Drunk
Logan
Chapter 29
A/N: Okay, so I'm posting this again without responses to review...BUT, I will be staying home tomorrow and will get caught up on them all. This post is a little earlier today for you.
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Logan and Veronica stared at each other wondering what to say. Everything was finally silent and it was just the two of them for the rest of the night.
Logan had felt an extreme amount of loss when Veronica was missing. Although he tried to push it aside in order to focus on the search, he had been afraid that he would lose her with so much left unsaid.
After Lilly died, the one thing that he could hold on to was that he had written her a heart-felt note that laid out everything he felt for her and their relationship. He had seen her at the car wash just hours before her murder. Instead of going home and sending her an e-mail, calling her later, or just forgetting about it; he sat in his SUV and took the time to write it all out while he watched her. He left it in her car for her to find and was sure that his words were some of the last she'd ever read.
Logan's mind was racing with so much that he wanted to tell Veronica. He wanted to tell her everything before he lost his chance, but was having trouble deciding where to start.
'Do I start from day
one and tell her how much I really liked her when we first met? She
knows that I had a crush on her, she just doesn't know how deep
those feelings were. Do I just begin
with apologies about the last
year? About just how truly sorry I am for the things I did to her and
the time I lost with her? Or, do I just tell her how much these last
couple of weeks have meant to me and how happy I am that she's back
in my life. Or about how stupid I was to let her go and that I
promise to never do it again?'
He wanted to say it all and he wanted to tell her how scared he was when she was missing and that he loved her. He almost didn't hear her above the debate going on in his head.
"So..." Veronica started slowly, searching for something to say that would break the staring contest they seemed to be caught in.
"This...is Mexico." She shook her head slowly as if in thought. "Gotta tell ya. I'm just not seeing the appeal here."
Logan chuckled. "Yeah, it doesn't have the same draw that it used to."
"We need to.." Logan started to say at the same time that Veronica collapsed back onto her pillow, arms spread and let out a loud, "Arrgh."
"What was that" Veronica lifted her head to look at him.
"Are you okay?" He wanted to make sure she felt alright. She had just dropped ungracefully and without warning.
She grunted and laid her head back down. "I think everything's finally starting to hit me. I am absolutely exhausted and emotionally drained. I don't think I'm going to be very good company tonight. I may just pass out on you."
"Well, no one would blame you." Logan replied softly as he walked around the bed and sat down next to her.
"Of course, I know you. You're going to milk this for all it's worth." He raised the pitch of his voice to mimic hers and continued. "Logan, could you get me something to drink? Oh, Logan, I'm hungry. Could you be a dear and whip me up a simple seven course meal? You know, since I was kidnaped and all."
Veronica was giggling.
"Oh, I just can't manage to take my shoes off, Logan...you know...like when I was held against my will and forced to marry 'McPsycho-Obsessed-a-lot.' Oh, and while your at it, could you brush my hair, too. You know, it's just so tough." He couldn't continue. The sound of laughter coming from her was contagious and he had to join in.
He was so happy for the levity. There had been too much weighing them down and he felt like it'd been forever since she had really laughed. Although, in reality it had only been a couple of days, it still felt like forever.
When the laughter died down, Veronica let out a huge yawn. "Are you going to get ready for bed so we can get to sleep, or what?"
"Uh, oh yeah. Yeah, I'll go do that right now." He patted her knee before he got up to go to the bathroom.
"You may want to face the wall...I plan on leaving the door open. At least a litte."
"What?" She giggled. "Do you always pee with the door open?"
"No...but, I'm not going to leave you in here alone. With our luck lately, I'd be in there for 3 minutes and come out to an empty room and another disappearing act on your part."
"So, yeah, no. Not gonna happen. Just get used to it, Sugarpuss, there is no way you are going to have any privacy anytime in the near future." He smirked at her and she just rolled her eyes and then turned to face the other wall.
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Logan was in the bathroom for just a few minutes, making sure that he kept his ears tuned to any noises coming from the other room.
He had wanted to tell her everything, but she really wasn't in any shape for a serious discussion. The problem was, he couldn't let it go...not tonight. There was too much at stake. Although he knew he couldn't cover everything with her tonight, he had to tell her he loved her. He wanted them to be together.
He walked out of the bathroom, announcing himself, "Alrighty, I'm all covered up. You can look on my magnificent figure now without being blinded by the brilliance that is all of me." He laughed as he walked around the bed.
He stopped short when he saw her sound asleep.
"Dammit." A small smile graced his lips and he shook his head. "Of course."
He climbed into bed and scooted over to her, wrapping his arms around her. She immediately snuggled into him.
"Mmm, Logan," she mumbled without waking.
"I love you, Ronnie." Logan whispered and kissed her forehead.
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Veronica and Logan slept soundly all night long. Wrapped in each other's arms, they were completely at peace.
