.

"A name now," There was a long pause, (Beckett's mind:) There's no way out of this one buddy. we want to know. Well, I do, I don't know what Castle's thinking.

"Hunter," the mystery man swallows, "Just Hun-ter."

(Beckett's mind:) Hunter, what kinda name is that, it's differently a fake.

"Need a driver's license."

"You got to be kidding me?" mystery man shouts a little louder than necessary.

"No, now!" shouts the officer. Footsteps retreating away from them. "Hands up, right now!"

"I thought you said you wanted a license." the mystery man comments,

"Up against the tractor now!"

"For what? you can't just..." a slam against the tractor made both Castle and Beckett jump.

"I just did." the offer yells.

"What do we do, Castle." Beckett looks at Castle for some reassurance.

"We stay as calm as we can, we stay here let it all play out."

"Are you kidding me, we are..."

"If you keep..." he puts his hand over her mouth. (Beckett's mind:) he's right I just need to relax some...but what if...

"This is not over," mystery man responds. "I'll be back,"

"No you wont." the officers counters back. "Hunter's not your name." Beckett heard the clasping on the cuffs. "Ow,"

"Oh, shut up, you are coming with me...to the station."

"What about my tractor,"

"You can have someone tow it later."

(Beckett's mind:) tow us later...I don't think so. She hears the footsteps walking away. Then the silence, "Castle...that was too close. I guess we are on our own again." Castle didn't respond. "Castle, Castle." she whispers louder. Still no response from him. She takes her finger and gently pokes him. "Castle,"

"Huh?"

"Are you with me?"

"Yeah, sorry spaced out for a minute."

"What ever." she rolls her eyes at him. (Beckett's mind:) how can he just space out like that? what if I need his help, he wouldn't have been there? what's going on with him? she sighs, I just thought that he...
he's just tried...
that's no excuse...so am I...
at least nothing happened...
yeah...but... I...

you admit that you need him...for...
his my partner of course I do...
she finally did it...her body says
did what, did what...I don't...i didn't...
but you did...her mind shot back
it's a start now...to show...her heart adds, him...
what?...
here we go again...Kate...Kate...Kate... she sighs,

"Are you mad at me again?" Castle questions, hoping that, that was not the case. He didn't want her to be mad at him, then he wouldn't get put his plan into motion.

"No, I..." Beckett stares over at him.

(Castle's mind:) that's a lie...she is mad at me...what did I do?
what didn't you do?...
what...I...I spaced out...
she thought...
ah...crap she thought that I wasn't there for her...why can't I...I'm not good at any of this...I just...

"I just don't know how much longer I can handle all of this." Beckett slides her hand down her face. Castle gets closer to her, wrapping his arms around her, pulling her into him.

"It will be over soon," he lifts his hand to the side of her face. "I..." he looks into her eyes, once again getting lost, in their depths.

"Don't promise unless."

"Unless what," he smiles at her. She just turns her head, making his hand fall down to his side. "Look Kate, we." he tries to place his hand back on her face.

"Don't..." she shook her head again. "just don't..."

(Castle's mind:) 'it's now or never,' the words repeated in his mind
it can't be now cause... he answers his mind...I...
then it's never...
what...
take the chance
I,... he swallows, she just wants to go home just like me and...
and then...
what?...
things they...
don't say it, don't say that they will never be the same...
but will they...you know...she...
no, says his heart we can't have another set back...
what...it's going to change cause I...
so you are willing to take that chance
I'm...but...
so you have plan...his heart joins in again
does that mean... that...you are...his body comments going...to make us...me happy...
I...

a few moments of silence passes between them. Beckett slides down the blanket, looking around.

"See nothing to worry about." Beckett slides off the back of the trailer.

(Beckett's mind:) finally solid ground again. I... she swallows. I just hope...
what about him...
what about him...he can...
you can't leave him sitting back there...he...

"Where are you going?" Castle cries, "We can't just..."

(Castle's mind:) we can't just what...she just wants to...
what leave me?...she just did leave...
so get up and follow her before...

"Castle," she held out her hand, which he so desperately wants back in his, to help him down out of the trailer. "I...I just want to go home."

"We...you are home." he slides closer to her, then stops.

"wha?" there was little laugh in her voice.

(Castle's mind:) did she just laugh at me...
no...just ignore...that...
how can I?...I just...I'm trying...
you will...continue...

"You are home... I told you that I would take you home." he winks at her.

She has a flashback to the scene in the hotel where they were about to go father then kissing. And then his words hit her. "I want...Our first time …to be special. Let me take you home." she blinks off the memory, swallowing hard.

