A WARM HEART
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CHAPTER 29
Misaki's tears ran down her face as she sat alone on her bed and read the papers her father gave her.
"My dear daughter, forgive me for sending you to a foreign land. I know how much you resented me for not being a good father and now, for sending you away from your only home.
But I thought that if you get the best education and saw a new land, your mind will open and allow you to live independently from what you love and want in life.
Your mother, how I prayed for her forgiveness, Misaki. I killed your mother, do you know. I killed her for not loving her."
Misaki cried deeply.
"I had tried so hard and finally won her at the end, did you know, my dear Misaki. I won your mother over my friend and my own brother. For your mother's love, I had to sacrifice them. And how I had hated them then.
But I knew deep in my heart that I was your mother's second love. I hadn't accepted this truth until now when she was no longer mine. She was never mine to begin with, Misaki. And how my heart is tearing in pain from this knowledge.
I knew your mother was never mine when she married me. She only married me because my good friend, Yuu Walker, had wrongly been with another woman. How happy I was to hear her say she would marry me. And how happy I had been on our wedding night.
But she had refused me. And it was on our wedding night that I knew, in her heart she still love Yuu. How hatred grew in my heart for my friend, and I vowed to myself that I would make myself so wealthy, so well-known, and powerful that your mother would see how much I was worth it than Yuu.
But the more wealth I gained, the more your mother grew apart from me. When you were born, I thought our days would be happier but nothing had changed. I blamed Yuu for everything your mother wasn't giving me, for he was her love.
Forgive me, my dear daughter, for not loving your mother with all my heart and accepted her love for my friend. I had thought that if I gave her everything in life, she would be more happy with me but I was wrong. All your mother wanted from me was to spend my time with her and forget the past with Yuu and only to remembered the good times with him.
I believed, your mother did love me in the end, for she had said it the day I killed her. I had vowed to defamed and humiliate my friend, Yuu, if she did not leave the country house and come back to live in the mansion, for I knew my friend was in trouble with his company. I had spies that told me all about him and I wanted to ruin him forever. I didn't trust your mother and believed that Yuu was returning back in her life. She had cried and called me heartless and cruel for believing her heart was so impure that she would cheated on me after marrying me for fifteen years.
I didn't believed her. I wanted to blame her as much for she had refused to stay in the mansion with me. So, I told her to leave me if she thought I was cruel and heartless. I told her to returned to Yuu as her heart desires for I was through with her and her love for my friend. For now, Yuu was a loser and would be in jail soon.
I knew I shouldn't had said those words, for I could see the pain on her face. But I couldn't stop myself, for my heart was so sure that she was still in love with Yuu. I was so jealous that I wanted to hurt her as much.
But, did you know what she said, my dear Misaki? Your mother finally told me she loved me, and that she would leave me if that would opened my eyes to all the wrong things I was doing.
How I have cried so many days remembering her words. And how I wished I had stopped her and held her in my arms.
And because of my impure heart, I had killed her. She ran from me and slipped on the wet floor I had ordered the maid to clean that morning. She fell off the marble stairway I had been so proud of only years ago; and now, how I wished I hadn't lived in such a large house that gave me so many heartaches and coldness.
How I wished I had lived with your mother in her country house which gave her peace and love. Do you hate me, dear daughter? For it was because of your father that your mother left us.
I know you loved your mother very much, more than me. You are so like her. But I have destroyed both of your love for me, didn't I, Misaki? For, what kind of father would abandoned his child when he'd never spent any time with? What kind of father would lived in the city and leave his wife and child in the countryside?
I don't blame you for your resentment toward me, Misaki. I deserved it every bit. When your mother left, I knew I had you to look after, and I had to think about your future.
My friend, Yuu, is now your guardian as I have asked him to be. We have so much to regret and so much to live for now.
I now known that if your mother did not leave me, I would still had been blind and hated the people I grew up with and had been dear friends with. Life is too short, dear daughter, that you must gather all your love ones and tell them you love them or it will be too late one day.
Yuu and I met again on your mother's funeral and we couldn't help the tears on our eyes as we remembered our friendships and our hopes and dreams. We cried and asked each other for forgiveness. I remembered I had cried so hard that I fell down and asked him to forgive me for taking your mother away from him.
Yuu also cried and asked me to forgive him for the hatred he had had for me for taking your mother away from him when he had also wronged her.
I remembered your mother's words then, asking me to forget the bitter past with Yuu and remembered the good times with him. I knew then that I had to help him with his company.
I only had $200 million left after your mother passed away, so I borrowed from friends and businesses who trusted me; and helped my friend succeeded in creating his company.
He promised to pay me, but I only asked for him to look after you and give you what you are entitle to as my daughter.
I pray that you will have a good life, for even if I do not live to see you this day, I will still pray for your happiness and ask you to forgive your father for giving you no love when your mother was still here.
I don't want to tell you about my health at all, for I know it will worry you. My heart have not been good lately, and I fear one day it will give way on me. I only hope I will see you again before this heart of mine kills me.
I know you will have a very successful life, for you are very careful in choosing and very honest and truthfulness to yourself, unlike your father who refused to accept the truth until it was too late.
I want you to love the Walkers as your brothers and sisters, and if possible, marry one of them to bond their family with ours.
I never told you about my brother, your uncle, did I? I've lost contact with him ever since I married your mother; and I don't even know where in the States he is. I want you to find him in the States and ask him to forgive me for not being a good older brother to him. He is your only relative, for your mother was an only child and lost her grandmother when you were born.
Lastly, my dear daughter, love and respect yourself, and happiness will comes to you.
ーYour Regretful Father."
Misaki finished reading the letters and cried with all her heart onto the bed. Though she had resented her father, she knew now how much she wanted to turn back time and stay and get to know him when he was alive.
