A/N: Big thanks to Sherry & Tiffany xx
Chapter 35
"I've got a good mind to put you over my knee again, and believe me when I say, this time it won't be pleasurable like last time," Edward said, walking towards me. He looked furious.
I got up, and put the coffee table between us. I was half scared of him, half aroused. We hadn't had sex all week. We had been more living like boyfriend and girlfriend, although, I will admit I had been distant with him. I was just trying to work everything out in my mind.
"Come here," Edward demanded. I shook my head. "Do you deny me?"
"No," I mumbled.
"Then come here," he said, pointing at the floor. The way he said it gave me the impression that this was my last chance.
I slowly walked around the table towards him. I half expected him to grab me and put me over his knee, but he didn't. He sat down instead and pulled me onto his lap. "I thought I could trust you to talk to me, it seems that trust was misplaced. Every night that you are here you will sit on my lap, and you will stay there until you open up to me and tell me what the hell is going on in that pretty little head of yours. Do I make myself clear?" I nodded. "Now, tell me. Why haven't you been at work all week?"
I looked down at my hands, I felt like one of my pupils. "I took the week off to figure things out in my head."
"And have you figured them out?"
"Yes, no… I don't know."
Edward gripped my chin and turned me to face him. "What were you trying to figure out? Maybe I can help you."
"I think I'm going to quit my job," I mumbled.
"Why?"
"Because being a submissive and a teacher doesn't work."
"Why not?"
I shrugged. "I keep thinking of how the parents would react if they found out about what their children's teacher did in her spare time. They'd brand me a freak, maybe even a sex offender. I don't want that kind of stigma."
"Who told you this?" Edward asked, he did not sound pleased.
"I did."
"I've never heard such nonsense. What you do in your own time is no ones business, but yours. You like to get fucked, that doesn't make you a sex offender or a freak. If you are having conflicted feelings, then maybe we should take a step back?"
I shook my head, my eyes misting with tears. "No, that's not what I want at all."
"Then what do you want?"
I shrugged. "I don't know."