(Beckett's mind:) oh Castle... she sighs, Not now...I...
tell him that...or better yet show him...
what?...
he just wants to know...
to know what...

"Castle I..." she takes him by the hand and tries once again to pull him forward. He doesn't want to go. He struggles to stay right where he is.

(Beckett's mind:) what's he doing...I thought...it's like he's...
he's what...
doing this on purpose...I...why is his struggling with me...I'm trying to take him home...
he thinks that he is home...
wha? I don't...

"Then just one last kiss before..." Castle says. (Castle's mind:) if this is all I get for now, then I'll take it...His heart says
you want more than one kiss...his mind comments
yes, yes I do...
that's your plan isn't it...to get her back in here with you...

(Beckett's mind:) What? one last kiss, I thought...
he thinks that once you two leave this place then you will...
i will what...
never...
come back to him...but I...she blinks...I love him...why wouldn't I...
in the past...
I know I used to hide...
and he thinks...
that I'll do that again...so he's what... trying to...
he's trying to hold on to this moment... with you...he doesn't want to let you go...
but I...
he doesn't know that...remember...what happened last time... you let go...and he...both of you... she shook the memory she didn't want to remember that one, she was here now with him and that's all the matter, that they were together again.
I...
just give him one last kiss...something that reassures him...that everything between you two is going to...
do it for me...her heart pleas. do it for me...

"Castle, I..." she starts,

(Castle's mind:) oh no here it comes she's...
then convince her to stay with you...
how...I...
do what you do best...
charm her...he smiles, got it...

"Please," he turns his head giving her one of his best puppy eyed looks, still holding on to her hand. "I just want one last kiss that's all...and then..."

(Castle's mind:) and then what...I know what you want to happen...
it's a long shot but...if I can... he slides his other hand down his face.
and if you can't...
then I'll think of something else...I'm not going to give up on her now...we've been...
that you have...now is the time...
to do something...I...I know...

"Well, how about it...one last kiss for the road?" he smiles, hoping that his plan would work. "I promise, just one kiss."

(Beckett's mind:) One kiss my...don't trust him...he just wants you in his lap again...
and that's a bad thing? her heart comments...
I wouldn't mind it either...her body adds. to feel...his...
stop all of you...I...she takes a deep breath, I...
you know that you want it too...her heart continues to talk to her
I know that I do...I've waited...just for him...her body states
I second that...come on Kate, he...he's asking for a happy ending, how can you deny him that...deny us...we...

Leaning, forward some, from where he was propped up against the haystack he reaches out with his free hand, and latches on to her other arm. He tries pulling her closer to him, wanting her to give into the pull that they feel between them. The pull that brought them together earlier. One that neither one of them could ever hide from again. It was working she was giving in.

(Beckett's mind:) I can't...
you will...Castle voice told her.
i wont...
oh but you will...he voice continues...
see even in your mind he's telling you what he wants...just go with it...

She made another attempt to break the spell of the pull but couldn't, her feet made steps back towards the trailer and to him.

"Don't spoil this moment. This..." he comments, pulling her closer.

"One kiss..." she points with her finger. "One,"

"I..." he starts to plea to her.

She shook her head. "No, one kiss..." he swallows and nods, to tell her that he understands.

"One kiss, I promise I just..." a pause "This memory should last." He wraps his arms around her when she got close enough to the edge of the trailer.

"Remember one kiss..." he nods.

"A kiss to add to my memories, where maybe a few more are in order."

(Beckett's mind:) a few more...what's he...
he's talking about memories...
i don't...
think Kate...a memory...a special memory...
oh no, she shook her head slightly, he wants...
yes...more then a kiss...
but he...
what promised and...you... what like think that's going to stop him...from wanting more...
I just...
speak your mind...
what's on my mind is...

"I'm not going to have sex with you out here," she blurts out furious with him. He tries to hold it in but he couldn't, he burst out laughing at her.

(Beckett's mind:) what was I thinking...listening to you...
only he could ...
could what...
only he could do that to you...get under your skin...make you...
you're right...it's his fault...
the two of you...are made for each other...
oh shut up...I'm not listen anymore...
what did I do...her heart comments...I can't help who I love...

After, he finally was able to control his laughter, "I didn't ask you to,"

(Castle's mind:) although...
that's what we were all thinking...his body told him.

"I just want one last kiss that's all." She stares at him. "I just didn't say how long the kiss would be...and where..." he whispered under his breath to himself.

"Castle..."

"Come on," he smiles that smile that tugs at her heart. "How can you deprive me, your..."