She cried and cried onto the bed until she couldn't anymore and her eyes closed in weariness.
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Maria had left early that morning, hating Misaki for getting what her father had given to their father. Misaki didn't care anymore. She was too numb to feel any animosity towards her.
She said her good-byes to Gerard, who left in his car to returned to school. He looked very sad as he left her standing at the front entrance.
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Takumi didn't leave to work that day, for so much was on his mind.
He knew Mr. Ino was here seeing her, and he couldn't bother them, for she didn't want him there.
So, when Bua came to tell him that Mr. Ino had left, he quickly stood up to find her.
To his surprise, he found her sitting silently in the family room, gazing in front of her at nothing. On her hands was another large envelope.
He slowly moved toward her, sorrow in his heart that he had held her responsible for her father's debt to his family. And that he had treated her so unwell when it was his family who owed her.
"Misaki...?"
She didn't look at him but looked at the envelope in her hands. Then without another thought, she stood up to leave the room. But he managed to grabbed her arm.
She glared at him then and the glare on her face startled him, for it gave him such a hatred, that his heart dropped to the bottom of the floor in horror.
"Don't ever touch me," she spoke venomously. "You have no right to ever touch me anymore, Mr. Walker."
He looked shock at her tone and his eyes narrowed in frustration.
"What are you saying, Misaki?"
She looked away coldly.
"I am no longer your prisoner or ward. I am now your equal," she remarked, pulling her arm roughly from his hold. "You have no right to disrespect me or see that I am lower than you, Mr. Walker. In fact, the Walker's owe my father more than they can ever pay him."
He looked at her in disbelief as she continued bitterly, "I will choose this house if I so choose to live here and have you thrown out of here. I have more rights than you now, over which houses I will choose to live in," she turned coldly to him. "How funny, that my position has change dramatically. If I knew this earlier, I would have never-never let you touched me!"
She moved to go but he grabbed her back.
"Do you think that being a billionaire would make you happy, giving you the rights over everything?" He questioned her coldly.
Her eyes darkened.
"Do you expect me to believe that you only let me touched you because of your status before?" He asked, looking at her mockingly. "Have that heart of yours grown cold over gaining these wealth? I only remembered you warming up to me and giving your heart to me, Misaki."
He knew he was losing her as her eyes faced him defiantly and coldly.
"I will never forgive you for making me believed that my father's debt would be paid if I- if I gave myself to you," she remarked remorsely. "You took advantage of it when the Will was not even read."
He was very angry.
"I may had but I wasn't the only one who fell for that situation," he stated frustratingly.
She looked at him in disgust.
"You only kept me because you were afraid to lose me to others, like you did for Li...and like your father, to my mother. Now I understand why you hated Tora and why...why you don't want me to leave this house," She said bitterly.
"But now I have enough wealth on my side to help me recovered from this situation. My uncle, Mr. Sarine, would never let you touch me or even look at me, Mr. Walker. You are not even worthy of me now," she replied, wanting to hurt him so. "I can now marry anyone I choose to. Mr. Igarashi would even marry me now even if he knew what we've done. All men would want me now that I am a billionaire. I wouldn't even care about wanting your love anymore."
Takumi's lips tightened in frustration.
"If you will only use that wealth to mocked me, Misaki, then I would never let you leave this place," he said firmly.
"You cannot hold me here," she stated, "What rights will you have to keep me here when I can pay for a whole army to protect me?"
He grabbed her closer to him.
"I will keep you," he remarked. "For you've just made up my mind."
Misaki looked at him as if he'd just gone mad.
"I had planned to apologized to you and let you go but now, I see I would be making a big mistake if I let you go," he continued desperately. "For now, I see you are viewing me with little value as you have all the wealth in the world to marry any men in this world."
She looked at him in mute disbelief. He gave her a bitter smile.
"I won't let you go...ever," he stated firmly as his hand tightened on her.
She looked at him in horror.
"You're crazy!"
He only gave her a firm grin.
She finally stood her ground.
"You cannot keep me here," she spatted.
"Watch me," he whispered.
Without another thought, he picked her up in his arms. Shocked, she cried and pushed him away. Her hands came out and pounded on him to release her endlessly as he held her tightly and moved toward the stairs with her in his arms.
He didn't even seem touched by the pain she was inflicting on him as her hands continued to pounds on him. He carried her quickly up the stairs and into his bedroom.
She was near tears when he dropped her on his bed. She quickly sat up and slapped him as hard as she could on the face.
He didn't react but looked at her calmly. She gave him a hateful stare and quickly moved to the door but he also moved quickly and grabbed her back. He pushed her back onto the bed.
"You wouldn't dare keep me here!" She cried, fear tugging her heart as she sat up in his bed. She stood up to try to pass him once more but he pushed her back onto the bed.
"You will stay here, Misaki," he said calmly.
Her heart pounded in fear at his words.
"You're crazy. You cannot keep me here," she breathed in disbelief and fear.
He came toward her and lowered his head to meet her eyes.
"You're mine, Misaki...and I will keep you."
With those firm words, he turned away and walked out of the room. Her heart pounded in fear as she quickly ran toward the door after him. To her horror and fear, she heard a key turn. When she grabbed the doorknob, it locked on her.
She cried and banged on the door with all her frustration. She banged the door until her hand ached that she slid onto the floor and cried in hopelessness.
In shocked, he had locked her in his room.
He ran a hand through his head, still leaning on the wall outside his room, feeling hurts at hearing her cries.
He didn't intend for this to happened to them. He didn't want to hurt her anymore than he had already did, but damn his heart couldn't let her go. Not when she has brought a light back into his coldness world.
She was his. He won't let her go even if he had to hurt her.
