A/N: I'm in really bad mood and maybe writing will make me feel better so you may get a few updates tonight, or maybe just one.

Chapter 34: Find A Way

After they had made up, Meredith decided to go back to her house for the night. She knew she wouldn't get much sleep if she stuck around Derek's apartment and she had to get up and go to school the next morning. Meredith also had parent-teacher conferences the next day and didn't want to look like a complete zombie.

When she got back to the house Izzie and George were sprawled out on the couch watching Deal Or No Deal, yelling at the television as if they were actually playing the game. She and Izzie had done the exact same thing when they had been watching soap operas that afternoon.

"I thought you were with Derek tonight," George said, when the show went to a commercial

"I was. But I decided to come home."

George just shrugged his shoulders and went into the kitchen to get some more snacks.

"Did you two have another fight?" Izzie asked.

"No. We made up."

"So, why did you come home?"

"Because if I hadn't I would have been all night having…"

Izzie cut her off, "Okay okay. I get it. I don't need to hear about all the sex you're having with a man who I currently work with and is sort-of my boss."

"Alright," Meredith said laughing, "I'm going to go to bed. I have parent-teacher conferences tomorrow. My least favorite day of the year."

"Goodnight," Izzie and George said in unison as Deal Or No Deal started again.

Meredith wait upstairs and just as she was about to get into bed her cell phone rang. She didn't even bother to look at the caller ID because she figured it was Derek.

"Hello?"

"I miss you."

Meredith smiled when she heard his voice, "I miss you too. I'm so sorry we fought."

"But if we hadn't fought, we wouldn't have been able to have amazing make-up sex."

"Then we should fight more often."

"Definitely. I just wanted to call and wish you luck with your meetings tomorrow. I probably won't be able to talk to you late at night because I'm doing a seminar all day."

The same disappointment that Meredith had every time Derek got paged while they were together and had to leave washed over her. When she didn't answer Derek got worried.

"You still here?"

"Yea, I'm here," she said, a bit defeated.

"Meredith? What's wrong?"

"Nothing. I was just hoping to spend time to you tomorrow afternoon after my conferences."

"I'm sorry. I wish I could. I'll call you when I'm done though."

"Okay."

"Goodnight. I love you."

"I love you too."

Meredith hung up the phone. She had been really happy when she got home because she and Derek had made up from their huge fight but she definitely wasn't in a good mood anymore. She knew that surgery was his job and that he was amazing at it, but it was interfering with their relationship and she didn't know how much longer she could take it.

Meredith crawled into bed and decided to call her brother and check on the Melissa and the new baby.

"Hello?" Jason yelled into the phone, trying to overcome the noise of a screaming toddler and a crying baby.

"Jase. It's Meredith. Is this a bad time?"

"Meredith! Yea it is kind of bad. Kyle has a fever and the baby won't stop crying."

"Do you want me to come over and help?"

"Could you? Melissa is just worn out and I don't know what to do"

"Yeah. I'll be there in 20 minutes."

Meredith went downstairs, explained to George and Izzie where she was going, grabbed her coat and drove to her brother's house. When she got there, she could hear all of the screaming from outside and rang the doorbell. Melissa came and opened the door.

"Meredith. Thank you so much for coming."

"No problem Mel. What can I do?"

"Can you make up a bottle for the baby? I'm about to change his diaper and Jason is trying to get Kyle to take some medicine so his fever will go down."

"No problem. And when I'm done, you're going to go to bed and Jason and I are going to handle everything."

"Are you sure? Don't you have school tomorrow."

"Yes, I do have school tomorrow and yes I am sure. Now go change that diaper so you can get to sleep."

Melissa hurried off to change the baby's diaper and Meredith went into the kitchen to make up a bottle. In the kitchen, Jason was trying to bribe Kyle to take some medicine to reduce his fever. Kyle had his hand clamped over his mouth and was shaking his head vehemently while Jason was offering him every toy ever made to just swallow the medicine. Meredith made up the bottle and went and kneeled down next to Kyle.

"Kyle. Don't you feel bad? When I have a fever I always feel really yucky."

He shook his head up and down, "I don't feel good. But I don't want the yucky medicine!"

"Nobody likes medicine. But I take my medicine when I'm sick and it will only taste yucky for a second and soon you'll feel all better. So will you take it for Auntie Meredith?"

After a few minutes of begging and groveling, Kyle finally took the medicine. About 20 minutes afterwards he started to feel drowsy and Jason took him upstairs and put him to bed and Melissa went to bed as soon as Kyle did. Jason was holding the baby and sitting next to Meredith on the couch, while they tried to get baby Lexie to go to sleep.

"So how are things with you and Derek?" Jason asked as he burped the baby.

"Oh. Fine," Meredith answered, knowing that she wasn't telling the whole truth.

"Fine? I know that voice Mer. What's wrong?"

"Are you really sure that you want to hear about your sister's relationship problems?"

"Sure. You came over here to help me tonight and in turn I will help you with any problems that may need fixing. So lay it on me."

Meredith took a deep breath, "Things haven't been the same since we got home from Maine. We had a great time even though things with his parents were a little rocky at first. Ever since we've been back, I see him less and less and he's at the hospital more and more."

"That's all? He's busy? That's why you're so distressed?"

"That's not it. I've just become really jealous. I didn't have school today so I went to the hospital to surprise him and have lunch together. But when I got there, I saw him with another woman and I thought they were flirting and I freaked out. We had a huge fight and we both said some really awful things."

"Did you talk about?"

"Yeah. We made up. So then I went home and he called me to wish me luck on my parent teacher conferences tomorrow and I assumed that we would spend some time together tomorrow night but, no, he has a seminar to go to."

"Meredith, that's his job. Just like you're a teacher, he's a doctor. You love him don't you?"

"More than anything."

"Then if you love him as much as you say you do, you'll find a way to get past it. You have to accept those things about him because they aren't going to go away."

"Yeah. I guess so," Meredith admitted.

When the baby was finally asleep, she said goodbye to her brother and went home for the night knowing full well that she would be exhausted and preoccupied during her conferences the next day.

A/N: I know there's not a lot of Derek in this but I'm kind of running out of ideas right now. I know what I want to happen soon, but I don't know how to lead up to it so bear with me and, of course…REVIEW!