(Beckett's mind:) his what?...
well you didn't let him finish...but you already know...
huh?
hello...
I don't...

(Castle's mind:) given the look on her face...she didn't get it...

"Do I have to fill in the blanks, after all we went through?" he asks her.

(Castle's mind:) she should know who I am...or maybe she just doesn't want to...
maybe she doesn't see you that way...
what?...I just...
you're trying to hard...
you are the one that's been pushing me too...he sighs. I guess that I'm not good at this...

"Hero...Kate," he lets out a deep breath. "Come on work with me...Kate. "

"Work with you?" she questions, "I already do."

"Funny," he chuckles,

"I'm glad I'm entertaining." she snorts.

"That's not what I meant.." he swallows. "Although...," He tilts his head some. "There is another 'working together' I like to do." he raising his eyebrows.

"Castle," (Castle's mind:) there it is, the way she says my name...when she's...

"Now who's trying to be the funny one..." she smirks.

"That would be me..." he responds proudly, as he pulls her closer, "I can't help it you bring the best out of me." he lefts his eyebrows at her.

"I..."

"Come closer, I want my one last kiss."

"I um..." she swallows. "no I...,"

"No, I don't get my one last kiss." he let's go of her hand and slides to the far end of the trailer away from her.

"I just wanted..." he sniffs, "One last kiss that's all I was asking for." he swallows, closing his eyes. "But I guess that was too much to asks so."

he places his head in his hands, "Just go! I..." He starts to cry uncontrollably.

"Castle, that's not what I meant..." she shook her head.

"It sure sounded like it." he shot back.

"I..." she sighs, "you didn't let me finish..." Finishing each other thoughts, something that they shared, was both helpful and a curse. "I...just meant...I was going to say... I don't want one last kiss.," she swallows, "That didn't come out right either."

(Beckett's mind:) but it's true, I don't want this to be our last kiss...I want...
tell...him...

"Not now," he yells "I don't want..." he hesitates, "It's not, how I want this one kiss, I want...oh, just forget it..."

"Castle I..." she sits on the edge of the trailer, with her feet dangling over the edge. "I never meant..." , she glances down that the ground. "I just...we..." the silence between them stretched her nerves to the breaking point, it was too much for her. She looks back at Castle who had wrapped himself up in the blanket like a little kid who, was scared of a thunderstorm. When he sees her face he hides all the way under the blanket.

(Beckett's mind:) what have I done to him...look at him, he's...
he's hurting yes, but he...
I...she blinks I...she sniffs another round of tears were coming. why do I always hurt him...it's like...that's all I'm good at...we're good at...how...
cause I think that one... you love him too much and two...you're trying to hard to please each other just...
why couldn't I just...
you still can...
with that look...that hurt too deep look...I just...tore his soul out...and I don't know how...to...she starts to sob...what am I going to do? once again it's never going to be the same...why...I...she swipes her hand down her face. We were...
getting along...yes you were then...
he asks...for a simple thing...and I screw it all up...
then make it right...
and how do you suggest...duh... she backs up towards him.

"Castle," she whispers, he doesn't move. "I'm sorry..." She takes a deep breath, "I'm not good with words...like.." she pauses, "Never have been...I just..." glances her eyes over at him.

"Are you even listen to me, I'm pouring my heart out over here...say something...anything... or even move...so I know..." Beckett sniffs. Not knowing if Castle was even paying attention to her or not. Sometimes he listens when she thinks he's not and other times he just doesn't at all.

(Beckett's mind:) this is not working I've...she sniffs...
don't give up yet, I know that he's listening...waiting...
waiting for what...I mean...
trust...
he's not...what have I done...she wipes the tears in her eyes. we can't go on like this...I... she closes her eyes. maybe he's right, maybe I should just go...maybe it for the better...
you don't want that do you...after...
she shook her head, no, I don't but...a hot tear made it past her eyelash and slid down her face...I...she sniffs, was it too much to...to give him one...one last kiss. Another tear slid down her face. Before...
before...what...he...
wait, does he know
something that I don't...
yes,...
huh?
change...

what has to change...
everything changes...
what...what do you mean?
change is all around...it's how you deal with it, that makes the difference.
how...
that's up to you...you have to find your own way...
I thought that you were going to help me...
I did... you...
I screwed that up too...
She sniffs....I...
follow me and I will lead you...
.Her heart adds.
I...
trust...
I don't know that I can...I just...maybe you're right, maybe I'm not capable of real love...

to be continue..

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new chapter coming soon-have to re-read/spell check. my computer files where transfered to other computer and some where lost. anyway hope to get them up and running (for you guys) today or tomorrow.