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Chapter 29
Holly's P.O.V
A few days after Henrick's death and things hadn't changed. Kol only left for work because we need gold for clothes and food. Nik was still sleeping on spare furs in the living room and everyone else was slowly getting better, Rebekah, Elijah and Finn had helped Esther burry the body. Mikael was there too but he practically disowned Nik and the screams that left the hut after the family gathering were less than loving. Rebekah had some how managed to stop Mikael from beating Nik before he killed him and then we spent the rest of the evening cleaning and tending to Niklaus. He survived without infection, the only blessing the Mikaelson's had been given over the past week. It was a small occasion, Sophie didn't attend but everyone else did. It was basically the Mikaelson family, Aria, Ayanna and I stood around the hole in the ground, it was horrid. I held Kol's hand tightly throughout the ceremony and I watched him try to hold back every tear, when we got home later that night, he left to go and get drunk. I didn't blame him but I think he used it as an excuse to not deal with his emotions. I still haven't told him that in less than a month we will have another child, I don't know how to his brother just died and now I spring another life changing thing on him. It wasn't fair. It wasn't something we had discussed or agreed to, however I don't regret the fact I was pregnant. Smiling, I stroke the small bulge of my stomach gently as I watch the village from the window.
I was getting worried, Esther had requested Kol and Nik around for a dinner and they have yet to return. It was early hours of the morning and still nothing. Sophie has been asleep for a while and I take a moment to enjoy the peace, I wouldn't be getting anymore peace like tis once the baby was born, I would have to get used to waking up all hours of the night, washing the dirty fabrics and trying to maintain a clean and happy home. I realise it will be harder this time, I have Sophie to take care of. Would she be jealous? I remember my Mother telling me that when Cate and Robb were born how jealous Aria was, she used to scream in the middle of the night to wake them, just so Father would shout at her. It stopped when they were about a year old, the novelty had worn off and she became aware that it wasn't good attention she was receiving. I sit down on the chair located by the window. And soon start to doze off, dreaming about Kol and our children.
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"Mama?" I feel something shake me, "Mama!" The voice shouts and successfully manages to wake me up. "Auntie Sage is here with 'Melia." Sophie says still not fully able to 'Amelia' it was sweet though and probably a nickname that would stick. I sit up straight and take a moment to take in my surroundings. My ankles are throbbing.
"Sophie?" She smiles up at me, "Is Papa here?" She shakes her head sending her brown locks everywhere. I squint as the sun catches my eyes, which were still heavy from sleep. "Lets go and let Sage in then." I say and she runs over to the door.
"Are you ok? I got worried when you didn't answer the first ten times I knocked." She asks as she shifts Amelia on her hip, I frown.
"I'm sorry, I must have been in a deep sleep, it seems to be happening a lot lately." I explain and she nods.
"Its good to see you resting but that's not why I'm here." She says, "Is Finn here? Only he went to Esther and Mikael's feast or whatever it was last night and has yet to return, I thought he might have stayed here with Kol and Nik." She pauses. "Judging by your reaction Kol hasn't come home either, well this week continues to get better doesn't it?" I smile at her
"No, Kol hasn't come home either I was getting worried too, especially when he hadn't returned by the early hours of the morning. Sophie said he hasn't been back either. What could have happened to them?" I as her and she shakes her head.
"I'm not sure but knowing that family its not going to be anything good, Esther has being acting strange for weeks now and it was only amplified by Henrick's death." Sage pauses and breaths in. "We need to go around there and make sure everything is ok, do you want to go now?" She asks me and I nod.
"Let me go and put on a clean dress, if I show up looking like this Esther will find this as the perfect excuse to try to take Sophie and..." I take a deep breath. "I'm not going to let her take my children." Sage smiles.
I stand up and leave the room, I make my way to my chambers and sigh. Why can it never just be simple with us? I sit on the bed and lay back, closing my eyes for a moment. Sophie comes running in and lies next to me with her head on my shoulder, she hugs me close and doesn't say anything. Its almost like she knows that her presence is enough to calm me, to make me feel a bit better. We both need Kol, and I swear to the Gods, I will get him back. With a deep breath I stand up, I pull on a forest green dress and walk Sophie to her chambers, silently dressing her. I feel a light flutter in my stomach and smile, my baby and I now realise I have been feeling this for months and I hadn't even noticed. I take Sophie's hand in mine and walk her through the front door with Sage following behind. We silently make our way over to the Mikaelson house and notice something odd. The cloth was hung up in the windows to keep the sun out. I frown and knock the door. Sage and I look at each other when nobody answers, where could they be? All of a sudden the door swings open.
