Hey, guys! Thanks for being patient! I know it has been about a week since I updated my story! I will promise to update at least every Tuesday :). Just letting you know, it has been at least four weeks since Alaina left Charming to be with her grandmother. She just passed away. Please enjoy, and let me know what you think!
Four weeks earlier
Jax sat at the end of the bed as he watched Alaina get ready to leave Charming.. leave him.
She moved her hand gracefully as she applied eyeliner to each eye.
I looked in the mirror, seeing his eyes meet mine.
"What?"
He stood up and went behind me.
His arms wrapped around my waist.
I rested my hands over his, and we both looked in the mirror.
"Last chance. Please don't go ," he pleaded, kissing my neck.
I turned around, looking up at the beautiful man that stood before me.
My hands moved up to those strong shoulders of his.
"It will go by faster than you know it. I'll call everyday, and if you're lucky, we might have phone sex at night," I said with a smile.
" You're such a tease, Larson," he replied, his hands moving under my top.
"That's why you love me."
My eyes widened as I realized what just came out of my mouth.
" Oh, I.. I.. I'm sorry. It's just an expression."
"I know, babe. But, what if I said I did love you?"
Present
"Alaina? Alaina, are you still with me?"
I looked back up at Melinda, the shrink I have been seeing since my grandmother passed.
"Yeah. Yeah, I'm with you."
"Alaina, you have been seeing me for the past few weeks, and we only spoke about your grandmother. Would you like to talk about life outside of your family?"
"Will that cost extra?"
She smiled.
"No. Are you seeing anyone?"
"I'm not sure."
"What do you mean?"
"The guy I've been with.. I've been blowing him off."
"Why's that?"
"He said he loved me."
"You don't feel the same?"
"I might.. I mean I really don't know. What do you call the feeling when the man you're seeing makes your heart beat so hard against your chest cavity, it aches?"
"I would say that is love. Do you believe you are not worthy of love?"
"I do. It's just, we went through some shit before I came to Jersey, and I'm having a hard time moving past it."
"Does it have to do with the scar on your arm?", Melinda's eyes fell on Alaina's violent suvenir from Belfast.
My eyes started to create tears. She grabbed the tissues that were next to her on the table, and handed me the tissues.
I looked down at the box, and placed it on the floor next to me.
" I was attacked.. by an enemy of his. I have been trying to forget what happened, but I can't. It feels like I am standing still."
"Alaina, have you talked to him about this?"
I shook my head.
"Holding back the way you truly feel is the perfect disaster in a relationship. "
"I know. He just has so much on his plate as it is."
"Is it his job?"
"Yeah, he and his family own an auto shop, and a few other ventures."
"Business man, huh?"
"Yeah."
"These so called ventures are legal?"
"Of course," I lied.
Jax watched as the woman of Diosa walked out and into thier rooms with men following thier sultry footsteps.
He readjusted himself on the stool and downed another glass of JD. Nero spotted him at the bar, and walked over to him.
"Hey, mano. You okay? Hey, If you need a break from business for a while, I'll understand. I know you and your girl are having problems."
"What? We're fine."
"Don't bullshit me. What's going on?"
"I told Alaina I loved her before she left."
"And?"
"She didn't say anything. She said bye to Abel and me, like nothing fucking happened. She hasn't talked to me since."
"Jax, you probably caught her off guard. She will come around. Give her time. Once her head is cleared, she will come running back."
"I doubt it. "
One week Later
"Okay little man, you're all set."
Jax tied Abel's tie for his tuxedo.
"Daddy, why do I have to wear this? It's not fair. You get to wear what you want," he whined as he studied his dad's usual clothing.
"Cuz I promised Mandy you would be the ring boy."
"Daddy, when is Alaina coming home?," he asked the common question that his father dreaded.
"I don't know," he let out a frustrated sigh.
The wedding was beautiful. It took place on the beach by the police station. Jax couldn't wait till the ceremony so he could drown his sorrows and thoughts about Alaina.
Mandy came over to Jax, who already ordered his first of many beers.
He knew he was spiraling out of control. And no one could help him, except the girl that left.
"Jax, I'm worried. I haven't heard from Alaina. She was supposed to be here. She was one of my bridesmaids. I had to have Steven's sister who hates me fill in for her,"Mandy stated, leaning next to Jax.
"Mandy, I honestly don't know. I left hundreds of voicemails. She never returned any of them. I don't think she is ever coming back to Charming," He took his first satisfying sip of his beer.
Mandy shook her head.
She rounded the bar, and pulled the bartender to the side.
"Okay Barry, I will pay you extra to cut him off after the second beer he will order. Do we got a deal?"
He looked back at the imtimidating looking man.
"Sure, you got it."
Mandy smiled, and walked off to greet her other guests.
"Okay, now it's time for the newlyweds' first dance", the dj announced over the microphone.
Jax scoffed and turned his back to the bar.
"Alaina!"
Jax's head turned so quickly, it almost gave him whiplash.
His eyes landed on his son who was running to the girl..woman he confessed he loved.
Alaina's royal blue strapless dress fell to the floor like the rest of the bridemaids' dresses were made. But, they didn't even compare to what she looked like now that she was here.
Her beautful, silk, chocolate colored tresses were perfectly curled and pinned to one side. Her earrings matched the color of her dress.
I paid the cab driver, and moved my wedding present for Steven and Mandy under my arm.
I closed the yellow door, and I turned around, seeing the most adorable boy I will ever lay eyes on.
"Alaina!"
He ran through the dancefloor, bumping into couples to reach me.
When he finally did, I bent down, and he ran into my arms almost knocking me to the floor.
"Hey, Abel! Look how handsome you look!", I exclaimed, looking at Abel's tux.
"Alaina, I missed you! Don't leave anymore!," he hugged me again, burying his head in my neck.
I saw Jax make his way over to the two of us.
His face was set in stone, and my heart started to beat in that familar way it always did when he was near me.
Abel let go of me, and I stood up, holding his hand.
He didn't say anything. His eyes fell onto Abel and I's hand holding.
" Hi Jax. Can we talk?"