Being roused from his sleep by something tickling him, Logan slowly opened his eyes. When he was able to focus, he knew that he was looking at Veronica's beautiful, golden hair. Her head rested on his arm and his lips weren't even inches from brushing her forehead. He smiled knowing that, at that moment, he felt better than he'd ever felt in his life. He didn't know how long it would last, but Logan promised himself that he would do anything he could to ensure that it did.
As his alertness grew so did his awareness of her presence. Her soft breaths were floating across his neck; warming and chilling him simultaneously. He was sure that her thumb, lightly rubbing the ribs just under his chest, was responsible for waking him. Their legs were completely intertwined and, in his sleep-hazed state, he was unable to decipher where his stopped and hers began.
As he continued to contemplate their positions, he focused on the placement of his arms and hands. His arms were wrapped around her snugly, with the hand on his lower arm laying limp on the bed behind her. The hand slung over her body, though, was resting comfortably on her bare leg at the bottom of her butt.
'HOLY CRAP!' He yelled in his head and tensed, squeezing her butt in the process. His hand was in a very precarious position, considering the fact that he was now all too aware of her leg draping over his lower hip. To top it all off, she had never gotten out of bed after her dad dropped off her clothes. She was still in his shirt and absolutely nothing else; and the shirt was not helping considering it had traveled upward during the night. He was trembling at the thought of being so close to heaven.
Veronica responded to the pressure from his hand by gently kissing his throat and then continued to mumble words that he couldn't understand against his skin. The sensation was sending vibrations through his entire body. He moaned as he became light-headed. Both hands were on her now as his fingers dug into her skin just enough to press her even closer to him, but not enough to hurt her.
He could feel the pounding of his heart against his chest and he was breathing so hard that his lungs burned. He could picture himself rolling her over and entering her as he bit gently on her neck. It was taking every ounce of strength he had to not make that a reality. He was focusing all of his energy on self-control, knowing that Veronica was not aware of their current positions.
"Logan," she breathed out as her hand ran up his chest on the way to play in the hair on his neck. She was kissing his neck again and pushing her body into his.
Logan couldn't take it anymore and bent down to capture her lips with his own.
"Mmhmm," Veronica responded to him and was fully engaged in the kiss, still pushing against his body. He rolled onto his back, taking her with him, his hand still gripping her leg, while her other leg straddled him.
They broke the kiss and Logan's mouth traveled down to her neck where he found a spot that made her growl and arch her body into his. Logan was so aroused that his boxers could not contain him and their flesh pressed together in her movements. Logan could feel her moisture on him and the resistance of skin meeting skin.
Veronica's eyes flew open and she jumped up, taking the covers flying with her; leaving Logan shirtless and exposed through the opening in his boxers. He quickly grabbed a pillow to cover himself and looked at her with the eyes of a wild animal. He was flushed and breathing hard and she'd seen and felt the evidence of his aroused state.
"Oh, no. Oh, no. Logan, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to. I'm really sorry." He was struggling to understand her. His mind was so clouded over that it reminded him of listening to someone speak when he was under water. As his mind began to clear, he was able to make out more and more of what she was quickly rambling on about. "I didn't mean to...I would never do that to you and Jenny. I'm really sorry."
Not that she cared deeply for Jenny, but she cared about Logan and wanted to respect Logan's feelings for the girl.
She was looking any where, but his lust-filled eyes and amazing, half-naked body. She was flushed from both arousal and embarrassment, and she was working the hem of the shirt she wore between her fingers. She wanted to die. She couldn't believe that she had allowed herself to forget reality and to live out her fantasy, if only for a moment.
She got up and escaped into the bathroom, even as Logan began to stutter out his protests to her retreat. He shot up and ran over to the door. He wasn't about to let this go...not again.
"Veronica?"
When there was no answer, he tried again, "Ronnie, come on. Talk to
me, okay? I swear you will feel much better, if you just talk to me
for a minute."
"Ugh," she groaned loudly. "I'll feel
better AFTER I've died of embarrassment. Now, go away and let me
regain some of my dignity."
She was completely beating herself up. She wondered how she'd let it go so far. And even though she knew that it was because she wanted it desperately, she also knew that Logan wanted it, too...only with someone else.
"Look, if you're not going to come out, we'll just have to talk through the door...which I REALLY do NOT want to do. Believe me, there is nothing to be embarrassed about and I guarantee that you will feel better after we've talked." He waited, hoping to hear the knob turn and see her peek her head out. When he was about to give up hope, she turned the knob and opened the door slowly, looking at the ground the entire time.
He grabbed her hand and tugged her to sit down on the bed with him. She finally chanced a look at him and was sent reeling by the boxer-clad vision of Logan. He wasn't built, but he was nicely toned with a tan that never seemed to fade. His hair was ruffled from the sleep and concern had taken the place of the look of lust that she'd seen in his eyes moments earlier.