"What? What do you want Holly?" Esther asks, she looks exhausted, like she hasn't slept for weeks. The bags under her eyes are pitch black and her blonde hair is sticking up in all directions. I notice she is agitated, she keeps looking around and behind her, making sure that whatever is there cant be seen or see me. I don't like the women but I am concerned about her, this isn't normal. Esther Mikaelson, the original witch, the women who never let others see her in such distress, not even on her birthing bed according to Ayanna.
"Where is Kol? Where is Finn? Actually where are any of your children? They get invited to yours for a 'feast' and then disappear, tell me where they are." I demand of her trying to look over her shoulder to discover what she is hiding. Esther's frown begins to deepen, and I get a bad feeling. "Sage take the girls to the well, we need some more water in the hut." She scowls at me but does as I asked her to, once she left I scowl at Esther in return. "You are going to tell me where Kol is because I'm going nowhere until I speak to him." I tell her.
"My boy saw sense and left you, you and that bastard child." She says in my direction, I feel my world come crashing down, what if Kol had left? What did that mean for me and Sophie? I shake my head refusing to believe any of it, he promised me he'd never leave. My jaw clenches at her statement.
"How dare you. How dare you call my child a bastard." I spit at her. "My child, your granddaughter was born in wedlock, she is not bastard. If you call her a bastard again Esther you will regret it. Now tell me where my husband is." I angrily say to her, she is not walking over me.
"As I say, Kol has seen sense and gone." She pauses, "He wont be back girl, hopefully he is already far away at least you cant ruin his life anymore. Maybe he will find himself an appropriate wife and have legitimate children to continue the Mikaelson blood line." I feel myself growing angrier at every word she speaks.
"I don't believe you." I say, I can feel tears springing to my eyes and I hope they don't fall. I wont cry in front of her, I wouldn't give her the satisfaction.
"Well you should girl." A loud bang interrupts her, she glance behind her, Mikael is stood behind her. He stares at me dangerously. She pushes him back. "Go Mikael." She says and I notice how he avoids the sun.
"Everything ok Mikael?" I ask him, he continues to stare at me. There is another loud bang. "I think something wants to get out Esther, what is it?" I ask her.
"Its none of your concern. As I have told you, Kol has gone and will never come back, if I was you I would find another poor boy to stick your indiscretions onto." She spits at me and turns to shut the door in my face. Could it be true has Kol left us? He was sometimes unhappy but I thought that was just working for Mikael, perhaps it was me. I did spring a child that he probably never wanted on him, that was unfair to ruin his life.
"Well tell your boy that he got me pregnant, that in a few weeks I will have another child and not to worry because even if he doesn't love them, I will. Tell him..." I pause and take a deep breath. "Tell him not to bother coming back." And with my final outburst of anger I walk away, tears freely spilling down my cheeks. I go home, and find Sage nervously sitting on a chair. I walk straight past her and grab the whiskey, I stop before I can take a sip. The baby. I couldn't be this selfish, it was unfair.
"Holly? What ever is the matter?" Sage asks as she come up behind me and holds me trying to comfort me, the gesture is enough but I only wanted one person right know.
"I hate him, I hate him I hate him." I chant over and over again as all my grief comes out. "Why? Why couldn't he just love me? Why did he leave me?" I ask, my sobs come out erratically and I find myself short of breath.
"Shush, everything will get better, shush. Don't worry let it all out Sophie is asleep." She leads me to the bedroom, she lies me down and brings my head to her shoulder. "What happened? " She asks and so I tell her everything. By the end of it she just sits silently. "Was Finn there?" She asks and I shrug.
"I'm not sure, there was something in the back room it could have been him. Whatever Esther has done to Mikael or even Finn, its gone wrong. Mikael stared at me like, like he wanted to eat me." I say and Sage chuckles. "It sounds ridiculous but honestly that is the only way I can describe it, it was like I was a walking meal." I say and we both laugh.
"Did you tell her about the baby?" Sage asks.
"Yes, she seems surprised but as I say she had more pressing matters to deal with rather than me and her bastard grandchild." I spit out the word 'bastard'. "I didn't want her to be the first to know but I felt that she would have passed the message on to Kol." I say. I know Esther hates me and I know why. You see she hates me because I can detect that Nik is something other than human. He is a wolf, he needs to kill to release it but one day it will happen and Esther's life will come crashing down. "What do I do Sage? How am I supposed to support two children?" She smiles down at me.
"Well by the sounds of it my husband has disappeared too, maybe Kol didn't leave. Its strange that all the Mikaelsons have disappeared, I don't think that Kol left, I think Esther did something." She admits to me. "Anyway, me and you will get through this together. Now sleep." She says to me, and eventually I fall asleep.
