"Luna I love you sis"
"I love you too bro" I said hugging him tighter I am so afraid that he is going to take off on me again but there is always that what if anyway with him.
"Are you okay there is something you aren't telling me?"
"Marc is going off to war and I am scared"
"He is going to be okay I promise you that"
I pulled away from him he had a somber and serious look on his face.
"How do you know that Ricky how could you possibly know that…"
I got up and started to pace and mutter to myself.
"Sis what are you thinking about?"
"Ricky tell me please tell me that you aren't going over too! Please tell me you are going to stay here and be safe"
"Luna why do you want me here?" he said in a tone that wasn't his own
"Ricky it is bad enough I have to let Blake and Marc go over there I am sorry that I want my big bro I just got you back and now you are going to leave and possibly get shot at and maybe blown to bits" I sat on the floor leaned up against the wall I pulled my knees to my chest and I feel the tears running down my face now.
"Sis" he said sitting next to me. I put my head on his shoulders and tried to breath. He put an arm around me hugging me tight. "Lulu do you really need me that badly?"
"Yes I do" I said though the tears.
"Sis I am not that important to anyone"
"BULL SHIT!" I yelled "You are that important Ricky you are to me you saved my fucking life if it weren't for you I wouldn't fucking be here! I would be dead with my mom and not here with you and marc and everyone else. I wouldn't be here yelling at you." I got up and started to pace again
"Sis sit down please"
"Why in the hell should I listen to you Ricky why should I listen to you?"
"Because you love me and that I know any minute now you are going to start crying again"
"Luna I have a question for you?"
"What bro"
"Why do you put up with me when I was stoned and being a jerk?"
"I put up with you because it is my job and you are my bro I mean come on you put up with me when I was cutting and being dark"
"No one said it was your job"
"Yes someone did"
"Who said it was your job"
"I did I said it was my job to keep an eye on you and protect you Ricky"
"Why do you care so much Luna?"
"We are family bro that is why you were there when I needed you the most I am going to be here when you need me"
"I love you sis" and when he said it I knew he meant
"I love you too bro"
I looked at him he seemed like the old him the one that knew me well enough to know what I was going to say next, but he wasn't there. I just zoned out.
"Luna, Lulu you okay you are giving me the weird look."
"Nothing bro I'm sorry." I said sitting on the floor.
"Okay" he said sitting next to me. Marc came in and said" I am not intruding am I"
"No honey" I said wiping my face
"Ricky can I talk to you please"
"Sure" Ricky said getting up and kissing me on the head. I heard Marc ask "What did you say to her Ricky?"
"I told her that I was going overseas with you and Blake"
"What! Why did you tell her that she is fighting to keep me and Blake here! You pop out of the blue with your life together and in the Army. Do you know what she has been through? Ricky, she has lost her mom, Alexander showed up a few months ago and went after her. Then the stuff with Light went down I mean that was hell for her. She just lost Damien. Then she has been helping me with my stuff she blew up my brick wall and helping me my dark side. Ricky I didn't even know you guys knew each other. Ricky, Luna has a heart gold you know that and I know that too. Maybe you show your little sister that you love her and not just say it! Ricky she has been worried sick about you she didn't know if you were dead or alive or if you were stoned out of you fucking head! She didn't know where you were at all. You said you were going to be there for her right you made her that promise when you guys were kids right? Then do what you promised to do. Ricky she needs you. She was there for you when you needed her the minute she needs you, you took off and left her in the dust I can't believe you!"
At that point I could tell he was getting mad so I went outside "Marc"
He turned his head" Hey baby"
"If he wants to act like that let him" I said walking away I need to go clear my head I hear Ricky yell" Luna! Lulu! Come back please"
I ignored him I heard marc running behind me "Luna baby"
I turned around and looked at him "What baby?"
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah"
"I told Ricky to stay at the house when I ran after you"
"Marc who where you talking about coming back into my life was it Ricky, or is there someone else coming back?"
"Luna, Ricky is one of the people coming back there is someone else"
"Who else is coming?"
"I can't tell you baby"
"Why not"
"That would ruin all the surprises to come"
"Marc I hate surprises"
"I know you do but you are going to like this one"
"I can't believe he shows up out of the blue and pulls that with me"
"I know baby hey how did you get the nick name Lulu"
"Hey don't ask that was something he started that when we were little that all"
"Okay I am so tired marc I want a nap"
"Yeah come one" he said pulling me close to him and put an arm around me and we started to walk home.
"I love you baby"
"Love you too I always will"
"Marc what if you don't get hurt what happens then"
"Luna don't worry about that now okay let's just go home put Ricky in the guest room and go to bed you look really tired and you are falling asleep as we speak"
"Okay baby" I said sleepily my eyes were starting to close I tried to stay awake but I feel sleep and marc picked me up and carried me home. I heard the door open.
"Marc what happened?"
"You made her really upset and when she is upset she goes to sleep and sleeps off her anger"
"Oh I must have made her pissed then because she is past out cold"
"Oh yeah she almost hit you Ricky you know that right" he said putting me on the bed an covering me up
I rolled over and went back to sleep.
I woke up a few hours later to Marc and Ricky looking at me with wide eyes
"Why are you two staring at me?"
"Luna don't you remember anything you said while you were asleep?" Ricky said
"No I don't what did I say?" I asked worriedly
"You said that you loved me" marc said "And you said that you wanted to take a book and beat Ricky in the head with it"
I looked at Ricky and he backed away slowly
"Ricky I wouldn't do that you know that"
"Yeah but after what happened yester day I am worried now"
"Well guess what I wouldn't do that now both of you stop looking at me like I am a broken nut case!"
"Luna we are worried about you" marc said
"Yeah I know Marc but you shouldn't be I am a big girl I don't need to be babysat"
"Sorry sis" Ricky said
"Me too baby"