"Look," he said slowly as he considered how to phrase what he wanted to say, and still trying to calm his body's reaction to her. She knew that his next words would unintentionally break her heart and she winced inside.
"Look," he was more determined and continued resolutely. "I love you."
"I - I love you, too, Logan." His mind was screaming. They had finally pronounced their love to each other and could be together with no more interruptions or misunderstandings.
After a brief pause, she continued, "I am so glad that you are back in my life and that we are friends again. I don't want to ruin that or for things to be weird between us."
"Oh, geez!" Logan was exasperated. 'Can't anything ever be easy for us?'
"Well, I know it's awkward, believe me, I know. Let's just forget this and never speak about it again, okay?"
"N-No!" Logan sputtered out the word.
"What?" Veronica was in disbelief. After everything they'd been through, she didn't think that he would take this so harshly. "I'm sorry, Logan. I said I was sorry. It will never happen again..."
"Shut up!" He didn't mean to yell at her and he wasn't angry. He just needed her to stop talking long enough to let him fix everything.
The
shock written across her face made him flinch. "I'm sorry. I
didn't mean to yell at you, but I really need you to stop talking
and let me speak. Can you do that?"
She nodded her head slowly.
Logan could tell by the look on her face that she was nervous about
what he was going to say.
"I love you." Her brow furrowed. He had just told her that. "I am in love with you."
He could see the confusion and disbelief in her eyes.
"No. What about Jenny?" She stated logically. She wasn't sure if he was trying to make her feel better, but it wasn't working. She just wanted to be very clear about where they stood and him trying to ease the rejection by telling her that he was in love with her, was not helping.
"Jenny doesn't mean anything to me...really. The only reason I asked Jenny to spend time with me was because I wanted you to see me with her."
"You were trying to hurt me?" Veronica sounded hurt and was starting to have visions of a very 'Carrie-like' prom float through her head.
"No. Not at all. I saw you. The other day with Duncan. I saw you two kiss and I thought you'd gotten back together. I figured that you didn't want to throw it in my face and make some big statement at school, so you left in separate directions."
"I knew that if you thought I had someone else in my life, it would make it easier for you to tell me about you and Duncan. It wasn't until yesterday morning, when I was looking for you, that Duncan told me you had turned him down."
"So...you're not dating Jenny? You don't want to be with her?" It was taking her some time to understand that he was truly hers.
"No, I'm not dating her and I don't want to. Yes, she came over, but only because I wanted to make things easier for you."
"Nothing has changed, Veronica. My feelings for you are exactly the same. With the exceptions that, I am totally sure of my feelings for you, I love you and I absolutely do NOT want to wait until things settle down to figure out what to do about us. I want you Veronica, that hasn't changed one bit. I'm just not willing to waste anymore of the short time we have together."
"We learned first, with Lilly, and now with your kidnaping. Nothing is guaranteed for us and I wanted to tell you all of this last night, but you were exhausted and passed out on me before I could. Which, again, I fully understand your exhaustion after a day like yesterday." He watched her throughout his speech as she realized that he was not with anyone and that he desired no one, but her. Her smile slowly grew and grew until she was grinning at him goofily.
"Logan, are you sure about this?" She had a second of uncertainty, thinking he was going to start laughing and say, 'Just kidding,' at any moment.
"Yes, I'm sure. I have been for a few days, but I didn't want to scare you off. So, the real question is, how do you feel? Have things changed for you with everything you've been through?" He had figured out that she loved him, but she had been through a lot in the last 36 hours. Between the 'Jenny' incident, as he was choosing to refer to it, and Troy. Her emotions had been all over the place.
"I never thought I'd experience something as difficult as Lilly's death." She spoke softly as Lilly's name passed through her lips. "This last couple of weeks, though, have almost made that seem like a walk in the park."
"Logan, you have been my anchor in the storm and I would not have survived it without you. Thank you so much for that. It has only served to strengthen my love for you. In fact, I told you that I loved you the other night while you were sleeping. I was afraid of scaring you and jumping into 'love' so quickly after rekindling our friendship, but I don't want to be away from you...ever. I don't want to wait, either."
"Well, it's about damn time, Sugarpuss! Come here and give Logan some lovin'." He waggled his eyebrows at her and she laughed, swatting him on the arm as he enveloped her in a tight hug.
At the sensation of his skin on hers, she stopped suddenly.
"So...that," she pointed to the center of the bed they were sitting on, "was okay?"
"Are...you...kidding...me? Anytime you want to have a little replay of that...you just consider me a willing participant. Anytime, my love, anytime." He said the last part seriously.
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A/N: Ok, so if anyone wants to give me a good guideline as to what constitutes a T or M rating, that'd be great. I know that I was thinking I would be moving this story to M and maybe I should have done it this chapter? If you'd give me some ideas that would be great!!! Thanks!!