A soft pat wakes me up, It feels like some is poking me with something. I try to ignore it but they are determined to wake me up. I sit up groggily. The moonlight streams in and I slowly begin to take in my surroundings. Sage has gone, probably to feed Amelia. She must have woken me because I'm in one of Kol's shirt, I must have changed and settled back down . The furs had also been draped carefully across me and I run my hand through them. I frown at yesterdays events. The thing that caught my attention was the man at the window.
"Kol?" My voice breaks. Tears pool in my eyes and cloud my sight, I feel my throat constricting and my voice turns shaky. "Go away!" I say to him
"Holly please let me explain." He whispers to me, "You don't understand."
"No, you left me. Your Mother told me you left, you didn't want me anymore she said." He gives me a watery smile.
"Holly, Love? I need you to invite me in, that's the only way I can explain this to you." He pauses and looks as me. "Come on Love, its cold out here." He says, pretending to shiver and blows into his hands trying to create this 'coldness' he was feeling.
"You will explain everything to me?" He nods. "Do you promise?" I ask.
"Yes Love, now hurry up, I'd much like to be in my own home." I give him a frown. "I have spent days locked up with Mikael and Esther, I at least deserve to get into bed with my wife." He mops in his own self pity.
"Why didn't you just come through the door?" I ask, he seems to ponder on the thought for a moment.
"Because this seems far more fun, much like when we were younger don't you think?" He says and I shake my head.
"No it seems pointless, but I suppose you can come in Kol." I say dramatically and he smiles. He leaps through the window and sits next to me on the bed, pulling me to him. I push him back. "You're not getting away with this Kol. You left me! You let your mother have the joy of telling me it was over, that you didn't want your children or me." I say and I feel tears spring to my eyes.
"Surely you should know by now she wants me to leave you, you should know that I would never do that to you Love. Please believe me. Did you hear the banging?" He asks and I nod, "That was me trying to get to you, I could feel how upset you were getting" He pauses. "Your heartbeat-" He stops. "I never wanted to leave you and I wont for as long as I can." He whispers, slowly trying to move closer to me. I grab him and pull him close to me. I gasp.
"What has happened to you?" I ask him, he looks shocked. "You feel like, you feel like death." He grabs me close and buries his nose in my neck, nuzzling it softly.
"Nothing." He claims, he suddenly pushes me back onto the bed. Dark veins appear around his eyes, I gasp. I give him a confused look, "I am so sorry, I just cant deal with being this close to you." He stands up staring over me. "Is it true?" He asks.
"Its ok, I think. No harm done." I say and although I don't believe it, it seems to relieve him. Something had happened to him and clearly it was affecting him. I didn't want to argue with him though, he was here and how long for was unknown so I was taking advantage of every moment. "Is what true?" I say to him.
"You're pregnant? We're going to have another child?" I smile and nod.
"Of course it is, I wouldn't lie. In a few wee-" He cuts me off before I can finish my sentence.
"Few weeks? I'm sure it takes longer than that for a child to bloom." Kol says, surprise written on his face. Well he cant say I don't keep him on his toes and it seems to be a talent I passed on to our children. He looks very confused but reaches out to stroke my hair, I still cant shake this strange feeling away every time he touches me, but I try to ignore it.
"It seems our children like to grow towards my back, this stops me from growing large. I'm not sure if I am grateful for this or not. Either way we're going to have a child, hopefully an heir for you." he kisses me. I feel a small flutter in my abdomen. I take his hand and guide it to where the flutter is, his eyes become memorised. A smile crosses his face.
"Our child, another one." He pauses and softly massages my stomach. "Although I would be happy with another daughter." Kol looks around. Then looks me directly in the eye. "I must leave now Holly, go back to sleep." I shake my head and confusion spreads across his face.
"No Kol please don't leave me, please!" I beg him. "If you love me you wont leave me alone again." He frowns. "Please, you can come home." I say.
"I love you but I need to keep you safe, she killed Tatia. I don't want her killing you too, we have our children to think about. Tell Sage that Finn is trying to find a way back to her and that he is sorry its taking so long." He kisses me full on the mouth. "And I'm sorry I must leave now. I love you." He says to me. "And I will be back, I will be. That is my promise to you."
"I love you too." I sob and kiss him and before I can blink Kol is gone and so is my heart. It makes me wonder what Esther did to them that Kol is willing to miss our child's birth for. What had she done? Clearly she had used dark magic and it had affected the Mikaelson family deeply, they had changed and I couldn't make out if it was for the best or for the worst.
Eventually my world fell black and I fell into an uncomfortable sleep.
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