We sat comfortably in silence for awhile, until I had to ask something.
"What did you mean when you asked if Alice was ok?" I asked him taking him off guard.
"Ummm….well you see I saw Alice during the 4 months she disappeared" he answered calmly.
"What? How? Why?" I asked all at once
"You know she went off for 4 months when your aunt died" he started with.
"Yeah"
"Well she never told where she went or what she was doing did she?" he asked then
"No" I said
"Ok, I guess I should tell you then. You see when Alice went off for 4 months, she went off hunting. But she wasn't herself she was so determined to find this thing that had killed your aunt that it changed her, she became consumed with hate and anger, she killed everything and anything supernatural that got in her way to finding the one that killed you aunt, that when she finally did the hate and anger overwhelmed her, she lost who she was completely. She came to me for help. And I all I needed to do was say one word."
"What word?" I asked.
"Zoey, all I had to do was say your name and she came back, the hate and anger left her, and she was the Alice we all love and cherish to this day again" he explained to me.
I couldn't say anything, I was speechless. Why would saying my name change her back, did I mean that much to her. I knew I felt that way about her, that I would do anything for her, and that I wouldn't be able to go on if I didn't have her. Maybe that's why. Because I was still there for her, because I was all she had left of her humanity.
"Oh" was all I was able to spit out at the end.
"Don't you see how special you are to her Zo, you are the most important person to her, and I know you feel the same about her too, you were the reason she lasted those 4 months, you still are the reason" he said before rolling himself over to me.
"Oh Bobby, thank you for telling me" I said wrapping my arms around him and squeezing tightly.
"I've missed you Bobby, so much" I said then as tears began to roll down my cheeks.
"I've missed you to Zo, it's so good to see you again" he said returning the squeeze.
I then pulled away from Bobby and smiled at him.
"You hungry?" I asked.
He nodded and so I headed off to the kitchen with him following behind me, and began making some food for us to eat, I ended up making three large pizzas. I had just put them in the oven when there was several knocks on the door, I wandered over to it with Bobby, and then opened it.
Dean, Alice and Sam all walked in.
"It's all sorted" Sam said coming over to me and kissing my forehead. I didn't respond like I usually did I had to do something first. I kept Sam's arms wrapped around me as I spoke.
"Alice?" I asked.
"Yes" she responded but I couldn't reply, I unwound Sam's arms that where around me and pulled Alice in for a tight hug.
"What's that for?" Alice asked as I released her.
"Cos you're my sister and I love you" I responded instantly finding my voice again.
Alice just looked at me confused, and then towards Bobby who just smiled. I walked back over to Sam.
"Sorry I walked away" I said and then kissed him gently on the lips. The smell of the pizza began to drift in our direction from the kitchen.
"What's that smell?" Dean asked sniffing around.
"Zoey's made pizza for everyone" Bobby answered.
"So you guys might aswell stay here tonight and then head out again in the morning" he said
"Sounds good to me" Dean said smiling at Alice, Bobby noticed.
"One condition, Girls with Girls in one room, and Guys with Guys in another room, you got that you idjit" Bobby said sternly.
"Sure thing Bobby" I said smiling at him and then heading off back to the kitchen tugging Sam along with me.
We all ate the pizzas, Dean helping himself to seconds and thirds. Until we were all full to the brim.
"This is some good pizza Zoey" Dean commented to me as he picked up another slice.
"Glad you're enjoying it" I mumbled.
"But I'm headed off to bed now, see you guys in the morning, Alice I see you in a few hours" I said smiling at her. I kissed Bobby's cheek before turning to kiss Sam on the lips. But before I did he pulled me out into the hall.
"I missed you" he mumbled.
"I missed you too" I said back before wrapping my arms around his neck.
"But I'm really tired and I want to go to bed" I said smiling slightly.
"I'll join you" he said catching onto my tone.
"We can't" I said and then pressed my lips against his.
He pulled me closer to him, kissing me back passionately. "But I still have to make it up to you" he said into my ear before kissing me again.
"I know, looks like we're both going to have to wait" I said kissing him back and then pulling away and walking up the stairs.
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Alice came into the room a few moments later, I was dressed in my pj's ready to go to sleep. When she came over to me.
"I'm just popping outside for abit, don't wait up for me ok?" she said
"Ok" I said smiling I already knew the reasons why and didn't need them explained to me.
She then left the room and I heard sets of footsteps travelling up and down the stairs, my door was slightly ajar, so I saw Sam walked into the room across from me, I decided to act fast so that Bobby wouldn't catch me. I creeped along the hall and then into Sam's room. He was standing there in just his underwear, 'perfect' I thought until I remembered Bobby was downstairs. 'There's always later' I remembered aswell before walking over to Sam whose back was to me.
I ran my fingers down his back making him jump slightly, and as he did he turned in my direction.
"Zoey?" he asked, I nodded.
I pressed myself against him, and he wrapped his arms around me tightly, "You know you're not meant to be in here" he said and I could feel him smiling against my hair.
"I know" I mumbled back before pressing my lips against his chest.
"But I'm glad you are" he said lifting me slightly.
"Me too" I said wrapping my legs around his waist and pressing my lips against his, he pulled me closer closing the gap between and returned my kiss with more passion.
"Let me make up to you now" he moaned.
"I can't" I responded pressing my lips to his again, wanting hopelessly that we could carry on.
"Why?" he moaned again, I didn't want to say it but I had to.
"Bobby is downstairs" I mumbled pressing my lips to his again so he couldn't protest. And he didn't he just moved his lips down to my neck and began trailing up and down it.
"Sam we can't, no matter how much I want this, or you want this, we can't. Not yet" I moaned hating how true the words were.
He lowered me down and pressed his lips to mine again. "You're right" he said with a grunt clearly not happy.
"I promise, as soon as we are alone next then you can make it up to me" I said kissing him one last time, which he returned with more passion again.
"I can't wait" he moaned.
"Ditto" I agreed and then I left the room and headed back over to the one I was staying in.