Denial
Denial: An unconscious defense mechanism characterized by refusal to acknowledge painful realities, thoughts, or feelings.
Silent flakes of snow fell from the sky. A silent figure stood observing the landscape below. Layers of snow piled upon the figures shoulders and head. It proved the long hours the figure stood as the silent snow fell.
Eyes hollow,
A hard stoic mask in place,
Not a wrinkle appeared on the suit and peacoat,
Not a single hair out of place,
One would compare the figure to perfection.
But, a slight slouch around the shoulder,
A glimmer of exhaustion was unveiled in the eye of the figure.
After the meeting with his Father, Sesshomaru found himself visiting the cliff more often. It had been five months since then. Supressing a sigh that wished its release, he continued to look over the land. A single snowflake flew past his sight, capturing his attention. Following his gaze at the snowflake, he saw it land at his feet and disappear into the ground. Winter was closing in and he knew this visit would be his last for a while. Red dyed in snow flashed through his mind, deterring him from finding peace. The image brought back thoughts of her. A slight crease in his brow appeared on his stoic mask.
He had successfully avoided her for the past few months and he had learned to mute out thoughts of her through work.
'Five months…' Sesshomaru thought. It had only been five months since he last saw her. He accepted the fact that during the eight years of knowing her had made him feel different types of emotions. But that was all. There was no use in continuing any further.
High risk was at stake,
High consequences involved,
Low benefits,
And the satisfaction rate would decrease as time went by.
Looking from a business perspective, there was no point in investing. She would now simply be categorized as human and used for her contributions to the company.
As Sesshomaru steeled his heart to listen to his logic, the pain in his heart could not be muted. Sesshomaru let out a snarl and ignored the pain. For five months the pain that reigned over his heart would not listen to reason, so he resorted to ignoring it. After a few more months, he was certain that the pain would be forgotten.
"You're in love with the girl!" His Father's voice echoed in his mind.
He did not love her.
He would not allow a miko to make him feel anything.
Unknowingly to the silent figure, the glint of exhaustion grew more evident, while the figure's shoulders slouched further down.
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